No longer together
Hey guys hope you enjoy this next One shot.
Prompt: Ali confines in Emily one night when she turns up on her door step, in tears and a bloody lip. Alison and Jason get into a fight, and their parents are getting a divorce. Alison doesn't like to let people in, but when she finally can't take it anymore she looks for comfort in her crush. Ali has had a crush on Emily since day one of high school, and despite the fact that she knows Emily's got a boyfriend Ben she still wishes it was her. What Ali doesn't know is that Emily is not interested in Ben and is using him as her cover. What will happen when the truth comes out?.
Ali's pov
As I lay on my bed writing in my journal, I let all my emotions out. Today felt like it went for forever and I was more then glad it was now Friday and the weekend was about to begin. As I zoned into my own little world I got the fright of my life, when Jason barges into my room. God ever heard of knocking? "No need" Jason grumbles with his hand on his hip. now, give me twenty buck, it's my turn to buy the drinks for the boys and I'm going out" What!? Why the hell would I do that your already buzzed I can smell it from here, what are you drinking during the day now too? classy, "because I said so now shut up and hand it over or I'll go tell mum and dad where you really were last weekend you know slutting it up in cape may with cece, I'm sure they would love to hear about that. I bit my tongue, you wouldn't dare. "wanna bet?" Yep I stood up reaching for my purse so he couldn't get it. However I didn't realise I left my journal right in the open for him to read, and as soon as he saw it, he instantly snatched it. Jason DON'T! Jason cut it out give it back! "Well well well what have we here sis? "Mermaid" He began to read, "Who the fuck is mermaid"? Jason don't you dare read that, here look I'll give you your stupid $20 bucks just give it back. Jason smirked "Wow this must be very important to you if your willing to give me $20, but I'll take my chances dad will give me the 20 this book is now mine" Jason closed the book and headed out of my room but I was determined to get it back so I followed him. Jason give it back now or I swear to god, "what's your problem princess scared I'm going to find out your little secret? let's see"
As Jason open my diary he turned to the same page that caught his interest before and began to read it out loud.
"Mermaid"
Look at my mermaid.
If she new how much power she truly has she could have whatever she wants.I think about what she would be like if she was as tough as she is beautiful.
You can be whatever you want to be in this world, but one thing you can never be is week. She taught me that. My mermaid is the sweetest person I know, and if she only new how much that kiss we shared in the library meant to me then maybe she wouldn't be with him. Yes I know what I'm saying, I Ali D am attracted to girls. Actually just one girl in particular but I don't care I'm tired of telling myself that it wrong to feel this way.
I'm falling for her harder each day, and my mermaid is becoming my weakness, she has me wrapped around her finger and she doesn't even notice. Maybe one day my biggest weakness will become my biggest strength, maybe one day I'll tell her all about the plans I have made for our future together in my head that she doesn't even know about, I mean who knows maybe those plans could come true. Maybe just maybe she will look at me and tell me that I'm not crazy, that i am not the only one, and that she's falling for me two.
Jason smirked as he began to read the next page titled
"Hidden behind a mask"
Some may say they know me, but nobody truly knows me, Because I have been faking my personality for years. when I'm at school I'm not somebody I'm proud of I'm the queen bee who knows everybody's secrets with a poesy of friends who think there job is to do everything I say, and protect me when really I actually just enjoy there company. I tare people down to feel better about myself and that's wrong I know, but I can't help it, when I notice someone's insecure about something I point it out to everyone in the hope that nobody will be able to read mine because although people see me as the queen be who is carefree, I'm the complete opposite. I have millions of insercurities eating away inside of me and I hate it.
"Well I guess it turners out you do have a heart sis, but your still just as of a freak as I thought you were, I know I'd love to know what mum and dad think about you being a dyke I'm sure they would be just as discussed in you as I am. No sister of mine is into girls that's for sure, it's probably just you know a "faze", I still don't know who this girl is, but I hope for her sake she stays with her current boyfriend because your way to screwed in the head Ali to deal with. All you do is lie and manipulate people to get what you want, it's all you've ever done and nobody would even believe you if you said it was all just a act and the really you is different".
