Disclaimer: I do not own BTVS or Angel, all rights reserved Joss Whedon

Rating: 15+

Pairing: Faith/Buffy

Summary: Moments set in the wacky, fun, angst filled relationship of Faith and Buffy.

Notes: Thanks to all who read and reviewed last chapter. Will try and churn out chapters a little quicker.


June 15th

Today is the day where I figure it out. Honestly, today is the day where I ask her.

Ask her to explain.

I make my way to our bedroom, and walk through the door; the look she gives me almost makes me scared; which is stupid, cos I'm a slayer, I don't get scared.

But it's beyond a joke now. I need to know why my sweet, sexy, nice, awesome, beautiful girlfriend can go from acting all nice to deranged sex loony in a matter of minutes.

Nope, I need answers.

"I think we need to talk Jess."

She springs from the bed as I start talking, and makes her way over to me

"Naw." She says, pushing me gently against the wall, staring at me intently "Don't feel like talkin." She trails her index finger down my chest "Feel like playin." She says, grinning wildly

I push her away from me gently, still keeping hold of her hand "I don't want to play baby, I want to have a chat."

I walk her to my bed, the bed we've shared nearly every night since we've been together, and sit down on it. She remains standing, staring between me and the bed, looking conflicted.

She takes a seat next to me a lets out an audible sigh. "OK Babe." She says, giving my hand a squeeze "What's up? I'm all ears."

Do you see what I mean? How she makes it seem so easy? Trivial? Like nothing is wrong.

"I'm confused, Jess" I say simply "What is happening between us?"

"What do you mean?" She asks getting defensive "We're dating, you're my girl, and you know that." She says, smiling at me slyly.

"I mean, that, well, after your birthday, you've been getting a little rough." I say, blushing profusely "And don't get me wrong! Rough can be fun, if we're both on the same page, but sometimes I feel like you're on page 18, and I'm still on page 12. It's just, you've actually hurt me a couple of times Jess, and I'm a slayer, that isn't easy."

"I don't think I get it? Yeah, sometimes I get a little adventurous, but that's normal Buffy, couples do that."

"Hey, I'm all for handcuff fun, but, it's not normal to, randomly rip your girlfriends clothes off and fuck her, spank her, hit her, regardless of where you are." I say, getting angry

"Oh come on babe, It's just harmless fun." She says with a laugh

"Harmless fun? Maybe, maybe I can overlook the hard, rough sex and the bruises, but you're also getting careless when slaying! Not taking orders, jumping into the fray without worrying about your team. Kennedy and Faith have told me a few –"

"That's it isn't it!" She cuts me off, standing, looking furious "You're little 'girlfriend' comes back and tells you I've been a bad soldier, and you stomp on me?"

"What? You've got to be fucking kidding me?!" I scoff. Standing to face her "This is about Faith? Still?! I thought we worked this out!!"

"Yeah! So did I!" She says, inching closer to me, looking ready to pounce "But you're always takin her side Buffy, anytime something goes wrong, you run to your little Faithy, waiting for her to save the day! She gets everything from you Buffy! Everything! The laughs, the tears, she knows what scares you, how you fight, and I'm sick of vying for your attention!"

"So instead of talking to me, like a mature adult, you all but rape me?" I say, incredulous "You should have told me this!"

"Tell you what? As if you'd listen! She is always number one!"

"I chose you." I say, tears starting to form "You think I couldn't have had her? You think I couldn't have dated her instead? I. CHOSE. YOU!"

"Yeah, you chose me, and then hid your relationship, or whatever you have, with her." She says, getting emotional "The fucking 'Chosen Two', between secret 3am slaying trips, secret touchin, the people catching you, how do you think that makes me feel Buff? How does that make ME look?"

"What do you mean?" I ask, confused "The people catching you? Catching us what? Slaying?"

She scoffs at me, and crosses her arms over her chest "Catching you FUCKING Buffy!" She yells at me "Catch you fucking in cemeteries, in the dorms, in the fucking garden! You continuously make a fool out of me!"

What?!

"What? You have to bed fucking kidding me! I'm not FUCKING FAITH!" I scream "Why would I fuck Faith? Like, honestly, why would I cheat on you, and fuck her?"

"I don't know!" She says, throwing her hands in the air "You tell me!"

"I have to sit down." I say, sitting on the bed

I try to compose myself a bit, before continuing

"I haven't been sleeping with Faith, not once. Not at all." I say, slowly.

"Bullshit!" She says "People have told me!"

