Hey everyone! Ichigo Kousei here! You guys are too kind, over 100 reviews, for me? I never thought I'd see the day… Thank you! Thank you all so very much for adding this to your favorites, reviewing, and subscribing to story alerts! Receiving your praise is a real confidence boost for me! I could just hug you all! *Grabs computer monitor and squeezes* I'm in a good mood, so I'll try to make this chappie fluffy, cheery, and happy! Thanks again! ^W^

Anyway, remember last chapter when Hikaru said that him and Kaoru made love for the first time when they were just 13? Well I sure do, so I thought it would be nice to get away from the depression with this light and fluffy flashback! I'll put it in third person so that you can know both of the devilish Hitachiin's feelings for two times the smutty, lemony fun! Doesn't that sound like fun? :D

Happy Reading! :D ^W^ :3 (Haha I'm in a good mood, just look at all those smileys!)

I'm Not Him

Chapter 9: Extra! The Little Devils' First Time

"Mother we are finished eating, may we be excused?" Hikaru and Kaoru Hitachiin questioned in perfect sync with each other, as usual.

"But my dears, wouldn't you like any dessert? We have cakes imported from Sweden, and these tarts are simply-" Yuzuha began to cut a piece of cake for her darling boys, before Hikaru interrupted her impatiently.

"No thanks mother, we're both fine." Kaoru looked a little disappointed with his brothers response, that strawberry and pineapple upside down smelled heavenly. He was about to object when suddenly Hikaru grabbed his forearm roughly. Hikaru shot up from the large dining table, bringing Kaoru up as well. Hikaru swiftly brought his little brother up the stairs, they almost tripped and broke their necks in the process. Kaoru looked at his twin with an confused gaze, what was Hikaru so eager about?

"Hika, um why are you running so fast? All we have to do is take our bath and go to sleep. Are you sleepy? Do you want to get to bed fast?" Kaoru asked while he was being yanked into the bathroom.

"I want to play a game with you." The older Hitachiin smirked at the younger, only making the already confused Kaoru even more unsure of what was going on. Hikaru closed and locked the bathroom door and made his way to the large tub. The warm, sweet-smelling steam rose from the bath the maids had drawn just earlier on, and seemed to pull them towards the water. Kaoru began to pull his shirt over his head, but Hikaru placed his hands over top of Kaoru's, stopping him. Kaoru looked up at him questionably, his amber eyes wavering with uncertainty.

"Um… Hika I… I d-don't understand…"

"Tonight let me undress you, Kao." Scarlet found its way to Kaoru's cheeks. He nodded and Hikaru came behind him and wrapped his arms around Kaoru's slim waist before grasping the soft, cotton fabric of his shirt and pulling it over his head. Hikaru examined his brother exposed upper body, he ran his hand over his little brothers flat stomach, and chest. When Hikaru found one of his nipples he pinched it teasingly, before rolling the hardening, pink nub between his thumb and index finger. Kaoru jumped and tensed up a bit from the newfound, unfamiliar sensation, but then he relaxed and let the waves of pleasure crash over his small, 13-year old, frame. Soon his other nipple was given the same treatment, and Kaoru threw his head back and mewled out Hikaru's name. Hikaru smiled proudly, he found it a big accomplishment to be able to make his little brother moan and call out his name in such a sexy way. Kaoru's face climbed three whole shades up red color scale, and he covered his mouth with both of his hands and looked away at his brother, unbelievably embarrassed. Had he really just made those sappy, little love noises?

"Haha Kao! Your really into this aren't you?" Hikaru snickered in a teasing manner. "It's O.K. Kao, I want to hear your beautiful voice, it makes you even more cute!" Hikaru wrapped his slender fingers around his little brothers trembling wrists and gently pulled them away from his mouth, exposing his soft, supple lips, the same lips he has been dying to taste for five years now. Now was Hikaru's chance, but even though Hikaru had waited and dreamed of this moment for so long he was oddly hesitant. How would Kaoru take it? Hikaru knew this wasn't normal, even sinful to love your own brother this way. What would his family, his friends, even society think when they found out about this? Would he be in trouble? Would he get Kaoru into trouble as well? Would they be shunned? How could he put his baby brother through something like that? So right then and there Hikaru decided that this was going to be a one time thing, just to calm his desires. After tonight he would let his unnatural longing, love, and desire for Kaoru go, he had to.