Silent Tears began streaming down my face, there have been times where I've wished Jason wasn't my brother and regretted it, but after hearing him speak to me like that I never want to see him again. I couldn't stop myself from crying and realising he was enjoy it, I slapped him across the face. He dropped my still open diary on the floor in shock, and as he cradled his face with his hand I went to pick it up. Clearly that was the wrong thing to do because as I did so he shoved me back towards my room and my lip hit the corner of my dresser. when I could taste the blood the tears in my eyes fell harder. Looking up to see if Jason was still standing there, I glared at him unable to think of a insult. "Oh and Ali if you even think about telling Mum and dad about this little discussion, I will not hesitate To tell them about your little love confession" kicking my door in frustration, my door slammed shut and I was relieved to no longer be able to see the smirk on his face. As soon as I heard him walk away, I dragged my knees towards my chest as my body began to rack with sobs. Jason had reacted even worse then I thought he would, and I hated him for it. Un sure of how much time had passed I only managed to stop crying when I heard my parents yelling down stair.
Jessica's pov
Kenneth would you please calm down, I didn't... it wasn't my fault. "Oh really Jessica then who's was it who? Cause it sure as hell wasn't mine, you cheated on me with our next door neighbour and for years I... I thought Jason was my son". It wasn't consensual Kenneth, Jason...He is your son just because you don't share the same blood doesn't mean he's not your son. Peter raped me, and when I found out I was pregnant I was already with you, I kept the baby because we both wanted a child. "I don't believe that, you know this family has never felt like a family, it's just full of lies you lie all the time Jessica no wonder Alison is who she, your as bad as each other how do I know that your not just lying about what he did". Oh really? well I guess Jason's taking after you then huh? you know with the alcohol and drug problem. "What?! I don't have..." yes you do Kenneth, and the sooner you admit to it the better, the two of you need help, and you should be seeing someone. "That's it I'm done Jessica, I'm filling for a divorce. I have no reason to be staying here anymore, Jason is not my son and until you can prove to me other wise that Alison is actually my daughter, I want nothing to do with this family".
Ali's pov
When I heard the sound of a glass smashing I wanted to go and see what happened and check on my mum, but I couldn't force my body to move. The front door slammed shut, and I jumped in fear when I heard Jason walking passed my room and down the stairs. When he was gone, I open my door so I could listen better. "Is it true?" Jason yelled at my mother who was crying. "Jason... I just" "answer me is it true?" "Yes peter Hastings is your birth father". "Well that's just great isn't it? when do you suppose you were going to tell me"? I could here how upset my mother was and there was nothing I could do . "I... when you were... I don't..." My mother clearly wasn't planing on telling him anything and I don't blame her Spencer's dad is sick, and I will never be able to look at him again. I believe my mother, he raped her and Jason is a result of that. "when I was what?" Jason raised his voice. "I'm 23 I have a right to know" "Jason I'm sorry honey, I thought I was doing what was best for our family he hurt me Jason, why would you want him in your life I'm your mother" "oh cut the crap like you care what he does to me, all you have ever cared about is Ali". My eyes widen, I may be my mothers favourite but he is defiantly my dad's. "Jason that is not true". "It is and you know what you can have each other, if dad's... If Kenneth is leaving then so am I. Before I could think other wise I began franticly packing my bag not wanting my mother to know I was home and question me about what I heard. I exited my house threw my side window, and Took the back route cutting through Spencer's backyard, and without thinking I walked all the way to Emily's house.
