Authors Note: Please read and review! :) This chapter has a lot happen in it...

Wiping her eyes, Olivia glanced at the clock on the wall. 6:56 am. Time was standing still it seemed like. Looking around the room she felt guilty. There was not one picture of Brian. After he died she took down all pictures and reminders of him. It was too painful to see them every day.

It was time. Time to put the pictures back on the walls and on the shelves. She loved Brian so much and she felt guilty and selfish by not having them up.

Olivia stood up and walked into her bedroom. She opened the closet door and pulled the box of Brian's things and pictures out. She lifted the heavy box onto her bed. Closing her eyes she took a deep breath before opening the lid.

Tears filled her eyes with the first thing she saw. Her wedding ring was sitting on top of their wedding picture. She hadn't worn her wedding ring since Brian died. She picked it up and put it back onto her finger. Olivia felt guilty for not wearing it, but it was another thing that was painful for her. From this moment on she would always wear it.

Picking up the wedding picture, she brought it out into the living room and hung it back on the wall. Back where it belonged.

Olivia sat at her desk in the precinct. It was two months after Brian's death, her second day back. Feeling the baby kick against her bladder, Olivia slowly started to stand up. She felt Nick grab her arm and help her to her feet. She smiled at him and walked to the bathroom. She was seven months pregnant and she was constantly going to the bathroom.

She re-entered and walked to her desk. This time Munch helped her sit down. "Thanks"

Munch smiled at her, "Your welcome, Liv."

Olivia carried on with her paperwork, ignoring the constant rush of the squad room. Just as she was about to leave for lunch, her cell phone started ringing. It was a number she didn't recognize.

"Benson."

"Liv?"

Olivia frowned in confusion. "Who's calling?"

"Liv, its Elliot."

Olivia smiled slightly. "Elliot. Why are you calling me?"

"I haven't talked to you in two years, I wanted to catch up."

"Ok."

"Are you free for lunch today?"

"Yeah. Meet me at the usual place?"

"Sounds great." Olivia could he was smiling when he said that.

"I'll see you in a half hour."

"Bye, see you soon."

Olivia hung up her phone and smiled. She missed Elliot. She hadn't seen him in a long time. She suddenly felt nervous. Elliot didn't know she was pregnant.

30 minutes later Olivia walked into her Elliot's usual lunch place. She looked around the restaurant and saw Elliot in the back corner, his back to her. Her palms started sweating; she took a deep breath and slowly walked towards him.

She approached behind him. "Hey El."

He turned around and smiled seeing her. He looked down and saw her belly. He looked up, his eyes wide.

Olivia laughed. "Never seen a pregnant woman before Stabler?"

Elliot stood up and hugged her. "Congratulations Liv."

Elliot helped her sit in the booth and then sat down across from her.

"How far along are you?"

"Seven months." She smiled.

"I'm so happy for you and Brian."

Olivia tensed at the mention of Brian. Elliot didn't know he died. She smiled and nodded, not wanting to tell him quite yet.

"Brian must be really excited. I know when Kathy and I were expecting Maureen, I was over the moon."

Olivia smiled in response.

"I bet he wants a little girl. A little daddy's girl."

Olivia felt tears in her eyes. She tried to swallow the lump in her throat.

"You both will be great parents. I'm happy for you guys."

She had no control in stopping the tears. She covered her mouth with her hand and cried.

"Olivia? What's wrong? Is there something wrong with the baby?" Elliot grabbed her other hand, comforting her.

She shook her head and took a deep breath. "Brian passed away. Two months ago." She whispered.

Elliot's face went pale. "Liv I am so so sorry for your loss. I'm such an idiot."

"You didn't know El."

"I feel terrible, Liv I'm so sorry."

Olivia nodded and wiped her eyes. "It's been...hard."

Elliot nodded. "If you ever need me, for anything, please call. I will come and help you."

"Thank you." She whispered.

Olivia and Elliot talked for another hour before Olivia wanted to go home. Elliot drove her and again reminded her to call for anything.

Olivia was lying in her bed reading a pregnancy book. She looked over to Brian's side of the bed and held back a sob. She missed him so much. Olivia closed her book and shut off the lamp. She adjusted the pillows that were cushioning her back, and slowly fell asleep.

The picture of her and Brian at Brian's mothers 65th birthday was the next she put onto the shelf in the living room. She was 4 months pregnant in this picture, they both looked so happy. She smiled through her tears; she and Brian had so many great memories together.

Olivia woke up in the night from a sharp pain in her stomach. She didn't know if she dreamt it or actually felt it, so she closed her eyes again. Ten minutes later the pain came again, Olivia gasped and put her hand on her stomach. She couldn't be in labour. It was too early. The nursery wasn't even set up yet.

Olivia reached for her cell phone and dialed Cragen's phone number. She started crying. It was too early for the baby to come, she wasn't ready for it. She was scared.

"Captain Cragen." He sounded tired.

"Captain its Olivia." Her voice cracked when she spoke, she was crying a lot.

"What's wrong? Is it the baby?"

Olivia sobbed into the phone, "I keep feeling sharp pains; I think I'm in labour." She gasped as she felt it again.

"Olivia, stay where you are and calm down. I'm coming to bring you to the hospital."

"Ok." Olivia wiped her eyes. "I'm scared."

"It's okay, you're going to be fine."

Olivia took a deep breath, trying to calm herself down.

"I'll be there in fifteen minutes Liv."

"Please hurry."

"I'll be there as fast as I can."

An hour later the Doctor was explaining to Olivia and Cragen what had happened.

"They were Braxton hicks contractions. If you didn't know what they were they could make you believe you were in labour. You may feel these more often; they prepare the body for labour."

"Does that mean I'll be in labour soon?" Olivia still felt nervous.

"Not necessarily. I want you on bed rest for the rest of your pregnancy. You have been stressed and not taking good care of yourself lately."

"No one lives with me. How can I go on bed rest?" Olivia felt tears in her eyes. She needed Brian here to support her and help her though this.

"Olivia, you have a squad, and Brian's family who will all help you out. You don't have to worry about being alone. We are all here for you." Cragen held her hand and reassured her.

Olivia nodded and thanked him. She knew he was right. She wasn't alone.

"I want you on your feet as little as possible." The doctor looked at Olivia in her eyes.

Olivia nodded. Cragen and Olivia finished with the Doctor and they walked out of the hospital.

When they arrived at Olivia's apartment, Cragen helped her back into bed.

"I'll stay with you tonight and tomorrow morning. Before I leave I'll call Amanda to come."

Olivia nodded. "I can call Brian's mom to come. She has visited me lots since Brian...passed."

Cragen nodded. "His family is your family too Liv."

"I know." She whispered.

Cragen sat with Olivia until she fell asleep, then he went to the couch to sleep.

Olivia set the last picture of her and Brian on the shelf. It was a selfie they had taken on their honeymoon in Jamaica. No one had been around to take a picture for them, so Olivia had taken a selfie of them on the hiking trail. They both looked sweaty and had dirt on the faces, but they both looked very happy. Any moment the two got together was a good moment.