A/N You happy to see me again? I'm not even going to waste my time talking this Author's Note. And gleechild…you're good at guessing. BUT NOT GOOD ENOUGH! I've still got some tricks up my sleeve. Abd I'm not going to tell you what you guessed right or wrong though because you had a couple of hits and misses in your review. Haha ain't I a stinker? So read on now little lambs I'm sort of excited for this one. =]
Disclaimer: I don't own BTR nor do I own any Big Time Rush related things. I do own Rosalie Lewis, Joy Lewis, Carmela Rodriguez, all of my other OCs I may have to add in and I also own the idea of Super Slutty. If you want to use Super slutty just PM me and ask! I'm a fairly nice person. Originally created April 15, 2011.
WARNING: SUPER SLUTTY IS A GAME NOT TO BE PLAYED FOR REAL. IT'S DANGEROUS AND JUST WRONG. IF YOU DO DECIDE TO REALLY PLAY SUPER SLUTTY I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR ACTIONS. I CANNOT BE BLAMED FOR I AM TELLING YOU GUYS IN ADVANCE I TOLD YOU NOT TO DO IT.
Chapter 9
(WTF Happened?)
*Carmen's POV*
I barge into the door of 3B and slam it behind me.
"I QUIT. BET'S OFF!" I shout. I walk past the living room and see Carlos and Rose snuggled together on the couch. She looks up quickly as I nearly run to my room. I go in and slam the door unnecessarily forcefully. I sit on my bed and bite back the tears that were threatening to fall. I wipe at my eyes livid. This was not a part of the plan. It was supposed to be simple, and it's all Rose's fault. If I never had to fake with Carlos because of her damn feelings this wouldn't have happened. I stand back up and go to my dresser I pull out a pair of plaid pajama bottoms and a black shirt.
I stalk to the bathroom and all but rip off my bathing suit. I throw it on the ground and step into my private shower. I tear the rubber band from out of my hair letting my hair fall around my shoulders. I turn the water as hot as I can possibly bear. The water sprays out at a scolding hot temperature. I hiss as the water makes its first contact with my skin and contemplate turning it off.
"No. I deserve to burn in this shower." I whisper to myself. Each drop of water sears my skin but I pull through it. My skin is going to be sooo fucking pink when I get out. After grabbing a bottle of Cucumber Melon body wash from Bath & Body Works I work the gel into a foamy mess in my loofa. I rub the loofa against my skin. It creates a weird mixture of soothing and of pain at the same time. Once my body is soaped I rinse of in the slowly cooling water. I step out and brush out my hair. It sticks to my body. Stopping at my shoulder blades and all. I hurriedly pull my hair into another make-do bun and pull myself into my clothes. I walk back out into my room. Being greeted by the cold room makes my now sensitive hot skin feel weird. I shiver and close my bathroom door behind me.
"What the fuck happened?" I look in the direction of my bed to see Rose there in her knit dress with her legs crossed Indian style under her.
"Where'd Carlos go?" I ask.
"2J. I sent him home. I felt like we need some girl time." She states simply. Her features completely void of playfulness. I gulp.
"Oh…" I say. She pats the empty spot next her on my bed. I bite my lip and walk over to my bed so I can sit next to her. I look down at my nails. I should paint them purple or something…
"Tell me what happened…for real. No vague shit. I want to help." She says. I look up from my nails. She has on her 'mom' look. I sigh and push some stray hair out of my face.
"Kendall fucking happened." I say. She furrows her brows.
"What does that mean?" she asks. I roll my eyes.
"It means that Kendall has fucked up this whole fucking bet! If you hadn't-"
"Whoa! Hold on Sally! Before you go blaming the world, tell me what happened a few minutes ago." She says. I bite the inside of my cheek.
"Okay. So we had just finished arm wrestling right?..."
Flashback/Time Rewind
Kendall picks me up and throws me over his shoulder as he takes me to his bedroom. He closes the door shut behind him with his foot. He tosses me on the bed. I sit up using my elbows as a type of support system. He crawls on top of me not putting all of his weight on me by pushing himself up with his arms. He goes back to assaulting my lips and feeling around me for anything he can get his hands on. I wrap my legs around his waist as I feel his erection through his swimming trunks.
