Chapter 8: My Love

Hey guys, this chapter is just an EPOV(Edward's) about a few things, but it is mainly about chapter 7. You can read it to see his side of what happened in chapter 7 or you can completely ignore it. This chapter was inspired by Christina Perri's A Thousand Years song. Good song if you have never heard it before.

I stared blankly ahead of me as I sat, curled up in a ball with my arms around my knees. I was in some bar in Rio, staying in the abandoned attic that no one ever came up to anymore. I didn't know how long I stayed up here, but I knew it was a long time since the burn of not hunting in a long time started to increase day by day. I just pushed that urge to the back of my mind.

I wallowed in my self-loathing and pity as I replayed what I did to my precious Bella.

I am a monster for putting my angel through everything that associated with my world. A beautiful angel should have never met or fell in love with a monster. It was wrong, yet it was so perfect too. The selfish part of me wanted to run back to her and take back everything that I said that day in the woods. I wanted her to be a part of my world, to become a vampire like me and live for eternity by my side.

The reasonable part of me said that she could never fully love a monster like me and that I had to protect her at all costs from the dangers my world brought, including me. From day one, I gave her nothing but problems. First with me trying to kill her in Biology, then the car crash, next was James, and finally my own brother, Jasper, tried to kill her at her birthday party.

She probably hates me now.

I wouldn't blame her, I would hate me too if I gave her that much danger in her life.

I also remember the good times we had, laughing and playing with my family. The most wonderful memory I had of us was when we shared that night together a week before her birthday. She finally broke down my boundaries and we made love while the rest went out hunting. It felt extraordinary to be joined like that with her.

I huddled more into the ball that I was in. Remembering that night was bad, since it increased my need to be with her again.

My cell phone brought me out of my musing. I looked down to see that Alice was calling. I missed my favorite sister dearly. I can't remember the last time we talked. Was it minutes, days, weeks, months, years? How long had I been gone? How much had I hurt my family in my own selfishness from running away? I would try to fix my family as much as I could in my dead state.

I picked up the phone. "Alice, what do you want?" I growled out, wincing at how dead my voice sounded and how annoyed I sounded too. I didn't want to be mean, but I guess it was an automatic response from hurting myself.

"Edward, its Bella. She's dying." Alice stated, giving no mind to my rudeness.

I froze. My Bella was dying. My beautiful, wonderful Bella was not going to be on this dreadful planet anymore. I was panicking. How could she be dying? Why was she dying? Did something really bad happen to her?

Oh god, I left her all alone and now she was dying. Was this some kind of divine punishment for leaving an angel?

Then I remembered that Alice saw Bella dying and I told her not to look into Bella's future. That angered me. "WHAT! Alice I told you not to look into her future! What do you mean she is dying?!" I was filled with so much pain at the thought of sweet innocent Bella dying, leaving me all alone in the world. I wanted to crumple into a ball and cry my eyes out at the thought of Bella not being in this world anymore.

"Edward, she found Carlisle and told him what was going on with her. We've been trying to find you for a month now since we don't know when Bella will die. We just know that she will. Her last wish is to see you again and I think that's the only thing that is keeping her here." I stopped breathing at that.

A month. They have been trying to find me for a month now with the knowledge of Bella dying at any time. I was sitting here in this dusty attic while Bella was probably terrified that she could die at any moment and I wasn't there with her.

I needed to be with her.

"Where are you? I'm going to come home." I resolved that I would fix everything when I got there. I would tell her I love her and kiss her till she ran out of air. I would hold her every day and make her realize the lie I told her that day in the woods. I don't care if she hated me now, I would make her love me again. I would fulfill her last wish of being with her till her dying breath. The selfish part of me wanted to change her so she wouldn't leave my side again. I would offer it to her if she still wanted to be changed. I would make everything right again.

"We are at the old house in Forks." I nodded my head I as got up off the floor. "I'll be there soon, I don't know when, but expect me at some time in the next week or so." I hung up and dusted my clothes off.

I know my family wouldn't care how I looked when I came back, so I didn't try to find new clothes. I climbed out of the window once night reached and I ran at vampire speed, wanting to get there as quick as I could. I didn't bother with hunting either because I don't think Bella would be at the house since she was dying she should be at the hospital. It took me all night, avoiding the places where humans would see and taking to the woods for cover.

