July, 16 2014.
Brian came behind Olivia as she was putting some makeup on in the bathroom, he wrapped his arms around her belly, she was now 5 months pregnant and was glowing. He rubbed her stomach and kissed her neck. "Good morning, gorgeous" he whispered "how did you sleep?" he asked and kissed her lips when she turned her head.
"Good, you?" she asked and turned into his arms wrapped around his middle, as close as her belly would let her be.
"Good. " he pressed his hands on her belly again and felt something they have never felt yet since Olivia got pregnant.
The baby kicked for the first time.
Brian looked at his girlfriend in awe "Did it really just-" he asked, amazed. Olivia nodded, tears filling her eyes. She put her hands above Brian's and felt it against their hands again.
"This is actually the first time the baby kicks." she looked at him with a wide smile. She then wrapped her arms around Brian's neck and kissed his lips "I love you" she rested her head against his chest as he held her.
"I love you too, angel." he rubbed her back.
"You okay with Sara today? Since it's your day off I don't think it's necessary to drop her to the daycare." she asked quietly.
Brian nodded and smiled before kissing her nose and taking his shirt and pants off to take a shower. "Yeah, of course. We'll be just fine" he said with a smile, he kissed her neck and hopped into the shower. Olivia bit her lip as she watched him, standing in front of her, naked. "too bad you have to go to work, you could've joined me" he teased. Olivia groaned and walked out of the bathroom.
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4pm
"Sara Cassidy, get your ass back here!" Brian yelled, laughing as his little daughter ran through the apartment, Brian was about to put her to take a nap.
He ran after her, the little girl giggled "No sleep!" Sara laughed when Brian caught her and started tickling her "Stop daddy!" the 3 years old giggled.
"You have to take a nap, little girl otherwise mama will be mad and you will be tired."
Sara crossed her arms and pouted "Sara no tired." she whined.
Brian sighed and sat on the couch, Sara sat on his laps and pouted "mama won't be happy to know that" he warned his daughter.
"But daddy..." she whined again, Brian chuckled and kissed her cheek.
"You don't want mama to be mad, do you?" he asked, he knew Sara never wanted Olivia to be mad at her, she wanted her mother to be proud of her and Olivia was, she really was proud of Sara, the 3 years old little girl was smart, beautiful, kind and respectful.
"No.." she whispered and looked down sadly. She then rested her back against Brian's torso and grabbed his right hand to squeeze it. Brian caressed her soft hair. Everything in Sara reminded him of Olivia, everything.
"How about daddy sleeps with you?" he suggested quietly. Sara turned her head, she smiled and nodded her head. "Okay, let's get you into mommy's bed"
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6:35pm
Olivia entered the apartment, since she heard no noise from her boyfriend and daughter she figured they went out. She took off her shoes and went to the kitchen to take a glass of water.
Another long day at work, with a backache. She took a few sip and headed to her bedroom to change into more comfy clothes. She opened the door and saw Brian and Sara, asleep in her bed, cuddling. She smiled to herself and went quickly to the bathroom to change. When she emerged, she sat on the bed, beside where Brian was asleep, she rested her head on Brian's shoulder after kissing his cheek. Brian stirred and immediately wrapped his arm around Olivia.
"Hey, beautiful." he kissed her mouth when she titled her head to look at him. "how was work?"
Olivia laid down on the bed and inched closer to Brian. "Long day. How did it go?" she asked quietly.
"Good. She didn't want to sleep but she knew that you would be mad so she laid in our bed and fell asleep." he smiled, Olivia snuggled closer to him. "I missed you." he said, smiling.
"I missed you too, baby." Olivia mumbled against his chest. Olivia sighed happily. "I'm gonna start dinner" she sat up. Brian grabbed her hand and kissed it.
"Relax first, we'll eat later.." he pulled Olivia back against him and stroked her hair.
"I think we should wake Sara, otherwise she won't sleep tonight." she suggesting, relaxing into Brian's warm embrace. She closed her eyes and began drifting off.
"Yeah, I think we should... but she looks so peaceful." he whispered, looking at Sara who was sleeping on what was "Olivia's side". She always wanted to be close to her mother. "Okay, how about I go start dinner and you wake her and spend some time with her?" he asked his girlfriend. When Olivia didn't respond, he looked down at her and saw she fell asleep on him. Brian chuckled and tightened his hold around her, caressing her belly. After a moment, he tried to get up without waking her up and headed to the kitchen.
10 minutes later, he came back and saw that Sara and Olivia were still asleep. He decided to wake Sara to feed her and let Olivia relax a little more. He sat next to Sara and kissed her cheek in attempt to wake her. She opened her hazel eyes and looked up at her daddy. She smiled at him and reached out for him to take her into his arms. "Did my baby sleep good?" he asked gently.
Sara nodded and looked over at Olivia who was still sleeping. "Mama!" she grinned.
"Shh. Let mommy sleep, okay? Come on, let's go to the kitchen so we can eat." he picked her up and they walked out of the bedroom.
