After some deep soul searching I decided to give Sam the benefit of the doubt and let him work whatever was going on, out on his own. I don't want to harass him or be the nagging girlfriend. Plus, I figure that it must have to do with something about his dad or maybe because he's fixing to graduate and his whole life is changing. No matter what I am going to be there for him. My promise was the only thing that kept me going for the next few days.

Everyday I would see Sam walking through the halls, I would steal glances as I walked to my classes. I tried to be brave and focus on myself, I was finally able to eat again but I still haven't gained any of my weight back. I kept my nose stuck in a book. In the evenings I would busy myself with house work or cooking, and if I still had pent up energy I worked out so by the time I was ready for bed I was exhausted.

I got up on a Thursday morning, feeling sad, prom is next week. Sam and I still haven't spoken, I never bought a dress, I'm going to be the only girl not going to prom. Usually parties or any social activities, are not my favorite things to do but, I hate being signaled out more. Everyone already hates me for my attitude but they tolerate me because for whatever reason Sam chose me to be his girlfriend. I think, that they think I must not be that bad of a person for a boy like Sam to actually want to spend time with me.

Other than being down and out about prom my morning went on they way it has been. Breakfast, classes, Sam seeing, and then came lunch. Rain has been on the forecast all week but the sky has held up so far so I decided to eat outside. Maybe being outside will relax me, since nothing else has done the trick today. I soon found myself in a dark place, it happened before I realized it even started. A ball of angry formed inside me, my eyes scrunched together as I tried to calm myself. I gnawed at my lip, I'm not even sure what I'm angry at. I feel like my life is shambles and I feel hopeless because I can't do anything to fix it.

But I've been having those feelings for three weeks, I would have thought I would be getting better by now. But I'm not, I'm getting angrier and angrier. Yesterday, I went off on Seth for making too much noise while he was washing the dishes. Maybe I need help. Maybe I'm really not right in the head and Sam finally figured it out and that's why he's staying away from me. I must have done something wrong, said something wrong…. It's all my fault.

I was in far too deep in my own head, I could almost feel the ground shift and swirl around me. I might really be crazy. It all, stopped suddenly. My head snapped up, almost as if my body responded to his presence rather than my head. My eyes widened as my brain finally processed what was going on. Sam Uley is staring down at you stupid, a loud voice said in my head. "Hi," I spoke barely above a whisper, I was careful not to move. Our last interaction left a permanent scar on my mind and it's not something I want to relive again.

"Can I sit down?" His voice was husky, deeper than I remember. On my gosh it's been so long since I've heard his voice. I found myself unable to answer him so I simply nodded. "Listen, I want you to know that I'm not punishing you or trying to take anything out on you. I-I .." His face reddened, I could tell my his expression he was fighting desperately with himself to find the right words. My heart swelled, "I can't really explain what's going on with me." Then his words quickly deflated it. He saw my mood change because he tried again to explain himself.

"Leah, I'm not sure if I will ever find the right words to help you understand what has been going on with me. Maybe one day, but that's going to be far away. I just want to know," he cleared his throat. I know him too well, he's nervous. "I know it's going to sound selfish but I can't bare the thought of seeing you hurt or with anyone else. I just want to know if you can wait for me to get over this, I promise you I'm working at fixing this everyday. It's all I do."

I felt tear weld in my eyes, he still loves me. "I love you, Sam." Those were the only words that I could form, maybe because those were the only important words. Sam moved slowly as if he was trying not to frightened me.i tensed slightly unsure if he was going to get up and leave, but no he surprised me. I watch him move at a snail's pace, he leaned over the table so that his face was only an inch or so from my own, I felt his hot breath my lips parted on their own. He kissed me delicately and as I was reaching for him he backed away.

"I love you, Leah."

He stayed with me throughout lunch, we kept the conversation light. Talking mostly about the weather and when it was time for our next classes he stood and walked with me. I felt the urge to reach out for his hand but something was telling me not to press my luck. "So I was wondering if I can come over tomorrow?"

My eyes fluttered open, I blushed scarlet, "Ofcourse! My dad actually caught a big haul this past weekend and he's going to fry some up and I even think Levi is coming over. Oh, even Emily is coming over, I haven't seen her in about a month. I'd love for you to come be with us."

He smiled, "Then I'll be there." He bent down and kissed me on my forehead.