**Bellamy**
"Octavia, don't come up here." I scream at the footsteps coming into the attic of the drop ship. But it's too late, she's already there.
"What are you doing?" She asks aghast by the wall. She had a right too, we had a grounder, Lincoln, tied up by chains in the drop ship attic.
"Octavia, he kidnapped you, kidnapped Clarke and stabbed Finn." I say in my defense.
"I'm telling you this for the 100th time, he was trying to save me!" She shouts.
"Well, what about Clarke and Finn?" She was being so annoying. "Finn, he's dying down there because of that." I point to the grounder.
We've been keeping the grounder up here for a few days but haven't told anyone. With the plague and everything. Clarke, who happens to be ignoring me ever since we kissed, knows about the grounder. After we did kiss Raven came in screaming and crying. She saw Finn, a knife daggered in his chest. We didn't know who did it. But we all assumed the grounder. This grounder. Now Clarke and Raven are trying the best they can to fix him. And after that I happened to be invisible to Clarke, all she saw was Finn. They are trying to contact the Ark and they are succeeding.
"Please don't do this!" Octavia pleads standing in front of the grounder. "I won't let you hurt him."
"Get out of the way!" I say but she doesn't budge so I go close to her. "Why you being such an idiot. If you don't move Finn will die!"
"Stop blaming me for your mistakes!" She cracked. "Everything that's gone wrong is because of you!"
I look to the side and chuckle at how stupid she is. "Me?" I face her now seriously. "Mum was floated for having you. She''s dead because you're alive."
"That was her choice, I didn't have a choice!" She screams back.
"My life ended the day you were born!" I scream back, that's when I can see the hurt in her eye. I took it too far. She just fake smiles and leaves.
"I don't even think he speaks English, he won't understand you." And with that she leaves.
**Clarke**
"What's happening?" Raven screams in my ear. The dagger was out but white foam was spitting from his mouth. It wasn't the plague but I don't know what it is.
"Is it poison?" She asks. "But it can't be, we put disinfectant on everything."
"Not everything." I say looking at the knife.
"You mean that the knife was poisoned?" Raven asks really confused.
"That's exactly what I mean." I wipe the tears from my eyes. "He has to have an antidote, he has to have one." This time I let the tears come.I rush over and make my way up to the attic. Which is locked, but I bang and shout for them to open it. Finally it opens.
"Clarke, what are you doing?" Bellamy asks me.
But I ignore him and walk straight to the grounder. "Where is the antidote?" I scream at him. But nothing. I turn around frustrated. I grab the box with four small bottles in it. "Which one is it?"
Octavia bursts in. "Please stop, Clarke you know this is wrong." She pleads to me. And I know it's wrong, everything about this is wrong. But Finn, Finn is dying. And I need to help him.
"Do it." I sternly tell Bellamy. He takes the belt and whacks it at the grounder. Again. Again. And again. I close my eyes when the belt has contact with the skin. It's brutal, so brutal.
I repeat my question about the antidote but nothing. I plead and plead for him to answer, Octavia does as well. But still- nothing.
"I guess we'll have to try something else." Bellamy suggests, taking a large metal knife and he digs it into the grounders hand. I take a deep breath and close my eyes.
"Just stop!" Octavia screams and Bellamy does stop. She grabs a knife and slits her lower arm.
"Octavia." Bellamy interrupts.
"He won't let me die." She replies going to the grounder with the bottles.
"Which one is it?" She asks him holding each of them up. Slowly, the grounder starts realizing what she is doing. He nods his head to the left and once Octavia holds it up to him, he nods. There is a sigh of relief in everyone. Octavia holds it out to me.
"Thank you." I say.
"Octavia." Bellamy tries touching her shoulder but she rejects him.
"Don't touch me!" She shouts and runs out of the attic. I run after her to get the antidote to Finn.
***
Finn's awake, alive. Just about. It was Octavia who helped it but Raven and I, we rocked it together. I may still like Finn but with Raven. Raven needs Finn. Loves Finn. She deserves Finn.
I feel bad for Bellamy though, we kissed and I just ignored him. Maybe I'm not ready for someone else or maybe I am. I'm not sure. I want to be ready, I know I need to be ready. I know it.
"Clarke, I'm sorry you had to see that." Bellamy appears behind me, grounder blood on his cheek.
"It's my fault you did it, I sai-."
"It's not your fault." He interrupts.
"Have you seen Octavia? I want to apologize to her." I ask.
"No, last time I saw her she stormed out of the attic in huff." He replies. I look at him and he looks at me. And I think we're both thinking the same thing as we both sprint up to the attic.
"Oh crap." Bellamy shouts slamming his foot to the wall. I would of done the same. But I couldn't. The attic of the drop ship was empty.
The grounder and Octavia are gone.
