Don't Eat Me! okay sorry i haven't updated for AGES, i just hadn't had any inspiration... anyway, this is only PART of what i've written, i need to think more before i finish it, and its really long... and i decided to post what i've written so far now because i hadn't posted in ages... so here's part 1, it's set, (if Sirius ran away in 5th year, which i think he said in the books, if he said it in the books, i forget) in 5th year, so yeah (: part 2 will be up soonish.

Have fun (:

I had a free period before my Ancient Runes class, I didn't feel like staying in the common room or going to the library as I had already finished my homework for the week, so I decided to go for a walk around the castle. That's why I found Sirius in an empty classroom by himself. His hands over his face, his backed stooped over one of the tables. I hesitated, should I talk to him or just leave? He probably won't talk to me anyway, he doesn't talk to anyone but James nowadays, sometimes Remus and Peter, that's what Remus said anyway. I decided to leave him alone, as quietly as I could I turned to leave the classroom, but I bumped into the wall.

"Ouch!" I muttered and rubbed my head.
"Sally?" I heard his muffled voice from behind me.

"Er, yeah, hey Sirius… sorry I was… was just leaving" I said and walked towards the door, cursing silently to myself.

"No wait, I…" his voice cracked.

Turning around slowly I looked him straight in the eyes. "I'm sorry," I said, "I was walking around and I didn't realise you were in here until just before, I figured you wanted to be alone so I was just leaving"

"Oh… yeah, yeah I guess…" was all he said.

I was just about to shut the door behind me when I said, "unless… you need to talk to, I mean, if you want –"

"Yeah."

Taking a deep breath I walked over to his table and pulled a chair over. Placing my chin in my hands I surveyed him for a minute in silence. He looked pale and his hair unkempt, his eyes were blotchy and red and were just well, sad looking, he looked awful really.

"What's up?" I said, not really knowing what else to say.

He sighed after a moment, "I just need to talk to someone"
"Okay." Jeesh I'm amazing at consoling people... "er what about?"

He lifted his head and looked into my eyes before sighing again and leaning back into his chair. "Usually I talk to James about this, but he's not here right now, and he already knows all of this anyway… I don't know,"

Yeah that didn't really make sense to me either. "Okay" I said again, not sure what to do. Another moment of silence enveloped us.

"During the Christmas holidays I ran away from home" he said suddenly.

I nodded, the whole school knew that Sirius had ran away to James' house for Christmas.

"That's why you've been so…"
"Not talking to anyone? Down in the dumps? Short-tempered? Yeah."

"Do you… do you want to tell me about it?" I asked tentatively

This took him by surprise, he leant back onto his hands propped up against the desk, "Yeah"

There was another moment of silence while I let him sort his emotions out, I noticed that the silence wasn't awkward, I could almost hear his brain whizzing around, what he should tell me, what he shouldn't, could he trust me, can I keep the secret. I knew he'd be thinking about this, if the situation was reversed I'd be doing the same.

"I'd had enough," he began, "you know my family, they're horrible, idiotic Pure-blood prats. I'd had enough of them. So, I ran away, I went to James' house."

"How did James' parents take it?" I asked despite myself knowing I shouldn't pry.

"They were fine with it, they treat me like their own" he said fondly, "anyway, I'd had anough of my parents treating me like dirt. That was the final straw, you know?"

"what was the final straw?" I asked confused.

He sighed, "they where talking about how perfect Regulus was again, saying how bad of a child I was. That's not the bad thing though, no that happens all the time, it was the fact that they were saying this right in front of me and the whole relations, during our stupid Christmas celebration dinner, like I wasn't there. And you know what else? For Christmas they gave me a book on proper etiquette and famous Slytherins from history. I'd prefer it if they gave me nothing like last year…"

"That's just… I mean, how…?" I said, I had no words.

He nodded, "and so, I ran up to my room, packed a few things in my bag and grabbed my broom and flew to James' house, but not before my parents, just as I was getting downstairs, caught me and, well, let's say it's lucky Mrs Potter knew how a few spells for healing cuts, bruises and bones…"

I sat there in silence but my face was in shock. I knew his parents were horrible, I mean I sometimes over heard him ranting about them in the common room to James, but I never knew they could be that cruel.

"Oh Sirius," I said as he looked at me with a pained expression, I placed a hand on his.

"That's not the only thing bothering you though, is it?" I said quietly.
"yeah, how'd you figure?"

"well I didn't think you'd be brooding over running away from home, there must be something else"

He was silent for a moment, then, "I feel as if I can trust you, you know?" This took me by surprise, he seemed to notice this. "Yeah, I don't know why though, you just seem like the right person to talk to."

I considered this for a moment, although it didn't seem like he was telling me the whole truth as to why he can trust me, "well thanks then Sirius, if you ever need someone to talk to, or anything, really". He nodded and I squeezed his hand slightly, smiling.

"I hate it." He said, "I hate the fact that I have to keep up this stupid facade of Sirius Black, the rebel child who dates every chick and doesn't care about anyone. And if I ever do something different to what everyone expects… I, I just hate it." Well that was a kick up the old arse. Who knew? Definitely not me.

***I know, not much of a suspense at the end, but thats because i haven't figured out how to convey what i want to be written yet, don't worry, i'll do it soon :) THANKS for reading! 3***

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