Summary:

Do they get back together? And will it be the same or different?

Notes:

No beta and I reread it but I reread it tonight and I'm tired.

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

"I hear you and Loki broke up. Trust me it's for the best."

Sif had been in the club last night with Fandral. She looked well enough but any friendliness he felt toward her vanished as soon as she started talking. This woman was taking such pleasure in knowing Loki left with nothing. She was so set on Loki being the one who was demented that she failed to see how sick her pleasure at his pain was.

"Loki has serious issues to work through." Like she didn't.

To make it worse, it was Valentine's Day. Normally, Thor wasn't into celebrating the Hallmark holiday but he couldn't help but think about what he'd be doing if Loki was with him. To add salt in the wound, all of his friends were getting together for a couples day and for the first time, Thor had no one to take.

He suddenly had a lot of respect for Steve who had been alone a long time before he met Darcy.

He could have picked some other sub at the club for the night, but he felt like it would have been an insult to Loki. No one could replace Loki and he would use no one as a filler. If Loki was sleeping alone then so was he.

The day moved by so slowly and he couldn't concentrate on anything long enough to do anything productive. He settled on sitting in the kitchen playing Candy Crush and eating peanuts at Natasha's table. He hadn't even bothered to get an apartment yet. He was holding on to the hope that Loki would come back and they would make a home together. But spring was approaching again and Thor realized he had to face the fact that Loki wouldn't be coming home.

Bruce came downstairs dressed to impress in a grey suit. "Thor." He said in salutations.

"Hey Bruce." Thor responded not looking up from his game.

"I'm going to go pick up Nat from work." Bruce continued. "Are you sure you don't want to come?"

"No, it'll just make me depressed."

"You're not already?" Bruce said with amusement in his voice. "Can I ask you something?"

"Sure." Thor said pausing his game and putting his phone down on the table.

Bruce seemed to be choosing his words carefully before asking. "How did you and Loki get together?"

"What do you mean?" Thor frowned tilting his head slightly.

"I mean, you were there for like a year and then all of a sudden, you were a couple." Bruce explained. "What made things change?"

Thor took a moment to think back to the day things changed and remembered vividly what played a role in moving their relationship forward. He remembered having the man hemmed up in the bathroom and forcing him to take his attention and his love. He remembered every shutter and moan. He remembered how Loki looked up against the wall and how he both rebelled and submitted intermittently.

But things were different now. After hearing Loki's stories about his father, and learning what Sif did to him, he couldn't ever be that rough again with him. Even if he did enjoy it and in some ways craved it, he knew things couldn't be like that day.

Could it?

Bruce continued when Thor remained silent for a moment too long. "He told me. He said you made the decision that he couldn't. See a sub might approach a dom but no slave would. If you don't get him, I don't think he's going to come to you."

Thor frowned. That sounded like something he could have said to another dom at one point. In fact, the more he thought about it, the more he was sure that he had told it to Natasha. "What if he doesn't want me to?"

"Thor, he still follows your schedule! He cooks as if you're coming through the door at any moment. He's waiting for his master." Bruce explained. "He wants you to claim him."

"What makes you so sure?" Thor asked. "What makes you think he isn't happy to be away from this lifestyle?"

"Because I'm a slave." Bruce replied simply. "I never approached Natasha. We are where we are because she led me here. Loki's going to stand still until someone takes the lead. And if it isn't you, it will be someone else. And someone else isn't going to love him as much as you do."

Bruce left it at that and went to pick up his Mistress.

Thor was still undecided though. Bruce made sense. He'd always known Loki was more slave than sub but then he wasn't sure if he even really knew Loki. The other man would put up a front to be what Thor and Sif wanted. Who was Loki really? Did he even like being dominated? Or did he do it because he knew Thor wanted it.

He'd never find out if he didn't ask though. But he couldn't ask if no one would tell him where Loki was.

