Chapter 9- Half Truth.
If you wanna cry, I'll be your shoulder
If you wanna laugh, I'll be your smile
If you wanna fly, I will be your sky
Anything you need that's what I'll be.
If you wanna climb, I'll be your ladder
If you wanna run, I'll be your road
If you want a friend, doesn't matter when
Anything you need, that's what I'll be
You can come to me
(Ross Lynch and Laura Marano- You can come to me.)
I was still crying when Zach pulled over and I saw that we were outside a park. Without saying anything to me he got out and walked over to the swings. Thankfully the park was empty so I managed to stop crying and collect myself together; I got out of the car and made my way over to sit on the swing next to him.
He ran a hand through his hair and down his face. Looks of concern, worry, anger and confusion were written all over his face. I had no idea where to start. I had screamed in the car park that I thought I had killed Josh. I thought I had. Now all I can remember of that night was the gun in my hand, the sound it made, josh lying on the floor, blood on my hands and then me running away.
"Cammie, what did you mean when you said that you thought you had killed that dude?" Zach asked confused. I mean can you blame him for being confused and wanting answers. I've only been at school for 2 days, not completed one of them and caused scenes.
"And no more lies or cover ups. I want the truth now." He tells me. I knew I had to tell him the truth but I had no idea where to start.
"Start with Josh. You don't have to tell me anymore then that today but I need to know what's up with him. I need to know Cam, so I can help." Zach tells me.
"No one can help me. People have tried and failed. I'm too messed up. No one can understand what I went through, therefore no one can help." I tell him on the verge of tears.
"I can try." Zach tells me taking my hand in his.
The strange thing was, I believed him. But then again at this moment he could have told me anything and I would have believed him.
"Do I have to tell you everything today?" I asked not looking him in the eye but just looking at our entwined hands.
"No but I think I deserve to know the deal with this Josh character. Don't you?" He says and he's right, he does deserve an explanation. It was just a case of finding the courage to tell him. I didn't want to lose him as a friend because I knew there was no one else like him. But if I told him would he leave like everyone else? I really wasn't sure. But I had to take the risk.
"It all started with Josh when I was 15..." I started.
*Flashback*
I ran away from home and just kept running for what felt like miles until I came outside a pub called Sight (A/N: Made it up. If it's real, which I'm not sure about, I don't own.) I needed a drink and a rest so I went in. What I thought was a pub turn out to be a club. The music was so loud I thought that my eardrums were going to burst. The lights were dim so you couldn't really see where you were going and it was packed. You could hardly move without knocking into someone.
I made my way over towards the bar and was fixated by man, someone who looked my age so you could say a boy. He had short brown hair and brown eyes. (A/N: Not sure if this is right for Josh or not?) He saw me and took interest. He walked my way and sat on the stool next to where I had sat. He told the bartender to get me a shot and I found it strange how no one questioned his or my own ages. I took the shot and as soon as it arrived and it felt like my throat was on fire.
"Hi I'm Josh. Haven't seen you around here before." The guy, who I now knew to be named Josh, told me.
There was a reason why he hadn't seen me here before. I was 15! I didn't even know what I was still doing in the club but by the look in Josh's eyes I could tell he was trouble. But I just couldn't bring myself to leave.
"Hi I'm Cammie. I'm 15 so I don't usually go into clubs." I tell him. Not really sure why I told him. He just had something about him, that I just couldn't put my finger on it.
"Well Cammie, you are just the kinda girl I've been looking for. I need a task completed and you seem like the right kinda girl for the job." He told me.
I don't know whether it was the fact I wanted to get back at my mum or the fact that he was attractive that made me say, "What kinda job do you have in mind?"
*End of Flashback*
I take a moment to breathe before I dare look at Zach. I had only just started with my tragic tale.
*Carry on with Flashback*
I'd done it. But what I had done was illegal and could land me in serious trouble if I was caught. But I wasn't. I never was.
This was the 6th 'job' I had done for Josh. Each one worse than the last. But he seemed happy and that scared me the most. He was dangerous when he was happy. But he had given me a roof over my head, so I guess I owed him something. It had been half a year since he first found me in that club, half a year of 'Jobs', half a year of him.
Each time I completed a task, he would order me up to his room and tonight was no different. When I got the call that Josh wanted me, I panicked. He hadn't made me have sex with him, as most of you are thinking, no he would make me do a little 'show' for him. Once I had gotten to his room I saw that he wasn't the only one there. There were 3 other men in the room as well.
Josh handed me a bag that said 'Victoria's Secret' across the side and told me to "Change then do my thing." As he put it. But I really didn't want to.
I was scared. Dancing for Josh on his own was bad but for other people as well... I didn't think I could. But I knew I had to. As much as he liked my body, as he regularly said, he wouldn't hesitate to 'dispose' of me like I have seen him do before.
I got changed into the skimpy, sluty outfit and did as I was told. I danced for the men, josh made sure I spent longer with him. Every time he touched me I flinched. Tonight was no different from every other night I had spent here.
Once the men had left it was just me and josh. He went for a shower and left me in the room I had spent so many nights in, his room. At this point I had, had enough and knew I had to leave. But you don't just leave business with Josh, no one ever did. But I had an idea, it was dangerous but I had to give it a try. I found the gun that I knew he kept in his top draw and waited until he returned from the shower.
When he opened the door, I pointed the gun with shaking hands. He was confused then anger spread through him and he managed to get the knife he keeps in a painting closest to him. I fired but it missed.
Josh lunged at me and managed to cut my leg. I screamed in agony. I hit him with the gun, he stumbled back and I took the opportunity to fire again, this time it hit him in his left shoulder. I was about to run but then he said while falling to the floor bleeding, "You will regret the Cammie. I will make sure of that you bitch."
With blood on my hands from my leg, I threw the gun onto his bed and ran as best as I could. I didn't stop until I got back home.
*End of Flashback.*
At first Zach didn't say anything. He just looks at me with a concerned look on his face. I knew I shouldn't have told him. Now he's gonna leave like everyone else did. So before he could say anything I made my way to the gate of the park but before I could leave I felt a hand on my shoulder and Zach pulling me into a hug.
"Thanks for telling me, Cam. What you went through was horrible and I'm gonna do everything I can to help. Josh is never gonna come near you again. I know this is gonna sound cheesy but I'm gonna be your knight in shiny armour." He told me smiling and I smiled back. I believed every word he said.
A/N: Hey guys. Forgot to put an author's not at the bottom of chapter 8. Oh well. Anyway, drama last chapter and half truth this chapter. What did you guys think? Let me know.
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