The damage is done,
The police are coming too slow now.
I would have died,
I would have loved you all my life.
James grabbed all of his clothes and began packing the things he needed. Three months in treatment he was allowed to go back home for easter to see everyone.
He walked over to the mirror and gazed at his reflection.
A feeling inside of him made him want to stay instead of leaving.
He had learned so many things in this place. It was practically his home. He grabbed a comb from the dresser on his left and began running it through his hair.
Addie, the beautiful brunette he met during his darkest times, knocked the door before walking inside.
"Hey," She smiled.
"Hey," He replied, his face emotionless.
Sliding his comb inside his pocket, he grabbed his luggage by the handle and walked towards Addie sending a sweet kiss to her lips.
James knew how horrible this looked.
Him giving Addie a kiss on the lips when he knew Cassidy had been waiting for him. But James couldn't explain this. It was something that happened without expecting it.
"You ready to go to the airport?" She asked, latching her hand in his.
"Yeah," He lied. "I am." His face was pensive, his shoulders sagged, like he was carrying a weight he hadn't been carrying before.
There we so many pros and cons to James' actions. Pros; he like it was easier to talk to Addie than Cassidy. And since he was becoming a changed man, it felt easier to be with addie than be with cassidy and re-open old wounds. Cons; he knew it was wrong. He felt guilty because of it but he ignored it half the time.
"Good," She opened the door for him as he walked in front of her.
I'm not ready for this.
Cassidy woke up the sound of birds chirping outside and the loud sound of the guys playing video games on her huge flat screen tv. Putting weight on her feet, she stood to her feet and walked into the livingroom. Her hair unbrushed and light red lines on her skin from the fabric of the bed.
"Well,well,well looks like sleeping beauty finally woke up." Kendall teased, looking at Cassidy from the corner of his eyes.
"Ha ha ha." She said sarcastically and walked to her kitchen, grabbing a bowl, spoon and a box of cereal.
"Where's Carlos?" She asked, pouring coacoa puffs into the tiny red bowl.
"Shower." Logan replied as she poured the milk in.
"Why is he in the shower?" She asked, forgetting about today's plans.
Logan paused the game, taking a deep breath. The four friends had been throat alot in the past three months. Especially Cassidy. She had gotton so depressed and upset about not being with James that they each took turns spending the night at her house just incase nothing happened. She had gotten better, very better. The guys were impressed and happy to finally be able to see her smile again.
"Cassidy, don't you remember?" Logan asked.
"We're seeing James today for easter." Kendall bluntly interupted, suddenly regretting saying it so loudly without the consideration of her feelings.
"Oh," She grabbed her spoon and took a bite of her breakfast. "I forgot." She looked at Kendall and Logan who both frowned.
They didn't expect her to take it so well.
Breaking through the conversation, Carlos walked down the stairs in a red t-shirt, jeans, shoe-less he wore his white "obey" hat which he loved very much."Morning guys," he smiled and Cassidy instantly glowed at the sight of him.
You would have been an idiot to not notice how incredibly close Carlos and Cassidy got in the past few weeks. They always flirted, they even slept together. No intercourse happened but Carlos always loved holding her in his arms, her head on his chest, and the ability to talk about anything and everything. They occasionally held hands and kissed eachother on the cheeks taking everything slow since Carlos knew she wasn't completely over James. Carlos knew that the situation with Cassidy and James was incredibly sensitive. They had tallked about it, cried about it, but nonetheless knew the relationship wasn't right for her. He knew that, she knew that, which was why she felt like today was the day to finally see James and talk to him about if they were going to end the relationship or stay together. That made Cassidy feel guilty for stringing Carlos along but she knew that nothing was ever going to be the same after today.
"Morning," Logan and Carlos greeted, their eyes glued to the tv screen.
"Hi," Carlos smiled a big grin, standing face to face with Cassidy.
"Hi," She smiled, eating a spoonful of her cereal. "You look spiffy," She commented not being able to take her eyes off of him.
"Thanks. And you look..." He eyed her up and down.
"Like i wreck. I know, i know." She finished his sentence.
"I wasn't gonna say that,"
"Oh really?" She smirked. "What were you going to say?"
"Something along the lines of decent?" He shrugged.
Laughing, Cassidy rolled her eyes. "I really do need to go get changed."
Finishing her bowl of cereal, she put it in the sink and said to Carlos "I'll be back," before walking up the stairs.
Carlos found himself staring at her ass as she walked up the stairs.
"Carlos!" Kendall jumped up waving his hand in his face snapping Carlos out of his daze.
"Yeah?" He suddenly got dizzy but went back to normal.
"Dude, you're so whipped." Logan snorted, grabbing an apple from the bottom drawer.
Carlos didn't bother to disagree he just nodded and looked at his two best friends.
