I've noticed that I have a few mix-ups I the chapters so I figured I'd settle that now and if I miss any let me know:
In the last chapter talking about Casey's 'Boyfriend' I mixed it up and said his name was Josiah on accident, so I'm sorry about that I know its not a huge mistake but it bothered me so I had to correct it.
Rose never told Adrian where she was but the day that they all reunited he had called her and said they were going to some club in Austin he had no idea she was there.
And a really big one is I've mixed up when rose got kidnapped like 3 times now so to set it straight rose and Jo were kidnapped almost 2 years ago….more details on that later in the story though and just a hint that's what started her nightmares and anxieties about being alone and what not.
Well in this chapter I've decided to do different point of views so let me know how you like them. As always pleas R&R, and any ideas, suggestions(music or plot), or anything you want to add are always welcome.
DPOV:
30 minutes before the concert started Roza disappeared and a big part of me wanted to follow after her and try to talk to her, but I knew right now wasn't the right time. I really just wanted to chase after her and kiss her like the world was ending, but she'd probably just get mad and punch me, which I do kind of deserve I was the one who left and broke her heart. I still remember that day vividly it was the day I made the biggest mistake of my life. The sad part is she won't listen to me long enough for me to tell her that me and tasha aren't even together. We tried it for a little while but she could tell my heart wasn't in it. At first she got pissed when I told her I was in love with someone else but then when I told her the full story she seemed ok with it and actually tried to get me to go back to Roza but when I tried I had found out she had ran away.
When I found out she had left the day I told her I was leaving I instantly felt horrible. It was all my fault she had left her friends, her life, and her future. It was my fault that the princess was heartbroken because her best friend had left without even saying goodbye, along with all her other friends. My fault she had left the academy and didn't graduate even though she was honestly the best novices I've ever seen, hell she was better than 99% of the guardians and she hadn't even graduated yet.Then I got pissed no one had told me until almost 2 months afer she left. Maybe if they would have old me the day she left I could've found her again and brought her back. But with her 'just being a novice' nobody except her friends and Alberta actually cared enough to look for her, but they couldn't do much seeing as they were all students and Alberta had to do her job.
"Can someone go find Rose? She's on in 15"
"I'll go" I instantly volunteered.
"No I'll go" said the princess giving me a sharp look, Rose must have told her about us.
"Well I have a good idea of where she is and I'm heading that way so follow me." Said Roses' friend Casey? I really couldn't quite remember her name for some reason.
When we got to one of the dressing rooms we could hear talking and then a loud 'YAY' that was definitely from Rose. Casey opened the door to reveal Joseph and my Roza in a tight embrace. She turned around and I noticed she didn't move her arms until she saw who it was. I instantly was jealous that she had such a close relationship with this guy that yet hardly even looks at me. The rational part of me was glad she had someone who cared for her that much and was happy to see she wasnt alone but the other part of me was pissed that I left her and wasn't the one she hugged and slept with every night.
"Hey" she said acting as if that wasn't kind of awkward,
"Sorry to interrupt" said Casey with a slight smirk.
"It's cool I was just checking to see if I have it, I do" she said winking. Ugh why did I come back here? Oh yea because I was hoping to maybe talk to her for a few seconds looks like that's not going to happen
"Have what?" I asked.
"My amazing charm and awesome persuasion" she said winking at Jo this time, this jealousy stuff was getting really annoying. I tuned the rest of their little conversation out until they hugged again.
I cleared my throat hoping they'd get the hint, she did. She turned back around to face us.
"Oh sorry what'd you all need?"
"We came to tell you you're on in 15." Said the princess looking at her watch.
"K. come on Teddy, Liss," she said pulling them through the door, but then she stopped and whispered in Casey's ear.
"Thanks I was really worried about that" Casey said laughing.
"No problem just thought I'd let you know." She said with a smirk, which was never a good thing, it usually meant se was up to something. She resumed pulling Jo and the princess down the hallway and I followed while Casey went the opposite way.
"Posie what was that about?" asked Jo as we started walking. Posie? Really Roza hated nicknames like that, in fact she'd punch any person that would even attempt to change up her name like that. Her and Jo must be extremely close for him to be able to call her that and keep his head, which made me extremely curious to find out whats going on with them and how they got so close.
"Just letting her know I'm not moving in on her man." She laughed.
"Oh and who's that man again?" he asked
"No one of importance just some awesome totally hot guy from the bar!" she said. I could tell she was just kidding but it still hurt me to hear her say that about another man.
"Oh really and what's this hot sexy guys name?" he asked.
"I never said sexy but I guess that's true too. Hmm I don't remember it was like Josiah or Joey or Jim oh right it was Joseph!" she said. God the things this woman did to me, in all my life I've never been jealous until I met Roza. Then a thought hit me, if her joking was making me this jealous no wonder she hated me. I could only imagine how she felt thinking that I was in a relationship with Tasha, I'm surprised she hasn't killed me or Tasha yet.
"Oh I didn't know you two were dating." Said Lissa.
"We're not" said Joseph.
"oh then why did you…?" she questioned confused.
"Long story short they like each other but they won't do anything about it." It looked like there was more to the story but looking at her I could tell that's really all she'd say about it.
"Well if you like each other why don't you do anything about it?" the princess asked Joseph.
"Liss you of all people should know things are never that simple and easy." Answered Roza. I looked at her understanding what she was saying, and I couldn't help but be overwhelmed by all of our memories at the academy, the love, anger, secrecy, and hurt.
