ILY YOU PEOPLE.

Well... i wrote this for someone who helped me on tumblr : P


The lights were dimmed, and there was cello in the background. His arms around me, i am getting so used to this.

I smiled. My eyes closed.

For the final time.


I purred. I couldn't feel his arms around me. Perhaps he was already out, i told myself.

Then, the churning began. My eyes shot open. The lights.

Why were there lights on the ceiling?

Oh.. oh no..

no..

NO!

NOOOO!

I snapped up straight.

The purple sheets. Familiar..

My heart sank.

My schoolbag lay by the side of the floor.

No..

No..

Tom!

I felt my heart being ripped slowly, the knife of reality sinking deep, the thick, red blood, blinding my eyes.

I choked back my tears... and then.. I let it go.

Slowly, my sobbing became full on crying.

I was frantic.

I touched my tummy. It was flat.

"No.. no.. oh.. my baby.. no..." I felt distressed, and empty.. the life was no longer inside of my womb.

I felt directionless. Fear, Bewildered, and uncontrolled.

It was like being in a fog.. tripping over branches as my heart beat like the wings of a traped bird.
His face was gone from my memory..

I picked up my phone and scrolled through the images.

His photos were in them.. photoshots... interviews... movie stills..

But they stopped meaning anything to me just when they started to mean somehting.

Tears continued to muffle my vision as I screamed and pushed my bookshelf down.

My scream hurt my throat.

I fell to the floor in a pile, my head against the cold marble floor.

Something caught my eye.

A clothing tag.. like the ones i saw back in my design studio...

It was attached to a piece of paper.

" I had a great time being the old me again.. I never knew how much I've changed till now. I know this is all confusing to you.. well.. me.. you.. you get the idea -.- but trust me. It will all make so much sense soon.
Always believe in me you and everything will be okay. Tom sends his love, he says he will wait for me you

You're I'm So disorganised! I made a checklist of the things you need to do by the end of the week. Okay? just... do them. seriously. And stop minding what your friends say. they're all gonna end up working for me, well, you.. trust.. me, you ahhh you get the point ASDFGHJKL"

I smiled. I still used "ASDFGHJKL" ...

And I remember flipping my room upside down for that darned list i promised myself...

It wasn't there.


OMG. you guise.. i'm so sorry this isn't long.. my finals for geography and math are tomorrow.. and my exams will extend till that week during september 17, which is my birthday I will update.. this weekends, if i can. alright? if i write a long chapter now, my computer will be confiscated.. for a month. so.. you decide. ;)

This is just a preview.. of what you will be getting.. i promise, double promise