Not Enough
Disclaimer: I do not own the show or any characters in Inuyasha
Summary: The Inuyasha gang finally defeats Naraku! Everything was supposed to go as planned but slowly every part of Sango's life is falling apart. When someone comes along will there finally be a completion to her dreadful story, or will it only continue to steadily crumble under her feet?
Chapter 8
"Sango can we go for a walk?" Kagome asked.
"Sure." I said standing up. She stood up as well and we walked to the garden. It was a silent and awkward walk.
"So Sango how have you been?" she asked breaking the silence.
"Kagome let's not do the whole fake talk thing."
"Excuse me?" she asked surprised.
"We were supposed to be best friends and you just left without saying goodbye." She was silent for a while.
"I didn't want to leave. I had to though."
"Why?"
"That day that we beat Naraku was supposed to be happy. I figured life would be easy from there on. Our journey was complete." I knew exactly how she felt. "But when we returned to Kayede's everything seemed to change. We would spend that week together and then split up. I wanted all of us to stay together. Inuyasha and I got into a fight a few days before the week was over. I know what you're thinking, it was a normal argument, but it wasn't. That was the worst fight we've ever been in."
"So what happened?" I asked when I felt like she was taking too long to get to the point.
"I tried too hard to control him. I wanted him to love me but I was only pushing him away. I realized I would never be his number one. Kikiyo would always be the true woman he loves." I almost cried hearing her say this; we were living the same life this whole time.
"I know what you mean." I said lowly. We sat down on a rock near the pond I discovered the other day.
"What do you mean?"
"Don't worry. Finish your story."
"Ok but when I'm done you have to explain." I nodded my head yes and she continued. "Well I went back to my own time and I realized how much I had been embarrassing myself. I figured that if Inuyasha really wanted me he would have come back to get me, but he didn't." she looked at me with sad eyes. "I thought he loved me but obviously I was wrong. I refused to come back until he came to get me and of course he didn't. When I came back and he wasn't with Kayede I was afraid that he moved on. I've talked to him the day before you left and he never even bothered asking why I left. Then he told me he didn't love me anymore. I don't know why he doesn't care anymore." She finished.
"Kagome a lot has changed since you left." I said.
"Fill me in please because I don't even know why we're here." I laughed a little. I was being way too hard on her.
"Kagome when you left without saying goodbye I was so angry with you. It hurt to think that you didn't bother to come back and even let me know you were left. I stayed at my village for a while and when I came back to Kayede's you still weren't back. Shippou was starved for attention so he clung to me. That's why we have become so close. We spent all day everyday together. I can't remember that time we didn't share a bed together since I left."
"That explains a lot."
"Yeah, I went to visit Miroku and he broke things off telling me he wasn't a one woman kind of man. I was broken for months and Inuyasha helped me to heal. If it weren't for him I'm not sure if I would be alive right now." She looked surprised. "Maybe that's why he didn't bother to come looking for you. I was obviously holding him back." I gave her a sheepish smile and she returned it. "I went back to my village to get away from Inuyasha because a lot of things were starting to happen. He followed me here and admitted something to me." I stopped to brace myself for her reaction.
"That he loves you." Her voice sounded sad.
"How did you-" I started to ask but she cut me off.
"I can tell by the way he looks at you I wish he looked at me like that."
"Well he did and I was confused. I didn't understand why he would love me. I didn't feel the same at all. When I told him that the prince asked for my hand in marriage and that he would be back in two weeks he decided that he would make me fall for him. The weeks we spent together were amazing Kagome, he made me feel wanted and needed. It was the best feeling in the world. I truly fell for him."
"Then what happened?"
"You cameā¦and he forgot about me, just like I knew he would. I didn't want to live in your shadow. Funny, huh? The day you came we were going to spend the day together and he said he had a surprise for me. I was going to tell him how I felt about him and that I chose him not Kuranosuke. I never had the chance. By the time we had any alone time I already accepted the proposal. I didn't want to be hurt again and I rushed into this thing creating a big mess." I finished.
"Sango don't think this is the end. Even if you're not with Inuyasha you can still be happy. I'm sure Kuronosuke would be able to make you happy."
"You're right but I still have feelings for Inuyasha." I looked over towards her to see her reaction. "I'm sorry Kagome if this is hurting you."
"Not at all. Don't worry at me; you know I always bounce back."
"Thank you Kagome for being so supportive."
"That's what I'm here for. A little word of advice, talk to Inuyasha I mean really talk to him and see if this is exactly what you want, nothing is set in stone don't wait until it is because then it will be too late."
"You're right." I said looking at my feet. To think I harbored any negative feeling towards her upset me. She truly was a best friend. "Thank you Kagome I don't know what I would do without you."
