A/N: This chapter contains a song, Mariah Carey's "We Belong Together". It will also be really short...mainly because I cried when I was writing it and listening to the song at the same time and can't think of anything else that would be appropriate to this chapter. Sorry, I'm just a really emotional type!
To KogasAngel: Girl, I hope you really enjoy this chapter! It's dedicated to you.
Chapter 9
Kouga had to coax Kagome into the car. She was upset, understandably so, about the whole Sesshoumaru thing. But now, she was weeping because she was covered in mud and didn't want to ruin his car.
He sighed and told her that it would be all right. He could just have the upholstery cleaned later. It was no big deal.
So, soothed and reassured, Kagome got into the car and Kouga took her home.
The next day, Kagome felt horribly depressed and confused. She hadn't slept a wink the night before. She was thankful that Kouga was at work and Shippo had taken Sango and Miroku to the mall for last minute clothing they would need for Thursday, the day of the party.
Kagome spent nearly the whole day in her room. She had refused breakfast and lunch, saying that she just wasn't hungry.
Around three pm, Kagome had gone down to the ballroom and turned on some music. She danced a little, stretching her cramped muscles that had gone unused all day long. The music was happy...but Kagome wasn't feeling the same way.
A sad love song came on the radio and Kagome began to cry... and then, she remembered.
She sat down heavily on the ground and sobbed hard into her hands.
"I didn't mean it When I said I didn't love you so I should have held on tight I never should've let you go I didn't know nothing I was stupid I was foolish I was lying to myself I couldn't have fathomed that I would ever Be without your love Never imagined I'd be Sitting here beside myself..."
She had finally remembered... the last time... She had chosen Sesshoumaru over Kouga. Sesshoumaru, that horrible, hateful youkai!
She had deserted Kouga. She left him, betrayed his love for her by choosing another.
Kami...why? WHY? How could she be so stupid?
"Guess I didn't know you Guess I didn't know me But I thought I knew everything I never felt The feeling that I'm feeling Now that I don't Hear your voice Or have your touch and kiss your lips Cause I don't have a choice Oh, what I wouldn't give To have you lying by my side Right here, 'cause baby..."
Her chest clenched painfully. She felt so miserable. Kouga had been nothing but wonderful, always wearing his tender, beautiful heart on his sleeve for her to take at any time. How could she choose Sesshoumaru?
Why had she done that? If she had chosen Kouga, she would be happily mated now. Why had she chosen a man who hated her because of what she was? Why hadn't she chosen the one man who had always loved her?
"When you left I lost a part of me It's still so hard to believe Come back baby please We belong together Who else am I gonna lean on When times get rough Who's gonna talk to me on the phone Till the sun comes up Who's gonna take your place There ain't nobody better We belong together..."
Kouga had always desired her...always needed her...always wanted her. And yet, she chose the one she thought would always desire her, always need her, always want her.
Her youkai didn't want to hear it. It wanted it's mate...but Kagome couldn't listen to it.
She wanted Kouga. She loved Kouga. There was no longer any doubt in her heart. Kouga was the one she wanted...
"I can't sleep at night When you are on my mind Bobby Womack's on the radio Singing to me 'If you think you're lonely now'
Wait a minute This is too deep, too deep I gotta change the station So I turn the dial Trying to catch a break And then I hear Babyface I only think of you And it's breaking my heart I'm trying to keep it together But I'm falling apart I'm feeling all out of my element I'm throwing things Crying Trying to figure out Where the hell I went wrong The pain reflected in this song Ain't even half of what I'm feeling inside I need you Need you back in my life baby..."
She loved him with every thing she had...
Everything, that is, except her youkai.
"When you left I lost a part of me It's still so hard to believe Come back baby please We belong together Who else am I gonna lean on When times get rough Who's gonna talk to me Till the sun comes up Who's gonna take your place There ain't nobody better We belong together..."
When song ended, Kagome felt a presence standing in the doorway of the ballroom.
It was Kouga, just come home from work. The look on his sweet face told her that he was in pain because he had seen her crying her eyes out.
With a sob, she got up and ran to him, throwing herself into his arms...and her youkai screamed at her for betraying her mate.
But she paid the thing no heed as she crashed her lips against Kouga's surprised ones. In response, his arms wrapped tightly around her and they fell to the ground together.
"Kouga..." she moaned against his mouth. "I...I love you."
"Kagome," he whispered huskily. "Oh, my Kagome..."
She dug her fingers in his thick, silky tresses and sighed happily against his lips. He was still hers...and she would be forever his...
Next time: Let the party begin!
