Welp, here it is. Chapter nine. I hope it's easier for me to write than the bitch of a last chapter. I think I was teetering on the brink of going insane, but I got it out in time. The last part was easier to write than the others, so I'm hoping that that's a good sign for starting this chapter…
Okay…there are a few reviews that I have to answer now. Not many, but a few…
KageKitsune16, delia, and Ninja No Shi: Rori, Rori, who is Rori? Hm…welp, no he wasn't in the manga, Ninja-chan, so you didn't miss anything…He's a character completely from my imagination…He had a very big role in Tatsuha's past, very big...and that's all I'm gonna say 'cause I don't even have him figured out yet…More info on him will probably be given randomly throughout chapters and I'm planning on having a chapter mostly devoted to he and Tatsuha's relationship soon so keep looking…
Sammy-.-zzz: Surprisingly enough…I love the Yuki/Shu pairing. I know…weird considering how much pain I'm putting them through. All of my other fics have the Yuki/Shu pairing and this one is just an exception to it. I thought the Tat/Shu pairing was kinda different and had no idea what I was getting myself into when I first started this…It's been a blast, though…
Welp, that's all so I guess I should go and get my booty writing. See ya at the end…
Disclaimer: I think that the writer's block killed my brain gnomes, so until I can hire more I'm on my own. Let's see…I don't own Gravitation, if anything it owns me. If I did own it, though, I really don't think I'd be writing this. Maybe that's the reason why I don't own it…just so I can be obsessive and write this horribly depressing fic about Shuichi and Yuki and all of the hell that always seems to break loose around them. sigh "Lies" and "Missing" don't belong to me, either. It belongs to the rock goddess named Amy Lee drools… And neither does "Wounded"…that would belong to Good Charlotte. And "Dead Skin" would belong to Crossfade
J-Rock Stars in America…
Shuichi looked across the stage at the beautiful raven-haired woman that entered from the left, a soft chorus reverberating from her lips as she hummed in time with the synthesizers. Amy Lee, the rock goddess of all rock goddesses. The band kicked in at full blast, turning what sounded to be a slow song into full-blown metal, and Amy's eyes snapped open. She flashed a small smile at Shuichi, giving him the courage to do his part, and he started.
Bound at every limb in my shackles of fear
Sealed with lies through so many tears
Lost from within, pursuing the end
I fight for the chance to be lied to again
Amy's voice melted into Shuichi's and the raven-haired man forgot about being on stage in front of millions of people. It was only him and her, singing backstage like they had practiced.
You will never be strong enough
You will never be good enough
You were never conceived in love
You will not rise above
They'll never see
I'll never be
I'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
Amy stepped back with another smile, singing lyrics randomly as Shuichi belted the verse out. Shuichi threw glances over his shoulder and saw that Hiro was in heaven playing with the other guitarists (he had chosen not to play at any of their concerts since they were touring with Evanescence) and Ben and Suguru were in their usual "I love my job" moods while they played.
But through my tears breaks a blinding light
Birthing a dawn to this endless night
Arms outstretched, awaiting me
An open embrace upon a bleeding tree
Amy was back full force, and Shuichi fell back onto the stage to dance around and enjoy himself for the first time in ages.
Rest in me and I'll comfort you
I have lived and I've died for you
Abide in me and I vow to you
I will never forsake you
They'll never see
I'll never be
I'll struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
As Amy hummed in the background, twirling across the stage, Shuichi screamed into the microphone. He was having so much fun and didn't want it to end, even though he knew that it was almost over.
Rest in me, I'll comfort you
I have lived and died for you
Abide in me and I vow to you
I will never forsake you
They'll never see
I'll never be
I'll struggle on and one to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
Amy hummed her part out with the synthesizers and Shuichi couldn't help but smile as the crowd erupted in cheers when the song was complete.
"Thank you!" Shuichi yelled and took a bow.
"I love you guys!" Amy said and bowed as well, following Shuichi and the rest of the band off the stage.
They all stood in silence for a while and then laughed as Ryuichi glomped Shuichi in huge hug.
"That was awesome, Shuichi! So awesome!" Ryuichi yelled and was pried away from the suffocating man by Hiro and Tatsuha. "Sorry, but it was so cool."
"Thanks, Ryu," Shuichi said, grinning in embarrassment and giving Amy a small hug before she went back to her bus. "But true. I mean, was that a kick ass way to start a tour or what?"