He thought about meeting him at his therapist's office, but being outside for their first meeting wasn't a good idea.

It was a holiday though, a made up one, so Darcy would be bringing Loki some kind of cake to enjoy. He knew Darcy wouldn't out right tell him where Loki was living, her loyalty was to Loki about him. But she didn't have to tell him, she just had to show him.

Thor quickly drove to Steve's house and waited across the street for almost an hour before he saw Darcy come out of her house and start walking down the street carrying what looked like a cupcake pan. She walked only about three blocks and turned the corner before she stopped in from of an apartment building and pressed a button. He couldn't tell which button she pushed from his car but he saw that it was on the top row of buttons and third from the left.

She was buzzed in and only stayed for a few minutes before she came back out, hands free of the pan she was carrying and headed back towards her house. Thor put his car in park and took a breath to ready himself. He wasn't certain what he's say or what he'd do he then, he hadn't had a plan when he took Loki in the bathroom either and that worked for them.

Thor walked to the apartment building's front door and pressed the button Darcy pressed which was to house 1C.

Loki didn't ask who was there, instead he just buzzed open the door.

Thor walked in to the building, found apartment 1C and knocked. He could hear a dog whimpering at the door before he heard Loki's voice. "What did you…" The door opened and suddenly there he was, speechless and beautiful.

Before he could close the door in his face, Thor pushed his way in closing the door behind.

The two men just stood there looking at each other for a moment with an over active puppy yipping at Thor's feet. "Thor?" Loki finally said. "What are you doing here?"

Thor smiled a little. "To get you."

"Why?" Loki looked legitimately confused.

"Because I love you Loki. All I want is you." Thor told him keeping it as simple as he could.

Loki's face was blank for a moment before he said, "You want a coffee or something?"

Thor sighed in some relief. At least he was willing to talk and not sending him back out in the street. "Sure."

Thor followed behind Loki to a relatively small kitchen. The apartment seemed nice but it was a downgrade from the house Loki left. He sat at the kitchen table and watched as Loki moved around the kitchen to start a pot of coffee.

Thor had to admit Loki looked better. He was thicker but still lean and his skin wasn't as pale. His jet black hair was a little longer but he still wore it in a ponytail. "You look good Loki."

Loki nodded. "Thanks." He looked at Thor then. "So do you."

Thor smiled as Loki carried on making the coffee. "Why haven't you come home?"

"I didn't know there was one waiting for me." The direct question caused a direct answer.

"I told you I just needed time." Thor reminded him. "And not months of it."

"And you would have come back and done what Sif did." Loki sounded sure if his response. He'd obviously given it some thought.

There was no thought to Thor's reply. "No."

"Yes Thor. Yes. You would have stomached my psychosis for a little while before you would feel like you can't leave me but you can't love me either."

"Loki you can't think that about me." Thor was insulted. He wasn't Sif and if Loki really thought that he was, then their relationship might have been more foregone than he previously though.

"Why not?" Loki asked. "Because whispered words of love? I've had those. They're empty."

Thor frowned. "Fine, you don't believe in words. What about actions? I've shown you how much I've wanted you."

"You pitied me." Loki corrected.

"What?"

"The first time you took me, we didn't even have sex but you owned me. You claimed me. But no time after that did you do it."

Thor opened and closed his mouth a couple of times realizing Bruce might have been right. "Loki, you were abused, Sif was abusing you and I didn't know what your triggers were. I wasn't going to make things worse."

"So then we're bother liars."

"What are you…"

"I acted like everything was always fine and you acted like you'd be fine without my submission."

Thor huffed realizing there was truth to that statement. . "Loki, I want you."

"To submit."

"As you are. Whatever you're offering."

"But will it satisfy you?" Loki asked. "Would you go to bed satisfied or would your eyes start to wonder?"

