A/N: Sorry for taking so long to update! I hope this chapter makes up for the time I haven't updated.

This chapter might be rated M. Just for a part of the story. Just skip ahead if you don't want to read it.

Chapter 8

I walk downstairs and into the living room. I see Peeta and Clodine in a corner, whispering. I feel so bad for them. They have to go through all this drama and trouble just because of me and Gale.

"Peeta?" I say. He looks at me in relief. His eyes are a bit red and puffy, so he has been crying. Why can't I think of others first? I shouldn't have just left! I probably made Peeta feel miserable. He gets up and walks to me. He doesn't kiss me and I know why. He doesn't know if I changed my mind about anything and so I kiss him. I go on my tippy toes and I kiss up with as much emotion as I possibly can. I try to tell him through the kiss of how much I love him and that I will never leave him. A few seconds later he kisses me back. He understands, and that's why I love him so much. We break apart and smile. I look over to see Gale and I can see that he and Clodine are making up too.

"Peeta, I love you so much." I whisper and tears start flowing down my cheeks. Peeta puts his thumb on my cheek, wipes away my tears and says:

"I know. I love you too." He says softly.

"Don't worry, I know." I wink at him. I hope he knows I love him as much as I know he loves me.

"Katniss, I know you love me, you don't need to worry." Peeta says with a grin. Am I that predictable? I guess I can't mask love as much as I can mask hate.

"Okay, lovebirds they've read the whole journal…let's see what happens next." Clodine says while smiling. Oh no! Did Peeta and Clodine watch while I was gone? Do they know all of my feelings?

"Peeta...did you-"

"I was watching Katniss. The first bunch of entries was painful. They hurt me so much and not only your journal, but also Gale's. I was about to switch it off until you started talking about how much you loved me and then I realized that you love me as much as I love you. For the past 20 years, I have been wondering if I was just a constellation prize because of Gale leaving, but now, I know. I don't blame you for being mad at me for having these thoughts for the past 2 decades." Peeta says. I don't sense any fear in his voice. How can I blame him? When I was 16, I gave him so many confusing signs that I liked him or hated him and he put up with all of it. I am also a bit grateful that he heard everything because now he knows and if he didn't, this same question will not be answered until he dies.

"I'm not mad at all. Actually, I'm happy. Now you know your answer, and everything about me." I say simply. He kisses me again, this time it was more passionate and happy.

"GUYS! Lilac and Damion are making out! Get over here!" Gale yells.

"Shit." Is all Peeta says. I laugh.

Their make-out session was pretty intense. They were both on the bed. All their cloths were off except for Damion's boxers and Lilac's bra and underwear. This can't go any further. Peeta and Gale left right when they started to take off their clothes. Even for Gale, this was too much. Clodine and I promised them that we'd stay to watch, just to know what is happening. Clodine and I both know that we don't want to be here watching either but for the sake of our husbands, we will.

"This is getting bad. What if Gale was right? Do you think they will?" Clodine asks nervously. I don't blame her. This is getting really serious.

"I actually have no clue. Do you think Damion is ready?" I ask.

"I think he is ready…if they do it, I just can't believe that Damion would make decisions so quickly." I agree with Clodine. Who would have thought that Lilac and Damion were this irresponsible?

"I know what you mean. I have the exact same thoughts as you." I say. Shoot. He just took her bra off. He starts playing and sucking on her breasts while Lilac simply moans. Soon after Lilac rips his boxers off and starts to give him a blow job. Why am I watching this? AHH! I look at Clodine who is in disgust. After a while, he rips her underwear off and puts his finger inside of her then another, and another and starts pumping his fingers in and out. Lilac lets out another long moan. She asks him to do it. He looks at her again, for reassurance and she nods. This can't be happening. No, no, no NOO! How am I supposed to tell Peeta? Damion puts himself in her and she screams with joy. He starts pumping in and out, faster and faster until they both reached their climax and he fell on top of her. He is still inside of her and then they just stay there, in each other's arms and they fall asleep.

Clodine turns the computer off and says: "Well, um…that was interesting."

"I don't know how I am going to able to tell Peeta about what happened. He is going to be so disappointed." I say. I am actually disappointed but I know Peeta will be a thousand times worse.

"I don't blame him. I guess it's not going to be hard to tell Gale but it is still disturbing for him even if he is a pervert at times." She says while smiling. I started laughing. I don't know why, maybe it was because I was tired. I kept laughing hysterically until Peeta and Gale walked in.

"I heard you laughing, so I was assuming that you were done watching them." Peeta says carefully. He doesn't know what to expect.

"So…um…what happened after we left?" Gale asks. We all know he means 'Did they have sex?'

"Um…well…um…KATNISS! Why don't you tell them?" Clodine says. How does she expect me to say it when I generally have much more trouble talking and communicating with people?

"Ok…men…um…THEY HAD SEX." I blurt out. Peeta and Gale's eyes widen. Peeta has more of a disappointed look (just what I expected). Gale isn't disappointed. He is more frustrated but he is calm.

"What should we do? Confront them?" Clodine asks. I am so happy she's here; she just broke the awkward silence.

"If we confront them, they'll get really mad at us. We all knew that this was none of our business." I say. Wow. Since was I the voice of reason? Everyone looks so surprised. I don't blame them, I never think the right way.

"But they had SEX Katniss! How can I be okay with moving on in life when I know that my only daughter had sex with HIS SON?" Peeta says while pointing at Gale. I have never seen Peeta this angry and I have never seen him simply blame someone so easily.

"I would stop talking if I were you. My son is good and your daughter is LUCKY to be with him and have sex with him…I agree, they are a bit too young, and it's awkward that we watched it but it is actually none of our business." Gale says angrily. I don't know who to agree with. Peeta is somewhat over reacting and Gale is just…ugh, I agree with him completely.

"You ruined my teenage years by confusing Katniss' feelings but I am not letting you or your family ruin my family's life. Katniss, can you back me up?" Peeta looks desperately in my eyes. I look at him with guilt and he turns away. He walks upstairs and into our room. How can I be so cruel? He has backed me up for all these years and I couldn't even help this one time he asks for my help. I don't deserve him. I never did. Gale looks at me. But he wasn't happy, he was mad. Why was he mad? I agreed with him? This doesn't even make sense! Gale takes Clodine's hand and drags her out of the house. But before they left the house I said;

"Um…your kids?"

"I'll pick them up tomorrow." Clodine says with a small smile.

What has just happened? Both Gale and Peeta are mad at me…and then I realized, there's never been a time when BOTH of them hated me at the same time, someone was always there to comfort me.