Scourge, Rosy, and Fiona belong to Sega.
Ch. 9 What You Mean To Me
"So," Scourge murmured, looking up at me. We were doing our homework in my room. He was on my bed and I was at my desk.
"Do you need help," I asked, glancing up at him.
"Something like that. Um, what's on your bucket list?" I shrugged.
"Haven't really thought about it."
"Oh. Okay, then what have you always wanted to do?"
"What's it to ya?" He chuckled.
"None of your business. Now tell me."
"No." He threw a pillow at me. Without looking, I ducked so it hit the wall. "That really made me want to tell you," I muttered.
"Come here," he purred. My eyes raised to him to see him lounging on my bed, his long legs open casually. Tingles flew through my stomach at the thought of what he could want to do. Ever since we left school, my mind wandered of what Scourge could want with me. Sure, he said he loved me but why ruin his rep over it? I wasn't that special.
"Can't, sorry gotta find x," I said, pointing my pencil towards my algebra homework.
"The x can wait, now come here."
"Why?"
"Because I want you over here."
"For what?" He shrugged. "Then no."
"Please," he said, poking out his bottom lip. A smile creeped up my lips. I got up and walked over to the bed. He curled his finger. Slowly, I crawled onto him. His hands grabbed my hips, pulling them to lie against his. It made me blush. "Can you tie your hair up, please?" Even though I raised my eyebrow, I still obeyed. But only because he asked nicely.
"Anything else?" He shook his head, running his fingers down my cheek. His piercing ice blue eyes stared deep into my jade ones, making me anxious of what he was thinking. He pushed my side bang out of my face before pulling my face closer to his. My eyes fluttered shut before our lips met. When they did, I felt sparks go off. A guy actually loved me. It felt so great. No one had ever really loved me before, well other than my family. It felt even better because I loved him back. Was he my first love? This guy who I hated only weeks ago. Maybe that stupid project was getting to us. Did we have chemistry all along? Opposites do attract, don't they? Except we're not opposites. Well not in the way we were raised. We both came from terrible experiences. Maybe this was the universe giving us a shot at something real. Or at least I was really hoping it was going to be real. This all did start out because Scourge wanted to sleep with me. What if he only wanted me to be his fuck buddy? What if this is all one big joke that's gonna blow up in my face? He wouldn't do that. Would he? With a sigh, I pulled away from his kiss.
"What's wrong," he asked, his hands rubbing my hips gently.
"This isn't a joke, right?" Hurt flashed through his eyes as his expression became confused.
"Why would it be?"
"Well, this did start out as a joke didn't it?"
"No."
"Then what was it? You said you only talked to me so that we could have sex."
"That's true. But it wasn't a joke. It's a game."
"A game," I asked, raising an eyebrow though confusion took over. On the inside, I was thinking what the fuck is wrong with this kid?
"Yea, each girl is a new level. They're supposed to get harder but they were all easy till you. You're the only challenge I got. But you're not a level anymore. Screw my game, I meant what I said when I told you that I want you to be mine."
"Yours? Like your property?"
"No, like…my girlfriend." My eyes widened. Was he serious?
"Girlfriend?" He looked down.
"Yea, I want you to be my girlfriend."
"Why?"
"Because I want you to be mine and only mine."
"Oh." His eyes flicked around nervously. Was he asking me or was he just telling me what he wanted? I was getting confused. "Scourge, I don't know…"
"Why don't you?"
"You're a player, Scourge. Believe it or not but one of these days, you're gonna break my heart. You've already broken it once, who says you're not gonna do it again?"
"So that's what you're afraid of? Heartbreak? Is that why you cut yourself off from the world? Everyone on this Earth doesn't want to hurt you. You think I wanted to walk away on Saturday?" Now it was my turn to look down from his intense gaze on me.
"I don't know but you still did." His grip on my hips tightened.
"I know but I was just scared. But I'm here now. Isn't that what matters?"
"I don't know. Is it?" He flipped us over, putting him on top of me. The movement was quick and sudden, scaring me. My arm jerked back in instinct but he caught my fist before I could do anything. His ice blue eyes were oddly soft. For some reason, it felt like he was assuring me that I was okay. That he wasn't going to do anything to me right now. He intertwined our fingers, pulling my arm down. His lips went to my ear, brushing against it as he spoke.
"I love you, Rosy," he whispered. "Pero no me ames."
"What?"
"Don't love me. I don't want to hurt you if something goes wrong."
"It's too late for that." He pulled away from my ear to look me in the eyes.
"You love me?"
"Yea but I keep fighting it back. I didn't even want to like you."
"You're doing the right thing. I'll understand if you don't want to be with me."