Thor grunted starting to become more and more annoyed. Loki was clear headed and sounded as if he had given this a thought more than once. How many times did Loki want to pick up the phone but convinced himself not to. "Loki…"

"Thor, please." All the busy work Loki was doing to keep himself detached stopped and now he faced Thor fully, head held high. "Sif needed it. Do you need it?"

Thor wasn't quick to answer because he wanted to be honest. He needed submission but he was certain that whatever level of submission Loki could give would cause satisfaction. "Yes."

Loki nodded but said nothing.

"We don't need to talk about it right now Loki. I just wanted to close the gap between Loki."

Loki nodded but still said nothing.

Thor nodded as well and stood up. "I should go."

"What if I don't want you to go?" Loki said sternly.

Thor stopped surprised by the tone of voice more than the words. "Then I'll stay."

"And what if I want you to make love to me."

This wasn't the man that would asked for kisses in whispered tones. "Then I'll do that."

"But what if I want you to fuck me?"

Thor raised a brow as his mouth went dry.

"What if I want you to claim me?"

Thor hardened so fast he got a head rush. "Do you know what you're asking?" Thor was certain Loki couldn't have understood what the words he was saying meant.

"I'm asking you to be Thor. I won't know if I can't take it if you don't give it to me. I am asking you to own me."

Everything in Thor said take him right there on the table, but no, he had to find Loki's frame of mind. He had to be sure that the person making this decision was a sane and rational and that it wasn't the person that would do anything to please someone he loved. "You're taking your meds?"

"Every day."

"Let me see them."

Loki looked unsure for a moment but then opened one of the kitchen draws and took and three bottles. Thor took them and read the date it was filled and then looked in to the bottles and counted the pills.

His Kitten was doing well.

"Owning someone is not just about sex. Are you sure you…"

"I've spoken to Natasha and I've spoken to Bruce." Loki interrupted. "I know what I'm asking."

That would explain why Bruce was certain about Loki's desire to be a slave. "Alright." Thor walked to Loki then and framed Loki's face in his hands. "Finish the coffee. I'm going to take a look through your apartment." He placed a chaste on Loki's lip and pulled away which only caused Loki to grab a hold of him and place a kiss on him. Thor backed off causing Loki to frown. "You take what I give you, and I gave you an order."

For a moment Thor was worried about the seemingly hurt look in his eyes. But then those green eyes slowly changed into one of defiance. He smiled and then nodded.

Thor left the room with a smile on his face. He looked around the apartment. It was obvious Loki loved his dog because there were toys, shampoo and conditioner for dogs and dog beds scattered all over the place.

It was just as obvious that Loki used the dog in lieu of human companionship.

He was only in the bedroom for a few minutes before Loki joined him with two cups of coffee. The smell reached him before Loki did. "Do you like my apartment?"

"It's nice." Thor took the offered cup of coffee. "Are you attached to it?"

Loki thought about it for a moment before answering. "Not particularly no. Why? Where are you staying?"

"Natasha's." Thor told him as he watched Loki sipping down his coffee quickly. "I'm still staying at Natasha's."

"Why?"

"There is no home without you." Thor told him making Loki make an 'aww' face before he added, "Take off your clothes."

The switch threw Loki off, Thor could see it. The sweet words followed by a harsh demand made him hesitate but only for a couple of moments.

Loki started pulling off his clothes, starting with his white t-shirt and then his shoes. Thor stood there sipping his coffee and enjoying the view. Though Loki's body showed signs of being uncomfortable with stripping his lip tucked in his teeth and his eyes was cast down.

Thor sipped his coffee as he walked around Loki inspecting his body. He had no new scars on his body, the added weight must have been muscle because Loki still had a lot of definition in his stomach. He came up behind Loki and whispered in his ear. "Get on the bed and show yourself to me."

There was no hesitation in Loki now. He got on the bed on all fours and opened himself to Thor. He was also visibly hard.

Thor went opening and closing the drawers until he found a tub of lube. He coated his finger and without any warning, sunk a finger down to the second knuckle.

