I walked down the hallway with my head held high and tears silently streaming down my face. After all of the physical I have endured I have leaned how to cry without making a sound. I walked to Emily's room. Her door was slightly ajar.
" Em?" I said outside of the door.
" Come on in Midnight." She said. I pushed the door open the rest of the way so I could get in. She was sitting on the edge of her bed. She got up quickly and grabbed me into a hard hug. " My brother is stupid he didn't mean any of it. He has no idea what he's talking about." she said hugging me.
" Get off me Em!" I yelled. I pushed her. She let go of me and looked startled. I didn't care. I dropped my stuff to the floor and started to pace the length of the room. I could feel Emily watching me.
" Midnight it's okay cal-" I stopped pacing and cut her off.
" No it's not okay! It's never going to be okay so don't give me that crap! He's right!" My voice cracked and I sank down to the floor. " I'm a mess. A worthless, stupid mess. I'm a waist of everyone's time. I don't disserve to walk on the ground that everyone walks on. I'm lower then the dirt that everyone spits on." I sobbed. I pulled my knees up to my chest and let out all the sound that I wanted for the first time in years not holding anything back.
" Hey, shhhh. Midnight you are none of the things that you said that you are. None of them. " Emily said calmly and gentle. I felt her put her cool hand on my shoulder and that was the last thing that I wanted.
I turned quickly and hit her hand off of my shoulder. " Don't touch me." I spat. I turned my head back down to the floor and sobbed harder.
" Kenny didn't mean anything that he said. He loves you."
" I hate him. I hate him! I HATE HIM! I hate him for what he's done1 we're friends. FRIENDS. That was the only thing that I ever wanted. I wanted a friend that I could count on. I would have said yes to him if he had asked from the start." I yelled. I took in some breaths to try to breathe better but it wasn't working. " I want him. I need him. I didn't want to go out with him for this reason. I didn't want something like this to happen. I didn't want to end up alone again and now here I am all alone and unloved." The sobs racked through my body making every breath for air painful.
I wanted him to hold me, make all the pain go away. I knew at the same time that that was the most stupid thought I have ever had in my life but still couldn't help wanting him. It was he who had done this. He hurt me. He had seen through everything that I had done to block him from who I truly am. He saw the truth and it's my fault from hiding it from him from the start. I hate him for seeing the truth. He didn't have to. It's his fault that I have nothing left. Why did he do this to me? Why did he hurt me so much? If he really did care about me then he wouldn't have done this.
All of my questions left no answers. They all left one thing. I didn't want him to go. I wanted to be with him. He is my everything. Every feeling has been because of him. Everything leads back to him. I felt a strange sense of relief but at the same time I felt worse. He means everything to me. He is my world and I want him to be happy. I don't care if it is with me or with some blond bimbo.
Then it hit me. I love him. I love Kenny Fay. Too bad everything has gone to hell in a basket and that just made me cry harder.
Rob ( Kenny's Dad) POVWhen the yelling started I knew that something was wrong. The crying started soon after and then I knew that something was about to change but time. The only person that could be crying was Midnight. Emily doesn't sob like that. It sounded like it was coming from Emily's room. My boy has gotta be upset.
I got up from my seat and went to the stairs. The crying was definitely coming from Emily's room. I went up the stairs and headed to Kenny's room. His door was closed and no light spilled out from under it. Poor kid. He's sitting in the dark. I softly opened the door and went in.
He was sitting on the floor next to his bed. He had his knees pulled up to his chest and was rocking himself back and forth.
" Kenny what happened?" I asked sitting down on the edge of the bed.
" I'm a..." He let out an extremely long string of profanities. I had no idea he knew so many.
" Watch your mouth." I said. It was my restrained reaction. Normally if he had said so much fail language he would be grounded but this was different. " What happened?" I asked again.
" I was being stupid, really really stupid." He said still rocking himself, his knees resting on his forehead.
" Kenny there has to be a way to fix it." I said not really knowing what the problem was.
" No there is no fixing this." He said softly. I put my hand down on his shoulder trying to calm him down. We we're quiet and could hear Emily's failed attempts to calm Midnight.
" He really does love you." Emily said.
" No he doesn't." Midnight said grimly.
" Yes I do." My son said unexpectedly.
" Yes he does Midnight." Emily said trying to convince her.
" No he doesn't."
" Yes I do!" Kenny said jumping up. He dashed out of the room leaving me. " I'm sorry okay? I'm sorry. I was being stupid to think that we both wanted the same thing." Kenny said.
" Your so selfish! How could you do this to me!? You have the freakin' common sense of flippin' BILLY GOAT! I HATE YOU! I never want to see you again! I HATE YOU!!!" Midnight screamed at him.
" I could hear my son's pounding feet go down the stairs the front door slam. Let's hope he cools down after a run. I got up and walked towards the stairs.
" That was the worst thing I could have said to him. I'm a horrible person. I don't hate him. I can't."
" I know and your not a horrible person." Emily said.
" I-I love him." Midnight sobbed.
" I know." Emily said to her.
If only my boy was here to hear that. That would have made his….
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