I Knew her parents were in Texas, and she was home alone so I figured her place was the safest bet. When I rang the door bell she opened the door and just the site of my favourite person was enough to make me feel a little better. Clearly confused and concerns about my sudden appearance, and why I was standing in front of her door with no make up on and my hair a mess, Emily pulled me inside and into a hug while closing the door. "Alison... Ali what the? what happen to you? are you ok? OMG your lip it's bleeding. Let me... Let me get you some ice". Emily pulled away from our hug but I wasn't ready to let go yet, and I was able to mumbled my first words since I had got there. don't... Don't let go Em just... Just hold me p...please". Doing exactly what I said Emily wrapped her arms back around me in a tighter hug then before and I buried my head into her neck as I continued to cry. When my body could no longer continue, I pulled away embarrassed and blushed.
I'm sorry I don't even know what got into me, I should go you probably have better things to do on a Friday night Em, I... I shouldn't of come here. I turned ready to head back out the door but she stopped me. "Ali, Wait please stay, please! I promise you, you don't have to talk if you don't want to, just Let me help you". Emily practically begged me and when I looked into those brown eyes my weakness began to show. Are... are you sure? "I'm positive". Emily grabbed my bag which had some how made it to the floor before offering me her other hand and the two of us headed to her room. when we entered I sat on her bed and she told me to stay right there before returning with a first aid kit and some ice. When Emily placed her hand under my chin, I flinched a little and she frowned. "Ali please, you need to fix this, I need to see if it needs stitches. I rolled my eyes before allowing her to clean my cut and when her thumb brushed over it my eyes shut. Thinking she had hurt me she whispered the word sorry, and I held in a smile. It's fine, it didn't hurt it... It actually felt nice. Emily blushed and it was the first time I had ever seen her do so other then when she's with her boyfriend Ben. When Emily decided that I didn't need stitches she wrapped the ice in a face cloth and handed it to me, and As I took it our hands mad brief contact and I felt a spark like I always do in the pit of my stomach. Watching as Emily got comfortable on her bed Emily then patted a spot in her lap and told me to lie down, and before I could talk myself out of it I lay on my back with my head in her lap.
"Ali it's late, do you parent know you here"? No I left before anyone could stop me. "Why? Ali who did this to your lip"? Emily removed my hand and held the ice for me. "Are... Are you in some sort of trouble with someone"? I shook my head no, i... It was Jason. My eyes shut at the memory. "Jason!? Your bother"? I nodded and another tear escaped my eye but Emily was quick to catch it. "Why on earth would he do something like that?" It doesn't matter, I deserved it, it's not the first time his hurt me. "Ali I highly doubt that? Please tell me what happen" The concern in Emily's voice made me want to tell her what happen, but I was scared. "Ali I promise your safe okay, I'm not going to judge you or whatever it is your thinking. We are best friends, I tell you everything". O...okay. I sat up placing the ice on Emily's bedside table and faced her.
Jason wanted some money, he's always asking for money I swear it's like every weekend, he only wanted $20 buck and I should of just given it to him but I didn't. For once I stood up for myself, and I told him no and he kept pushing it. When I realised my purse was on my desk I grabbed it before he could, not realising I had left my diary on my bed for him to see, and he took it. He took it and he began reading it. He's always looking for a way to destroy me, or a new secret and when he new he would find it in there he no longer wanted the twenty bucks. I offered it to him in exchange for it back because there was no way I wanted him to read what was in it but he wouldn't take it.
My diary is way to important to me to let him have it, so when I followed him out into the hall I yelled at him hoping he wold give it back. When Jason realised I wasn't kidding he new something really good would be in there and when he read the first sentence out loud I new he was on the right Page, of all Page's he had found my biggest secret and he new when I began crying. I thought when he saw me he would stop but instead he continued to read it out loud. When he was finally done my secret was out in the open for the first time. He was the first person to find out and I hate that it was Jason. Clearly he is thought it would be good to read another page and when he was finally done humiliating me he closed it. Jason began yelling at me telling me exactly what he thought, and I couldn't take it any longer and slapped him. He dropped my diary and when I went to grab it he shoved me and I fell, my lip hit the corner of my dresser. He told me if I told mum and dad about our discussion he would tell them both my secret, I thought maybe they had already heard us because they were down stairs but they were to busy in a fight of there own.
