New Beginnings and Sudden Endings
Ob1MegOb1
Author's Note: Yeah I can't believe I'm already on Chapter 8! For all of you who have continued to read and review I appreciate it soooo much! You are the ones who add the fuel to the fire and inspire me to keep going with this story. So keep doing what you do and I'll keep doing my part as well. Enjoy Chapter 9! Oh and I probably won't get a chapter out tomorrow as I am having an overnight party at my friend's timeshare. So just thought I would let you know I won't have one out tomorrow but hopefully I will have one the next day, and because it will take two days it should be a little longer. So yeah! .
Chapter 9
Confused Eyes Full of Thoughts
Tamaki walked in to find Kyoya lying on his back like usual only his head was turned to the wall facing away from him. The nurse in the room looked up at the entering visitor and smiled, "I wondered when you were going to show up."
Tamaki nodded his head not verbally answering. He didn't know if out of caution or complete and utter fear he did that but he did. He watched the nurse lean down putting her hand on Kyoya's, "Somebody is here to see you Kyoya." Tamaki watched waiting for him to turn towards him. A few seconds passed and still no acknowledgment for the visitor in the room. Tamaki was beginning to wonder if he had fallen asleep after all. "He's awake," she said as if she had read his mind, "He just needs a little help with figuring out how to move. He's body still recovering from being so still for three months, so that can make it difficult."
She slowly straightened him up a little and then slowly but surely she turned his head towards Tamaki. Tamaki wanted to jump with joy to see those familiar brown eyes again, glasses and all. His eyes reacted a little to seeing a new person in the room but Tamaki noticed there were no other signs of recognition. While Tamaki had thought about what he was going to say when this day came, he was surprised by what came out of his mouth first, "You're wearing your glasses?"
He didn't really react to the comment and Tamaki kicked himself for saying that out loud. "Sorry," he muttered, "Wasn't really thinking but you know me. I tend to talk before I think sometimes." But as Tamaki watched Kyoya's confused gaze he began to wonder if he did know him.
"Don't be discouraged," the nurse said behind him, "Just try talking to him like you usually would and see what happens. Sometimes all it takes is the smallest trigger."
Tamaki smiled gratefully as she left the room. Now they were alone. And once again Tamaki felt that great silence beginning to creep up on him. He looked up at Kyoya who was still looking at him with curious eyes.
"Sorry," Tamaki said quickly sitting up, "I guess I forgot to tell you who I was in the first place," he said laughing nervously.
"I'm Tamaki Suou," he said smiling, "we go to Ouran High School and are in the same class together. Actually you and I are really close friends." Still no reaction from Kyoya. This was going to be harder than he thought. He had at least hoped for some kind of body language at the very least. "And actually we even started a club together called the Host Club. Look here," he said pulling picture out of his pocket, "That's everybody there. That's me, Haruhi, Mori, Hunny, the twins, and of course there's you." Tamaki watched as a confused expression began to spread over Kyoya's features. He wasn't remembering them. Those empty eyes were just staring at him unsure and confused.
"How about this," Tamaki said, "has anyone explained to you why you are you here?" Kyoya only stared back. Tamaki forgot he couldn't talk…he couldn't move…he couldn't do anything. His hand was beginning to shake as he couldn't think of anything to say. He drooped his head trying to think of something else he could say. He sighed, "You were going to surpass your brothers…become your family's heir. Don't you remember that?" And as he looked up Kyoya's eyes stared back still empty and confused. Like he wasn't understanding a word he was saying.
Tamaki slowly got up putting on a smile, "Well I think have bothered you enough for one day," he said softly, "I'll come back and see you later okay?" Still no response.
"Bye Kyoya," he said walking out his boot thumping in the silence. As he walked outside he leaned against the door breathing deeply. His heart pounding with fear and uncertainty. He had known that anything was going to happen but this felt absolutely…overwhelming.
"Master Tamaki," the nurse said next to him, "are you okay?"
