Nickis POV.

Maybe I was just imagining things, after all I had taken a few good blows to the head. Right? I looked at Sam accusingly. He knew about my falling out with Bobby and I made it clear enough that I didn´t want anything to do with him. EVER! I couldn´t help but feel betrayed by Sam. "Why did you do it? Off all the hunters you know, you asked him for help?"

"Nicki, I´m sorry." Again he gave me those damn puppy dog eyes. "I can understand you´re mad but he´s your Da.."

"Mad doesn´t even remotely cover it!" I cut him off. "And don´t you dare call him my Dad! He might be from a biological point of view but that´s it."

"Sam just did what he thought was right." Dean defended his younger brother.

I ignored Dean. "Just because you couldn´t fix your relationship with John doesn´t mean you can swoop in and try to make up for it by reuniting me with Bobby!"

"I can never make up for that! Don´t you get it Nicki? Your Dad is still alive so don´t make the same mistake I did and wait until it´s too late!"

"Gee, that kind of advice coming from you? That´s rich! Newsflash, he gave me away and lied to me! If it wouldn´t have been for that incident with John, I probably would have never known!" Tears were dwelling up in my eyes. "Get out! Both of you! Just get the hell out!"

Dean was about to object but Sam managed to convince him to just leave.

I felt bad for treating Sam the way I just had but I couldn´t help myself. When it came to the subject of Bobby I just flipped. I never wanted anything to do with him again and no one, not even Sam with those puppy dog eyes of his, could change that.

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The next day

All my test results were okay and after a quick last check up the doctor allowed me to check myself out. After handling all the paper work I started packing up my stuff together.

I still felt like a complete bitch for what I said to Sam yesterday and I hoped that he´d forgive me.

"Need some help with that?"

I turned around to find Sam standing in the doorway of my room. "No, I´m okay."

"You´re still hurt. Let me get that for you." He said and grabbed my duffle. "Cmon let´s go. Dean´s waiting outside."

"Sam, wait." He turned back around to face me. "I want you to know that I´m really sorry for my outburst yesterday."

"I´m sorry, too. It wasn´t my business to interfere. It is just like I said, I don´t want you to make the same mistake I did."

"I´m just not ready to face him yet." I looked down at the floor. "Everyone who has met me thinks I´m this tough chick but truth is I´m not."

Sam pulled me into a hug. "It´s okay to have weak spots, that´s what makes us human."

"Thanks." With my arms still wrapped around his waist, I looked up at him. "You know, John used to tell me how alike you and your Mom were."

A sad smile spread across his face. "Really?"

"Yes and she loved Dean and you just as much as John did." I smiled and cupped his face with my right hand. "I´m not surprised though. What´s there not to love about you boys?"

He pressed a soft kiss to my forehead. "You should let your soft side show more often."

"Nah, I try to keep the chick flick moments to a minimum. If you tell Dean about this major chick flick we just had, I´ll have to whup your ass." I chuckled. "Let´s go."

Sam laughed and grabbed my hand as we made our way outside.

"Yesterday you were about to scratch his eyes out and now you´re holding his hand and play BFFs?" Dean remarked as we got into the Impala.

"Shut up and drive!" I rolled my eyes.

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We arrived back at Stacys appartment and I watched the boys pack up their stuff. "Are you sure you don´t want us to stay a little longer?" Sam asked.

"Nah, you guys got demons to kill and people to save. Stacy should be back in a couple of hours and I´ll stay with her for a few days until I´m okay to drive."

"You promise to call though?" Sam pulled me into a hug.

"I will if you do the same." I smiled. "Take care, Sam."

"You, too. See ya!" He pulled away and took his duffle bag. "Hey, Dean? You coming?"

"No, go ahead. I´ll be down in a few minutes." Dean said and stuffed the rest of his clothes into his duffle.

Sam waved one last time and walked out the door.

"Nicki, we need to talk." Deans voice was serious. "I need you to do me a favour."

I looked at him. "And that would be?"

"You need to stay away from us!"

"Come again?"

"You heard me and stop going after the yellow eyed demon!"

"Is this about what Catherine said?" I crossed my arms in front of my chest. "I hate to break it to you but I knew what I was getting myself into when I agreed on helping John. Besides do you honestly think that me backing out now would stop him from sending his demon bitches after me?"

He paused for a moment. "I´ve got not idea why Dad dragged you into this mess but you can still get out. Just lay low until we´ve ganked that son of a bitch, that´s all I´m asking of you."

"No!" I said firmly. "Forget it."