I pull his hips closer to my own allowing some type of friction between us. A husky groan comes from him. He peppers little butterfly kisses down my jaw line and to my neck. He goes to nip and bite at my pulse point. I whimper as he bites down especially hard on spot, but hey, I'm not complaining. He licks over the newly made bruise on my neck.
"Having fun marking my skin there Knight?" I ask breathily. He chuckles and kisses my lips lightly.
"You know it. You're mine now and I want everyone to know it." He says with an authentic smile. I grin back weakly.
"Possessive are we?" I ask playfully. But it's mixed with nervouness.
"Only over you." He replies back. I unwrap my legs from around his waist to look at him seriously. He stops in his previous movements. "What's wrong? Did I say something wrong?" he asks. I shake my head and sit up all the way. Folding my legs under me.
"Kendall?" I start.
"Oh no. That's never good." He says with a half smile. I roll my eyes and hit him in the shoulder softly. "What?" he asks cautiously.
"Do you like me?" I ask.
"Of course I do." He says, like it's the most obvious thing in the world.
"No, I mean like, like, like me? Like really like me?" I ask.
"Again, I say of course. Why wouldn't I? You're an amazing person."
"You shouldn't say that…"
"You are." He lifts my chin up so that I meet his eyes. "You are one of the most wonderful people I have ever met." He says. I smile a sad self-loathing smile. He moves his hand away.
"But why? I don't get it. I'm not that different from anybody else." I persist throwing my arms up in frustration.
"Carmen. You have no idea how different you really are." He says. I roll my eyes. Yeah that just boosted my self esteem by 17. "Do you want to know why I like you so much?" he asks. I shrug.
"It might help…" I mutter.
"Well for starters, whenever I'm around you it feels like my heart, it speeds up ten times faster than normal…whenever we kiss it's like a new piece of me that I hadn't known was missing is there now. It's hard to explain…but in the end it's like I just finished a marathon hanging around you. Whenever you're around it's like I can never stop smiling you know?" he asks. I nod my head as a small smile starts creeping on my face. He starts smiling too. "Looks like you feel the same huh?"
"You have no idea." I mumble.
"You want to know the weirdest part?" he asks. I look up at him. "When we first met and first went out I kind of thought this was going to be like some quick fling. I didn't know we'd end up being together this long…even though it hasn't even been a full month. I feel like something is pulling us together."
"Like a tether?" I supply.
"Yeah, something like an invisible tether…" he goes silent for a few seconds.
"What are you thinking about?" I ask.
"I don't really know what this is. I know I really like you but…"
"You don't love me?" I ask.
"Yeah…" he says slowly afraid of my reaction. Afraid of the rage that is Carmen.
"Don't worry I feel the same." I say with a slight giggle. We sit in silence after that. "I'm scared though." I admit.
"Why?" he asks.
"I haven't ever felt this way before…and I don't know what it is. I'm afraid of finding out what lies at the end." He grabs my hand gives it a reassuring squeeze.
"Whatever it is we'll find out what it is together…I promise." He says with a smile.
"No matter what?" I ask.
"No matter what." He says. I laugh. "What's so funny?"
"Nothing. It's just I never thought in a million years that I'd be in situation like this. I just really hope you mean what you said."
"I never break a promise." He says seriously. "And I promise you that I'll stick with you through this until we figure out what all of this means okay?"
"Okay." I say.
*~End flashback*~
"I ended up leaving and coming here like right afterwards." I say to Rose.
"I don't see a problem. So Kendall likes you am I correct?" I nod. "And you like Kendall right?" I nod again. "And he said that he's going to stick with you until you guys figure out if you're in love or not?" I nod. She throws her arms in the air. "Then what the hell is the problem? Sounds fine to me." I sigh.
"No, it's not! I don't deserve him, he's a nice guy. He can't really mean it…I don't want him to mean it. No one sticks through anything with me. It doesn't happen."
"There's a first time for everything…besides I stick with you."
"That because I've known you like 10 years." I say smiling. She laughs.
"I'm your ride or die girl. You can always count on me." She says. "So…did you call off the bet so that you don't have to finish it?"
"I called off the bet so there'd be a little less drama mixed in. It's not going to go away. It's like a dark opaque cloud forever looming over my sad head just waiting to rain on my party." I say.
"Poetic…"
"I know right."
"You should try to look on the bright side."