Kaoru could tell by his brother's hesitation that something was wrong, he wanted to let his brother know that he wanted this just as much has he did, maybe even more. "Umm… Hika, it's alright. Y-you can go ahead." Kaoru reassured his twin in a shaky voice. Hikaru smiled, His little brother was oh, so amazingly adorable in his eyes.

"As you wish dear brother." Hikaru ran his finger over his brothers slightly parted lips, they were softer and smoother than he had imagined.

Kaoru giggled, a pink blush tinted his cheeks. "Tee hee, your tickling me brother!" Kaoru flailed his arms in amusement, and smiled up lovingly at his big brother. "I love you Hikaru."

That was it, Kaoru was too freaking cute for Hikaru to bare. He couldn't hold back anymore, he brought his lips closer, and closer to Kaoru's until the space between them was nonexistent. Hikaru rested his hand in the soft spikes of Kaoru's hair and ran his fingers through the silky strands. Kaoru's amber eyes fluttered closed and he opened his mouth to let Hikaru's tongue explore the newly found realm of his baby brothers mouth. The twin's tongues began battling it out, both trying to establish dominance over the other, as well as earn the title of seme. Hikaru won hands down. He drew his tongue from his brother's mouth, a glistening strand of saliva broke in between them. Hikaru smirked at Kaoru seductively, now they both knew that Kaoru would be the submissive uke.

Hikaru's hands traveled southwards until he reached the waistline of Kaoru's black jeans. With slow, delicate movements Hikaru hooked his thumbs under waistline of his boxers pulling his pants down his smooth, slightly shaking legs as well. Hikaru's hands found Kaoru's backside, he gently ran his hand over a fleshy mound and squeezed gently and lightly. Kaoru moaned and pushed his arse harder into his brothers hand, wanting so much more from him.

"H-Hikaaruuu… It feels good, d-down in front. P-please, touch me there…" Kaoru moaned out while clinging to his brother, he grinded his erection into Hikaru's leg.

Hikaru chuckled and sat Kaoru on the edge of the tub, he ran his hands all over Kaoru's inner thighs. His hands inched dangerously close to his brother's hard-on. Hikaru was about place his hand on Kaoru's pulsing, blood engorged member. His hand hovered over the tip and he lightly brushed against the head with the pads of his fingers. Kaoru held his breath in aroused anticipation. Hikaru smirked devilishly and drew his hand away, earning a frustrated, desperate whimper from Kaoru.

"Please Hikaru! Uggh…ahh I need you!" Kaoru bucked his hips, trying to show his big brother the severity of the situation. "It's your fault I'm like this!" Kaoru whined.

"I'll take care of you soon enough, Kao." Hikaru stripped down and took Kaoru's hands in his own and pulled his baby brother into the warm bath water. Even though the tub was fairly large, much larger than ten tubs a family of the middle class would own, the twins didn't spread out in the grand space. Instead they stayed close to one another, exploring each others bodies for the first time. Yes, of course the twins have touched each other before when they would playfully wrestle or when they would hold each other close in an act of comfort after a bad day, but these feelings and touches were different. They were heated, and passionate and made the twins feel out of control, and they needed so much more. Hikaru grabbed a washcloth from the ledge of the tub and brought it to Kaoru's back and rubbed in tiny circles.

"Hikaru, I can wash by myself! I don't need you to…ahh" Kaoru was cut off mid sentence when Hikaru reached around Kaoru's chest and pinched a sensitive nipple before rubbing it with the washcloth.

"It's O.K., really it is Kao, let big brother make you feel good." Hikaru positioned himself behind his brother so both of his legs rested on either side of him, Kaoru leaned back into Hikaru's chest in silent permission for him to continue. Hikaru's hands moved lower and he began to wash around Kaoru's belly button, he stuck his washcloth covered finger in his navel, causing Kaoru to giggle for the second time that night.

"Hikaru… Haha cut it out! It tickles!" Kaoru had scrunched up his torso a bit trying to prevent him from continuing the ticklish movements, but Hikaru couldn't help himself! He showed Kaoru no mercy and launched a full scale tickle attack! His fingers lightly yet rapidly danced across Kaoru's highly sensitive, light skin. Kaoru squiggled and squirmed, trying to worm his way from his brothers loving embrace but to no avail.