I finally got to Forks just as the sun was rising. Thankfully the clouds were clotting the sky in a thick grey so I didn't sparkle in the light. I made my way straight to the house, knowing I would be there in 30 minutes.

I was preparing myself to see the family again. I was excited a bit to see Esme and Alice and also a bit terrified to find out how much I hurt them by leaving like I did. Carlisle would be glad that I was back and he would accept me like he did when I went on my rebellious streak in the '30s. I didn't know if Rosalie and Emmett would be there. I knew Rose didn't like Bella all that much and I was sure that she wouldn't care if my precious Bella died. Emmett would follow Rose, even though I know that he loves Bella like a sister.

Jasper was always with Alice so I knew he was going to be there, though that thought unsettled me. I didn't want him close to my Bella since the accident at her birthday was caused by him. But I also envied him because he gets to spend eternity with Alice while I only had a short time left with my Bella. God, I didn't even know how long I had left to be with her.

Would she die instantly as soon as she lays eyes on me and I wouldn't be able to offer to change her?

Would she hold on for a bit longer so I could offer to change her?

Would she die just from the knowledge that I was coming back and I wouldn't be able to see her alive for the last moments?

These questions swirled around in my mind, making fear grip my dead heart. I didn't want to lose her at all.

I finally saw the house and I busted through the door, not even bothering to knock since they knew I was coming.

I was surprised to see my whole family swarm me as soon as I stepped foot in the house. The only ones that weren't there was Alice and Bella, though I wasn't really expecting Bella to be here. Esme was the first one to hug me, squeezing me to her body as if I was gone for a really long time. I might have been, since I don't remember how long I have been gone.

Their thoughts all bounce around, jumbling together so I couldn't distinguish whose was whose and their train of thought. I blocked their voices out as I stood there patiently waiting till they calmed down so I could think and talk. They suddenly stopped talking and I looked to the stairs where I heard a familiar heartbeat.

There stood Bella, being supported by Alice. I sucked in a sharp breath, taking in her floral scent that was surprisingly not appetizing to me in the least. She smelled more like a candle or one of us instead of something our prey would smell like. I would have to ask her about that later. I looked her body up and down, expecting to see her deathly thin and pale. Instead she was pale, but not in a sickly way. It was her normal pale. Her warm brown eyes had life in them still and her face was flushed beautifully. Her legs and arms were thin, but not twig like, like I was expecting. What surprised me the most was the bump under her blue shirt that clearly screamed baby at me. She looked more pregnant than as if she were about to die any moment.

I felt regret, sorrow, and pain at the thought of her moving on to another guy, much sooner than I expected judging by the bump. She had listened to me for once and moved on, but then I didn't know why I was called here since it seemed like she was only pregnant, not deathly sick. I felt so confused and hurt by all this. Did she want to prove to me that she moved on like I asked then?

I walked towards her, hearing her breathing deeply and a brief concern took over me, wondering if she was hyperventilating. Did she not know I was coming over or was she afraid of me?

I reached my hand out to touch her face, the need to touch her soft skin overwhelming me. I gently brushed my fingers over her cheek, pressing a bit firmer when I realize that this was actually happening and I was seeing my beautiful Bella again. "Bella," I breathed, happiness welled inside me, but I kept it back, not wanting to scare her any more than what I was.

I noticed that her legs were trembling and I was afraid she was going to collapse right there so I grabbed her arm, remembering that she was a frail human so I only applied a little pressure, enough to keep her up right.

"Edward, why don't you take her up to your room?" I heard Carlisle question softly behind me. Son she can't stand for long periods of times in her state, his thoughts spoke to me. I wondered if he meant since her being pregnant was why she couldn't stand for a long time or was it something else. I deftly nodded before scooping Bella up in my arms, sending a slight shiver down my body as her warm body was pressed into mine again. I had to remind myself that she wasn't mine anymore. I quickly made my way up to my room. I heard the rest of the family stay down stairs or hunt close to the house, giving us some privacy.

I noticed that she gripped my arms and looked like she was about to be sick as she rested her head on my chest. I held still waiting for her to calm down. Once she looked a bit better I sat her down on my bed before I backed away to stand a few feet away from her.