"Kick ass!" Ben yelled and the band laughed. "Now, who wants to go celebrate?"
"Us possibly," everyone said in unison as they headed for the back exit and their bus, stopped by a somewhat amused but angry voice.
"And where do you think you're going?" K asked as he stepped out of the shadows.
"To celebrate," Ben said with a grin.
"There's no time for celebrating. We have to get on the bus and head off toward our next destination. Vegas, isn't it?" K said, blocking the exit with this body.
The group sighed in defeat, but followed their manager obligingly enough. As much as they would love to go out and celebrate, they wanted to make it to Las Vegas on time, too.
As they boarded the bus, Shuichi suddenly found himself tired and he checked his watch. It was midnight, not surprising by how late their concert had started, and all of the energy he had had on stage was now out the door. He yawned and was surprised to hear several other yawns come after his, almost like a chain reaction.
"Man, I'm exhausted," Hiro said and plopped down on his bunk.
"Tell me about it," Shuichi said and sprawled out on the bunk he shared with Tatsuha. "My body's shot."
"Me three," Ben said and laughed as everyone looked at him. "Hey, my energy hadn't faded until K had to come out with this whoopty-shit attitude and ruin our celebrating."
Shuichi snorted and rolled over onto his side, feeling Tatsuha climb into bed next to him. He closed his eyes and smiled when Tatsuha lifted the blanket up around them both. Tatsuha's arm snaked its way over Shuichi's side and his hand found refuge in Shuichi's.
"You alright?" Tatsuha whispered, worrying about how exhausted Shuichi had looked.
"Yup, and everyone was having too much fun to notice the bandages," Shuichi whispered back. "Either that or they thought they were wristbands."
"That's good. At least there won't be any unexplained questions in the fans minds," Tatsuha mumbled. Shuichi could already hear Tatsuha's voice slurring as sleep started to take him over, so he rolled over to face Tatsuha and kissed him softly.
"Aishiteru, Tatsuha," he said and laid his forehead against Tatsuha's.
"I know," Tatsuha said with chuckle, his breath playing with Shuichi's bangs. "You want me to help you with your hair tomorrow?"
"If you want," Shuichi said, thinking of the red hair dye he had bought before leaving for America.
"Only for you," Tatsuha said and sleep took him over, his soft breaths tickling Shuichi's face.
Shuichi smiled and kissed Tatsuha's face, thankful for Ben as the man turned the lights off and climbed into bed with Alexis. Sleep overtook his senses a few minutes later and he fell into a deep, dreamless sleep for the first time in months.
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When Ryuichi woke up the next morning, the two buses (his and Bad Luck's) were stopped at a rest area that wasn't far from Las Vegas. The sun was shining brightly through the slatted shades, and he took a few minutes to let his eyes adjust before climbing out of his bunk.
He stretched and checked the other beds, seeing that K and Sakano (the world's worst roomies) were already up and gone.
Must be inside, he thought and went to the bathroom to make himself presentable before pulling on a hoodie to hide his now scrawny figure.
Shuichi, Tatsuha, and Ben were all sitting outside Bad Luck's bus and he smiled when Shuichi waved at him. He waved back and ran over to the three men, grinning from ear to ear.
"Morning, sleepy head," Shuichi said with a smile and stood up from the retractable stairs.
"Morning," Ryuichi said and smiled back, although not as happy as Shuichi's had been.
"What something to eat?" Shuichi asked and lead the way into the bus. "We've got cereal. It's not much, but it's more than nothing."
"No thanks, I'm not hungry," Ryuichi said, looking away from Shuichi as the raven-haired man looked at him in concern.
"Alright," Shuichi mumbled and Ryuichi was glad that he wasn't going to try and force food down his throat.
Ryuichi followed Shuichi, Ben, and Tatsuha into their bus and sat down with them at their dinette. "Have any of you been to Vegas before?"
"It's where we found Ben," Shuichi said, "and I came here with Eiri once."
"Nice, did you gamble any then?"
"No, I wasn't allowed to touch the money," Shuichi replied with a dry laugh. "Maybe I'll do a little now, though. It looks like fun."
"It is fun; you just have to know when you stop yourself. I know! We all need to find a table and play blackjack together. That'd be so much fun."
"Deal," Shuichi said and looked to the door as Hiro, Alexis, Suguru, K, and Sakano entered the bus with food and drinks.
