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DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN VAMPIRE DIARIES OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS, NO MATTER HOW MUCH I WOULD LIKE TO. THEY ALL BELONG TO L.J SMITH.
SUMMARY: BONNIE'S MIND AND HEART ARE AT WAR ABOUT WHO TO LOVE, AFTER SPENDING FOUR MONTHS WITH, WHOM SHE CALLS THE DEVIL, SHE BEGAN QUESTIONING WHICH TO TRUST HER HEART OR HER MIND.
"What did she say to you?" he asked, he looked upset by the idea that his mother spoke with me.
"She wanted the ascendant, and she wasn't nice about it, I don't know what kind of promise you made to h-..."
"Don't worry about it, those friends of hers will never set foot in Mystic Falls, I promise."
CHAPTER NINE: Secrets and Lies
I turned the oval shaped container over and over in my hand, watching the movement of the slightly viscous liquid inside. I bundled the sheets at my waist and sat up in bed. I was troubled, I couldn't sleep.
I took a peek at the window and saw that outside was still dark. I was still wide awake. I couldn't bring myself to fall back asleep, too much was on my mind.
My thoughts kept going back and forth, from Elena and the cure to Damon. These notions had been a plague on my mind since the moment I reached home. I spent all afternoon with Damon; the cure was in my pocket, and we were alone.
All I had to do was tell him the truth, but I didn't. Now I couldn't sleep. This little container held such significance; it could either make or break me, I didn't know which.
Why? Why did I let myself fall for him? It would have been so easy to give Elena the cure from the goodwill of my heart if I had not allowed myself to got roped in; To be charmed and seduced by the older Salvatore as so many had.
I thought I was stronger than that, but I got wheeled into the web that had already drawn in both Caroline and Elena. For years I've kept myself out of their love triangles, which only resulted in heartbreaks and death, especially to those completely innocent. Years ago, Damon was just another ally in keeping the town and the people I loved safe from others worse than him. But somehow he had wiggled his way into my heart and threw me off balance.
He was like an itch I couldn't shake, the more I scratched, the sweeter the feeling. He now occupied a vast space in both my heart and mind. My heart went into overdrive every time he touched me, and I couldn't stop thinking about him.
Whether I was asleep or awake, he was always at the forefront of my mind. His face, the way he smiled at me, how he'd whispered in my ear, the way my body came to life under his touch when he had kissed me it as if I was on fire.
I was hopelessly in love with him. My heart twisted at the realization, what was I to do?
I sat up in bed all night lost in thought. I didn't even realize when dawn arrived until the sun peeked through the window and I had to shield my eyes from the rays. I threw the sheets from me and swung my feet to the side of the bed.
I trudged to the bathroom still exhausted from my lack of sleep. I made quick work of my personal needs before I got dressed, grabbed my keys off the counter and went through the front door.
"Hey," Caroline greeted me as soon as I stepped out the car. "You look terrible, rough night?"
"Tell me about it," I replied, she fell into step with me walking up the concrete entrance of Whitmore.
"So have you decided what you're gonna do with the cure?" she asked.
"No Care, I still don't know what to do," I said still undecided. We entered the classroom a couple of minutes before the lecture began.
I had not seen Elena much that day, and I was grateful, I hated the guilt that threatened to consume me every time I saw her. My classes at Whitmore finished in the early afternoon. I sat in the car and pondered if I should tell Damon about the cure, what good would it do me if I kept it from him.
A shadow fell over my window, and I quickly thrust the cure in my pocket and looked up. I saw a guy from class waving his hand at me to roll my window down, so I did.
"Can I help you?" I asked.
"You're Bonnie Bennett right?" he asked instead.
"Who wants to know?"
"I'm sorry my name is Jesse we have a couple of classes together," he said, rubbing the back of his head a clear sign of nervousness. "I just wanted to invite you to this party in the dorms later," he said a hopeful expression on his face.
"What makes you think I'd want to go to a party?"
"I don't know you seem like someone who knows how to have fun," he said, my lips twitched, he saw and smiled at me.
"Come on, it'll be fun, I guarantee it," he stated in that same hopeful tone. A text came in on my phone at that point, and I held my finger up for him to give me a minute. I dug in my purse in search of my phone. It was from Damon saying he was on his way home if he could pick me up.
I shoot him a text saying I'd meet him at his house in an hour or so instead. I dropped my phone back into my purse and turned back to this Jesse guy so I could refuse his offer, but he was already gone. Huh?
Well, that was strange, I rolled my window back up, pushed the keys into the ignition and pulled out of the school parking lot.
Damon pulled me through the door and into his arms before I could even knock on the door. His face disappearing between my neck and shoulder. He nibbled on my neck before inhaling.
"I missed you, you've been on my mind all day, you didn't put a spell on me, did you?" he asked, but I had hardly heard a word he said, my mind was preoccupied with what he was doing to my neck.
