Hey all! I kind of got mixed reviews about Amara's dream in this chapter. Some of you liked it, and others really didn't like it as much. I was kind of trying to show you, this was what her life would have probably been like if they all didn't have to abandon earth and stuff. It was kind of supposed to say, she would have had a wonderful family. I just decided to take Bellamy and Charlotte and add them into that vision. But it wasn't real, and the whole sequence would probably not happen, it's just a what if, what if Bellamy and Amara really did meet under different circumstances, what if they truly did fall in love, get married, and have kids. Anyhow thanks guys for your reviews. Always appreciated.
Special thanks to: Dauntless14, bubbletime, Guest, RainbowShelby, & minstorai
Dauntless14 - I can't wait either :D
bubbletime - To tell you the truth, I was kind of stalling just a bit because I want to see tonight's episode, to see which direction I take the story :D so I needed to add something different ;P I loved that part too.
Guest - Thank you so much for your input. :D The first dream was meant to scare you guys a little ;P I'm guessing it worked lol. And yes! I think Bellamy and Clarke don't fit well together at all. I think I'd be heartbroken if they make them go together in the tv show. Hahaha, sometimes I wish I could fast forward through those scenes too! But I think they play an important part of the story. Thank you again.
RainbowShelby - That's okay! I hope you had a great time with her :D Thanks so much for your review :D
minstorai - One can not choose how you dream. It just happens, I don't think any body can just go to sleep and say, 'I want to dream about this.' and they dream about it. Same thing goes for Amara. It's one of her biggest fears, loosing Bellamy (though she doesn't know it yet). And I explained up top about her second dream. Like I said, that was just a what if, and it happened to be her dream. I believe we all have a lot of what ifs in our life. What if I had done this, what if I had done that, and to make Amara and her life as realistic as possible, I added that to the chapter (also while trying to stall ;P) As for Charlotte, I know a lot of people see her as the girl who murdered Wells. I see her as a little girl who was scared and took/listened the wrong direction from the wrong person. I mean, what Bellamy was telling her was okay to face your fears and slay the demons, but she took it to heart. I don't think he really truly meant, go physically kill what scares you. But with her being a young girl, she thought he actually meant go kill Wells. Anyhow :D Thanks for your review. It's diffidently nice receiving input form you :)
I honestly don't know how I feel about Amara dreaming about a family. Well, except I know she shouldn't be dreaming of that murdering bigot in it - that girl's like the second coming of Lizzie from The Walking Dead! But yeah, I definitely come down on the side of not wanting more of the family even though I'm sure tons of people are on the other side.
Before Charlotte showed up, I loved this chapter. But I suppose she did have to come into the picture sooner or later. Oh and I just about died when Amara met up with Bellamy after the first dream!
Thanks again guys for your reviews. You guys are so encouraging and I don't think I would have gotten this far had I not had you! XOXO thanks again, please enjoy.
I turned to see Bellamy sitting up talking to Charlotte. She must have been having a bad dream. He held the knife up in front of her. I could hear her young voice saying, "Screw you, I'm not afraid." Bellamy turned away from her while saying, "Slay your demons kid, then you'll be able to sleep." He turned and saw me sitting up. Smiling a small smile, he said, "You're okay."
"Of course I'm okay," I replied, "Why wouldn't I be?" He shrugged his shoulders, answering, "You were coughing a lot, then you fainted." I smiled and said to him, "I'm okay. See?" He motioned for me to crawl over to him, I complied. He wrapped his arms around my shoulders and pulled me close to him. I wanted to tell him about my dreams, I wanted to find out what I meant to him. But the first dream popped into my mind. What did happen to Paul? I needed to find out. I didn't want my dream to become a reality.
"Bellamy," I started. "Mmhhmm?" He grunted. I sat up from him and looked him in the eyes. "What happened to Paul? After the whole wristband thing?" I asked him. He broke eye contact, then started to play with a rock. Something didn't seem right. Was that guilt in his eyes? What happened that night? "Nothing Amara," He said to me, "Just let it go. He wont bother you or anyone else for a while." I frowned at his answer, it really didn't explain much. I could see Charlotte watching us. I thought back to me second dream. What if we really did become a family? Would I ever really become a mom? Or would my illness kill me before I could have kids? I shook my head, I was, as my mother would have told me, too young to be thinking about kids. I had just barely turned eighteen.
I shook my head, I didn't approve of Bellamy giving the young girl a knife. I scooted over to her and touched her hand. She was shaking, she was truly scared of something. I slowly reached down and grabbed the knife, not caring I had grabbed the sharp end of the knife. My hand started to sting, but I didn't care. I slowly pulled the knife out of her hand. Tossing it aside, I pulled her into a hug. I made sure to keep my bloody hand off of her. I then started to hum a lullaby that my mother used to hum to me when I was younger. Looked over at Bellamy. He had a new look written on his face. I couldn't put my finger on it.