"Good morning, everyone," K said and discarded his purchases on the table. "We are twenty miles from our destination. I think it'll take half an hour to an hour to get there, depending on traffic."
"Sweet!" Ben yawned. "Will there be any time for fun?"
"You'll be set free until two hours before the concert. At seven o'clock you all will be expected to meet at the concert hall to get ready," Sakano explained. "If you're late, you will suffer the consequences."
"No worries, Sakano-san," Suguru said, "but if we plan on getting there at al I think it's time we leave."
"Oh, right!" K exclaimed and ran out the door to the other bus.
"I'm riding with Shuichi," Ryuichi called as Sakano ran off the bus and closed the door.
A few minutes later, the buses pulled out, and Shuichi and Tatsuha retreated to the bathroom to dye Shuichi's hair. Ryuichi followed and watched as Tatsuha helped Shuichi comb in the bright crimson hair dye. The smell was horrible and they were all a little loopy by the time they left the back of the bus, but Ryuichi had a feeling that Shuichi's hair was gonna look good. It was close to his old color, and, even though they were just highlights, he hoped that some of the old Shuichi would come back as well.
There wasn't much more excitement in the forty-five minutes it took to get to the concert hall, just Shuichi washing out the hair dye in a hurry after accidentally leaving it one for thirty-five minutes instead of twenty-five. A few minutes after pulling into the parking lot, everyone unloaded and saw that Amy and crew were already there. They talked to them for a while before they went their separate ways until the concert.
Ryuichi watched Shuichi as they all started trekking down the streets of Vegas. He couldn't help but notice a sort of dark shadow that lingered in the back of the man's eyes, just waiting for the chance to pounce forward and take him away from them again. And, judging from the glances the raven-haired man kept throwing at Shuichi, he thought that Tatsuha saw it too. Ryuichi couldn't put his finger on it what it was, but he knew that what had happened over the past few months had torn Tatsuha up more than the rest of them. Not just from the fact that he was Shuichi's lover, but from something that had happened in his past…
Ryuichi's thoughts cut off as they walked into their first casino, Caesar's. It was so beautiful, but he didn't get much time to sightsee, as he was pulled toward the nearest, empty blackjack table by Ben.
"This was your idea, Ryu, so don't say anything," the American man said as the seven of them sat down at the table (K and Sakano had stayed at the concert hall).
"Wasn't thinking about it," Ryuichi said and smiled half-heartedly. "I hope you all know how to play."
Everyone nodded and the dealer started the first of three hours of games. They all lost more than they had won, but they fun all the while. Somewhere in the group, a stomach growled, and then another, and then another. Ryuichi burst out in laughter as they finished up their last hand and checked his watch.
"It's five, guys. Should we start heading back?" he asked.
"Nah, we've still got time to eat," Hiro said, "and there's a really good buffet somewhere around here."
"Well then, what are we waiting for?" Ben asked and stood up; leading the way out of the casino after everyone tipped the dealer.
Ryuichi followed at a crawl, hoping that maybe he could get lost in the crowd and go back to the bus instead of going with the group, but Shuichi soon noticed that he was gone and slowed to walk with him.
"Are you okay, Ryuichi?" he asked, a frown of concern across his face.
"Yeah, I'm fine," Ryuichi lied. "Why?"
Shuichi sighed and took the time to go over things in his head before speaking them aloud. "Because you're skinny. No, you're not just skinny; you're a twig, Ryu. Have you been eating right? And don't lie to me because I know that you never used to be this thin."
"I'm fine, Shuichi. I've just been sick lately and haven't had much of an appetite, 's all," he said absentmindedly.
"Don't lie to me, Ryuichi!" Shuichi yelled, sounding as if he were on the brink of tears. "Tatsuha's been lying to me for the past week, so, please, don't lie to me, too."
Ryuichi stopped and stood for a second, surprised at how desperate Shuichi's voice sounded. So he had been right, something was bothering Tatsuha, but why would he lie to Shuichi about it? He could tell that Shuichi was scared, more so than he had been a month ago, and Tatsuha burying himself away from him wasn't making him feel any better.
"No, I haven't been eating right," he said as they started to walk again, "but it's just because of the new medicine the doctor put me on. It's an anti-depressant thing but it takes away my appetite." Another lie, but at least it had a little bit of truth in it.
"Are you sure?" Shuichi asked, eyes narrowed slightly in suspicion.
"I'm positive," he said and even gave a good fake smile to show it. "Now, let's go catch up with the others so we won't have to eat alone."