Loki sucked in a startled breath.

Thor frowned. Loki was tight, but not as tight as he should have been after having been celibate for the last several months. Which meant, someone must have had the pleasure of being inside of him. "Who have you let inside you?"

Loki turned to face him. "What?"

"Don't lie to me Loki. I know your body. Who have you let in you?"

"No one." Loki answered looking concerned. "No one."

Thor pulled his finger out. "Either you have had sex recently or you…" Thor stopped then when an idea occurred him. "Kitten, have you got a toy?"

Loki's pink cheeks answered that question.

Thor smiled. That pleased him so. Did Loki fantasize about him? Was he whispering Thor's name at night as he brought himself off? "Alright, under the covers."

Loki frowned again. "I thought…"

"We have a lot to still talk about Loki, before I give you want you want. Tonight, I'm going to hold you like I've wanted to do since I left you."

Loki seemed to think about that for a moment before nodding. "Alright."

Though it wasn't too late, both bed settled into bed with Thor's arms wrapped around Loki.

They didn't speak, at that point they really didn't need to. They just enjoyed each other's warmth and the feeling of their heartbeats which eventually lulled them to sleep despite the coffee they'd just consumed.

Loki still wasn't a good sleeper. He tossed and turned all night and at some point, sat straight up with a scream.

This must have been a regular occurrence though because as he blindly reached out for comfort, his dog moved up from the foot of the bed and snuggled close to Loki's stomach. Loki petted the dog for a few moments before drifting off to sleep again.

It saddened Thor a little. His Kitten was still plagued with so many demons, but he'd gone and found a good way to chase them off. His dog certainly was doing a good job of taking care of Loki.

Thor loved that dog.

The next morning came bringing with it a sense of unfinished business. When Thor got up, Loki was already in the kitchen making something to eat. Thor could smell the bacon frying on the stove. When he entered the kitchen, Loki was already dressed and the dog was looking cute begging for a piece of bacon.

"Good morning." Thor made his presence known.

Loki smiled. "Good morning. Did you sleep well?"

"Yeah." Thor slid into a chair. "You?"

"I slept well." Thor was about to call him on his lie before he responded, "Well, I think I had a nightmare, but I can't really remember it."

Thor fought to keep the smile off his face knowing it would look like he was happy Loki had a hard night. Really, he was happy Loki told him the truth.

Thor watched Loki silently as he finished breakfast and made two plates of bacon, eggs and waffles. He placed on in front of Thor and one on the opposite end of the table for himself.

Loki took a seat and bit a piece bacon. "What happens now?"

Thor swallowed the eggs in his mouth before answering. "What do you know about being a slave?"

"I only know what Bruce does with Natasha." Loki answered. "Those are the only facts I have. Everything else is speculation."

"Then let's start with your facts." Thor encouraged.

Loki took a deep breath. "I know that on a very real level, Bruce doesn't have a choice in what he does. But then, on another level, there are boundaries that are set."

"And what do you think about that?" Thor asked. "What do you think about having a list of things you'd never allow but everything else is out of your hands?"

Loki took a moment to think about it as he chewed on his waffles. "I don't like the idea of being helpless."

"You'd never be helpless Loki. No matter how extreme we go, I'd stop if you want me to."

"Ok, but isn't that more sub and less slave?" Loki pushed his empty plate to the side. Thor couldn't remember a time when Loki ate such a big portion so fast. "Slaves don't have safe words."

It was a legitimate question and one that Thor wouldn't ignore. Loki had to understand what those two words really meant. "You aren't a sub just because you follow a certain rule and you aren't a slave just because you don't have a safe word. There are many subs who play without safe words. Yes, many slaves don't have safe words, but there is no mandatory set of rules."

Loki nodded, seemingly taking a moment to let that sink in. "What do you want?"

"I'm not answering that question Loki." Thor told him firmly but lovingly.