"People? Which people? Seriously, give me names?" I ask

"Mel, for one." She says, sitting in a chair across from me

"Mel?" I scoff "As if she'd tell the truth! Who else?"

"Why would Mel lie to me?" She asks

"Ah, because Faith broke up with her, for me. She hates me. Has made it known to everyone."

"Oh." She says staring at her feet

"Oh my god." I say, standing up again "You HAVE to be kidding me! She was the only one, wasn't she? Nobody else said anything!"

She just sits there, tears brimming in her eyes.

"Congratulations Jess, seriously, well done. Not once did you have anything to me! If you want to have a grown up relationship with someone, you talk about this shit. You were so easily led by 1 person, so easy to believe that I was cheating. What sort of relationship is that?"

"Are you breaking up with me?" She asks, tears streaming down her face "I'm sorry Buffy, I'm really sorry, I'm fucking stupid, it's just, I don't get it. How someone so hot, sexy, beautiful, smart, strong, would choose me? All I knew was that, after the whole secret slaying thing, I started questioning everything, I was head-over-heels in love with you, and I thought I was losing you."

She walks over to me and grabs my hand, pulling it to her heart

"I love you Buffy, with everything I am. This heart; It beats for you. Please give me a second shot."

"I don't know if we can get that trust back." I say honestly

"But!" She starts

"No, let me finish." I say, making us sit on my bed "I don't know if we can get that trust back, but I don't know if I could live with myself if I didn't give you another shot. I love you, and I want us to make this work."

"For real?" She asks, smiling at me

"Yeah baby." I say, kissing her quickly "I just want my girlfriend back."

She leans in tentatively, brushing her lips against mine. She comes back to kiss me again, properly this time, deeply, full of love and passion.

"I love you, Barbie, I don't think I've ever loved anything like I love you."

"I love you too." I say, confident that I do love her, but still unsure if I made the right decision. I know I love her, but I don't think I can ever love her like she loves me.

June 16th

Jess and I make our way downstairs, after about 10 hours of arguing, laughing, crying, and making up.

We're met at the bottom of the stairs by a nervous looking Faith, I make eye contact with Jess, to see how she will handle talking to Faith, she tenses briefly, but then lets it go, and greets Faith with a warm smile

"Hey lust-bunnies." Faith says, nodding at us

"Hey Faith." Both Jess and I reply

I look at Faith and she is looking really anxious and nervous

"What's up Faith?" I ask, genuinely concerned

"Listen, it's nothing major." She says, her words giving me the exact opposite feeling "Just, Mel came up to me yesterday, sprouting all this shit about how she's been fucking another slayer." She says, eyeing Jess and I nervously "Well, she told me she'd been sleeping with Jess."

Jess automatically tenses up and starts to say something, Faith cuts her off though

"Relax, Green-eyes." Faith says "Only a dumb-ass would believe a word that bitch says." Faith says matter-of-factly "And plus, really, if I thought she was tellin the truth, I'd tell B one on one, then kick your ass." She grins

"I just thought I'd give you guys a heads up." She says, and walks up the stairs

I turn to look at Jess, and I can tell she is angry, I'm thinking she is not only angry at Mel, but I think Faiths 'Dumb ass' comment would have cut her deep.

"I can't believe I couldn't see how manipulative she was, Buffy." Jess says, deeply hurt

"Don't stress babe, Faith dated her, of course she knows she's insane!"

As the words leave my mouth, Mel walks out the kitchen with a bottle of water, before I can react; Jess has jumped over the stairs and has sent Mel flying through the kitchen table.

"YOU FUCKING LYING BITCH!" She yells at her as she jumps on her and punches her "I'll fucking destroy you!" She says and punches her in the face

I walk up to her, and pull her off of Mel. By this stage half the house is downstairs, including Faith, who takes Jess by the hand and walks her outside chuckling, I hear a faint "Good work" before they are out of sight and earshot

I lean down and offer Mel a hand up, she eyes me suspiciously before accepting my hand. I pull her to her feet, and call a couple of the slayers to help her

"Tash, Stacey, get Mel patched up, Anna, Louise, go pack Mels bags. Mel, you are no longer welcomed in this house." I say, turning to leave the house

"You can't kick me out Buffy! I'm a watcher!" She whines

"I'm the slayer, slayer trumps watcher, you're officially fired." I glare at her "Think yourself lucky that it was Jess, cos if you mess with me or mine again, you'll understand why I trump you. Get out."


Teaser for next chapter below

March 2006

As I hear the chords to 'here comes the bride' play, I'm suddenly nervous, anxious, and kinda gassy, all at the same time.

I can't believe this day is here!


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