Once Charlotte fell back asleep, I gently laid her down on the ground, bunching a jacket underneath her head. I looked to the mouth of the cave, the fog was still out there. How long would we be trapped in this cave.
I heard Bellamy sigh, obviously annoyed with something. "Give me your hand," He said sternly. I scooted over to him and gave him my hand. He took a piece of cloth out of his jacket pocket and wrapped my hand in it. He, tied it off, then said softly, "You calm me down, I don't know why." I looked up at him. I really wanted to kiss him. Like in my dreams. I wanted to see if it felt just like my dreams. I wanted to see if the kiss was sweet and passionate.
I turned back to Bellamy. I crawled closer to him, then straddled his lap. "Amara," He said softly. Pushing some of my hair behind my ear.
With that, we were both kissing each other. Our lips locked together. My body pressed up against his. I ran my hands through his hair and he ran his up and down my body. He broke the kiss and moved his lips down me cheek to my neck. I had never felt anything like it. In fact, other than in my dreams, I have never kissed before. It was perfect, my first kiss. Bellamy was amazing. I felt him bite my lower lip, making me jump a little bit.
Bellamy's hands found their way under my shirt. He rubbed them up and down my back. I leaned forward and started to kiss him once more. "Amara," He said against my lips. "Mmm?" I somewhat asked.
"Amara," He said again, he then pushed me away from him, "Stop."
I looked at him confused, "What? Why?" He sighed, running a hand through his tousled hair. "Why are you doing this?" he asked me. I looked at him shocked. Why was he asking me this? "What do you mean?" I asked slowly. I was confused. Didn't he want to kiss me? He was really into it just a minute ago.
"You don't seem like the type of girl that would be making out with a guy in a cave," he answered. I looked at him puzzled. "Something must have happened, or else you wouldn't have jumped on me like this," he continued. I looked at the ground as I slumped off of him so that I was sitting next to him. Did I really jump on him? Did it really seem like I was desperate?
"What happened?" he asked. I didn't answer him. I just stared at the cave wall, then it dawned on me... Of course. He didn't want me at all. I was some ill skinny girl. My brain is so stupid. It tricked me. Making me think that he like me, maybe even loved me. It was all because of those stupid dreams. Tears threatened to spill over. I didn't want to talk to him. He rejected me. First, led me on, then cast me aside like I was nothing.
I quickly got up and rushed out of the cave, not caring if the killer fog was out there. "Amara! Wait!" I ignored his calls, I once again ignored the burning sensation in my lungs. I just ran. As fast as I could, back to camp. Back to Octavia. I had to tell her she was wrong. I had to tell her, he didn't love me. But most importantly, I needed a friend to talk to.
Once I got to camp, I saw everyone was out. Either the fog hadn't hit here or it was already passed. I was breathing heavily and my heart hurt.
"Amara?" I heard. I turned to see Murphy walk up to me, "Amara, why are you crying?" I was crying? I reached my hands up and touched my face. It was damp from my tears. Tears I didn't even know were spilled out. "I don't know," I sobbed. He grabbed me and hugged me as I cried in his shoulder. One question did pop into my mind. One that Bellamy never answered. Murphy had to know, he was Bellamy's right hand man.
"What happened to Paul?" I asked quietly. He let go of me, then shifted on his feet, "He's dead, isn't he?" I asked, "Bellamy killed him didn't he?" Murphy slowly nodded his head. How could Bellamy do that? Paul may have been cruel to me, but he didn't deserve death.
"Amara," Murphy said to me, "What's wrong?" I looked at him. I really didn't want to tell him I had guy problems. So I just stayed quiet and looked at the ground. I felt his hand find it's way under my chin, he lifted my face up and I looked him in the eye. Suddenly he leaned forward and kissed me! I closed my eyes, I heard the bush behind me rustling. I didn't care though, it must have been stupid kids trying to spy on us. But his kiss was soft, but it was hungry for something else, his kiss wanted more than just a kiss. The small voice in the back of my head cried, 'Get away! Don't continue this! Stop!'. I listened to it and quickly pulled away. "Murphy what the heck!" I then pushed passed him and rushed into the ship.
I saw Octavia pressing a cool cloth to Jasper's skin. I walked up to them and smiled. Octavia could tell something was up. She put the rag down, "What is it?" she asked me. I just shook my head, "I can't talk about it now. It hurts too much." She put a hand on my shoulder, "I understand." With that, I just cried with her hugging me. After a while. I calmed down a bit. I helped Octavia change Jasper's bandages and wipe his head. I don't know how long we were up there, but we heard yelling coming from outside. Turning to Monty I said, "We're going to go see what's going on, you wait here with Jasper." He nodded his head and playfully saluted me. Octavia and I both went out to see what was going on.