He ran off, mostly to avoid more questions from Shuichi than anything, and they caught up with the group a few minutes later outside of a small restaurant.
"Where have you been?" Ben asked.
"Talking," Ryuichi said and followed him into the restaurant.
They ate, they talked, they joked. It was the first time that Ryuichi had eaten in forever and it made him sick to his stomach. After making sure that everyone was occupied enough so they wouldn't notice if he was gone, he got up from the table and went to the bathroom. He went into a stall and purged himself, not hearing the door open as someone else answered or the sigh as the person left again. A few minutes later he left and returned to the table without anyone noticing that he had been gone.
Now that the food was out of his system, Ryuichi felt better and was ready to go to the record store when Ben suggested it. They paid their bills and left in a hurry. Everyone was getting edgy as the excitement started to build as the few hours until the concert ticked by slowly
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He had known that Ryuichi was lying when he said that it was his medicine that was making him not eat. Shuichi knew that the man had gone to the bathroom when he thought that no one was looking and had followed to see what he was doing. He heard the noises as Ryuichi retched into the ceramic bowl and left the man in peace. He hated how it seemed like everyone around him was lying to him, but told himself that it must be for the good of him if they weren't telling him anything. He didn't want to be paranoid, not now, now when he was having fun on the tour.
He went without a question as Ben led them all to the record store and stood by himself as everyone spread out and looked for a new CD and whatnot. He looked at some of the rock CDs, surprised by how many new artists had debuted since his last trip to America, but figured that he had enough CDs to last for a while.
"Hey, Shu-chan!" Ben called from across the store. "Come and hear this song! It's sweet."
Shuichi sighed, but went over to him nonetheless. The song ended up being "Wounded" from a band he had never heard of before…Good Charlotte. Ben gave him the headphones and the sample started towards the end of the song…
Help me fill this soul
even though this is not your fault
that I'm open
that I'm bleeding
all over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me
so you come along
I push you away
Then kick and scream for you to stay
'cause I need someone to help me
Oh, I need someone to help me
to help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
I need someone to help me sew them
I need someone to help me fill them
I need someone to help me close them up
The song was…he couldn't even put a name on it. Beautiful was a word normally reserved for cheesy love ballads and opera songs, but the song was beautiful. But in a morbid sort of way as everything he thought to be beautiful normally was. He loved the tone and mostly loved the lyrics. It was so sad and it was uncanny to him at how closely he could almost relate to it.
He pulled the headphones off and saw that Ben was grinning at him from ear to ear.
"So?" he asked, still smiling his dorky smile.
"It's…great. I love it. I think I'm gonna have to get their CD," Shuichi said and was immediately handed a copy of Chronicles of Life and Death.
"It's a really good CD. I have it but left it in Japan. I hope you like it as much as I do," Ben said and threw a glance at his watch. "Oh shit, dude. It's six-thirty. We gotta hurry if we wanna make it back in half an hour."
Shuichi laughed and helped Ben to round up the rest of the group before paying for his CD and running out the door with everyone. They ran throughout the streets of Vegas, getting lost a couple of times, but made it back to the buses with only seconds to spare. Hiro led the way into Bad Luck's bus, throwing up the door and charging in, gasping for breath.
"Where have you all been? You look like you just ran a marathon," K said with a laugh.
"I think…we just…did," Tatsuha said between large gasps.
"It…sure as hell…feels like it," Shuichi said, clutching at a cramp in his side.
They all collapsed into seats and K gave them enough time to catch their breaths before rushing them all out of the bus and into the parking lot.
"We play before Evanescence," he said, "and then end the show with 'Lies' again. You all can plan what you want to do; I'm going to make sure set up's going as planned." And then he left, Sakano following closely behind.
"He's actually gonna let us plan what we wanna do?" Ben gaped. "I think K's sick, guys! And I haven't seen him wave a gun since we got here."
"No, he's not sick," Hiro said, "he just listened to us for once."
"My point exactly," Ben said. "He's listening to us and he's not compulsively hounding our asses."
"Hey stop complainin'!" Shuichi said. "It's a nice change, so don't jinx it and make him change his mind."
Ben grinned and nodded. "I know. I just gotta get used to it."