"There is no bright side…"
"Then try and polish the dull side."
"How can polish a rained on party?"
"Well…when it rains on my party I don't know about you, but I bust out the slip n' slide." She says. I smile and a small laugh escapes from my mouth.
"I'll keep that in mind." I say. "I'm so sick of having these stupid acts around people. I'm going to stop putting up these fronts. Gem and Ina shall be no more…just me…"
"You know now you have to give up alcohol forever now right?" she asks.
"Man, fuck alcohol! I haven't even drunk in the past week Kendall and I had been going out. I don't even see a reason to drink anymore." I groan out putting my head in my hands.
"Whoa…you're willingly loosing the bet…for Kendall?" she asks.
"I don't know! That's the problem. It's like I care but I don't. Either way, bets off. No more alcohol for me. No nothing. I'm going sober now." I say firmly. Rose claps me on the back.
"I'm so proud of you Carmen!" she says dramatically. She gasps and takes on that deer-in-headlights look. "Oh my God…what are you going to do when he finds out you slept with 2 out of 3 of his best friends?" I groan.
"That's why I really don't want him to mean what he said. He's going to hate me! And it's going to be worse because I- because I...fuck…"
"He's a good guy. He'll make the right choice." She says.
"The right choice is to leave my ass and not get involved with any fucking whores like me. Fucking hell I'm a slut."
"No, no you are not…wait have you been practicing safe sex?"
"Yeah, I'm on the pill, and I've used a condom every time."
"Are you sure none of them had STDs."
"Pretty sure. I mean James is the only one who might have, but his dick seemed perfectly fine I mean it didn't look peculiar…it was pretty big but that's normal for guys like him…sexually active." I say awkwardly.
"Alright TMI Carms. Everything will be fine Carmen, trust me. You are only psyching yourself out. Chillax and watch some TV. That'll calm you down." She says. She turns on the TV in my room and it immediately goes to Adventure Time with Finn and Jake. I love that show. I sit back in my bed and stare at the TV aimlessly. I hear Finn's voice but I don't register what is actually going on. Not normal. I yawn and wipe at my eyes. My stomach starts to ache uncomfortably. I put my hand to it in an attempt to soothe the weird pain. I stand up off my bed and walk to my bathroom to grab a hair dryer. My hair is starting to frizz up.
I turn it on high and run it through my hair a few times. Straightening it back out. After 30 minutes of successfully fixing my hair, I go to the bathroom to put the dryer back up. Once that is done I walk back into the living room to sit down on the couch next to Rose who is busy texting on her phone.
Carlos.
I swear those two are connected someway like at all times of the day. They talk before bed, they text during regular hours or are always together. The girl is hooked. Whipped. I smile a little to myself. Whipped. Cool whipped. Cool whip. Family guy…Stewie.
"Rose…do you have any Tylenol? My stomach hurts." I say pushing away wherever my thoughts were headed. There's no telling nowadays.
"Yeah, in the cabinet. James brought your overalls by." She says. I raise an eyebrow at her monotone voice. Did I do something in the past 10 minutes? I stand up and walk to the cabinet to grab the bottle of Tylenol. I pop two pills out and put them on the counter. I grab the gallon of chocolate milk in the fridge and take it out. I pour me a glass of the delicious liquid and grab my pain killers. Down the hatch the things go. I drink the rest of my Nestle milk. I burp in satisfaction. Burps are fun…
"I'm going to sleep the rest of my life away in my bedroom. Don't worry about me." I say dramatically, walking to my room after grabbing my overalls.
"I'm not. Good night." She says tossing a peace sign over the couch for me. I walk back to my room and sit back on my bed again. I stare at the TV some more. I take my cell phone out of my overalls and throw the overalls on the floor.
"There is nothing to do." I whine to myself. I lie back and stare at the ceiling thinking about sweet nothings until I doze off into slumber.
A/N well I told you it'd be pretty short but yeah that's all I've really got to say. Oh and I am stoked for the new BTR album Elevate. 11.21.11. fucking fantastic! Its going to be amazing! And oh now that bets off I've got a little more off my shoulders, and now I'm even more excited about what's coming up. Any guesses? Reviews make my month (yeah I said month cause I'm gangsta like that!) and lastly the couple name shall be Kenman, it sounds coolio. Unless anyone else has any more ideas…
~Love,
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