"Would you be opposed to me biting you?" he asked, scraping his teeth across my skin. I never really thought about it, the last time he bit me he was trying to kill me. I wondered how different it would be if he didn't want to kill me. I felt terrified and a bit excited by the prospect. Wait! was I considering letting Damon bite me? Yes! Yes, I was.
"Well, I wouldn't say completely opposed, my interest in piqued," I said, he pulled back swiftly and looked at me.
"Really," he asked, he seemed surprised I was even thinking about letting him do it. He pulled me over the couch so fast and deposited me in his lap my legs widening over his waist. My lips immediately sealed over his, my mouth opened and took his tongue into my mouth.
A groaned left his lips as he hands gripped my waist pulling me closer. His lips left mine and moved to my neck. He pulled my hair around the other side, then start placing wet kisses on my neck, I moaned at the sensation.
"Can I?" he asked huskily, and I quickly nodded my head in agreement. My heart pounded in my chest when I felt his fangs elongated on my skin. A shiver ran through me, then a pinch of pain when his teeth sank into my skin.
One of his hands went up to grasp my neck turning it to the side for better access while his other hand grabbed onto my ass squeezing me more into the erection I felt forming in his pants.
I felt my panties dampen as he continued grinding me down unto him, my god, who would have thought having Damon fed on me would turn me on so much. I practically felt my blood flowing out my body and into his.
A few seconds later he pulled his teeth from me and started lapping at my neck, rubbing his tongue over the wound and the excess blood running down. I continued to grind down onto his erection; gasps of ecstasy escaped me at the sensation. Soon we were both grinding, chasing the high; I was right there his jean button was rubbing right on my clit.
We both got lost in each other, absorbed in the feelings we evoked with our actions. Suddenly Damon stopped his movements and pulled back. I was so close to coming. I opened my eyes and looked at him, but his head was, turned to the front door. I quickly snapped my head in that direction and saw the shocked stance of Stefan by the door.
I tried to remove myself from Damon's lap, but he wouldn't let me go. I felt mortified; Stefan was still standing by the door frozen in disbelief.
"Brother? You mind giving us some privacy?" Damon asked nonchalantly at Stefan, who then shook his head and blinked at us.
"Um…... I... excuse me," he said before he clumsily went back out the door.
"Finally! I thought he would never leave, now where were we?" Damon asked, but I was no longer in the mood.
"Damon I...oh my god we should have gone up to the bedroom," I said, trying to pull his hands from my waist.
"Come on Bonnie," he whined when he saw that there was no way we could continue since we were interrupted. Scrambling of his lap, I ran my fingers over the two small holes in my neck checking for blood, but there was none. I grabbed my purse off the floor; then moved towards the door laughing at the expression on his face.
"I'll see you later," I said on my way out the door. Stefan stood by his car went I came out the house. I kept my head down as I moved quickly to my car. I jumped in and left as fast as I could. I couldn't imagine the conversation they were having now.
I still had a smile on my face when I pulled up at my house half and hour later. Nightfall was approaching, and I wanted to go over some papers from school before I went to bed. I pulled the keys out and made my way up to the porch.
The smile slipped from my face when I saw a figure standing by my door. I stopped short when the person stepped forward. It was Lily Salvatore, why wouldn't the woman leave me alone?
"Bonnie, I've been waiting for you," she said, a smile played on her lips. "I don't have the ascendant and even if I did, I wouldn't give it to you," I said, I folded my hands over my chest and narrowed my eyes at her.
"Is that so?" she asked with a smirked that confused me. "I think you should consider your options very carefully Bonnie,"
"What options?" I asked baffled.
"It's like this. You can either get the ascendant and meet me, at the crept tomorrow, or I'll just have to tell Damon and Elena about the secret you've been keeping from them," she said observing her hand in boredom.
"I'm not keeping anything from them," I said, annoyed and suspicious, she couldn't be talking about what I thought she was, could she?
"You don't? So you don't have the cure, then?" she said, she examined my reaction and smiled.
"How do you know about that?" I asked, perplexed and nervous about the situation.
"I have my ways; I have people spying on you," she said. "So do we understand each other?"
"How stupid do you think I am?"
"Pretty stupid, I wonder what Damon will think when he finds out you had the cure all this time, and poor Elena, who wants nothing more than to be human again but can't because you're selfish and jealous of her."
"What! I... why would I be jealous of her?"
"I don't know Bonnie, you tell me, scared Damon will go running back to her. It's your call. I'll see you tomorrow." Lily Salvatore disappeared before my eyes, and I was left alone in the dark feeling incredibly stupid and angry at myself.
A/N Hey guys, so I have news, this month I have some big events coming up, I'll be very busy, so I won't be able to post every week as I normally do. I will try not to keep you guys waiting for too long, so just bear with me. I'll update as soon as I can.