I didn't know what to say as I looked away from her. Should I ask how she was doing? Who she was with now? I wondered if she was happy with the new guy. Was she really sick or was she just pregnant. She didn't seem to be making a move to talk.

"You're not really sick, are you?" I questioned softly, wondering when my mouth opened without thinking. I felt like an idiot for jumping to conclusion, but she really didn't look sick. She looked up at me, confusion painted across her beautiful face. She seemed to not understand why I was asking this or she was confused on why I thought she was sick. Did Alice not tell her the reason I was here or how she got me here?

I indicated towards her stomach where her baby bump was. "I think Alice was exaggerating when she said you were dying. You seem to be perfectly fine, besides being pregnant. I don't see why I was brought here though since it seems like you moved on with someone else." I honestly didn't know why I was here if she was just pregnant. It's not like I could do anything about it. I looked out towards the window, admiring the forest stretched before my window in a sea of green.

My ears picked up a harsh breath and I froze slightly, wondering if I made her angry or I caught her on something she didn't want me to know.

"Edward, I didn't move on. Both babies are yours. We are going to be parents." Her voice held suppressed anger as she spoke to me. I turned back towards her, my eyes widening from a lot of different reason. One, she said that she hadn't moved on. If that was true, then how was she pregnant? A thought struck me that filled me with horror and dread. Was she raped? I didn't dwell on that thought long, not wanting to think that my innocent Bella was violated in such a way. Second, she said babies. I was shocked to know she was having more than one. I focused my hearing on her more, picking out two fast heartbeats that mingled with her slower heartbeat. I was a bit surprised that I didn't pick it out at the very beginning. Third, she said we, as in both of us, are going to become parents. She was suggesting that I was a father. I know that we made love four months ago and she appeared to be four months pregnant, but that doesn't automatically make me the father. Plus there is the fact that vampires couldn't have children.

I glanced down at her stomach again. Maybe Bella did the impossible and made it so we could have children.

No, I don't believe that I could have children. A monster like me didn't deserve to have children and if they were half-vampire, what would that do to Bella. If they were half-vampire is that the reason then on why Alice said Bella was dying. Bella surely didn't look like she was dying though.

My lips twitched at the ludicrous idea of having children and before I knew it a smile broke out across my face. I started to chuckle as the idea became more and more insane to me. I started to laugh at the very idea of vampires have children and I was boarder line hysterical at the notion that I was fathering two children. I couldn't believe that, vampires were never supposed to have children in the first place, and all our organs and productive systems were dead as far as I know.

I started to calm down and I smile a bit, thinking that Bella was absolutely silly of thinking that she was pregnant with my children and I wasn't happy at her for prying on my dreams like that. I wasn't happy at all because that was a secret wish I held in my heart of having a family of some kind with her. And now she just had to poke fun at that wish with telling me she was pregnant with my children when she was actually pregnant with someone else's. I saw her face pale and drop.

"Bella, vampires can't have children. It's impossible. I don't know who you moved on with, but only someone human or alive can give you children." I winced at the idea of another human touching her, or worse, one of those dogs in La Push. I wanted to be human for her though. I wanted to give her the world, but I couldn't since I was dead, a non-living creature that was cursed to roam the earth for eternity.

I watched as she stared at me open mouth in anger. She opened her mouth and closed it a few times, seeming to be at a loss for words. I waited to see if she would tell me I was wrong or to see if I called her out on what she did. I knew I was being slightly mean to her, but I didn't like being made fun of by saying I was going to be a father. It was cruel of her to suggest that.

Her eyes clouded over in pain and anger as her face flushed a dark red. I could smell salt water and realized that she was about to cry. Her chest started to heave and I could hear a slight wheeze in her lungs as she drew air in. Bella finally opened her mouth to me to talk.

"How dare you accuse me of cheating on you? I love only you! I couldn't stand to be in another man's arms let alone have sex with him! I've only made love to you, though I can clearly see that it meant nothing to you! I am pregnant with your children whether you like it or not and I thought you would want to know about them! Clearly I should have kept you away from them! I don't want you near-" I watched in horror as her tirade was cut off by her coughing.

Her shoulders shook with every cough that emitted from her and I froze as the smell of her blood hit my nose. Blood streamed from her mouth and onto her hand. It kept flowing from her mouth and it streaked down her arms in a race to hit the golden comforter. "Carlisle, help!" I shouted, hoping he would come right away. I didn't want to get near her, afraid I might lose control with her blood outside of her body. I held my breath, waiting for Carlisle to come up.