Dean sighed in frustration. "Don´t be so god damn stubborn, woman!"

The hint of desperation in his voice startled me a little. Was he actually worried about me? Did that mean that he cared for me more than he let on in the first place? "I´m sorry Dean but I can´t." I walked towards him and stopped a few inches in front of him. "Are you afraid of loosing me?"

His eyes grew big for a second. "I just don´t want anymore people dying at the hand of this yellow eyed son of a bitch."

"Bullshit." I looked him in the eyes. "You care about me."

"I don´t, at least not the way you think I do." He was lying, I could tell. "Just stay away from us."

With those last words he left.

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2 weeks later.

I had stayed at Stacys place for a couple of days before I decided to head to the roadhouse. Jo wasn´t too thrilled at first, I guess she was still mad at me for flirting with Dean but eventually she got around. We went shopping and did all kinds of other girly things together.

In the evenings I would help her and Ellen run the bar. It felt good to take a break from hunting but I knew my little holiday was slowly but certainly coming to an end. Two days tops and I´d be hitting the road again.

Two weeks had passed since I had last seen the Winchesters. Sam had written me an email a few days later saying that he agreed with Dean and that I´d better stay away from them.

I didn´t bother to even try and contact them since I knew they wouldn´t take any of my calls. Sooner or later they would realize that I was already too deep in this Azazel business and that they´d need my help if they wanted to gank his ass for good.

Until then I decided to keep those boys, especially Dean, off my mind by keeping myself busy. Dean.... Just thinking about that guy drove me over the edge! What the hell was wrong with him? Or an even better question, what the hell was wrong with me? How did he manage to get under my skin like that?

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Later that same day.

It was a busy evening at the roadhouse. Hunters from all over the place were chatting about their latest hunts over a beer or two.

I was just pouring some guys a couple of drinks when my exboyfriend Alex walked in. He looked as handsome as ever. His brown hair was slightly longer which made his baby blue eyes stand out even more.

I had to bite my lip as I checked him out. He was wearing a pair of jeans and a flannel button up over a simple black tshirt that clung nicely to his toned body. Geez, what is it with me and men in flannel?

A smile appeared on his face when he spotted me behind the bar counter. He headed straight towards me. "Hey stranger, long time no see."

I nodded. We hadn´t seen each other since our break up a couple of months ago. "How have you been?"

Alex sat down on one of the vacant barstools. "Been better." He paused. "I´ve missed you."

I smiled at his confession. "No surprise, I´m just downright adorable. What´s there not to miss about me?" Winking, I poured him a glass of Jack Daniels and placed it in front of him. "On the house."

"Charming as ever, I see." He chuckled. "So, what brings you here?"

"I got hurt on my last hunt, so I came here to recover. I´m leaving in a day or two though." I saw the concern in his eyes. "Don´t worry, I´m okay now. As good as new."

"Good to hear that." He smiled. "I´m heading to Texas tomorrow to take care of a couple of ghouls and I could really use some help. What do you say?"

Maybe that was just what I needed right now to take my mind off the Winchesters. "Yeah, why not. I´m itching for a good hunt."

"How about a little celebration somewhere more private?"

I returned his flirtatious smile with one of my own. "Give me one hour and then I´m all yours."

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Half an hour later.

Jo and I were making our way to the storage room to get more whiskey and beer. "Mom said you´re leaving on a hunt with Alex tomorrow. Are you back together?"

"Yes but we´re not back together. It´s strictly a business call."

"Yeah right." She rolled her eyes. "So what about Dean?"

I flinched a little at the mention of his name. "What about him?"

"You seemed to be all over each other the last time..." She trailed off.

"Let´s just talk about him, okay?" I snapped.

"Sorry."

We headed back to the bar. After finishing up putting all the booze away, Jo went to make some extra cash by hustling some dude while I sat down next to Alex.

We talked for a while and shared a few kisses. Once we finished our drinks we got ready to leave. I had just said my goodbyes and put on my coat when the Winchesters walked in. Deans eyes met mine instantly.

"Cmon Alex, let´s go." I tore my gaze away from Dean and looked up at Alex.

He put an arm around me and kissed me lightly on the lips. "Okay."

I saw Dean from the corner of my eye and I could have sworn that for a moment I saw hurt in his eyes which was quickly replaced by jealoucy and anger.

Alex and I walked past them. I ignored Dean and Sam and tried as hard as I could to keep my cool.

When Alex and I reached his car, I let out a sigh of relief. "Are you okay?" He asked.

"Yeah, let´s just go." I said and slid in next to him.

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