Loki frowned in response. "Why?"

"Because I don't trust you to be honest about your own feelings once I give you mine." It was the truth. Thor knew Loki was doing better, but some things therapy wouldn't fix and medication, though helpful was not a cure all. Loki's personality was such that he'd try to conform by default. And that was okay, it's what made him so attractive to Thor, but it also made him dangerous to play with.

Loki looked angry about it and his face was blank making it difficult to read what he was thinking. He suddenly stood up. "I have to feed Fenrir."

"You're deflecting." Thor called him on it. He had to. He couldn't let Loki walk away from this table without saying everything that needed to be said. "The dog is asleep. You are trying to get away from the conversation and that is not going to happen. Sit down so we can finish the conversation."

That rebellious streak was showing itself in its full glory. An arched eyebrow was all Thor got in response.

"Loki sit down in that chair or I'm going to put you in it." Thor waited five heartbeats as Loki's jaw set and his feet remained firm on the floor. With a sharp jerk, Thor got himself to his feet and Loki quickly took his seat again.

No it wasn't in Loki's nature to do as he's told but it was in his nature to please and sometimes those two sides of him clashed.

It was a spectacular sight.

Thor moved his chair closer to Loki and took his hands. "We were talking about safe words."

"Can't we just have one? Like a slowdown word, just for when things are getting to be too much?" Loki picked up the conversation as if he hadn't just challenged Thor two seconds ago.

Loki was like that though, always pushing boundaries. But the compromise of the safe words was touching. "You trust me to do more than slow down if you need it?"

Loki nodded. "I think you're better at seeing my limits."

Thor smiled. "What else?"

"Bruce kneels down at Natasha's feet. I won't do that." There it was, the first hard limit.

"That's fine."

"And I'm not calling you master." Loki smirked. "Or Sir or any of those other honorifics that the people at the club uses."

Thor nodded slowly. "That's doable. But you call me Thor. Not douche bag or jerk face or monster, or any of those other names you call me when you don't get what you want."

Loki huffed as if it would be a terribly hard thing to do. "Fine." Loki took a moment to think before his face became serious. "Thor, I… I wish I was better for you. I wish I was normal for you."

This would be a recurring problem. There would be no convincing Loki that Thor loved him because of who he was not in spite of it. But he couldn't brush it off either. "Loki, what your father did to you was cruel and horrific and none of it was your fault. What happened with Sif may not be one hundred percent her fault, but it isn't even fifty percent your fault. You needed help and she failed you. What you did to me, you did in a moment of desperation and though I understand that, I don't excuse it. You were wrong, and you have apologized and I have forgiven you. We are moving passed that now." He placed a kiss on Loki's lips. "Besides, if you weren't you, I probably wouldn't love you."

Loki smiled but Thor knew his words were only a band aid. They still had a lot more work to do. "So do we draft a contract now?"

"No." Thor answered. "We are going to try this, right now and see if we are ready for this step."

"And if I'm not."

"Then you're not. And I'll love you even more for trying. But let's not anticipate failure. I'm going to go take a shower. You clean up and prep your bedroom for a scene. Lube and whatever toys you've gotten should be laid out. Do you understand?"

Loki nodded, looking both apprehensive and ready. Before Thor left the kitchen Loki was already cleaning up.

000

Loki was waiting in the room unsure what he should do. He had done what Thor told him to do and then found himself standing there unsure of what to do.

He was nervous, more so than he ever was with Thor. Even when he first had sex he wasn't as nervous as he was standing there in the middle of his bedroom. He was realizing as more time passed that he was not in the same place he was before. He didn't feel that desperation he felt when he last laid with Thor. But he did feel a need to please him and to be what Thor needed to be happy.

Because Loki already knew Thor would make him happy.

The shower turned off and Loki's heart skipped a beat.