I could hear Carlisle racing through the forest back towards the house as Bella's coughing died down. Her lips were stained red along with the corners of her mouth and chin. The blood was starting to slow down on her arm, only a streak or so racing quickly down before it stops midway or drips down. I watched in concern as she just stared at her blood covered hand, wondering if she was feeling alright with looking at the blood. I know she doesn't like the smell of blood.

She fell sideways onto the bed just as Carlisle got here. He ran straight to her side, looking her over to see what the damage is. He noticed the blood from her mouth and on her arm.

Edward, what happened here? His thoughts echoed to me as he checked everything on her. Once he made sure everything was okay he went to get a warm wet cloth to wipe the blood from her person.

"I don't fully know. I just told her what I thought and she got angry at me and started to yell then she just broke down into a coughing fit and blood was coming out of her mouth." I shivered in fear as the last few minutes played through my head. Did I cause her to cough up blood?

I feared for that answer. My innocent Bella obviously had something wrong with her other than being pregnant. I felt like an idiot for not asking what was fully wrong with her instead of jumping to conclusions and accusing her of things that she told me was not true.

Edward, why don't you head to my office and then you can explain everything to me. I'll be there in a few minutes. I need to clean Bella up first. Carlisle thought as he came back into the room, holding the warm wet cloth. I nodded to him before making my way to his office on the second floor.

I paced back and forth till he got here, worries plaguing my mind on what was wrong with Bella.

He came in a few minutes later, looking concerned at my pacing. Alright Edward, tell me everything that happened, Carlisle sat in his office chair and looked expectantly to me. I told him everything from our talk. I was completely truthful with him since he is my father and I didn't like to keep secrets from him. I trusted Carlisle.

He looked disappointed in me and gave me a disapproving look when I finished the story. I hung my head as his thoughts reached me. I hope you plan to apologize to Bella because whether you like it or not, those children are yours. I've done some experiments on her without her knowing because some days it's hard for her to while others is easier. I added some animal blood to her smoothies to see how she would react to it and also to see if the twins inside her are really half-vampire. She actually seemed healthier after the first blood fruit smoothie, so now I put blood in all her smoothies, Carlisle thought back to me as he relaxed back in his chair. My eyes widened at his thoughts, shocked that he would give Bella blood without her knowledge, but secretly happy that she seemed healthier after wards.

I was then ashamed at myself for not believing and trusting my-no, not mine anymore- Bella's words. She was a horrible liar since day one and why I expected that to change, I have no clue. I would make it up to her though. I would do anything she asks of me and become the best father a child could ask for. I wanted to marry her too, not because of duty or honor, but because I love her.

I would ask her when we get on better ground than we are right now. She probably hates me for accusing her like I did and I would understand if she never forgave me, but I would at least try at every opportunity that I had.

"Carlisle, what is wrong with her? What caused her to cough up that much blood?" I questioned softly as worry and fear rose within me. Carlisle sighed and slumped back in his chair. This was obviously an unpleasant conversation for him and it was one that he would rather not think about either, but he knew he had to tell me since I had a right to know what was wrong with the mother of my children.

"Bella has terminal brain and lung cancer along with being pregnant with twins. She has a very rare case since most cancer patients don't get pregnant, much less with twins. She is getting weaker by day and I fear that she might not make it through the pregnancy. She can't be stressed or angered since it will aggravate her cancer and cause her to go in a coughing fit like she did today. She will most likely have a C-section and I'm estimating between 7-9 months till she goes into labor, though I'm leaning towards 7-8 months since most multiples are premature. If she lives through the birth, she will only have a year at most and a month at the least to live. Everyone here is offering to change her into one of us though, if she wants too." I shook with horror at the knowledge that Bella has cancer. I honestly don't know what to say to that. I didn't expect it to be that bad. My Bella, who was supposed to have 80 plus years left in her, is now down to a year at best.

I wanted to cry at this knowledge. It hurt to know that I was losing my Bella by a terminal disease instead of natural causes.