"Alison OMG I'm so sorry!" Emily reached out for a hug and I responded. It's not your fault, like I said I deserved it. "Ali stop you did nothing wrong, Jason had no right to steal your diary and read it, you were defending yourself and you didn't know Jason was going to push back, no one deserves that. Yeah well I wish I did, maybe then I would have not hit my dresser. "Ali you... You said this isn't the first time Jason has hurt you?" I looked away, Only for Emily to turn my face back towards her. "Ali what else has Jason done"? Oh it's nothing Em... Nothing I can't handle. Emily rolled her eyes not believe me for a second, And I closed my eyes taking in a deep breath as I prepared myself to tell her about all the times Jason and his beer buddies had used me as there toy. When I was finally done it actually felt kind of good to get it off my chest.
Emily's pov
Hey How about we do something fun? you know to take your mind off thing, we could watch a movie? Ali smiled, "sure Em that sounds great". Ok well let me just change into something a little more comfy you can pick the movie. Ali nodded and as soon as I started to change, Ali stood up walking towards my shelf and scanning through her option. When a particular one caught her eye I left her to it, heading down stairs for food, and smiled when I saw she had already placed it in the laptop and was ready to go when I got back.
Ali's pov
When Emily left, I saw the little mermaid in Her collection And smiled, it wasn't a movie I would normally pick, and I was sure I had probably teased her about how lame it was to have it, but I new she secretly must love it and if Emily loves it so much then I should at lest know what it's about. Placing it into the laptop, I crawled into the left side of her bed and fixed the pillows around my head. when she returned, Emily held a bowel of popcorn in one hand and m&ms in the other my two favourites and I smiled.
"What movie did you pick"? Em questioned and I smirked you will see, I pressed play shuffling a little closer towards her and turning my head to see her reaction. When the title appeared Emily couldn't hold back her grin, however when she looked at me she frowned. "I thought you said this movie was lame"? I know what I said, but i guess I've had a change of heart I mean you clearly love this movie so I thought maybe I'd give it a try. Emily's grin quickly returned to her face as she lay on her side facing me, and When I felt her left arm rest on my stomach I tensed a little before noticing her attention was now on the screen and I smiled at the comforting gesture. During about half way of the move I finally understood why Emily loves it so much, and I thought it was totally cute how she could relate to it through swimming, however I could help but wonder why Emily had yet to ask me about my diary and my secret. Emily is always so kind and caring towards me and our friends, and she is never the one to presses you for information, but sometimes I wish she did because I think maybe I'm ready to tell her.
Hey Em can... Can I ask you something? "Sure what's up"? I just... I guess I was just wondering does it bother you that I didn't tell you what I wrote in my diary? Like I mean I told you I have this big secret and you didn't even ask what it was. Emily smiled shaking her head. "no I it doesn't bother me Ali everybody has secrets, and it's not my place to ask you what it was I figured if you wanted to tell you would". I smiled that's sweet, you know if i had of gone to spencer or Hanna, they would have begged me to tell them. Emily laughed "trust me I know but really Ali I'm okay, you can tell me if and when your ready". I bit my bottom lip as I contemplated what to say? M... Maybe I am ready, you know to tell someone to tell you. Emily's eyes widen "are you sure? Emily grinned and I new then deep down she was dying to know. I nodded yes, I mean I don't know how long Jason is planing to keep it a secret so I guess nows as good a time as ever. Just promise me one thing?
"What's that"? When... When you read it promise me it won't change anything between us I don't want to lose you, your my favourite Em, and I know I don't Always treat you girls right but you guys are all I have. Emily reached for my hand and gave it a soft squeeze. "Ali relax I promise". Hopping out of the bed i reached for my bag, And pulled out the pink journal, with a shaky hand I turned to the page Jason had read and handed it to Em. Taking a seat on the bed next to her, I chose to sit on top of the blankets and look anywhere but at her as my nervous quickly became an issue.