"It's not that, Scourge. You know what I've been through. What if you…?"
"I'd never do that to you. Not ever."
"But what if you get drunk or something?"
"I'm not going to," he said, his voice hard. "Alright?" I nodded, still unsure. He bent his head down into my neck, letting out a soft sigh. His warm lips started kissing my neck before settling into sucking on it. Fear flew through me but it faded quickly when I noticed it wasn't forceful. His hands didn't move around my body nor did his hips jerk against mine. In a way, the action was helping me relax. My eyes fluttered shut as I pulled him closer, wrapping my arms around his torso. Then I felt his lips press onto mine. Immediately, I deepened the kiss, opening my mouth so his tongue could enter. His lips moved against mine slowly and oh so softly. Even his tongue was gentle as it wrestled with mine. I wanted him again. I was happy when he accepted my request of sleeping together again. This second time felt even better. For some reason, being in his arms made me feel safe. As if nothing could hurt me while I was locked in. He held me so tightly also, making my body feel even more secure.
After a couple of hours, we were laying on our sides in my bed. My face was buried in his chest while his was in my hair. Both our arms were around each other. I felt like I was loved for once. The last time, that feeling didn't last long since he left but he stayed today. His hands rubbed my back and thigh carefully. I guessed that he thought I was asleep. We did go at it for a long while. I'm surprised that we were both still awake. "Mami," he asked, running his fingers down my cheek. I looked up at him.
"Yes." He smirked, pecking a kiss at my forehead.
"I thought you were sleep."
"Not yet. I'm just tired."
"Maybe you should get some rest. We do have school tomorrow."
"Wanna ditch?" He chuckled.
"Can't. French test."
"Damn."
"I can stay over though if you want." I shrugged.
"Whatever you wanna do." His smirk grew seductive.
"Well I wanna do a lot of things to you that I haven't done yet." I blushed, hitting his shoulder.
"Shutup, I meant if you wanna stay over or not."
"Sure you did. I'll go get some pajamas and clothes for tomorrow. I'll be right back."
"Kay." He indulged us in a nice long kiss before getting up, pulling his pants on and going out the window. I snuggled back down into my bed, closing my eyes. Even though I was half asleep when he came back, I could tell he was a little weak. My questions would have to wait until later since he wrapped his arms around me and fell asleep as well.
X
I opened my locker, seeing a rose in it. "Awww," Brittany gushed for me. I rolled my eyes at her, taking the flower out my locker. It had a small note attached to it.
Dear Rosy, Wilma's Café after school?
-Scourge
"Like a date," Brittany asked. I shrugged.
"I guess."
"Are you gonna go?"
"Nope."
"What? Why?"
"I just don't want to go."
"Why not," I heard his voice say. Looking up, my eyes met his sad ice blue orbs. Brittany walked away silently. I really wished she didn't.
"I don't want the school thinking we're a couple."
"What will happen when we are a couple?"
"We'll get to that when we get there. Besides, don't you have any new levels to play?" He looked taken aback.
"Excuse me?"
"Come on, Scourge. You got what you wanted so why don't you just leave me alone?"
"Because I love you, Rosy." My eyes lowered. "Just give me a chance. Please?"
"Fine, just take things slow. No more sex." He frowned. "Either take it or leave it."
"Fine," he groaned. "Anything else?"
"No flirting with other girls."
"Okay."
"No hooking up with other girls."
"Kay."
"No having sex with other girls."
"What's next? No looking at other girls?"
"No, you can look at them but not at their like chests or butts or anything."
"Rosy, I'm still a guy so-"
"Take it or leave it, Scourge. I'm not gonna let you break my heart."
"Rosy, for the last time, I don't wanna hurt you. I'm not gonna go off and cheat on you."
"Oh and how many girls have you told that to?"
"What has gotten into you?" My eyes reluctantly went back to connect with his.
"Later," I whispered.
"No, not later because then you'll probably punch me. Just tell me."
"No." The bell rang. "I have to get to class. See you later." I walked around him to English.
X
"Where's your girlfriend," Fiona asked bitterly as she walked up to me. I was leaning against Rosy's locker, my eyes scanning the hallways for her. Earlier had bugged me out a little bit. I wondered if everything was okay with her. She wasn't bugging out a few nights ago about my game and me cheating on her.
"Not my girlfriend yet but I don't know," I said with a disappointed sigh. Fiona looked sad at the sight of my frown.
"Maybe she's just not worth it, ya know?"
"But maybe she is. I've never met a girl like her before."
"That doesn't mean anything. Sometimes what you're looking for could be right in front of you but you're too blind to notice." I looked down at my friend. There was hope in her eyes. The fuck was going on.