"Kaoru… I lov-…" Hikaru stopped himself, he couldn't say it, he wouldn't allow himself to say it. This was just going to be a one night thing right? He couldn't afford to become romantically attached to his little brother, it would only hurt both of them in the long run.

Kaoru looked up at his brother questionably. "Hikaru? You can go ahead and say it, 'cause I feel the same way. I love you Hikaru." He didn't answer he just smiled at Kaoru and continued to wash lower. Soon the washcloth made contact with Kaoru's manhood- err… um or should I say boyhood. Hikaru cupped it with his washcloth covered hand and stroked gently, causing Kaoru to gasp in surprised pleasure. Hikaru's strokes began to gain more of a purpose as he began to pick up the speed of his strokes and soon Kaoru's modest length stood at attention. When Kaoru first saw his hardened member his eyes widened in bewilderment, he had never seen himself like this before, he was shocked.

"Hika! Look at that, it got bigger!" Kaoru dipped his hand under the water and wrapped his fingers around himself and moaned when he made contact with the sensitive, knob-like end of his penis, his golden eyes widened. "It's not squishy anymore either! It's rough like a rock, but oddly soft too!" Kaoru noticed his twin's disinterested attitude and wondered why his big brother wasn't as shocked and excited as he was. "Hikaru, isn't this cool?"

"Hmm… Oh yeah I guess… At first it was exciting and new for me." Hikaru shrugged nonchalantly.

"At first?" Kaoru questioned, he turned around to face his brother.

"Yeah, this has been happening to me for awhile now. Whenever I think of you, mine does the same thing." Hikaru began to wash himself, as a deep blush spread across Kaoru's cheeks.

Hikaru began to rinse the soap from his own, and Kaoru's bodies. "Are you ready to go to bed now, Kao?"

"No!" Kaoru hurriedly exclaimed. "I want to play with you more!"

Hikaru chuckled and kissed his brothers forehead lovingly. "We can sneak into our bed naked, and play even more there." Kaoru blushed and simply nodded. The two got out from the bath before Hikaru drained the water from the tub. They both grabbed a white, plushy, sweet smelling towel from the rack and began to dry themselves off. Once they deemed themselves dry enough, they grabbed one of the larger towels and wrapped it around both of their bodies before they hurriedly rushed across the corridor to their room. Once inside Hikaru locked the door and let the towel that was hiding his brother's body drop to the floor. The only light in the room was the dull light from the moon shining through the open window, the silver moonlight accented Kaoru's pale skin and made him seem as if he was glowing.

"Kao, your beautiful…" Hikaru pushed his twin onto the bed and pressed a kiss to his unprepared lips. Reluctantly, Hikaru pulled away. Kaoru whimpered in protest, and tried to pull his brother back down.

"Whoa, take it easy there Kao! I want to try something with you." Hikaru teased. He then moved down lower and kissed the tip of his brothers hardened member and blew on it, Kaoru lost control he shouted out his brothers name and bucked his hips up off the bed. Hikaru took the whole shaft into his mouth and experimentally hummed around it, Kaoru thrashed underneath of him and whimpered. Hikaru's eyebrows furrowed in concern.

Hikaru released Kaoru's member with a soft, wet pop. "What's wrong does it hurt?" He asked frantically.

Kaoru shook his head with his eyes tightly screwed shut. "No Hika, your making me feel so good, Onegai…" Hikaru went back down on his brother, he relaxed the muscles in the back of his throat and attempted to swallow his brother whole, but he only succeeded in choking himself. Kaoru felt guilty, he was causing his brother pain while he received all the pleasure. Hikaru gagged again, but continued to bob up and down on his brothers shaft. Kaoru didn't last much longer, he shot his first load into his brother's mouth. Hikaru pulled away and wiped some of the cum from his chin and sniffed at it curiously and licked it from his fingers, he then made a content 'mmm' sound.

"Eww you hentai! Don't lick it!" Kaoru scolded half-heartedly.

"I can't help it Kao! You taste so yummy!" Kaoru scrunched up his nose and Hikaru presented two of his fingers to Kaoru and he looked at him in confusion.

