Chapter 9: The one with all the thruth
A/N: So hi, guys! I'm sorry I didn't upload any new chapters for so long, but you know, good things take time :) I'm going to ask you again to leave a review after you read this chapter if you want, because I really don't know how you feel about the story when we are just two chapters away from the end (there will be other two after this one). I'm going to say it in the last chapter, but why not now: It was great writing again. I feel more confident about my writing and about the readers. You know you guys are the best. Now enjoy.
After the movie night, Beca and Chloe became closer than ever. They went out more often and Chloe never asked about the secret again. Beca felt a big relief of that. Today it was thursday, the same week, when the graduation was tomorrow. The brunette recieved a really strange message from Chloe about that they have to meet in the school yard, at their place. Beca knew exactly where it was. There was a small hill in the school yard with one tree that says "B + C" on it and this sign was fenced with heart. Beca notched it four years ago, in the same day they started dating, thinking that it will be like this forever. The DJ sighed thinking of this, when she gently touched the "C" and couldn't help but smile. Then Beca decided to think about why Chloe would want to meet her, so the time of waiting for the redhead go by faster. But she couldn't think much about it though, because she saw the beautiful Chloe approaching with her head bowed, being adorable as always. But something wasn't right - she looked really worried.
"I'm so sorry I'm late."-She said without making eye contact with Beca as she put her bag away and rested back on the three.
"It's okay, bright eyes."-Beca replied neutrally, writing the last word of her last homework down. Usually she wouldn't write homeworks, but if she wanted to graduate with something else but an F, she had to do at least that.
"What's that?"-Chloe asked through a light laugh, talking about the thing that the brunette just called her.
"I don't know."-Beca lifted her head up and squinted, like she didn't pay attention to what she said. "It just came up in my mind. Do you like it?"
"Yeah, it's sweet."-The ginger smirked and bowed her head.
"Yeah."-The DJ nodded in approval, making eye contact with Chloe, but then looking away again. She didn't know what was going on, but she felt like this day was one of the days she prefered to take it easy with Chloe. She cleared her throat and continued: "So what is that you wanted to talk about?"
"Beca..."-The redhead used this tone she always uses when she's going to say something really bad that she did, or that happened to her. Beca knew this tone perfectly. Then she realized what is all about. "John said he's cheating on me."
"What?"-The brunette tried to give her best surprised face.
"Then he said different things why we can't be together anymore and then..."-Chloe suddenly stopped to try to stop the tears in her eyes from flowing out. "He broke up with me."
"Chloe..."-Beca placed a hand on the ginger's shoulder, showing how bad she feels for her. Which she didn't have to pretend, she hated seeing Chloe sad. But in the same time she got that Chloe may already know if Tucker told her that she knew about the cheat. "Did he say anything else?"
"No, he just basically said that I have to be with you."-The redhead looked up at Beca with her eyes wide. The DJ sighed and bowed her head, trying to force a smile to cheer Chloe up, but it looked more like a grimace. "And the weirdest thing is that I don't feel really sad about that, not even close to be prostrate. It shouldn't be like that, I should've feel like this is the end, you know?"-The ginger turned to the DJ, secretly searching for support.
"Well, you didn't really love him, so..."-Beca pointed out without deferring the fact that it isn't the right time for being her sarcastic self. Chloe gave her a look like she meant: Really? We'll discuss this now? And that one look helped Beca remember that she was supposed to be the friend, that is always there for Chloe. "What did he say, actually?"-Chloe looked away and cleared her throat becore she started to speak. It was a hint that the story will be long.
—A day ago—
It was one of those days when John had a basketball training in the gym. Beca went to go home long ago, she wouldn't stay with Chloe who was watching John on every training of his. It was too much for her. The redhead was sitting on the bench, resting her head on her hand, watching the game with annoyed face. She only cheered along with the crowd when Tucker scored. She didn't like basketball much, she didn't understand it. But she was doing her best to like it when her boyfriend plays. She looked at her hand watch. It was saying 19:00 o'clock, which meant that the training was about to be finally over. Chloe looked up and saw John approaching her with a big smile on his face. He raised her up and spinned her in the air. She giggled and screamed:
"Babe, let me go."-Now she was also smiling.
"You mean me or Beca?"-He replied jokingly, staring at her eyes when he was still holding her in the air.
"You're unbelievable. C'mon..."-Chloe punched John on the shoulder, or more like what she could. He had raised her that high in the air, that she almost couldn't reach him. He nodded and murmured a simple "okay", then he literally let her fall down until he caught her again. The ginger couldn't help but scream in the whole time.
