"Shit!" I yelled as I hit the ground. Two seconds earlier I had been sleeping on the couch and now I was awake with a sore neck and back from my uncomfortable nights sleep and stinging head from just hitting the floor. And why did this all happen? Because I just couldn't face Draco, and I doubt I'd be able to this morning, unfortunately that wasn't really an option. I growled to myself as I picked myself off the floor and stomped towards the shower. Today was not going to be a good day.

Twenty minutes later I was towelling off feeling unrefreshed and aching all over and still growling groggily to myself. I noisily made my way to the kitchen only to be greeted by the slamming of cupboards and a scowl, which I ignored. I proceeded to make a bowl of frosted shreddies (and by make I mean grab bowl and insert cereal + milk, guess I should really say prepared) in silence before heading to the sofa to eat. "Don't forget we're seeing the neighbours today" I shouted once I considered there to be a safe distance between us. I heard a slam and a crash in response I thanked Merlin I had the sense not to remind him face to face.

Draco and I didn't speak a word to each other as we got ready and headed off the country club. And the second we got there we were conveniently separated, I was forced to chat with the women about stupid pointless things till my mind felt numb and Draco left with the guys to do ... guy things I guess. All I can say is I'd have died if it weren't for my good old friend alcohol. And apparently these women are just as bad as me for drinking, maybe even worse, so I didn't look like the alcoholic others believe me to be. All through the conversation I just nodded and smiled, by the end (which seemed like an eternity later) I felt like a noddy dog on Prozac. Then everyone dispersed into their own tiny groups and I took my chance to head over to the pool. I love to swim, it's relaxing and fun and good for all the aches and pains I'd accumulated from sleeping on the sofa. I was the only one to actually get in the pool though, everyone else just walked around in swim wear, not that I cared as it meant there would be more room for me. After a good half an hours swim I was once again my less pissed off usual self. I decided to get out for a second and see what everyone was getting up to, there were a group by the bar having what seemed to be a humorous conversation, another group were playing cards, a few of the girls were lounging around on sun beds and then there was Draco and Helen looking quite cosy in a corner having a hushed conversation. My first impulse was to run over and rip out her spine and beat her bloody corpse with it. That sounded like fun. But then I realised that I should expect it from Helen and it was Draco who needed a good beating as he was encouraging the stupid muggle. Following that I became confused 'Why do I fucking care what my twat of fake husband was doing?' and then got angry with myself because I did care, I didn't want to but I did which led to more confusion and anger. So I did what I usually do in these situations and headed for the bar. After a few shots of archers I headed back to the pool, and then back to the bar, and back to the pool until everything seemed right with my world once again.

Later on the whole group was together having some sort of discussion, I was slightly tipsy and busy ignoring Draco's existence so wasn't really paying attention to what anyone was saying. I think a few people realised me and Draco were not on good terms but didn't bring it up, probably just put assumed it was some silly little tiff. "So are you coming?" Paige asked me merrily.

"Huh?" I asked snapping out of my daze

"Oh Keira your so silly" she said with a giggle and I tried not to gag because well ... it would be rude. "We've just been talking just been talking about it for the last half an hour." I'm afraid I couldn't hide my confusion. "Aww bless ya" she said patting me on the leg "Well Lynn and Marc" she started indicating to a couple I met earlier "are getting married and their stag and hen parties are tonight and us girls decided it would be fun to have a nice elegant tea party and your invited, so are you coming?"

"Oh" I said as I realised I really did know what they were on about "Oh" I said again a little more regretfully "I sorry but I can't" everyone looked at me in shock or horror asking why. "I promised I'd see some friends tonight." I explained. I looked at Draco who was looking at me smugly as if I didn't really have plans and he knew it. Fortunately he knows nothing. He began to open his mouth to speak, most likely to question me. "But Draco isn't doing anything tonight, I'm sure he'd love to go out with the lads. Everyone turned and looked at him expectantly while I did my best to look innocent I probably didn't manage it as I couldn't wipe the smirk off my face.

"Yeah ... that would be great." He forced out staring daggers at me. As that matter was settled everyone got back to other little conversations.

