Disclaimer: I don't own Victorious. Dan Schneider does.


Summary: When Jade has nowhere else to go, she finds she has to turn to Beck. But in doing this, what will Beck find out about her and how will he deal with it? How far will someone go to take care of the one they love?


Author's Note: I still had some unfinished business between Beck and Jade that I needed to deal with. And suffice to say, Jade did not want to cooperate. I have a feeling that will be a trend in the upcoming chapters.

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Chapter 9


It took Beck a good hour to get Jade to stop crying. From rubbing her back to holding her to whispering just how much he loved her, there wasn't much that consoled Jade.

"You don't have to stay," Jade said softly.

Beck shook his head. "I want to."

Jade tensed up when someone knocked at the door but immediately relaxed when she saw it was Cat.

"Hi! It's me and Tori and André. We brought tacos and frozen yogurt," Cat said as she peeked her head into the room. "Well, it's sort of milky, runny yogurt now. It kinda melted. Beck thought you'd like it better than the hospital food."

No one could argue with that. As Tori and André passed out the food, the atmosphere in the room was quiet. No one wanted to talk about the elephant in the room. Jade didn't say anything as she picked apart her taco. She didn't want to eat. She didn't want to do anything.

"When do you get to leave here?" Cat asked.

Jade shrugged her shoulders. She didn't know and she didn't want to go into the details of why.

André started to speak out but Beck shook his head no. Now was not the time to discuss this and Beck wanted to go over with Jade about how they wanted to approach that situation. He had gone behind her back before and since this concerned her, he felt it was best to deal with it that way.

The nurse came by an hour later to check on Jade's stats. She unhooked the IV and Jade rubbed her arm where the needle had been. It was not a good kind of pain.

"Visiting hours are over. You need to say your goodbyes and leave for the night," the nurse stated on her way out.

Jade looked at Beck. She didn't want him to leave. She wanted, no, needed him around right now.

"I'm staying here. Doctor already cleared it," he whispered.

That comforted Jade a little, knowing she didn't have to spend the night alone. As the rest of the gang said their goodbyes and left, Beck pulled Jade just a little closer. Once Tori, André, and Cat left, Jade turned to Beck, wanting answers.

"Why are you allowed to stay?"

"Because Cat lied to the doctor and told him I was your fiancé. It lets me stay with you and I think we both need that."

"Do they know about it?" she asked. Beck knew exactly what she was talking about.

"André does and that's only because I made him come with when I signed the paperwork. But I don't think he's told Tori and I know he hasn't told Cat because she would have been a wreck if she knew. I'm going to have to eventually but…I don't know."

"I mean, they'll know something's up when I don't go back to your place. They'd know you wouldn't leave me and hang out in your trailer alone."

"Do you want me to tell them?" he asked. He wasn't going to lie for Jade but for her, he would withhold the truth from their friends.

"Not really," she answered, her voice much higher than usual. "But you're going to have to. I know. They'll ask and you won't be able to delay it forever. Cat will start stalking you after a while and she'll ask you nonstop."

"Jade, what do you want me to do?" he asked. He needed a definitive answer.

Jade curled up closer to Beck.

"I don't want to be there when you tell them. I don't know their reactions. Seeing yours was bad enough."

"I'll take care of it tomorrow then. You should rest."

"Why?"

"It's been a long day."

Jade rolled her eyes. "Fine."

Jade didn't sleep much that night other than a few minutes here and there. Beck wasn't surprised because he couldn't sleep much either. But they didn't spend the night talking. Beck knew Jade was hurting from the betrayal. He tried not to think of it as a betrayal but as a way to help her. As the night dragged on, Beck desperately wanted to know what Jade was thinking about. As crazy as the notion was, he wanted to make it better. When Jade woke up and managed to stay awake for more than a few minutes, she saw that Beck hadn't moved the slightest from the night before.

"You stayed."

"All night. For you."

Jade wasn't even awake for five minutes before the doctor came in. He smiled halfheartedly at her and placed a set of pink scrubs on the end of the bed.

"You'll need to change into these," he instructed before he left the room.

Jade looked at them and scowled.

"Those are pink. I hate pink."

Beck picked them up and handed them to Jade.

"I know but it's not the end of the world. I'll pack some things up for you so you can wear them while you're here. They've given me guidelines to follow."

"Why are you doing this to me?" Jade was very much hoping to get out of it but Beck wasn't buying any of it.

"Don't think of it like that. I'm not doing it to you. I'm doing this for you and I don't like it either. I need your jewelry too. You can't wear it while you're there."

Without saying a word, Jade removed her piercings, necklaces, and rings. She held them for a moment before handing them to Beck.

"Keep them safe. I'll want them back."

"Don't worry. I will. You focus on getting better."

How could Jade focus on getting better? All she could think about was how alone she felt. She had gone to Beck because she trusted him. She had stayed even after he had found out because somewhere deep down she trusted Beck. She could have run away and left everything behind but she didn't and now she couldn't. Now she had to face everything full circle…alone. Jade was scared of being alone.

"You'll come see me, right? Promise?"

"I'll be here every afternoon, even today. And if I can't be here, I'll make sure someone gets up here for you. I promise. You are amazing and strong and beautiful and I know this isn't what you wanted and it's definitely not what I wanted to happen but you're going to get through this. Now go change and stop trying to delay this. It's only going to make it harder."

Jade quickly changed out of the hospital gown and into the scrubs she had been provided with in the bathroom. When she came back, she felt more insecure than ever. Even though her arms wrapped in white gauze and the scars weren't visibly evident, Jade knew what lied underneath wasn't pretty. She sat down in Beck's lap and wrapped her arms around him. She felt lost and scared and she was still with Beck. What was she supposed to do now? How was she supposed to deal with all this without him?

"It's gonna be okay," he whispered into her ear. "Trust me."

Jade hugged him tighter, not wanting to let go of him. Why did Beck have to do this? Why did Beck even have to find out? None of this would be happening if Beck didn't know.

An hour after the first doctor left, there was a knock at the door. A female doctor in her early thirties came in. She smiled, trying to ease the tension of the situation.

"Hi Jade. I'm Dr. Delphin and I'm in charge of your case while you're with us. Are you ready?"

Jade shook her head. No matter amount of time was going to prepare her for this.

"It's time to go. It's time," Beck stated.

He gave Jade a soft kiss on the lips before making her get up. Knowing she didn't really have another choice, Jade made her way over to Dr. Delphin and began to exit the room. As they reached the door, Jade turned to look at Beck, her eyes revealing how truly scared she was to do this.

"It's okay," he mouthed to her.

Dr. Delphin escorted Jade down to Section D, making mental notes on Jade's body language. Jade kept her arms close and guarded and didn't look ahead. Jade thought about running, just to get away but all that would do is probably put her in a padded room under complete surveillance. They passed a few other teenagers on the way, but Jade avoided eye contact. After receiving a tour of the ward, Dr. Delphin took Jade down to her room, which she would be expected to share with a roommate.

"Why don't you take the rest of the morning for yourself, settle in, and we'll talk after lunch."

Jade sat down on her bed and brought her knees up to her chest. She didn't want to be here. She didn't want to talk about her problems with some person she didn't know. Hell, she didn't even want to talk about them with Beck. She had been fine all this time without their help. But as Jade stared out the window of her room, she had never felt more alone and that was the last thing she needed to feel right now.