"Just tell me," Tamaki said plainly, "Is there a chance he may not remember anything? That he will never get his memories back?"
The nurse said, "There's always that chance. But it's only the first day Tamaki. His mind is still resetting, and there is still so much left to gain back. It's still a waiting game and I know how patient you have been. Just keep being there for him, be his best friend. He's going to need you more than you know."
Tamaki smiled, "Thank you." And then he walked towards the staircase and started down the stairs he couldn't help but think how empty those words felt right now. Empty like Kyoya's eyes had been during that exchange. But then he noticed…why was he taking the stairs? Oh well its not like he had the crutches… it shouldn't be too bad. Besides he wasn't really thinking about himself. He was thinking of how they would keep going, if they never even got a part of Kyoya back. What was going to happen then?
(The waiting room)
Haruhi leaned back in her chair with a sigh. She was all for being here for Tamaki and Kyoya, but she was worried about missing school. She had hoped that they all would be able to go back…that way she could feel better about missing class. But it also made sense that they didn't want to overwhelm him either. She looked at their group, thinking how easy it was to be overwhelmed by them all.
"Haruhi," a voice said behind her and she looked to see the nurse that was in charge of Kyoya's care behind her.
"Oh," Haruhi said uncertainly, "hi."
"Did Tamaki make it down okay?" she asked concerned, "I noticed he took the stairs."
Haruhi had a look of disbelief go over her face. "He did, did he?" She sighed, "He's probably taking his time…maybe I'll go meet him halfway," she said suddenly nervous that he was trying to tackle them by himself.
"Also," she said as Haruhi got up, "he seemed dazed when he came out of Kyoya's room. He seemed upset, although he was hiding it behind that smile of his."
Haruhi was taken aback by this. But then again…she thought back to the day Kyoya had gone into surgery and how distraught he had been. Something happened in that room to get him back to that state. "Thank you for telling me," she said rushing over to the staircase.
She ran up the stairs as fast as she could her heart pounding. Until about halfway up the stairs she finally found him. He was sitting inbetween staircases his legs stretched out in front of him his head down. He barely even acknowledged the fact that she was standing in front of him. "I got tired and stopped to rest," he said softly.
"That's good," she said, "because you know you don't have the stamina for stairs yet."
"Sorry," he muttered. She sat down next to him, he wasn't as bad as she had thought but he was being awfully quiet. At least for him… She couldn't help but notice the sadness in his violet eyes…the eyes that were usually so bright with joy and excitement. They were dull and sad, and she almost thought she saw hopelessness there as well.
"How was he?" she asked carefully, hoping she wasn't stepping on a landmine asking that.
Tamaki was quiet for several seconds before he finally said, "He doesn't remember anything," he muttered, "Not his name, family, or friends. He just stared at me with this confused look in his eyes, and I didn't know what to do." She wrapped her arm around his shoulders tucking him closer to her.
"We knew this was a possibility," she muttered, "maybe we should work together and go in there more prepared next time."
He jolted up, "I mean I haven't lost faith in him getting better, it's just I didn't know it would be so bad. I started to think…what if we never truly get him back at all?"
Haruhi sighed, "It is a scary thought Tamaki. If that happens though, it means it's a whole new world for him, and you have to continue being his friend. We all do. We're not just going to abandon him because he forgets us."
Tamaki sighed leaning into her a little more, "You're right. As usual I overreacted a little."
"I don't think so," she muttered, "I think we all would have been scared going in there. So really you didn't really react all that differently then we would have."
He looked over to see the mirror of his own uncertainty in her eyes. They were all scared…his family and his friends. Kyoya waking up was the first step and now it was a whole new game. He would need the support of everybody around him, and it was doing him no good for them to be sitting here. He smiled sitting up as he suddenly got his energy back, "Okay let's try to get down these stairs in one piece." She got up smiling, and grabbed his arm to help steady him a little. Once again Tamaki showed his great ability to recover quickly. Well…at least on the outside. She knew he was still troubled on the inside, but together they would work through that to the best of their ability.
TBC
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