20 minutes later it was time to go and I was heading to the car and not bothering to wait for my husband. I was about to open the door when I was roughly pushed up against it and turned around.

"What the fuck" I hissed at Draco who had pinned me against the car.

"Why did you do that?" he growled. I decided not to play dumb and get strait to the point.

"Because I want you to suffer" I said quietly and smiling darkly. He just glared at me. "Is that all?" I snarled

"What about last night?" he asked in a dangerous tone

"I don't kno-" I started only to be stopped.

"Cut the crap Keira and tell me the truth" he demanded harshly. I laughed.

"The truth really is that I don't know. I don't know why I did it. I don't know why I'm angry at you. And I don't know why I'm angry with myself. I just am, now drop it." I ranted and pushed him away and got into the car.

I really hadn't been lying when I said I was seeing some friends tonight. Currently I was sitting with Addie and the boys in some muggle club, actually trying to not get too drunk too soon for once. I was to be on my best behaviour tonight especially considering that Charlie was here too, but the Weasley men had to be home early so after that I was free to get wasted. I was surprised by the fact Charlie was being quite friendly towards me, I thought he'd ignore me but instead we we're laughing and joking around, I knew better than to question it. "Hey Keira, what's with the outfit?" George yelled over the music. I looked myself over, I was wearing a plain black tank top a mini skirt and over the knee boots.

"Hey, what's with your face?" I snapped back.

"Hey!" both of the twins shouted and everyone laughed.

"What's up with you then?" Ron asked wrapping an arm round my shoulders in a comforting manner. To be honest I'd been cranky all night.

"Nothing" I sighed staring at my drink longingly.

"I know" Charlie announced like he'd discovered the meaning of life "You're not getting any" of course everyone started staring at me while my eyes narrowed on Charlie.

"Far from it actually" I said when I was really thinking 'How does he bloody know?' he raised an eyebrow at me daring me to explain while my mind frantically searched for an answer. "Actually I'm getting too much."

"I don't think that's possible" he said smiling at me knowingly

"I know" I said trying to sound slightly amazed, "I didn't either, but I'm getting no sleep lately and you know how moody I get if I don't sleep." I said and I don't want to brag but I think I was pretty convincing. The subject was pretty much dropped after that and I made an effort to cheer up

"I know the truth!" Addie declared while we were in the toilet. The boys had just left and we were cleaning ourselves up a bit before we hit the dance floor. We were borderline drunk.

"And that would be?" I asked really not knowing what she was going on about.

"Charlie's was right, your sex deprived not sleep deprived" she said and laughed at me

"What makes you think that?" I asked frowning at her.

"Honey, I know you" was all she said in reply. "Just tell me what the problem is" she said soothingly.

"You'll think its stupid" I said like a whiney child

"Maybe" she laughed "But you can tell me anything."

"And you won't tell anyone?" I asked

"Not even my goldfish" she said so seriously I had to giggle a little bit.

"Right, well ... Draco and I have this bet that I can't go a month without sex." I rushed out. Addie almost wet herself in hysterical laughter.

"Why the hell did you agree to that?" She asked when she calmed down a little.

"I don't know" I groaned sitting on the toilet lid of an empty cubicle. "He just winds me up, I think I'm slightly irrational around him" I confessed. She just laughed at me some more.

"So how long has it been?" she asked

"Just over two weeks" I muttered. Addie made an ouch face.

"So what else is bugging you, it can't just be that?" she asked softly. 'She knows me too well'

"Well the short version is me and Draco got drunk, one minute were talking, then I'm kissing him, then we're about to have sex and I come to my senses and push him away and we've been arguing ever since." I rambled out. Can you guess what Addie did? She laughed. "What?" I almost yelled.

"It's just I've never seen you this worked up over a guy" she told me "It's cute. When you first told me about you guys getting married I didn't see how it was going to work but you must really love him for him to get to you like this." I wanted to tell her how stupid she was and that I couldn't possibly ever love Draco Malfoy, but I actually valued my life too much to blow the charade. 'But is it possible that I do actually have feelings for him?' I shook the thought from my head and tried to forget its existence.

"Come on its time to les it up on the dance floor" I said getting up and heading out of the toilets

"Oh goody!" Addie said clapped enthusiastically.