"Don't tell me you're in love with me, Fiona."
"I'm sorry, Scourge but I am. I've tried really hard to fight it but seeing you trying to win her affection when you already have mine makes it hard to."
"Look, okay, I'm in love with Rosy. Nothing's going to change that."
"Yea well what if she isn't in love with you? Or what if you're just infatuated with her? Your feelings are very fickle, you know."
"I know. But she's different."
"Sometimes it's not what you want but it's what you need. We need each other Scourge. I can't think of a time where we ever were together because we wanted to. Only because we needed to."
"Fi, I'll think about it."
"Okay. But just as a little reminder," she pulled me down into a nice soft but sensual kiss. "Remember that," she whispered before walking away. Or at least she tried to. I grabbed her wrist and put her lips right back on mine. What the fuck was I thinking in the first place? I'm not a one woman kind of guy. At least not right now. Fiona can care less about the whores I bring around, just as long as she's my main chick. Maybe that is all I need. Whoops and yells could be heard throughout the halls from our passionate kiss. But one thing stood out to me out of all of it. A small sniffle. I pulled away to see Rosy and only Rosy. It was like everyone else had disappeared, leaving me and her. She shook her head, more tears falling. My mouth opened to say something but she spoke first.
"And to think I was gonna give you a chance. You win. Congrats."
"Rose," she was halfway down the hall by the time I made it through the crowd to run after her. "Rose," I yelled again. She looked back, more tears on her face. The hurt in her eyes broke my heart. What was I doing to this girl? Fiona caught up to me, tugging on my jacket.
"Don't worry, she'll get over it. Come on, we have a party to go to," she said, pulling me out the building. We did go to a party but the whole time, I couldn't enjoy myself. Something felt wrong. I hooked up with Fiona but pleasure didn't fill me, only more worry. Something really wasn't right. I left early to go to Rosy's house. When I saw the ambulance, I ran down the street faster than Speedy Gonzalez. I rushed into the house, dashing up the steps. Dante, Cody and Brittany were outside her bedroom.
"What happened," I asked, out of breath.
"Her mom was home with some guys who were drunk. Most of the damage is from that but then she tried to kill herself," Brittany said between her tears. Cody and Dante had her in a hug to comfort her. My own eyes started to water. Her mom let those bastards hurt her. And then Rosy finally did it. She finally got that courage to try and kill herself. I should've been here with her! She wouldn't have been in this state if I had just not kissed Fiona. It's all my damn fault! The doctor emerged from her room.
"She should be fine by morning. Just keep a keen eye on her from now on," she told us before going downstairs.
"I'll stay with her," I told her friends. They all nodded. Dante gave me a hug telling me "good luck" before following the other two down the steps. I went into her room, seeing her sleeping in her bed. An IV was hooked up to her arm and she seemed to be a little pale. Her eyes opened when she heard my footsteps. The tears fell from my eyes as I actually looked her over. The bruises, the long cuts down her arms, the bite marks, the whelps. I broke down right in front of her, crying into her lap. She cried with me. "The hell were you thinking Rosy," I yelled under my tears.
"I want to be dead, Scourge! I wanna be dead!"
"No you don't! I'm not gonna let you! You're not going to leave me! Please don't leave me," I said, looking up at her. "I love you, Rosy. I need you. So please. Just please don't go anywhere. Don't kill yourself, Rosy. I'll protect you from those douchebags. I promise I will, just don't leave me."
"But it's just getting so hard, Scourge. I just want everything to be over it."
"Rosy, life is worth the fight. It's a long hard road, I know but we're gonna get through it, okay? Me and you."
"Why are you even here?"
"Because i felt that something was wrong and I couldn't stand still till I knew you were alright. But you weren't and it scared me, baby. It scared me. I love you so much and I'm sorry that I can't show it the way you want me to but I'll try. I'll really try. Just don't. You make me feel like I'm myself instead of being someone else. You say what no one else would say. You know exactly how to get to me. You know what I need. And what I need is you, Rosy. So please, be mine." I grabbed her hand as I said this. "I know I let you down but I'm never gonna make that mistake again. I don't know who I really am but I know that when I'm with you, I get closer to figuring it out. So please. Just please."
"I love you Scourge. And I'll be your girlfriend but promise me that you won't leave me either."
"I promise, baby I promise." I grabbed her into a tight hug, both of our tears staining the other's shoulder. I had her. My Rose, I finally got my Rose! Now all I had to do was make sure I kept her.
Sorry if this chap felt a little rushed, i just have alot of ideas and this was kind of a filler chap so yeah.
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