Meanwhile, POV: Aria
Hanna just finished helping me get ready to spend the night with Ezra. Even though I can barely move I want this night to be special. Not just for me but for the both of us. I hope that we can get some things out in the open and everything can be alright.
When he got there I smiled at him, "Hello." I said sitting up in my bed. I know that it's a long shot for me to walk to his bedroom all by myself, so I stay seated until he got over to me so he can help me get up.
He smiled back at me as he walked over to me. "Hello to you too. You seem to be feeling better." he commented giving me a kiss on my lips.
"Yeah, I slept most of the day though." I informed him. I lifted my arms up so he could help me stand up. He did so accordingly.
"I think that's ok though. You need to get better as fast as possible." he said putting his arm around my and helping me walk to the door. I walked myself more than he helped me though. It hurts, but I need to get better.
When we got to the door, I turned to look at Hanna, "You gonna be ok tonight?" I asked her knowing that when se is alone she will do crazy things, things that can and eventually will hurt her.
She rolled her eyes at me, "Yes mom. Spencer and I are going to go see a movie….. Spencer and I are going to go talk through a movie." she stated almost laughing.
I put my free arm up in the air, "I'm just making sure! There's no need in calling me mom twice in one day. I am certainly not your mother. That would be creepy if I were." I said defending myself with a smile on my face. I know she is just making fun of me, but it is true, I'm certainly not her mother.
After that, we walked over to his apartment and made ourselves cozy on his bed together. "So all of the strangeness… the texts… was all because of some anonymous person is harassing you?" he asked me after a few minutes of us sitting in silence, and enjoying each other company.
I took a deep breath, "Yes. The only time before this we've tried to tell someone, she went missing, came back for just long enough to skip town. She knows who -A is, but she's too afraid to tell us." I informed him.
"Who did you tell?" he questioned me wondering who we trusted more to tell.
"Our therapist…." I informed him. "I guess we felt more comfortable telling her because of the doctor patient confidentiality thing." I added.
He shrugged, "I guess that makes some sense. I don't see why you couldn't have told me though. You know that you can always tell me anything, right?" he said making sure I knew that.
I can feel a tear coming into the corner of my eye, "Trust me, I've always wanted to tell you everything, then the two of us just run away together. It'd be easier than just facing reality. I guess I should tell you my side of the story opposed to you hearing everything from Hanna." I stated.
Wiping the tear from my eye he smiled. "I would love to hear your side of your story. As I believe Hanna's side of the story was good, that was more about her than it was about you." he informed me.
"Well, I guess I should start at the very beginning with Alison. The first secret I ever shared with her, I didn't even intend to share. It was around Halloween time and we just ditched this girl we found very annoying- Mona. She hasn't always been the still annoying, but preppy girl that she is now. So we were eating our frozen yogurt, and found my dad hooking up with one of his students. Then you know what happened with that.
'Then on Halloween Ali played a horrible prank on us she made us think that someone was trying to kill her. Then forced me to go to Noel Cohn's party. This wasn't too long after what happened with my dad so I wasn't really in the mood of doing anything but lay in bed with a carton of Ben and Jerry.
'I told her more and more secrets, and she always used them against me, but yet I kept telling them to her. She never once shared one of her secrets with me though. She would always say 'Friends share secrets, that's what keep us close.' So we did just that.
'Then the Jenna thing happened. We were at Emily's house Trying on each others clothes, and Alison swore she saw Toby Cavanaugh peeking in the window. So she threw the stink bomb in their shed. She made us promise never to speak of it. Non of us slept for weeks. But you know all of this. Nothing of too much significance happened for a while, I told her more and more secrets, and she used them against me like she always did.
'When Ali got back from visiting her grandmother at the end of that summer, we could all tell that she was acting really weird. We had a sleep over in Spencer's barn that night. Hanna managed to lift a bottle of tequila or something like that off of her mom, and everyone but Ali drank way more than we should have. I'm sure we were saying all kinda of loopy things but I really don't remember anything from when we started to drink to when we woke up though. When I woke up Spencer was out looking for Alison. They was the last time we saw her until her body was found.