"Gotcha."-He pointed out with a smirk on his face while a flash shined through his black eyes, like he's a hero or something.
"God, I can't be more thankful."-Chloe said sarcastically and Tucker laughed lightly. For some time they didn't do anything, they were just staring at each other smiling. But suddenly Tucker frowned when he remembered that he had something really important to say to the ginger:
"But Chloe, there's something we need to talk to, can I have you for a minute outside?"-His eyes filled with hope which showed Chloe it won't be anything good.
"Of course."-She forced a smile and he helped her stand up. The redhead thought things were just going to work out even though she never truly loved him. Or at least not in the way she loved Beca and she still does. She thought if this is the thing he wanted they to talk about. Chloe didn't have enough time to think about that because when those thoughts crossed her mind, they were already outside, at the most quiet place they could find.
"John, you scare me, what is all about?"-She asked when she noticed he didn't smile again after he told her that they need to talk.
"Chloe, I'm warning you that you won't like what you will hear and maybe you'll hate me forever, but... if it means you'll know the thruth, I can take it."-Tucker placed his hands on the ginger's arms and waited until he's fully sure that Chloe is listening carefully. "You know how much I love you, but I guess it wasn't enough when I did that."
"You did what?"-The redhead squinted. The guess that he may have cheated on her was the last thing on her mind. Chloe was seeing only good things in a person. Tucker sighed and closed his eyes to gain braveness to continue with what he was going to say:
"Chloe, I... I cheated on you."-He waited for the reaction. He knew that she would slap him, curse on him or both. But there wasn't anything like that. Just the ginger's silence and her serious face. "And I can say that I'm sorry like hell, but it won't turn time back. When I kissed her I was supposed to feel like I'm doing wrong, but I didn't. I felt in the right place for the very first time in a long time. Maybe it's because you and me weren't working. You know it, Chloe. We don't belong independently how hard we try to fool our own selves. You love Beca, and I can't replace her."
"Where was that?"-Chloe asked, but not with a tone she asks questions with, it was like she was saying some statement.
"The night of your birthday, at the birthday party. With my ex girlfriend. She doesn't mean anything to me, but I do for her. Perhaps I felt too void of that feeling."-Tucker looked down.
"John, I do love you."-The redhead placed her hand on his shoulder, but he pulled back.
"Yeah, I know. But not in the way you love Beca. And kissing Jane helped me realize that it had never been Beca that stood between me and you. It was me that stand between you and Beca. I may be a dangler and I may be cheating on girls like 24/7, but I would never steal someone else' girl."-John stroked Chloe's cheek like he's doing it for the last time. Like it seemed. The ginger swallowed and looked down. "And I also wouldn't let you waste your time with me anymore. I want you to be with the one who's meant to be with you. We both know who that is."-Chloe didn't have to think much of who Tucker meant. "Don't take this as a break up. Take it as a chance to make things right. Go catch your girl."-John patted the redhead and went away, without giving her a chance to respond in any way.
—Present spring 2015—
Beca remain silent for some time after she heard the whole story. She was with her head bowed thinking is this even happening right now? Did she just win Chloe back? Oh, wait. She haven't told her yet that she knew about John's affair from before. She knew that if she tell the redhead now, this would kill their relationship forever, but she remembered that she promised Jesse she'll tell her. Trying to not think about that right know, the brunette finally spoke, lifting her gaze just enough to face Chloe:
"I was certain from the start that he don't deserve you. He's not good enogh for you."-She said with such a cold tone that the redhead couldn't recognize if she's really hearing the same that Beca said.
"Am I good enough for you, Beca?"-Chloe asked, leaning closer to the DJ. They were staring at each other for a while, until Beca broke the silence and continued talking about what she was at the first place:
"That he doesn't care about you enough."-She replied with the same tone. What Chloe didn't know is that it wasn't a cold tone. It was an afraid tone.
"But you do care about me, right?"-The ginger's hopes raised one more time. If Beca didn't answer her in a proper way, she'll gain the point that this conversation isn't leading to anywhere and its point was needless.
"I care about you that much, that maybe I just didn't want you to find out."-The brunette got closer and put the redhead's bangs behind her ears. Chloe smiled as her eyes shined like two priceless diamonds.
"But you told me you love me at least 100 times."-She pointed out.