Just then I remember that Carlisle said that everyone was offering to change Bella if she wanted to be changed and I started to growl at that. I didn't want Bella to turn into a soulless creature like me. I wanted her to have a life. She is not going to have a life at all, she is just going to die, my mind whispered to me, Besides didn't you just promise yourself that you would do anything for her to make it up to her.

Shame and guilt flooded me as I realized I was about to go back on my word. I hung my head and clenched my fist as I realized that I couldn't even keep my word for 5 minutes. I really needed to work on compromise if I wanted a relationship with Bella again.

"Edward, why don't you go hunting for a bit? We'll call you when Bella starts to wake up." I nodded my head silently as I raced outside. I cleared my mind and focused on the smells of the forest. I picked off four deer and a mountain lion before I returned back to the house. It was dark by the time I got back and everyone was home too. I could tell by their thoughts that they were disappointed in me for what I said to Bella, but they sorta understood if they were in my position.

After so many years of knowing vampires can't create life unless it's a un-life, it was shocking to find out a male vampire could make a female human pregnant. I admit my reaction was very bad, but I was very shocked at knowing that I got Bella pregnant.

I heard a painful groan from upstairs and I was going to take off upstairs to apologize to Bella, but Alice grabbed my arm before I had the chance.

I growled at her for stopping me and Jasper inched closer to us, on guard in case I hurt Alice.

"Edward, you can't go up there yet. You will just make things worse if you try to apologize. Wait till she comes to you." Alice reasoned. I sighed, letting Alice win without a fight. I didn't want to make things worse for Bella. I ran upstairs though, intent on sitting outside her door. If I couldn't be by her side at the moment, then I could at least be near her. I heard Esme moving around the kitchen, making Bella something to eat as her thoughts drifted to how hungry she must be.

I listened closely to what Bella was doing in the room. I just heard the sheets rustling around and she sniffed a bit, but otherwise it was quiet for a few minutes.

"How long was I out?" her voice was hoarse as it drifted to my ears. I was confused. Was she questioning herself like some humans did when they've been out for a long time? But then again, her question sounded like it was directed to someone. I focused more, trying to hear if someone was in there with her. I heard her sigh with no particular emotion behind it as the sheets rustle more. She was quiet for a bit before I heard her soft voice, "What for?"

My eyebrows drew together, wondering what was going on as she continued to question herself. Was there someone in there or was she just talking to herself?

Edward, Bella has hallucinations caused by the cancer. She mainly hallucinates you, Alice thought as she stayed downstairs with Jasper and Emmett who were both playing video games.

I stared in horror as the realization struck me. My Bella hallucinates about me. She must have missed me so much that her thoughts took form of a hallucination me. Or maybe she was so upset and hated you that you just suddenly formed from her mind, a dark part of me whispered in my mind. I was depressed at that possibility as I focused back into her conversation.

I heard a dark chuckle emanate from the room as her voice flowed next, "I guess someone as perfect as him can still see flaws on himself, but then again, I'm far from perfect myself. I'm just a stupid human, plain even to human standards, so what should I know about my own body and whose child I'm having." Her voice had a mocking tone to it as the sheets rustled again. I was shocked from what she just said about herself.

I wanted to barge in and make her see that she was none of that. She was a beautiful, smart, caring woman that any man would be lucky to have. Then I felt bad when I doubted her on what was happening to her. I stayed where I was, willing myself not to go in there, especially when I heard her start to cry.

"Well what am I supposed to think? My Edward doesn't love me. He can't even stand the thought of having children with me, let alone the actual fact that I am pregnant with HIS child! I'm dying from cancer and I'm living with the fact that I won't be able to see my children at all. I might die at child birth for god's sake! I'm absolutely scared out of my wits because I don't know what will happen with my children and Edward. I want him to love our children and teach them the ropes of how to be a vampire, the good and the bad. I want Carlisle and Esme to be the grandparents and they can babysit the twins for when Edward needs to hunt and the kids can't go. I want Rose and Alice to spoil the girls if I have girls and Emmett and Jasper to teach the boys how to play sports and stuff if I have boys. I want Edward to love his own children even though he doesn't love me. I know Edward will be a great father." I balled my hands into fists to restrain myself from going in there to comfort her. I already loved our children from the moment the possibility that those tiny babies in her stomach were mine. I would do anything for our children and my family and I will teach the twins the ropes once they are born. I wanted to take away her fear of everything for her.

