Return To Me

Chapter Nine Saying Goodbye

By Inuyashas Youkai

Surrounded by the whole student body lured by the yelling and screaming of the the two who used to be a item. Beginning with a simple kiss ,if there were no words it wouldn't even be thought of.

"Why!, If you loved me so much why did you do this to me and leave me with a ..Never mind !" Toto yelled

" Toto , don't you think he needs to know ,it's his too you know?" Satsuka whispered

"I guess it because even though I was loving it at the same time we were going to fast and I got scared and because when she called me it was only to talk but she was there and so was I .At the time I thought I could ..Back then I had to get away ,you know..That was before ...Wait, tell me what ?" Tommy said

" Nothing ,don't worry about it I will deal with it as my own problem along with the nice present you sent me how kind of you to share the std that was made between you too .It made everything so much better! Oh my head.." Toto yelled before her head and stomach felt woozy alerting Kouta and Satoru to what was to come before she ran to a nearby bush

Satoru stepped forward with Kouta to stand next to her to hold back her hair and rub circles on her back .All of this was looking very strange to Tommy, peering up to see how they interacted with her, and watched until his brother caught his eyes to inquire what was going a shake of his head Satoru made the motions not to worry about it . To Kouta's inquiry Toto nodded his head before Kouta gently lifted her up into his arms bridal style , until she closed her eyes .

"Take her home Kouta ,I will stop be later to see if she may need to taken in again. " Satoru said

"Tell everyone goodbye Toto.." Kouta whispered

" Goodbye ,can I go home now ,I don't feel so well please take me anywhere but here" Toto cried burying her face in Kouta's chest

" What the hell!" Tommy rushed towards Kouta's retreating back before Satoru stepped adverting his path .

" Tommy let her be for now until we find out ,it's gotten worse since the last time "Satoru said

"You mean to tell me it's happened before ?Why?"Tommy asked

"It's not for me to say, when she is ready to share it with you ,she will until then be patient" Satoru comforted

" She's expectant ,isn't she ?" Eiko taunted now from behind Tommy

"Eiko ,not now leave it be , Tommy return with Eiko,and leave Totome to us" Satoru warned

"I didn't really care ,I just thought it was rather funny is all." Eiko quipped

"I really don't see the humor in this ,Eiko nor do I see it being any of your concern so please stay out of matters that don't concern you" Satoru seethed in warning

" If it has to do with Tommy ,I'd say it does since he's my boyfriend" Eiko sneered

Tommy listened halfheartedly only watching Kouta carry the girl out to his car being his first priority of attention until he over heared Eiko claim him as her boyfriend.

"The last time I checked until proven otherwise Eiko,I am still engaged to Totome , there was no 'us' and what we had was a one time that for as long as I have breath in my lungs,that mistake will never happen again. I probably lost her for what I have done ,but I will spend the rest of my life to prove to her ,just how much I love her and truly miss her being with me .If it's the last thing I do, I will see to it that she is happy even if it isn't with me. "Tommy whispered with the tears flowing down his face.

"Satoru ,tell her something for me , tell her there's is something I have to say and then if she still wants to leave me so be it .Although there is something that she needs to know before I go away" Tommy whispered so only his brother could hear and at Satoru's nod Tommy walked away

" Tommy , there's also something that she needs to tell you and it involves you .I wish I could tell you but in fear she asked me if I would not until she found the right time to tell you. Although I think its more because of the pain she still feels she's afraid it'll all come back and leave her alone" Satoru returned with a smirk

"There is nothing that she could say that I haven't thought myself or could chase me away ,only her telling me to go will do that" Tommy confirmed before he disappeared into the crowd.

Later that day Toto texted Tommy upon his brother's insistence at least to hear him out and to let him know that she was was happy when he recieved her text ,maybe in the end it would be okay.

Tommy ,

Satoru told me that you were worried about me and so I wanted to let you know that I am doing somewhat better .thankyou for concern.

Toto

Toto ,

Of course I was , I still am but thank you for letting me know that you were feeling I am sorry,the last person I would ever want to hurt was you. The things that I said before was only because I haven't spoke to you in so long and I miss only contact I ve had with you was today and of course to my much deserved punishment by the way was aired out in public for everyone to see.I didn't know how to handle it. I was never a public person but I am glad you did it ,it gave me a look at a different perspective. I know you probably hate me and you have every right to be but if anything I would still like maybe one day to earn your forgiveness ,enough to keep you as my friend . It was hard knowing that I would lose your love in my life ,that I so deserve but I don't think I could handle your whole presence go away completely from my life,I would seek death if that were true. Contrary to what you may believe I so do love you still,you would never truly know how much due to mistake . I will gladly live with that because I know I deserve it , but I want your happiness always before mine,even if it isn't with me.

Tommy

Tommy ,

I don't hate you ,I don't think I ever could .It isn't in my nature to hate anyone,regardless of the pain it causes me,and I still love you. I am also hurting and I need time but I would like to at least keep your friendship too. I know we need to talk about things and I promise you we will but I need time to work through this and the pain its causing me. Thank you for your apology but right now I feel scared and much alone,even with so many surrounding me which sometimes gets annoying btw. Although I understand they are only looking out for me so I don't become lost like I once was into myself ,at that rate I might have done something very stupid so I am grateful.

Toto

Toto,

Thank you .I know that and take all the time you wish I will wait . I am not in any hurry for anything ,you are all I truly have ,or had to brag about that was good in my life. I am sorry for destroying us and ruining what should've been the best time of our lives .No matter what happens you always have me ,I know that's hard to believe now but over time I am hoping to change that,and for you to believe in me and trust me you have nothing to fear or never be alone I will always be there for you to protect you ,even from me until the time comes when you don't need me anymore. I bet you would ,probably drives you nuts, but I am glad they were there for you when I wasn't ..I wouldn't want to lose you but if I had a choice I would rather not lose you in death because of my stupidity. Oh btw , nice performance the other day .You were good ,never knew you could sing ,and you had me quite awed. Toto in truth I could actually say that you were the one for me there isn't any other for me and because I lost you and I know that you don't have to say anything but know this .I know the pain you feel because I feel it too and felt it when I ripped you out of my life with my bare hands,and its a very mind blowing and heart numbing emotion to know that I destroyed the only thing that ever made my life worth living and killed it in the process. I was stupid and I truly know that ,it was all me and nothing you did .When I chose you after wards and decided to make you my wife I meant it and I still do .Now that your gone I feel so empty inside like I ripped out apart of myself when I felt the same pain that I felt rollin off you in waves and hovering over you.I don't know what I can do but know I feel trapped inside myself without you here ,I still need you .If there's anything you need. I mean it anything I will you and only for you.

Tommy

Tommy ,

I know . Thank you just give me time . For now we can be friends ,though be gentle.I will come to you to tell you in time .Take care Goodbye

Toto

Toto ,

All you need .Awesome !you don't know what this means to me .I will . I hope so. You too I don't want to catch you getting in trouble with angry people in pink shorts .btw tell Kouta my offer still good about my moms hand me . Take care .I guess for now its goodbye but I won't go down without a fight .Because for you ,your worth fighting for.

Tommy

Tommy thankyou I wish I can believe that now . I will try. I will tell him hahaha. Thanks yeah some entertainment ! Hehe

Toto

Toto,

well thats why I plan to spend the rest of my life proving it to

I still love you so much and miss you so badly it hurts.

Tommy

TBC...