It seemed surreal. When he opened the door and Thor was standing there he felt like he wanted to pinch himself. He had thought about calling Thor so many times. He'd pick up the phone and will his fingers to move, but something in him always stopped him from doing it. He was afraid Thor had moved on and worried that he'd destroy Thor the way he destroyed Sif.

But he was there, in his little apartment. The sanctuary he had built for himself. And Thor had barged in here the same way he did that night when he first claimed him.

The door opened and Loki held his breath as Thor came out completely naked and gorgeous.

Thor's hair was wet and seemed longer, now brushing his chin. Water droplets fell off the strands onto his chest and Loki suddenly felt like he was in a romance novel and he was the virginal bride who had never seen a naked man before.

Despite the fact that Thor was completely naked and he was completely clothed, when Thor came walking up on him, Loki felt vulnerable. It made Loki instinctively step back until his back hit a wall. Thor's hands rested on the wall on both sides of Loki's head and an uncontrollable tremble caused a moan to rip from Loki's throat.

Thor smiled. "There's my Kitten. Did you miss me?"

Loki hated that smug smile on the blonde's face but after that little display he couldn't deny it. But he could make an annoyed face. That wasn't against the rules.

Thor pushed off the wall and looked at the toys and lube Loki had pulled out and put on the dresser.

Loki liked lube, that wouldn't be a surprise but the vibrator was exactly the dimensions of Thor's cock complete with the slight curve. It was his only toy and he treasured it. There were many nights that Loki though that toy would be the only comfort he'd ever have.

That smug smile widened though and Loki suddenly wanted to snatch the vibrator out of Thor's hands and hit him with it. "Oh yes you've missed me."

Loki rolled his eyes.

"Take off your clothes Kitten. Let's see if the real thing can satisfy you more."

Loki stripped faster than he probably should have considering Thor was being a jerk but he couldn't help it. It had been a long time since he been with anyone and knowing that it was the one he wanted made him all the more impatient.

Loki laid on the bed on his back as Thor covered his body with his own. He took the lube in the squirt bottle. It was a thick lube that Loki had needed when he first bought the toy. The time away from Thor made him much tighter and getting it in had given him some problems.

Thor didn't pour any in his hand, instead inserted the tube in his anus and squirted.

It was an odd feeling and made him gasp. It was cold and the lube went spewing out further inside of him than anything he'd ever felt before.

"You're slow word hasn't changed." Thor was telling him as he was pulling Loki's legs onto his shoulders. "It doesn't mean I'll stop a scene and in a lot of cases I won't stop completely, but I will slow down and check in with you. I'll help you through whatever you need." When Thor had finished situating himself he looked down into Loki's face. "What's the word you say when he need me to slow down?"

"Yellow." Loki answered on two seconds before Thor shoved his entire length into him.

The air was pushed out of his lungs in one whoosh and before he could draw another breath, Thor withdrew and slammed back into him with just as much force.

The position made Loki feel as if Thor was reaching places he'd never reached before. He was bent in half and the strain on his body with each thrust sparked an odd feeling in his stomach. He knew Thor was long but he'd never felt in like this. He started breathing harder while trying to brace for harsh thrusts but he couldn't seem to be able to take it.

Thor had never taken him so brutally and never in his position. He was near immobile and the sudden feeling of helplessness was terrifying.

"Yellow! Yellow! You're hurting me." He heard himself saying through panicked breaths. Thor stopped thrusting immediately but left his cock deep in Loki who was trying to push Thor off him. "Pull out Thor, I can't breathe."

"Settle down Kitten. You can breathe fine, you're just choosing not to." Thor tried to explain.

"Of course I can't breathe! You have my knees to my ears and you're fucking me as if you are trying to shove your dick through my ass to my throat." It was hard to sound pissed in the position he was in but he didn't care.

"No, I'm fucking you like you are here for my enjoyment." The words were sobering. His purpose was to please Thor and this pleased Thor. "Put your hands on my shoulders."