I wasn't going to let her die from cancer or child birth and I would change her, even if she didn't want it.

I wasn't going to lose the only thing that was good for me. Once I can apologize, I'll explain everything that I am going to do, so she can have some knowledge beforehand and she can say good bye to her parents and friends. I know my family would do anything for the twins, once they are born. Bella didn't need to worry about that, but then again I realized that my Bella never saw anything clearly, mostly about herself. I felt hurt when she mentioned that I didn't love her. I love her with all my being. I would have to show her how much I love her as soon as I get the chance.

I closed my eyes as I heard a muted scream from inside and I heard Jasper leaving the house to get far away from Bella because of intense pain she was feeling. I guess she is finally letting everything go as I heard her crying and muted screams. I opened my eyes when Esme's thoughts got closer and I saw her making her way up the steps with a tray in her hand. She walked straight up to the door and knocked lightly.

"Bella, I brought some food up here for you to eat dear," Esme's kind voice said as I sat and watched to see if Bella would get the food. We both heard her stomach growl, but I didn't hear the sheets shift indicating that she was getting up.

"Esme, can you leave it at the door? I'll get it later." Her voice sounded hoarse from crying layered with sleep and pain. It was also barely there. I watched as concern clouded my mother's face as she put the food down at the door. She knocked once, hoping Bella would get the meaning that she left the food there.

Edward, can you make sure she eats, I'm worried about her and I know all this stress and pain that she is in is not good for the babies, even if they are half-vampire, Esme thought as she leaned down to kiss my forehead in a motherly way as she left to go be with her mate.

I heard her exhausted voice saying something about eating tomorrow and then her breathing evened out as her heart slowed indicating that she was asleep. I was grateful that she could still sleep peacefully. She could escape the pain for a little while. I took the untouched food back down, waiting till she came down to talk to me.

For three days I waited for her to come down, but she seemed to stay up in my room, taking showers, picking at the food Esme gave her, and having conversations with the hallucination me. I was a little jealous of the hallucination because it got to talk to her while I had to wait to apologize to her.

On the fourth day, I had enough. I was worrying like crazy and I didn't want her to starve. She was a strong woman and I knew she could bounce back from something like this. I headed to her room since Alice wasn't here to stop me. Jasper and her went out hunting for a while, to get away from the depressing atmosphere that seemed to take residence in our house.

I opened the door without her hearing it and watched as morning finally came and she started to wake up. I made sure I stood out of her view range, taking in her body and see that her face was becoming gaunt from sickness and her eyes held immense pain that I desperately wanted to take away. She didn't notice me as she stared out the window at the scenery.

I finally snapped. "Bella, you need to snap out of this, this…funk that you are in," I demanded as I crossed my arms over my chest. My eyebrows drew together in concern as my mouth tilted downwards in worry. I watched as she glanced at me then turned her head away to the window again.

I would do anything to know what she was thinking at that moment.

"Bella, you need to eat something. You are going to kill yourself if you don't!" I was getting upset that she was refusing to eat to keep herself healthy for the twins. She just rolled her eyes at me and snorted as she replied, "I'm already dying, and not eating is just speeding up the process."

I stared at her in horror as the words hung in the air. She still refused to look at me, and I didn't know if it was because she was upset at me or because she didn't want to believe her own words.

I took a deep breath, a bit frustrated at her own stubbornness. "Bella, don't you have any goals to complete in life! And what about the twins, they need you to be as healthy as they can so they can survive. They are depending on you Bella." Her eyebrow twitched at my words and she seemed annoyed at me.

Well good, maybe she would relent and see the truth in my words.

"I did have a goal. It was to see Edward one last time and tell him I love him, but he clearly doesn't want to hear what I have to say anymore. And it's not 'the twins' it's OUR twins, Edward. It takes two people to make babies, so just stop playing dumb and actually fess up because you helped in making our miracles!" she sounded angry as she raised herself up on her elbow. Her voice was slight hoarse, but it was getting a lot better. I felt happiness swell in me as she said 'ours' instead of 'hers'. Then that happiness died as I realized that she believes that I didn't want to hear what she had to say anymore. I wished she could see it from my point that it was very hard to believe that the twins are really mine.