We both walked out of the drop ship. "It's about time," Octavia started, "They're gonna kill Jasper." I looked at Clarke, "Did you get the medicine?" She didn't answer me, she frowned, "Amara, have you been crying?" I frowned and replied, "Right now we need to focus on Jasper, did you get the medicine?"
Clarke, I could tell, was a little thrown off with my attitude, I rarely ever snapped at her, "Yeah, I- I got it," She said. Octavia looked past Clarke, so did I. Bellamy was standing over something that was covered in a jacket. Octavia pushed past Clarke, who tried to get her to stay back.
I frowned at Clarke and followed Octavia. Bellamy when he saw me, tensed. He then turned his attention to his sister, "Octavia, just stay there. Please, stay back," He said, his voice quivering just a bit. She tried pushing past him, "No, stop." She said, pushing his arms off of her. She then knelt down and pulled the jacket off. We all gasped. Atom laid there, lifeless. "There's nothing I could do," Bellamy started. Octavia put a hand up and snapped, "Don't!" Tears ran down her face as she looked at the dead man. She put the jacket back on over his face, then got up and ran.
I looked up at Bellamy, still upset with what happened earlier, and Atom's death wasn't helping. Murphy was standing next to Bellamy, we both made eye contact. I frowned at both of them, then rushed off to find Octavia. She was there for me when I needed her. So I wanted to be there for her.
I watched as both my sister and Amara rushed away. I turned to look at Murphy, trying to hold in my anger, I asked, "Loose anyone here?"
"None." I nodded my head, then asked, "Jasper?"
"I tried to take him out, but your psycho sister-" I cut him off, "My what!" I wasn't too happy with him to start with, now having him call Octavia psycho just pushed me over the edge. I pushed him past all the kids. I turned to someone and said, "Stay here with the others, don't let anyone follow us," I pointed over to where Atom lay, "And get him out of here." I then dragged Murphy to who knows where.
"Bellamy is this really necessary, I didn't mean to call Octavia psycho," Murphy stuttered out. I threw him to the ground, "This is necessary. Murphy, you need to learn your place. What's mine, you don't ever touch! I believe we already had this conversation more than once!" Murphy looked at me, as if I were crazy.
I picked him up and punched him, "You kissed Amara! I watched you do it!" Rage filled me at the thought of his disgusting lips on hers. Murphy got up and put his hands in front of him, trying to protect his face. "I lost one of my friends, that hurt," I started, "And to watch my other friend kiss what's mine behind my back. That makes me fill with rage." I then moved forward to hit him. He dodged me and landed a couple of punches to my face and stomach.
"I don't know what you're talking about Bellamy!" Murphy cried out, "She kissed me!"
My blood boiled, I knew the truth. I watched the whole thing play out. I had run after Amara, leaving Charlotte in the cave. For some reason, she just bolted out of the cave. So I followed her. I watched as she tried to talk to Murphy, I watched as he leaned in and kissed her. What made me even more mad, was the fact that she seemed to enjoy it, that's when I turned and ran. I was confused. Was I hurt? Maybe. I was about to punch him when I heard someone cry out stop.
"Stop!" I shrieked. I rushed forward and placed my body in between Bellamy and Murphy. Bellamy stopped himself from landing another punch. "What is wrong with you?" I hissed. Why the hell would he be beating Murphy up. I crouched down to check of Murphy. He seemed fine. He'd probably have more bruises on his face than before. I had heard Bellamy and Murphy, they stomped right past Octavia and me. So I decided to follow. My heart literally stopped when I saw Bellamy and Murphy fighting, so I rushed forward to stop them, ignoring what they said to each other. I couldn't let Bellamy kill my, what was Murphy? A friend? An acquaintance? No, neither, I just couldn't let Bellamy kill someone again.
I helped him up, glaring at Bellamy, I helped Murphy to the drop ship. That's when I knew, I shouldn't love him, I couldn't love him. I'd have to close my heart off. I'd have to ignore Bellamy Blake.
Dun dun dun! Please don't hate me, trust me. I will give you this one hint! Things will get better in the future for Bellara, but right now, they both are a little on edge with all the events happening. Life isn't just a perfect ride, we have to have a couple of bumps along the way. :P Anyhow. Like I said, it will get better, and we will find out what happened to Paul and how he died. He plays an important part in the story... kind of. I also thought it'd be interesting to see just a little bit of what Bellamy was feeling. I don't know if I'll do it again... :/ Tell me if you liked Bellamy POV or not. Anyhoo! Please leave a review. :D
~RedRoses224