As Emily read the Page entitled My Mermaid, I new that instantly she would know it was about her, because I had given her that nickname in 7th grade at her first swim meet. When Emily was done I could feel her looking at me but I couldn't look at her. "Ali... Alison I don't you... I turned my head to face her and cut her off. "I'm sorry Em I get it your with Ben, and I shouldn't you know feel that way I just I wanted you to know I couldn't hide it anymore it was killing me. I blushed looking down at my lap suddenly finding my loose string on my pants more interesting.
Emily's pov
Ali, hey look at me please, I begged her as I reached for her hands. You... You didn't let me finish, what I was going to say is that this doesn't have to change anything okay, I actually feel kind of honoured that you feel that way, I wish you had told me sooner. "You do? But why would I do that your with Ben". I know, you said that before too, And I guess maybe now since I know your secret you should know mine. Ali frowned clearly not following.
Ali Ben and I aren't actually dating. "what? But you guys are always together at school, you know hugging and kissing couples stuff". I screwed up my face, eww yeah trust me I know, there's no need to remind me. Ali, Ben and I are both gay, we met on the swim team and we are using each other as what you call beards. I didn't want anyone to know I'm into girls and he felt the same about guys so we agreed to be each other's cover. It was my turn to blush and Ali smirked. "wait so your not dating Ben"? Nope seeing as how I'm 1000% gay that would not be possible. Ali let out a relief sort of breath before breaking into a huge smile. "So... so does that mean maybe you know... You li"... before Ali could finish her sentence I cut her off by placing my pink lips on hers and we shared a sweet and innocent kiss. it was everything I could have imagined our first kiss would be and more, until She groaned slightly in pain completely forgetting about her swollen lip. When I pulled away, I quickly placed my thumb on her lip. I'm sorry I just I had to do that, I like you to Ali... As more then a friend and everything you said i can relate to, because I feel the exact same way. "Em you don't have to apologise, It doesn't even hurt anymore. I ... I guess you made it feel better". Ali winked and I laughed. Oh I did, did I?Ali nodded before pecking me on the lips again and getting back under the covers. making her way towards me, the two of us enjoyed simply just holding each other in our arms and I smiled.
Ali's pov
Em do you really mean all that? I mean are you sure your not just saying that because you feel bad? "Ali I'm positive, you are so beautiful, and you think people can't see the really you but I do, your different when we are alone and I like this side of you all shy, cute, and nervous".
But I don't deserve someone like you em I'm... Emily placed her finger against my lips to stop me from talking. "Yes you do and if you let me I will show you, Your not alone in this world Ali I care about you so much more then you will ever know, and now that we have confessed our feelings, I think we should give us a go what do you say? You wanna be my girlfriend? Girlfriend? Em I thought you didn't want to come out? " I didn't and I guess I don't have too, it's nobodies business but ours what we are to each other, and if you would prefer I can just continue to fake dating Ben, and you and I can see each other in secret you know when we are not at school"? Nnnn no absolutely not!, bad idea Em I swear I'm going to go crazy if I have to watch Ben kiss you one more time. I'm amazed you never saw how jealous I was. Emily smirked as she pulled me closer. "you have nothing to worry about Ben is 100% gay" yeah well I didn't know that until today now did I? As far as I new he was completely into you, and I hated the fact that he got to kiss you and I didn't, So to answer your question yes I would really, really like to be your girlfriend Em I mean if you know you still want me? if your having Second thoughts I get it, right now my life is a complete mess and I'm probably way to much for you to handle... "Ali"? Mmm? "Your cute and all when you ramble, but You should really stop talking. Emily kissed me for reassurance and I blushed. "I want this okay? I want us in whatever way possible and I think it's cute that you were jealous of Ben". I nudge Emily playfully, hey don't make fun of me I'm serious, I don't want to see anyone kiss you ever again except for me k? I question her as I pouted and she kissed it away. cuddling into her chest, I felt Emily wrap her arms around my waist and I did the same.