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After Sara and Brian finished dinning, he let Sara play a little more with her dolls and went to the bedroom, it was 7pm and he went to wake his girlfriend. He sat on the bed next to her and caressed Olivia's stomach gently, he then kissed her belly and felt the baby kicking. He smiled to himself and started talking to the baby "Hi, baby. Why are you still awake, uh? Mama needs you to stop kicking so she can get some sleep, think you can do that?" he kissed Olivia's stomach again and placed his head gently on it, careful not to put too much weight on Olivia.
Olivia opened her eyes and looked down at him, she ran her hands through his hair. He looked up at her and smiled, he laid back down next to her "Did I wake you?" he asked, kissing her lips gently.
Olivia smiled against his lips and shook her head "No, the baby did. I think that if it's a boy, he'll be a great football player" she chuckled. "It doesn't stop kicking."
Brian laughed and kissed her neck, he then gazed down at her stomach "Nah, it'll be a little girl." he stated before looking back into her beautiful eyes. Olivia chuckled and shook her head. Since Brian found out that she was pregnant, he was convinced that it was gonna be a little girl. "Why are you so sure?" she smiled at him and rested her head on Brian's shoulder.
"I have the same feeling I had with Sara." he said. "Shouldn't we get up?" he asked. It was 7:15pm.
"Did Sara eat?" Olivia groaned when she saw what time it was. Brian smiled and nodded.
"Yes. We ate together. I'm sorry I didn't wake you but you looked so peaceful" he smiled. Olivia sat up and looked at him.
"Well thank you for letting me sleep, baby. I kinda needed it" she smiled against his lips as he kissed her gently.
"Go eat and be with our daughter" he said gently. He stood up and helped Olivia up.
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Olivia sat at the kitchen table and began eating. Brian sat next to her and watched his daughter play in the living room. "In two day we get to see our baby, do you still want to know if it's a boy or a girl or you wanna wait?" he asked as he poured a glass of water and handed it to Olivia.
She thanked him quietly and took a few sips before placing it on the table and looking at him, smiling. "I really wanna know but if you don't, it's okay, I can wait." she shrugged.
"Nah. I wanna know, I can't really wait." he said as he leaned down to kiss Olivia's shoulder.
Olivia smiled at him and continued eating.
The next day, Brian walked in the living room to find his girlfriend, tears in her eyes, laying on the couch. He quickly joined her and knelt down "Hey, what the matter?" Brian asked gently, wiping her tears away. He took her hand and kissed it before looking into her eyes.
"Do you know what date it is today?" she asked and smiled sadly at him. Brian looked at her, clearly confused. He thought for a moment and then he understood.
"Oh, baby. Come here" he pulled Olivia into his arms and hugged her tightly.
About a year and half after Sara was born, Olivia got pregnant again. She was 6 months pregnant when she miscarried after falling down the stairs. It took her time to get better, to forgive herself.
"It was a little boy, Bri... A little boy and we lost him" she added, sobbing against his chest.
Brian stroked her hair soothingly "shh, it's okay" he pulled back and looked at her. He kissed her lips softly. "Think about our baby who will be there in a few months," he smiled at her sadly with tears in his own eyes. Olivia wiped her tears away and rested her head into the crook of his neckas he sat next to her on the couch. Brian wrapped his strong arms around her waist and caressed her belly. "I know that you regret not having him there but now he's in peace.." he was silent for a moment before speaking up again "I love your and our baby here" he stated as he pressed his hands onto her stomach "And I love Sara, I love you guys more than everything."
"I love you too, Bri. I just think I need to be alone..." she looked up at him nervously. She didn't want him to think that she was shutting him out but she really needed some time to think about it. "Don't hate me, please..." she tightened her hold on his hand, afraid that if she let go he would leave her.
"I would never hate you. Never. I understand you want to be alone. Just... don't shut me out, okay?" he kissed her forehead. Olivia quickly nodded, tears were streaming down her face.
"I love you, Brian. I love you more than anything, I promise I won't shut you out. In fact, I was wondering if we... we could talk about it tonight.. is it okay?" she asked with a shaky voice.
She placed her back to his chest and leaned against him, sighing happily as he held her tight against him.
"Of course we can. I love you," he whispered to her ear.
Olivia smiled "I love you more," she said with a chuckle. Brian stood from behind her and kissed her belly "I'm gonna go out with Sara so you can be alone, okay?" he asked gently. Olivia nodded.
She was so grateful to have him, he was so understanding, caring and loving and she was really thinking she didn't deserve him. "Okay. Just- be safe okay?" she pulled him to her and kissed him softly. "Love you"
"Love you too," he said, stealing another kiss before heading to Sara's room.