Loki did as he was told though he really wasn't comfortable with the position.

"Now just breathe." After a few steadying breaths Thor said, "I'm going to start again. Are you ready?"

Loki nodded.

"All you have to do is breathe." Thor reared back and thrust in again full force. This time, Loki's breath didn't come roaring out his lungs. "Now did that hurt?"

Loki shook his head. It didn't hurt. It just touched a part of him that had never been touched and it felt weird.

"I'll never hurt you Loki. I'll push you. I'm putting strain on your body, but I'm not hurting you." He thrust in harshly again. He started pistoning his hips in quick hard thrusts.

Loki tried to focus on his breathing and take pleasure in the fact that Thor was enjoying his body. Slowly, the tension started to leave his body and he laid there with the sole purpose of let Thor fuck him. His back muscles smoothed out and his thighs relaxed on Thor's wide shoulders.

"That's it." Thor moaned. "That's it Kitten, just relax. You feel so good Loki. Your body is so sexy. You turn me on so much. I've missed this. I've missed being inside of you."

Thor's words were forcing Loki to stay in the moment. He could feel every inch of Thor inside of him as he listened to those whispered words. It made him want to please this man even more. This man wanted him, as screwed up as he was. All of the problems Thor has had in his life for almost three years Loki was directly responsible for. The least he could do was let the man pound his cock into his stomach for a little while longer.

Thankfully, a little while was all Thor wanted to do it for.

Thor pulled out suddenly and turned Loki around pulling him up on his hands and knees.

Loki felt wobbly and unsteady but it didn't matter. Thor was gripping his hip and pushing back in. The pace Thor set was more suited to Loki's tastes. His prostate was being rubbed with a wonderful accuracy. He groaned a little louder than he meant to and Thor laughed. "Is that better Kitten?"

Another wrecked moan was Loki's answer.

"I know how my Kitten likes to be petted."

Loki could feel one of Thor's hands move up his spine and tangle in his hair before yanking Loki up and grasping his cock.

Loki leaned his head on Thor's shoulder, the new position kept Loki on his knees but his back against Thor's chest and long, thick cock was deep in him. The thrusts were reduced to a grinding motion as Thor jerked on Loki's dick. The pressure on his prostate was sending him hurdling towards orgasm. "Don't stop." He was telling Thor. "I'm going to come."

Thor had a small smile on his face. "Are you?"

Loki felt the first contraction but before he could actually ejaculate, Thor's hand dropped from his cock and he had pushed Loki forward so that the angle he was penetrated from avoided his prostate.

The end result was an orgasm that was unsatisfying. His dick hadn't even shot the semen out. Instead it just oozed out a bit.

Loki groaned as his need spiked quickly. He needed to come again and soon.

Thor resumed thrusting, hitting his prostate just as he had before. Loki was barely keeping it together. The ache in his cock was deeper than he'd ever felt before. It felt like it was taking forever to get up to that peak again. It took everything he had not to reach a hand down to grasp himself.

When he felt Thor's hand start its trail up his back and towards his hair he let out a sob. "Please Thor no. Please let me come."

The laugh that bubbled out Thor was borderline scary. Loki's back hit Thor's chest again and the pleas were hard to stop. "Thor please, please let me come. I've never felt anything like this."

Thor's hand started the rhythmic pull on Loki's cock. "You know what's funny, physically you don't actually need to orgasm again. Your brain is telling your balls they're full even though they aren't."

Loki groaned.

"All your suffering is your own doing, not mine." Thor had the nerve to actually sound amused. As if they were discussing a movie or something.

Loki gasped and Thor let his aching cock go right before Loki could enjoy his orgasm. This time his cock bounced with what should have been shots of ejaculate. His stomach contracted even though he only managed to leak out two or three drops.

Thor resumed his thrusts and Loki decided not to even try to fight the sob that escaped him. His cock ached was a fierceness that he didn't think possible. He was gripping the sheet in his fists but let Thor pound his prostate.