"Hika?"

"Umm… I need you to use your mouth to make my fingerers wet." Kaoru was confused but he trusted his brother. He opened his mouth, allowing his brothers fingers to slide in. He bobbed his head and hummed around them much like Hikaru had just done to him a few moments ago, Kaoru was a fast learner. Hikaru withdrew his fingers and had lifted Kaoru's legs over his shoulders before nudging Kaoru's virgin hole with his slick index and middle fingers. Ever so gently, Hikaru slid one of his fingers inside, and studied Kaoru's face for any sign of pain. Kaoru only gasped and wiggled his bottom against Hikaru's foreign finger which penetrated him. Hikaru slowly pushed his finger in and out of Kaoru's incredibly tight hole before slipping in the other and scissoring very gently, as to not hurt his little brother. Hikaru accidentally pushed his fingers in a bad angle and scrapped the sensitive walls inside of Kaoru. He let out a pained yelp and Hikaru quickly pulled his fingers out of his baby brother, panicked.

"Ouch! Hika… I don't think I want to play this anymore, it hurts." Kaoru whined, as Hikaru apologetically kneaded the flesh of his backside.

"Don't worry Kao, I'll be easy with you okay… trust me." Hikaru then positioned his weeping erection up to Kaoru's prepared hole and slowly leaned into his brother. Once fully inside of his warmth Hikaru paused for a moment to allow the younger time to adjust. "Kaoru… ahhh tell me when I can move." Hikaru whispered before he leaned down to place a small kiss to his cheek.

Kaoru squirmed before nodding to Hikaru. He pulled out slowly and pushed back in, he felt Kaoru's tight ring of muscle tear a little so he stopped his thrusts for a moment.

"You alright Kaoru?" Hikaru asked in concern.

Kaoru nodded and Hikaru continued to move in and out of him, gradually gaining speed. Hikaru felt the pit of his stomach begin to bubble, he wouldn't be able to last much longer, with one last quick jab he came within his brother coating his insides with his liquid love. He pulled out his softening member gently. Hikaru collapsed on the bed beside Kaoru to catch his breath.

"Did that feel good to you Kao?" Hikaru questioned, he hadn't heard his brother moan or anything while he was inside him.

"No, it hurt more than anything, but don't worry. It will get better the more times we do it." Hikaru raised his eyebrows in confusion.

"If I hurt you, why would you want to do this with me again?" Hikaru questioned with a confused tone.

Kaoru straddled his brothers hips and leaned down to trap his big brothers lips in a chaste kiss.

"Silly Hikaru, I'd do it with you one hundred times if I had to!"

"But why?"

Kaoru smiled and rested his head on Hikaru's chest and listened to the soft, repetitive th-thump of his love's heartbeat. "Because I love you."

All of a sudden Hikaru forgot, he forgot it was wrong to love his brother this way. He wasn't worried about his family, friends, or society would think about the special relationship he shared with his brother. All that mattered was his Kaoru, the one that he loved. Hikaru didn't need anybody or anything else to make him happy, if Kaoru was beside him that was all he needed. Right then and there Hikaru decided that he wanted to be with his brother forever and always, and he would never, ever let anyone hurt his darling baby brother. They would never be apart, he would make sure they held on to each other and never let go. He was even willing to give his own life for his brother. Hikaru wanted to tell all of this to his brother at that exact moment, but he would have to wait another day because Kaoru had fell asleep right there on his chest. Hikaru ran his fingers through his baby brothers orange hair and listened to the sound of his unlabored breathing.

"I love you too, Kaoru.

~End Flash Back~

Yay! How cute, I just love brotherly love! Don't you? Anyway, I wanted to add that chapter in just so you could see how emotionally connected the twins are. I made the sex a little shaky and made sure Hikaru didn't find Kao's sweet spot because I wanted to give the lemon an inexperienced/real feel to it. I am sorry to say, but next chapter is going to be depressing again. D: Sorry, but we have got to get back on track. If you guys like extra special fluffy chapters like this, please leave a review saying so and I'll write another one on a later date! Oh, and I want to thank FanInNeed for your suggestions, I want you to know that I have got an idea for an ending, but I liked all of your suggestions and I'm glad you like my story! :D See you all soon!

~Kousei