'So I left for Iceland and we all lost touch. When I moved back old memories and feeling started to resurface. We all started to get messages from -A out first we thought that Ali was still alive… but then her body was found. At Ali's funeral me and the girls started to get close. When we walked out we all got a text from -A, I will never forget what it said, 'I'm still here bitches, and I know everything-A' we kind of knew that it wasn't Alison by then but we didn't know what to think.
'All of the strangeness started to happen then, all of the texts, me suddenly needing to leave. It was all because of -A. Telling you this is very dangerous, -A is the person who ran over Hanna, who put drugged Emily, who made Toby fall off of the scaffolding. -A is dangerous, so we both, need to always be around people." I informed him telling him my side of the story by now tears have a steady flow out of both of our eyes.
He squeezed me tight and gave me a kiss. "Even after all of this, you know that I still love you right? And you know that I always will?" he questioned me wiping the tears from my eyes. The look on his face is loving and sad all at the same time.
I smiled at him, "Of course I know that. The same goes for you." I said and I started to kiss him. I helped him unbutton his shirt and within seconds it was on the ground. I then quickly took off my dress. This exposed my bandages.
Him getting a glanced at my bandages made him stop kissing me. "We really shouldn't. At least not until you're better. You're really supposed to be resting." he said sitting back up helping me back up with him.
"Ezra. I've been resting all day. I think I'm going to be alright. I'm feeling much better anyway. I'm a fast healer." I breathed bringing my lips to his again. There is no reason we shouldn't be able to enjoy ourselves the way we want to on our anniversary.
He went along with my desires for a few minutes but then he again pulled away. "Aria. We don't have to sneak around anymore, we can do this any night now. We should do it tonight we should wait until you're feeling better." he insisted. Why is he being so difficult about this? I'm feeling better and I want to have some fun.
I did as he said all the same because I knew that this was not a fight that I was going to win. So we got back settled me leaning against him, his arms wrapped around me, and I am enjoying his embrace. My mind started to wonder, I giggled at what I'm thinking about.
Curiosity filled his eyes, "What are you laughing at?" he asked me resting his cheek gently on the top of my head. His hand is rubbing over my wound, to the point I can barely tell that his hand is there.
"About the first time that I came over here. I was so upset with everything going on with my dad and everything. Little did I know that that was barely the beginning of my problems." I sighed. I know that what I just said isn't really a good thing to laugh at, but it helps.
We both got quiet for a moment, "I get that you were depressed, but why did you do it?" he wondered aloud.
I took a deep breath, "There came a point were I felt like I had to, it was something to focus on other then everything around, and honestly I feel soo guilty for the Jenna thing and keeping the secret from my mom, and so many other things that I guess it's like a punishment." I informed him not knowing a better way to put it other then that.
His embrace tightened around me, "You do know now that there was no reason for punishment like that, right? Nothing that you could have done would justify making that alright. Whenever you get to feeling like that you come to me. Or Hanna, or whoever else you feel comfortable talking to about this that you think can make you feel better." he stated. We are both crying, not as bad as before but we sure enough are. This is such a touchy subject that it's hard to talk about.
I smiled at him putting one of my arms around his waist, "Yes Ezra I know that now. Now that I've had time to think, now that I've been paralyzed for a day. I don't know what I was thinking, but I know that I want to be better. At this moment. Right now. I have no desire what so ever to cut myself. If that were enough though that would be perfect, but I've never wanted to do this, it just happened. But Hanna and I have worked something's out to keep each other from doing bad things to ourselves." I informed him.
"I'm glad to hear that you and Hanna have something worked out. If there is anything at all I can do to help please tell me, right away." he requested the tears starting to dry from our eyes yet again after pouring out.
"This. Right now. It is helping. You being here for me, helping me through all of this, it helps me so much." I let him know with a smile. I gave him a kiss, I didn't try to make it into anything more this time, but this kiss. It meant something to both of us.
I fell asleep a few just a few minutes later, and I'm sure that he got both of us comfortable in the bed and he most likely joined me in slumber shortly after. I had a dream about Ezra and living in a big house together holing a baby in our arms. I want that for us, maybe not right now, but some day I want to marry him and start a family with him. Ezra is the man for me and I've known it since the day that I met him. That is why I fought for our relationship. Our relationship means more to me than anything, and I feel lucky to have a man like him.
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