"I never said I was good at hiding."-Beca truly smiled for the first time in a while. It was the time when she thought that they actually could work out if she didn't have to tell Chloe the thruth. The ginger chuckled. She didn't waste any more time at waiting for the sense to hit her, she just placed her hand on the DJ's cheek and kissed her. No more John, no more Stacie, no more problems. Just Beca and Chloe finally doing what they were made for: being with each other. For this several seconds kissing, Beca was in some other world. The world where everything is perfect and where Chloe would forgive her. Unfortunately, such things don't exist in real life.
"But before things get any more complicated..."-Surprisingly, the one to interrupt the kiss wasn't Beca. It was the redhead. "Beca, I need to tell you one more thing."
You know that I know and you're not mad at me, The DJ hoped in her mind.
"Remember when you said that it was easy for me to get over you? Well, it wasn't. Actually I went to Jesse's bar and he and Aubrey were telling me advices how to get over you. The funny thing is that they were giving advices to you how to win me back. Jesse told me that."
"This is what Jesse was hiding from me."-Beca realized and the redhead nodded slowly. "And how he knew when was my meeting with you on our anniversary. And how you found out what I wanted for a present."-She added and Chloe put out a small "That's right", knowing that the next thing the brunette will do is possibly yelling on her or get mad at her. In other conditions, this is exactly what the DJ would do. But not this time.
"You're mad at me, aren't you?"-Chloe asked hesitantly and pulled back.
"Nah, it's okay."-Beca replied. She couldn't be mad at Chloe when her secret was a way bigger than this one. The ginger giggled and recovered the kiss. The brunette could make out with her like that all day, but not when she knew she had to say the thruth. "Chloe..."-She said between the kisses.
"Not now."-The ginger replied without stopping her work.
"I have to... tell you... something."-Was the sentence that you could make, putting all Beca's words she said between the kisses together.
"It can wait."-Chloe got on top of the DJ and started to kiss her neck. In this time Beca thought over what is she going to loose very seriously.
"No, it can't."-The brunette stood up and faced her girlfriend that was about to become her ex girlfriend again very soon. "I am okay with your secret becase I won't win the medal of 'Most honest person of the year' either. Maybe you're wondering what is my big secret these days and what is that I'm hiding from you for so long."-The redhead started to pay attention very carefully. She was really curious. Beca sighed and continued: "I knew that John cheated on you before you. I saw him through the window of your house how he is making out with some girl. I really wanted to tell you, I mean it. But with all those things that happened, like 'Mean girls', I was just afraid from how will you react. I thought you're going to hate me forever or blame me for that. I'm sorry I didn't tell you earlier and I don't expect from you to understand or forgive me, because I don't deserve to. I just thought you have a right to know."-The DJ said wthout being able to look at the ginger's eyes. There was some silence between them after that, before Chloe sighed and said:
"I guess it all was too nice to be thruth."-She took her bag and left without letting the brunette add anything else. Beca would chase her, she really would. But there was no point. Chloe would always be the one to run and Beca the one that chases after her, and all this will keep being on repeat over and over, until someone of them get tired and just stop.
Don't lie, bright eyes
It will always be you and me
So why are we dreaming alone?
A/N: I know that maybe you all had big expectations for this chapter, but there wasn't any other way for me to put it. I promise you, everything will be fine at the end and I'm also sorry the chapter is too short. And also, the idea about Beca and Chloe's special place (the three hill) is from "One touch and I was a believer (every kiss it gets a little sweeter)" by bechloehuh. You have to go check her oneshot, it's brilliant!
Songs and movies mentioned in this chapter:
1. Mean girls - classic teenage movie from 2004 (it was also mentioned in the previous chapter);
2. Dreaming alone by Against the Current - song.
Answers for reviews:
Guest: "The formatting is off, the story doesn't flow well, and the dialog isn't very good. I'd recommend a beta to help you along. It's probably why this doesn't have many reviews or favs."
I admit that the first chapter is boring, weak and far not the strongest (yup, first chapters I write are never a big deal). But if you continue reading the other chapters, I'm telling you, maybe you'll like them better. I admit that the story is weird and kind of a crossover, but I can see a good Chapter 10 and a good ending. Anyway, thank you for the review, I'll try to make the last two chapters better :)
Ashley 1022: "I really liked how you worded the end of the chapter. It was a different dynamic. Most of the time we see Beca is the one running and Chloe chasing after her. I'm very curious on how the ending of this story comes together."
One reading of this and I was a believer. Every next word, it gets a little sweeter :) Thank you. The whole point is that actually Chloe is the one running and Beca chasing after her, but I guess everyone gets the story differently, which I am happy about. Glad to see that you like the story and... continue reading, dear Ashley :) I hope you don't get dissapointed by the last chapters, but I'm pretty sure you won't :)