"So," Kendall smiled. "Have you asked her out yet?"
"Nope," Carlos said, his voice lower than he expected.
"Kissed?" Logan asked.
"Nope," Carlos let out a laugh when he looked at his friends expression. "We're taking it slow alright? The whole James thing is sensitive to her and i don't wanna force her to just automatically get over him because i know it doesn't work that way."
"But Carlos," Kendall looked down. "You do realize that she could pick James over you?"
"Nah," Carlos shook his head. "That won't happen."
"How do you know?" Logan asked.
"Because there is no way i'm gonna put her in that position again. Sure James is getting help but you never know if he is gonna change or not."
"Carlos!" Everyone heard Cassidy scream.
"Yeah?" He screamed back, loud enough to irritate Kendall's and Logan's eardrums.
"Come here!"
"Alright," He said in his regular voice and walked up the stairs. "Where are you?" He asked, his hands in his pockets.
"In here,"
Carlos followed her voice into her bedroom clothes scattered all over her bed and some parts of the floor. Her back was turned to him when he walked in and he noticed how beautiful she looked. Her long gorgeous hair sat on her shoulders, she must've curled it, he noticed. She wore a knee length ivory dress that curved perfectly around her hips. She wore matching heels and smile as she saw Carlos in the mirror.
"Hey, I can't zip this dress up all the way. Can you help me?" She turned around, facing him.
After a second he finally spoke. "Yeah," He smiled. "Yeah, I'll help you." Carlos walked directly towards her, kicking shirts and pants with his feet he made his way to her. She turned around and Carlos grabbed the zipper pulling it straight up, the back of the dress closed.
"Thank you," Cassidy said and felt a sour taste in her mouth.
"Anytime,"
"I don't mean for the dress," She turned around looking in his brown eyes. "Thanks . . for everything." Her eyes softened and they became noticably glossy.
"What do you mean?" He asked, a bit scared of how this conversation might end.
Sighing, she pushed hair back against her shoulder away from her neck. "For making sure I was okay and dealing with the whole James situation. I'm not sure if i would've made it if it wasn't for you."
"No need to thank me." He put a hand on her shoulder.
"No," She shook her head. "I need too. You saw me at my worst and you're why i'm at my best."
Carlos couldn't help but smile. "Why are you saying this?"
"Because," she grabbed onto her necklace for a second than looked back at him. She paused for a few seconds feeling a tickle in her throat. "I have spent countless nights crying, thinking it was the end of the world and i...i just thought that my life was over just because James said he didn't want me." Carlos listened intently, not saying a word. "And i realized something the other night..." She covered her face trying not to cry. "I was never in love with him."
Carlos' eyes widened.
"I was in love with the idea of love and i... Carlos i'm, i'm in love with you. It's always been you."
He felt Cassidy take his hand and Carlos took a step, getting closer to her. "I've been an idiot and so selfish to string you along for someone who was never there for me. You were always there for me and because of you, i'm happy i'm alive."
Carlos cleared his throat. "I... I don't know what to say."
"You don't need to say anything." Turning her back to him, she looked at her reflection one more time. Grabbing a necklace out of a drawer she handed it to him. "Put this on me, please?"
Carlos grabbed the chain from her palm and slowly wrapped it around her neck, clicking it shut. Pulling her hair to the way she wanted it she turned around.
Carlos felt like he was going to be sick. He had wanted this to happen for so many weeks, months even, and he wished he could say what he wanted too. But he couldn't. He found himself tongue-tied and well... stuck. He smiled at how one of his songs had represented his emotions right now. "I love you," He said, clasping his hands around her cheeks. "I've loved you since the very first time I saw you." Smiling underneath his hands, Cassidy looked into his bright brown eyes. "Can I..." He looked down. "Can I... kiss you?" He asked, licking his lips. He wasn't sure if this entire thing was just a dream or reality.
Nodding, she smiled feeling one tear trickle down her cheek.
Carlos automatically pressed his lips against hers, feeling one of his biggest dreams come true. As their lips collided into deep kisses, Carlos felt like he was the most happiest guy in the world. Their lips slowly pulled apart and they both looked at eachother.
"Come here," He smiled, picking her up by her hips she wraped her legs around his waist. Giggling, she smiled and felt Carlos sit her body down on her dresser.
Re-attaching their lips, Carlos kissed with everything in him, sliding his tongue in her mouth. She kissed back, tightening her legs around his waist. Cassidy ran her fingers up and down his chest tugging at his shirt.
"No," he stopped her. "We have to go to the airport."
"I don't care about the airport," She honestly said biting her lip. "I love you," she breathed. "More than life."
Carlos caressed her cheek, kissing it right after. He pushed her away, distancing himself from her.
"I know," He smiled. "And i feel the exact same way."