I winced in regret and sadness as I lowered my arms and walked towards her. I placed one knee on the bed and reached my hand out to touch where our babies rested. I felt calm and happy as I rubbed over the bump slightly, feeling them squirm under my touch.

"So, they really are mine then?" I questioned as I looked back up at her, hope and happiness coursing through me as the idea finally hit me. I was going to become a father with the most beautiful woman at my side. I couldn't think of anything better than that.

Confusion colored her face as she stared at me, "Edward, you are my hallucination, remember? You already know everything about what is going on with my cancer and how much pain I've been in. You already know I'm pregnant with your twins, so why do you need reassurance that the twins are yours?"

Realization struck me as she thought she was speaking to her hallucination the whole time. I couldn't hold back the wince as sadness took over me. I felt horrible that she couldn't differentiate the real me from the hallucination. I felt so bad for putting her through this and I felt like I could cry again at her simple statement of me being a hallucination that her mind fabricated just so I could be here with her.

"Love, I'm not a hallucination. I'm the real Edward," I tried to explain. I saw her eyes widened at my confession and a blush took over her face as shame started to cloud her eyes before she buried her head in the pillow. "How long have you been in the room with me?" she groaned into the pillow, still refusing to look at me.

"I came in last night, though I've been listening to you from the beginning. It hurt so much that I put you in so much pain and sadness and I couldn't do anything. Alice told me that she saw that I would do nothing, but harm you farther if I went in. I couldn't take it anymore and I came in last night, only to find you crying in your sleep. I held you till you were starting to wake up and stood back to see if you would notice me. I just grew frustrated that you were doing this to yourself that I just slipped up and talked." I started to pet her hair, hoping it would calm both her and me as I formed my apology on my lips.

"I snapped out of my stupidity and realize that you are not the kind to cheat on me and I know that you would never purposely get pregnant either. I just never imagined that a vampire could get someone pregnant." I was still awed over the fact that I got her pregnant and not some human boy that was undeserving of her love. I couldn't help but smile as I stared at her growing bump where our children lay safely protected from the world.

I felt age old male pride swell in me at the knowledge that my seed was planted in her womb, giving her a child and I felt even more pride at the knowledge that I gave her two children.

I saw her peeking out from the pillow with a bit of a wary expression in her brown doe eyes and tears leak out from her eyes. I realized that she needed more reassurance. I would continue to do so until she felt safe and loved in the knowledge that I truly do love her and our kids.

"Love, you can't imagine how happy it makes me to know that we are having kids." I admitted softly as I watched her turn on her back to stare at me. I looked back down at her stomach, remembering the recent ultrasound picture that Alice showed me of our children. I leaned down to kiss Baby A before moving on to kiss Baby B, marveling at the fact that they are both there and alive and they were all mine. I smelt salt water again as I looked up at the tears leaking from her brown eyes. I worried briefly if she was unhappy at me doing that without her permission since it is her body, but then she spoke.

"I do know, Edward. When I found out that I was pregnant with our twins, it was the only thing that kept me living through the devastating realization that I have terminal cancer. They are our miracles that I am proud to call mine." I felt relief rush through me at the fact that she wasn't mad at me for kissing her stomach and at the fact that she was happy at having our children. I couldn't stop smiling at the fact that we were having a family, something that was impossible with vampires. I leaned up to kiss her forehead, yearning to kiss her lips, but holding myself back. I was so grateful to this wonderful woman that held our children in her.

"I love you Isabella Marie Swan," I whispered against her forehead, feeling such love and joy coursing through my body. I heard her suck in a shuddering breath as she replied, "I love you Edward Anthony Masen Cullen."

I beamed as I leaned my forehead against hers to stare into her beautiful brown eyes. I felt so much lighter than I had ever been before.

I had to admit I didn't have two miracles. I have three.

I glanced down at her lips, having a strong urge to kiss her. I didn't know if I should or not or if she would want me to after all I put her through. I saw her lips tilt up in a smile as she leaned up and kissed me.

I closed my eyes, enjoying the slow, gentle kiss as everything that we said solidified into truth and our issues went away. Our hearts started to heal little by little as we continued to kiss. I knew I still had to be careful, even though the temptation of her blood wasn't there, she was still a human and therefor frail against my might.

I finally found my angel in this dark cold world that I walk in and I would gladly stay by her side for eternity.

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