Shuichi laughed and lead the way back onto the bus. The last hour was passing quickly and they still needed to plan out their songs and order. Shuichi, Hiro, Ben, and Suguru took seats at the dinette (Tatsuha, Alexis, and Ryuichi sitting on the couch across from them) and scribbled notes down on a notepad while they bounced ideas off of each other. Once Shuichi decided which song was going to open the concert, it went easily enough from there and they soon had a page full of songs.
An hour later, half an hour until the show was due to start, K returned and chased the band members out of the bus and inside to their dressing rooms. The four men were swarmed by make-up artists and clothes were shoved into their arms as time seemed to speed up. After they were done, they were shoved out of their dressing rooms with fifteen minutes left to spare.
Tension was running high as they stood around, talking with Amy and crew or fans that had won backstage passes through the local radio station. It was dull, considering the amount of excitement that was ahead, but soon they were finally rushed onto the black stage.
The fans were talking quietly amongst themselves, but their whispers immediately turned to screams as Hiro started the song with guitar, Ben and Suguru picking up a later. Shuichi closed his eyes and waited patiently for his cue to start, letting the lyrics flow flawlessly from his lips when it came.
So I'm the king of all these things of this mess I have made
Such a waste, what a shame, my whole life is a waste
Well I'm a bore and I'm sure I'm a thorn inside of you that has torn at you for years
The alcohol and Demerol these things never could replace
What a minute with you could do to put a smile on my face
I'm a bore and I'm sure I'm a thorn inside of you that has torn at me for years
The lights flashed on, exposing the band to the crowd, and the speed of the music began to pick up. Shuichi's eyes flew open and he was almost overwhelmed by the size of the crowd he was now singing in front of. Most of them were probably there for Evanescence, but he didn't care. They were still listening to Bad Luck.
I can't get out of this dead skin, I can't shed my skin
I'm not sure where to begin, why can't I begin again
I can't under my dead skin, I can't shed my skin
Can I sleep 'til then
Phenobarbital and alcohol, these two surely will do
To knock me out, keep me down, for at least a day or two
When I'm awake I can taste how bitter I've become
and it's more than I can bear, somedays I pray someone will blow me away
Make it quick, but let it burn so I can feel my life fade
Well I'm a waste and I can taste how bitter I've become
and it's more than I can bear
I can't get out of this dead skin, I can't shed my skin
I'm not sure where to begin, why can't I begin again
I can't under my dead skin, I can't shed my skin
Can I sleep 'til then
Now was the sort of climax of the song, the music died down for a minute and Shuichi screamed "I can't shed my skin" into the microphone. Hiro came forward with his guitar riff and Ben played along perfectly in the background, Suguru embellishing the guitars to make up for Shuichi not playing.
I can't get out of this dead skin, I can't shed my skin
I'm not sure where to begin, why can't I begin again
I can't under my dead skin, I can't shed my skin
Can I sleep 'til then
The song ended and the crowd went wild.
"Thank you!" Shuichi said into the microphone and the band picked up on the next song (their song "Let Go").
They played out the rest of their time and took bows before rushing off the stage so the stage crews could do a quick instrument switch out. He gave Amy and encouraging smile was she rushed past him and onto the stage with the rest of the band and watched from the side of the stage as the put on their show.
Tatsuha came up beside him and elbowed him in the side, flashing him a smile when he looked at him.
"What's up?" he asked, wrapping an arm around Shuichi's waist.
"Nothing much, just trying not to drool in front of my boyfriend while a hot woman rocks out on stage," he said jokingly, laughing at the look on Tatsuha's face. "I'm just kidding. Well, she is hot, but about the drool."
Tatsuha laughed and kissed the top of Shuichi's head. "Hair looks good."
"Thanks," Shuichi said, running a hand through his now crimson highlighted raven locks. "I like it."
"Yeah, it's got a sort of symbolism to it," Tatsuha said, smiling at the questioning look on his boyfriend's face. "Okay, I'll explain it to you. You're sort of starting to act like your old self again, but you're not quite the same…the red instead of pink. You've been through a lot and a lot has been carved into your life these past few months, and, yes, I meant the pun. That's the streaks. The cuts…the lacerations."
"You've got too much time on your hands, koi," Shuichi laughed and turned his attention back to the woman singing on the stage.
Please, please forgive me
but I won't be home again
Maybe someday you'll look up
and barely consciously you'll say to no one
Isn't something missing?
You won't cry for my absence I know
You forgot me long ago
Am I that unimportant?
Am I so insignificant?
Isn't someone missing me?