"No problem. I'm going to go say spend some time with Shippou. We'll have more girl talk later, ok?" She said standing up. I nodded and she was off. I stood up and continued walking without a purpose. I bumped into someone and fell back.
"Sorry." I started to say but when I looked up I just smiled. "Inuyasha what are you doing here?"
"Looking for you, I got bored."
"Then find something to do." I said trying to step away from him. Anyone could walk by and get the wrong impression.
"I did. Let's go play something."
"What?" I asked almost laughing.
"You're the only person who ever wants to play with me. Let's do something fun and exciting."
"Like what?"
"Wanna play tag?"
"Fine." I said smiling. I tapped his shoulder. "You're it." I yelled before taking off in no particular direction. He smiled and ran after me. I shrieked as he came closer to me. Quickly I ducked as his hand darted towards me, missing me by an inch.
"Hey stop that." He laughed. I stopped moving and he ran past me. His smile left and the evil smirk I grew to love appeared. He had a plan. He ran towards me and I took off. I felt him tap my shoulder and I stopped running to look around for him.
"Where are you?" I giggled. I looked around and couldn't find him, then I smiled he was too obvious. I spun around and grabbed his hand. "You're it." I smiled.
"How'd you..." He never finished because I took off towards the bridge. "Come back here!" He yelled. I looked back to see him running at me full speed I ducked but he still caught me in his arms. We landed in the pond and sat there wet. I looked at his soaked form and burst out laughing.
"Inuyasha look at yourself."
"Look at you." He laughed back still holding me by the waist. We continued to laugh until someone cleared their throat. I looked up and saw him.
"Takeda." I stood up, both our laughter ceased.
"What is the meaning of this?" He sounded angry, I've never heard him use that tone before.
"I...we were playing a game." I answered back. I felt like a child caught doing something bad, again.
"Dearest Sango you are assuming the position of a princess this is inappropriate behavior." He said holding his hand out for me. I could hear Inuyasha growling low in his throat.
"I apologize." I said taking his hand.
"Inuyasha I would like to warn you nicely to please keep your distance from Lady Sango, it is inappropriate to be 'playing' games that cause you to come into contact with my soon to be wife." I looked down at an angry Inuyasha. He didn't say anything just looked away. "Very good then." The prince said taking me away. I looked back one more time, Inuyasha didn't bother moving.
That day was a drag Kuranosuke watched me all day. Finally it was night and I could be free of him. I laid down on my bed and crawled under the warm blankets. Before I could fully close my eyes I felt someone sitting on top of me.
"Inuyasha" I said looking at him. "What are you doing here?"
"You're mine." He growled. Our faces were close and all I wanted to do was kiss him.
"Says who?"
"Says me." He said dropping the edge in his tone.
"Really?" I asked.
"Yes. I saw how I got your little prince all jealous." His ego was growing too big for my liking. He kissed me and pulled away. "Mine." He repeated.
"Oh I see Takeda got you jealous did he not?" He didn't answer and I chuckled. "Don't worry Inuyasha." I wrapped my arms around his neck.
"He didn't."
"I think he did." I said kissing him again. He grabbed my hands from around his neck and held them above me.
"It doesn't matter, you're mine. Got it." He warned.
"I don't think so." I teased back.
"You are." His grip tightened around my wrists.
"Don't hurt me." I continued to tease him. He let me go and got off of me so he could sit at the edge of the bed and sulk. "Inuyasha I'm just teasing. I only want to be yours." I said sitting behind him and once again I wrapped my arms around him.
"You mean it?"
"Of course. I love you Inuyasha." I whispered into his ear. They twitched causing me to laugh. I took my hands and wrapped them around his ears. "They're so soft." I said rubbing them between my fingers gently. He was purring in the back of his throat. I laughed and he turned around to face me.
"I love you too Sango." He laid me down and once again climbed on top of me. He started kissing my neck and then my came back up to my lips. We kissed until I couldn't breathe. "I should go." He said getting ready to leave.
"Don't." I begged. "Please stay with me."
"We're getting to close."
"No we aren't."
"I don't want you to regret anything due to bad judgment. We're getting caught up in the moment."
"I won't. I don't regret anything with you."
"You don't?" He asked uncertain.
"No. I know what I'm doing and what I want to do with you. I'm of clear head right now."
"You don't know Sango. You still don't know what you want."
"I want you. I know that much."
"It's lust Sango, trust me."
"It's not, but if you want to wait it'll be fine."
"I don't...I mean I don't want to rush you into anything."
"You're won't be." I assured him. He looked at me for a while before he started kissing me again.