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Olivia heard the front door of the apartment open. She then saw her daughter running to her "mama look!" Sara showed her the new shoes Brian bought her. Sara obviously chose them because it was pink colored with Hello Kitty on both sides. "It's Hello Kitty!" she pointed. Olivia smiled down at Sara before looking at Brian who joined them and stood next to Sara."Those are beautiful, baby! Did you try them on?" she asked, Sara nodded, smiling at both her parents "Mama? Hungry." Sara said shyly. Olivia took her into her arms and helped her sitting in her chair. "How about mama makes you waffles?" Olivia askedd and smiled when Sara nodded happily. She kissed her head and walked to Brian as he sat down too. He pulled Olivia to him so she stood in between his legs. "Hello there" he whispered as he wrapped his arms around her waist and rested his head on her belly, feeling a slight kick against his cheek. Olivia ran her hands into his soft hair "you okay?" he asked quietly. He pulled back and looked into her eyes. He noticed her eyes were still puffy but she seemed better.
"I'm good. Thank you for taking care of Sara and letting me have my time alone. I don't want you to think I'm hiding things, I really don't." she said nervously.
Brian nodded "Of course, baby. It's okay," he said.
Olivia kissed his lips and went to prepare Sara's waffles.
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Olivia felt Brian laying next to her after he put Sara to bed. He groaned "I'm so tired..." he rolled on his side to face her and looked at her. Olivia was lying on her back, rubbing her stomach. "Do you want to talk about it?" he asked softly, placing a lock of her hair behind her ear. Olivia looked over at him, she smiled softly and said "Not really but I think we need to." she said. Brian shook his head and took her hand into his. "No we don't have to talk about it if you don't want to."
"Baby, we need to. I'm sorry for earlier and how I reacted. I just had those flashbacks... I saw us.. there."
It was a beautiful day of June, Brian and Olivia were driving to Brian's mom. Olivia 6 months pregnant with their second child. At this time, Sara was just a year and half old, she was asleep in her car seat on the back of the car. They arrived 2 hours after a long driving.
The next day, as Olivia was carrying a heavy bag downstairs, she suddenly fell down the stairs and fell unconscious.
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"How is Olivia?" Brian's mother asked "she looks really tired. And how is my grandson doing?" she asked, referring to the little boy who was growing inside Olivia. Brian was feeding Sara as he said "She's good. Tired because she works a lot but she is fine and so is your grandchild." he said proudly.
As soon as the words left his mouth, they heard a loud noise coming from the stairs. Brian quickly ran to the door and what he saw startled him. Olivia was lying there, unconscious and.. bleeding.
He dropped on his knees and took Olivia into his arms "Olivia! Baby, can you hear me? Just squeeze my hand if you hear me okay Liv?" he felt nothing. He squeezed Olivia's hand in attempt to wake her but she was still unconscious. "Olivia, sweetheart, please I need you to wake up" he said as tears streamed down his face "Mom, call a bus!" he yelled.
He heard his mother running to him with Sara in her arms "Oh my god, what happened?" she asked as she put Sara down. She pulled her phone out, dialing 911.
"She fell down the stairs... she is bleeding. I-I please call a bus... Please Liv, wake up."
He felt Sara leaning against him as she sucked her thumb "Mama sleep?" she asked and sighed contently as Brian put an arm around her.
"Yeah.. she is." he smiled sadly at her. He then placed a hand on Olivia's belly, trying to feel the slightest kick of their baby boy.. nothing. He felt nothing.
Absolutely nothing.
"Never apologize okay? Are you okay?" he asked, pulling her closer to him. Olivia simply nodded. "I know you don't feel like talking so let me..." he took a breath and started "That day when- when I saw you on the floor, I felt like my heart stopped and I'm sorry but I really thought you were dead.. As selfish as it sounds, I was thinking what am I gonna do without you.. what would Sara do without you.. Then I thought about our baby boy and I couldn't feel him- move. I knew, I knew we lost him and I couldn't even imagine losing you too." he said truthfully.
Olivia then spoke up "I'm sorry we lost him. I know this is my fault. I mean, I didn't even protect him, that's what I was supposed to do. I was supposed to take care of him and protect him but I failed." she whispered the last part.
He pulled her back to him so her back was against his torso and placed both his hands on Olivia's belly, ryubbing it. "Olivia," he murmured to her ear "It's not your fault. Never. None of this is."
"It's not yours either," she stated firmly, pressing her own hands on top of his, linking thheir fingers together. "I just wish he was there." she whispered and smiled when she felt a kick under Brian's hand.
"Did you feel that?" Brian asked excitedly, Olivia chuckled and nodded, inching closer to him, "it's his or her way to tell us that he or she is there, with us." he said gently before kissing her neck.
"Weird you are not calling it she" Olivia joked.
"Tomorrow we will finally know what is it.." he said, sighing happily against her hair.
"I love you," she said, closing her eyes. Brian kissed her shoulder and whispered the same words sweetly.
"So I'm gonna ask you one last time, are you sure you want to know the gender of your baby?" the doctor asked as he squirted some gel on her belly. Brian looked down at Olivia and they both nodded. "Yes, we do." Olivia said.
The doctor proceeded ""Well, it looks like..."
TBC.
It's a hella of a cliffhanger isn't it? Lol. Anyway, thank you for your great reviews, I love you guys so much. Your support means everything.
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