Shuichi stood and watched, now open mouthed, as the raven-haired goddess belted out the lyrics. It was the second song that day that he had heard that pulled pain from deep within his heart. Old memories came forward of leaving Yuki's, only to return again the next day. Why had he ever returned? Why did he go back when he always knew, somewhere in his heart, that he was going to be torn in two again?
Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone-
Isn't someone missing me?
Please, please forgive me
but I won't be home again
I know what you do to yourself
I breathe deep and cry out-
Isn't something missing?
He turned and collapsed into Tatsuha's embrace, sobbing into his lover's shoulder. Tatsuha was surprised at first, but then realized what the tears were from and wrapped his arms tightly around Shuichi. There was some sort of truth hidden in the words, but was it actually the truth? If only Shuichi believed that what had happened over the past months was true, it might not be.
Even though I'm the sacrifice
you won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone-
Isn't someone missing me?
The song ended, Amy playing out on the piano and Tatsuha pulled Shuichi from the edge of the stage. Evanescence's time wasn't up yet, but he didn't want Amy to see the other lead singer and wonder what was wrong. He sat him down in a chair and pulled him even closer. The sobs had stopped, but the tears were still falling.
Ryuichi saw what was happening and ran over to their side. "Is he okay?" he asked.
"Yeah, the song got to him," Tatsuha muttered and nodded toward the stage. "'Missing'."
The name was enough and Ryuichi nodded in response. The song had gotten to Shuichi when Yuki had first left him, and he hadn't listened to it since. He always skipped that song if he listened to it on his CD player; he had even made a copy of the CD without the song even on it, just to get away from those memories. With everything that had happened in the past few months, Ryuichi didn't know if there was a worse song for him to hear than that one.
Shuichi pulled back from Tatsuha, wiping his eyes with the back of his hand, and smiled halfheartedly. "Sorry about that," he said with the smile. "I don't know what got into me."
"Yeah," Tatsuha mumbled, concern shining in his eyes.
Ryuichi looked into Shuichi's amethyst eyes and saw that the shadow he had seen earlier had moved closer to the surface. He cursed inwardly at himself for not doing what he had joined Shuichi and crew for, but knew that he still had a chance. The shadow wasn't back, not completely, there was still a chance that they could still save Shuichi before he was gone again.
"It's almost time for your encore," Ryuichi said. "Why don't you go out and jam in style like you did last night?"
Shuichi smiled and nodded, dumping his bottle of water over his head. "I will," he said and returned to the side of the stage just as Amy ran back to get him.
"You okay?" she asked. So she had seen him?
"Fine," Shuichi smiled and followed Amy as she led the way back on stage.
They sang "Lies" together and left the stage after taking their bows, returning back to their busses for the long trip to their next city.
"Are ya gonna make it through your next concert?" Tatsuha mumbled in Shuichi's ear as they lay in bed together.
"I'm gonna have to, I've still got twenty-eight left," Shuichi laughed and fell into a deep sleep plagued with old memories.
TBC…
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A/N: Whoa, I got this baby done quick…and it's not that short. I know, I know…screw the finals break because finals still aren't until next week. I had tons of free periods this week and I got to spend them working on this, so I got it out super fast. WHOO-HOO! Yeah, so maybe the songs helped to take up some of the length of this chapter, but the writer's block was gone for the entire length of this one. DOUBLE WHOO-HOO! I was actually able to think coherently all week for the first time in forever, a great improvement compared to stressing out…
I dunno what you all think about "Missing" and its relations to Shuichi and Yuki relationship. I think that it relates to it a lot of ways, but doesn't relate to it in others. I dunno…there are other Evanescence songs that I think relate to Shuichi and Yuki's relationship but those are the happier ones, and they don't really share much of a happy relationship in this fic. I also think that "Dead Skin" kinda relates as well, but more in a Yuki to Shuichi kind of way…
Welp…thanks much to: Lenora-chan, Guren, KageKitsune16, Sammy -.-zzz, subzero13, Ninja No Shi, GravityNeko, Kitty in the Box, delia, clueless97, sakurya, and CassiToTheStars for reviewing chapter eight. I'm glad that you all liked that chapter 'cause I was kinda worried because I really didn't like it… Oh well, different strokes for different folks, I guess. Does that even make sense? I dunno… Thanks to Guren, Kitty in the Box, and mariklover12 for reviewing "You Still Have All of Me." I'm glad that you liked it so much Kitty-chan…glomps…
Welp…until chapter ten…ja!