"yea true." Said the princess with a look of sympathy.
When we finally reached backstage she still had 10 minutes so she excused herself for a minute.
"Can you go get rose?" asked one of the band members, "She's on in 3"
"Sure." I replied
"Come in." she yelled through the door.
"What do you want Dimitri?" she said when she saw it was me.
"Your on in 3."
"Great." She mumbled thinking I couldn't hear her.
"Why'd you agree to do this if you don't want to?" I asked even though I had a good idea of why Roza would do something she didn't want to.
"Long story short it's a favor to a friend" she answered somewhat truthfully. I knew it had to do with one of her friends.
"Oh well relax you have a beautiful voice." I said honestly, even though beautiful wasn't quite the way to describe it, it's way better than just beautiful.
"Thanks comrade but that's not what I'm worried about." She said. When I heard her old nickname for me my mood instantly brightened. I used to say I hated that nickname but I've missed it so much since we've been apart.
"Oh then what is?" I said not mentioning her little slip-up for fear of her completely shutting down, seeing as this is the first real conversation we've had since last night.
"You'll see" she said as she walked out the door.
"Hey you'll do great Posie screw everyone else" Said Joseph as she headed towards the stage.
"Thanks I might need that advice." She said laughing, but I could tell she was still real nervous, "Here goes nothing."
When she played her first song I automatically knew it was about her leaving the academy. Certain phrases stuck out and hit me like little needles know I was the reason she felt that way. Especially one part, it kept playing in my head until the song was over.
I'm sick of feeling cheap
Cheated and abused
Sick of losing sleep
Thinking about you
"Thanks everyone, now this songs not really true because I never believed in fairy tales but one man had me starting to believe in them…" well it looks like tonight is torment Dimitri night but its good for her to get it all out and good for me to hear how she feels before talking to her.
There's no such thing as fairy tales
When she said the last line she glanced over at me and I could tell she was shocked by all the emotion I was showing. She glanced away then turned to look at the princess, she probably said something through the bond. I was glad to see they were starting to get back to their old relationship I never knew exactly why Roza stopped talking to Vasilisa but I figured it just hurt her too much after leaving her behind.
When she finished that song she immediately jumped into a faster song. She was going crazy on stage jumping around, clapping, and dancing. You could tell she was really enjoying herself and letting go.
Even though I knew this song was directed at me, it still made me laugh. Nd she was right she's nothing like Tasha and I will never get anything better than Roza because she is the best, even better. She was so mesmerizing on the stage I just couldn't take my eyes off f her, not that I'd want to.
"She really is something isn't she?" said Jo coming up beside me.
"She's amazing." I agreed.
"I know what happened between y'all and I have a feeling sooner or later she'll some how find a way to forgive you, but I just want you to know she's had it rough the last few years, and she's gone through a lot things most people wouldn't have made it through, I can tell by the way you look at her that you still love her but if you ever hurt her again I promise you'll have more than just me to deal with. Rose has many people looking out for her and none of them would think twice if she ends up hurt again." He threatened.
Part of me was mad that he was threatning me but part of me understood why he was and for that I was happy. Happy to see that Rose had him in her life to help protect her not that she needed much protection I'm sure she could take Joseph and me on her own.
"I don't know what all she's been through since she left but I made the biggest mistake of my life leaving her. I was stupid and thought I was doing the right thing. I could never imagine hurting Roza again, and I will live with the guilt of leaving her, for the rest of my life. And as for you or anyone else dealing with me, even though it will never happen, if I did hurt her again I'd be more scared of her than anyone else."
"I'm just warning you because if she breaks again I'm afraid she won't be able to put herself back together again." About that time rose had announced that Joseph was going to perform with her so he ran on stage leaving me to my thoughts. They sang a song that if I had to name I would say is called 'need you now', and it just confused me a little more. I don't think when he said 'if she breaks again' he was referring to just me leaving.
"Glad y'all liked that one. I know it's one of my favorites! This next one a very special friend wrote with me" I said glancing at Jo "so I hope y'all love this one as much as me and I hope y'all have someone in your life that you can relate this song to whether it be a friend, family member, spouse, kid or anyone else because when you find people in this world that are that special then you know you'll make it through anything no matter how hard it is."
It's like a storm
That cuts a path
It breaks your will
It feels like that
She sang the beginning and it made me 10 times more curious on what has happened to her. Watching them you could see a connection much deeper than just friends, if you didn't know any better you'd almost say they were lovers, but I knew Roza and she wasn't in love with him not romantically at least. The way they were looking at each other and the way he was so protective over her, the way she was so dependent on him, made me wonder what happened to them, whatever it was it was huge. Roza has never been so dependent on anyone in her life. For instance earlier she started to fall asleep watching a movie with everyone Lissa asked him if he could show here something and he told her he couldn't until Rose woke up because he HAD to be there when she woke up. The Roza I knew never would have had to have anyone there when she woke up. Something huge must have happened to make her like this, and whatever it was it pissed me off that yet another bad thing happened to my Roza and made me furious at myself because I wasn't there to help her.
When the song was over she looked over and we locked eyes. I could see tears in her eyes and all I wanted to do was run over to her and hold her till all the pain is gone, but I couldn't do that since it was partly my fault she was hurting.
I know one thing for sure somehow I am going to get her to forgive me, and I'm going to find out what caused her so much pain and figure out someway to fix it!