This time, before Thor could reach for his head, he sat up, head lulled on Thor's shoulder. Thor didn't even need to touch his cock this time and the satisfied groan that Thor let out was a sign that he was ecstatic with Loki falling into the torture.

"Good boy! You're so beautiful like this."

Nothing came out of Loki's cock this time. His arms could barely hold him up when Thor started the thrusts again. He was openly crying now. His face felt wet, his cock burned and his anus ached. He felt everything else but beautiful.

He wanted this to be over and wanted it to last forever. There was no feeling he could pin down long enough to actually feel it. It just made him cry harder. He felt like a life time full of pent up tears was released even as the rest of his body felt frustrated.

He felt Thor move, covering his body with his own as he continued to thrust into him. He felt Thor's hand lace in his. "You're doing good Loki." He was saying. "Can you take it?"

Loki sobbed but nodded gripping Thor's hand so hard his knuckles were turning white.

"I'm close Kitten. I'm so close." He grunted as his hips started thrust wildly. "Yes baby. Oh yes." With another grunt Thor came in violent twitches.

Loki was happy it was over, even as his cock felt as if he still hadn't come. The idea of sex was actually repulsive.

His body was like lead when Thor rolled him over. With a shirt from off the floor, Thor wiped Loki's face free of tears and snot before grabbing him up off the bed. "A cold shower will cure you of your erection."

Loki moaned something that he wasn't even sure he understood. He could barely walk the short distance to the bathroom but Thor was a rock. He could feel those strong arms around him helping him along and felt confident Thor could handle the weight.

The shower wasn't actually cold, more of a lukewarm but it killed the erection quick. Loki was still crying slightly when Thor filled the bath with warm water. The tub was small and Loki had to lay directly on top of him but the closeness felt good.

Loki's head lulled to the side, his body relaxing into the water. "Did I please you?"

"Very much so." Thor was quick to respond.

"Why did you punish me then?" Loki asked. "Why didn't you let me enjoy our first time together?"

"That wasn't punishment Loki. You wanted to know what I liked. You asked me to claim you. No one can get me off the way you do. Your suffering, your pleasure is all mine if you are my slave. And this wasn't our first time. Last night I gave you love. I held you and told you everything I felt about you. Today I claimed your body."

Loki sighed, his muscles relaxing further. "Why did you want me to suffer?"

Thor placed a kiss on Loki's temple. "I enjoy it. Did you?"

Loki felt raw. He wanted to say yes. He wanted to tell Thor what he deserved to hear. But he couldn't lie to him. Not anymore. "I don't know."

Thor's arms tightened around Loki. "Good boy. You won't know if you liked it for a little while longer."

"Does it always have to be so rough? Does that mean you can't just make love to me?"

"Loki I want you to listen to me now alright? I can take you rough, I can punish you, you can misbehave every moment of every day and safe word out of every scene and I will always love you. I want you to understand this. A master and slave relationship is based on trust and love makes your role more meaningful to me. As far as me making love to you, it's your job to please me but it's my job to give you everything you need and you need love more than most. A happy slave will yield a happy master."

Loki looked up at his ceiling feeling like not only had Thor fucked his arse raw, he also just fucked his mind with that little speech. "Thor, I don't even know what to say to you right now."

Thor laughed. "Then say nothing. It's the slave's place to please a master in a scene and it's a master's place to care for you after."

"I've never had that." Loki said. "Someone to take care of me." He couldn't see Thor's face and if he had, he would have seen how much those words affected him. "I don't know what to do with that."

He felt Thor sigh. "You just let it happen."

Loki sighed. He wasn't strong enough to fight it but even if he was, he wouldn't have.

Notes:

Sooooooooooo I started a job and had midterms all in the same week so I'm sorry for the long delay.

As always, I want to know what you think!