"Okay let's make a deal, I'll break it off with Ben on Monday and we wait a week before going public, that why people don't think I'm some slut who jumps for guys to girls whenever I please. Em nobody could ever think that, you are the furthest thing from as slut I promise. I know, but can we still just give it a week? I don't know babe I'm not sure I can wait that long, "Please" Emily begged and I laughed I'm just messing with you Em I've waited four years I think one more week won't kill me, beside you never said we couldn't be together when we are not at school right? Emily blushed "right". Good then I'm in, as long as I get to call you mine I'm in. Emily kissed the top of my head. "What about the girls should we tell them"? Sure but maybe tomorrow or Sunday, right now I just want you to myself is that okay? Before Emily could answer me my phone rang distracting us from our discussion. When I looked to see who it was it was my mum. Ali are you gong to answer that? I shook my head I... Couldn't decided part of me wanted to know she was okay, but the other part want to ignore my whole family. Ali she probably just what's to know where you are make sure your okay? Mmm I guess your right. I picked up the phone and as politely as I could said hello.
Mum- Ali honey where are you? why are you not at home?
Me- Oh I um I'm at Emily's why is everything okay?
Mum- Oh yeah don't worry about me dear I'm fine
Me- Are you sure?
Mum- yes honey why wouldn't I be?
Me Because I... I heard you and dad fighting, and Jason
Mum- Alison dear is that why your not home?
Me- Yes I mean not just that, Jason and I got into a fight two I just mum
You should know I already new Jason was only my half brother.
Mum- You did? then why didn't you say anything?
Because I figured if you were keeping it a secret then it was for a good reason
I'm so sorry mum, when I found the birth certificated I didn't even think you...
Mum Alison don't...
Me- No mum I didn't even think that it could have been non consensual, I dad may not believe you but I do.
Mum- Thank you sweetie
Me- it's fine mum like dad said like mother like daughter.
Mum- Ali honey it's late let's talk tomorrow
Me are you sure?
Mum Yes dear it's late get some sleep okay? and say hi to Emily for me
Me Okay I will, oh and mum?
Mum yes sweetie?
Me I love you I don't say it. Often but I hope you know that I do
I love you two dear goodnight.
Me- night mum xx
Hanging up the phone, I placed it back on the bedside table and made my way towards Emily kissing her check. My mum said to say hey, Emily smiled. "Is everything okay with you two? I nodded yeah everything's fine, thank you for making me answer my phone I think she needed to know I don't hate her. Ali why would you hate your mother? did something else happen tonight? I nodded bitting my lip. Jason is the son of my mother and peter Hastings, Emily's eyes wide in shock "He's what!? Yeah I found out a little while ago, and at first I thought she cheated on my dad, but she didn't peter was drunk and he raped her Em. He raped my mother and it makes me sick just thinking about it. Jason and my father found out tonight and they both left my parents are now getting a divorce.
"OMG Ali" that's part of why I left tonight, I just i had to get out of there my family is such a mess right now, can I just stay here with you for the weekend? I don't, I don't wanted to go back home until my dad and Jason have left for good. "Of course you can Ali, as long as your mother says it's okay your always welcome here, my mothers back tomorrow but she love you, so I'm sure it will be fine. I smiled thank you, seriously I don't no what I would do with out you Em, you always have my back, and I'm such a shitty friend. Emily blushed well lucky for you, you will never have to find out. You are not a shitty friend Ali the girls and I know you well enough now that when you through insulates at us, it's because your scared and we know You don't really mean them. It will all be okay, I promise. closing my eyes, I listened to Emily try and convince me that I am a good person at heart, As I lay in the comfort of my girls arms and smiled. Thinking to myself how lucky I am to have her. My mermaid is now mine, she is finally mine, and for the first time she is no longer my weakness but my strength.
P.s I didn't have time to edit this but will do so ASAP :)
