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CHAPTER 9: Together till the end of time
Bobby reached around, wrapped his lengthy arm around her waist and pulled her tightly to him. She landed completely on top of him as she deepened the kiss. She couldn't get enough of him; the taste of him, the way his tongue sought out hers, the way he moaned and squirmed every so slightly. She'd wondered, for many years now, what it would be like.
She finally knew.
Bobby moaned deeply in response to her, but then felt something else responding as well. He felt an unfamiliar twitch in an area that hadn't been active in a very long time. He opened his eyes wide as they continued to kiss. He was thankful her eyes were still closed. He began to panic.
Oh god, she'll think I'm a pig!
He wanted to enjoy the kiss, he wanted to enjoy this moment and never forget it, but he was too caught up with his little, or, in Bobby's case, big problem.
He was about to pull away, he was about to turn so she slipped off to the side of him; anything to hide his problem when Alex pulled back first.
Oh god.
He closed his eyes before she got a chance to look into his eyes. He tried to hold back a moan as she practically sat on top of his growing erection. She was straddling him and Bobby knew that she was well aware of his arousal now; there was no hiding it. Before he even dared to even open his eyes, he felt her hand run across his semi-erect cock. He couldn't hide the moan this time with the friction she was creating in his boxers. It felt too good.
Oh god, what's she doing. And where the hell are the covers?!
But Bobby already knew where the covers were. He knew they were long gone; more than likely shoved aside during his nightmare.
"Bobby, open your eyes." She murmured as she continued to rub him through his boxers.
"Oh, god, A-Alex." He gasped as he barely got the words out. It was the only thing Bobby could say. He wanted her so badly, he had for a long time, but he couldn't do this. He couldn't take advantage of her.
He opened his eyes like she asked and when he saw the look on her face, when he gazed into her eyes, he lost all control. The love he saw in her eyes was enough to make him die a happy man already and they hadn't even done anything yet.
Alex, on the other hands, found his voice, the look on his face, to be sexy as hell. Alex knew she was already wet; if his arousal didn't do it, his sex-filled voice did.
"Bobby…" She whispered again as she removed her hand and laid back down on him. She placed her head gently on his chest just to listen to his heart beat. She wasn't surprised when she found it to be rapidly pounding. She knew hers was too.
"I…We can't…I can't…" He stuttered.
"It's ok, Bobby." She said. She raised her head up to look at him and then asked, "Bobby, do you trust me?"
He couldn't speak, he only nodded. He was too caught up in the fact that she was running her hands up and down his sides; occasionally raking her nails into his sides through his shirt. He didn't think he could get any harder at this point.
"Alex, I can't take a-advantage of you l-like this…"
"Who says you're taking advantage of me?" She snorted as she asked. "How do you know I don't want this too?" She asked and kissed him lightly on the lips. "I love you, Bobby. I want you, all of you. I don't want to look back; I just want us to be together. I know its sudden. I know it may seem like an impossible situation with our work and all, but, Bobby, I don't care about that. I know there are a lot of things we need to talk about, but as long as we're together, Bobby, than we can get through anything. You know that." She said and then began to kiss his neck. She needed to show him again how much she wanted him.
"Oh, god, Alex. You feel so…so good." He said. "This feels so good."
Bobby wasted no time exploring her body; he did so with his hands. He loved to touch things, explore things with his hands, so he slowly slid them down her back. When he reached the top of her shorts, he paused, only briefly, and then ran his hands under the waist band, under her underwear, until they were resting on her soft ass. He squeezed gently and couldn't stop the smile that appeared on his lips when he heard her squeal.
He rolled them over so she was on her back and he was lying off to the side of her. He hovered over her, only for a split second, until he couldn't resist any longer. He kissed her. This kiss was not as gentle as the first couple were. He wanted to show her how much he wanted her; how much he needed her. Their tongues dueled, while their hands roamed and their passion for each other was finally released all in that one kiss. They only stopped and pulled away when they needed air. When Bobby pulled back, he looked into her eyes. He felt like he was about to cry. He kept asking himself if this was a dream.
"Alex, y-you know I'd never…I will never hurt you on purpose, right?" He asked. He needed her to know that.
"I know, Bobby. And, Bobby? I'll never hurt you on purpose either."
"I know, Alex. You're incapable of it." He said and didn't give her a chance to respond. He kissed her again.
The kiss started out gentle, but quickly escaladed again. Alex ran her hands through his hair, down his shoulders and down his back until she found the hem of his shirt. She began to lift his shirt up when Bobby broke away from the kiss.
"A-Alex…"
"Shhh." She said as she continued to lift his shirt up. "Don't think, just do." She murmured.
He groaned but complied nonetheless. He nervously raised his hands up so she could rid him of his shirt; Bobby suddenly felt very self conscious and exposed. Alex saw his uncertainty and decided to help him out. She sat up in bed and removed her shirt to make things fair.
Once her shirt was removed, Bobby completely forgot about his insecurities; there was no room for them. Bobby's eyes only widened when he realized there was no clothing underneath her shirt; no bra for him to remove. She was bare-chested in front of him and he couldn't stop himself from reaching out to touch her. He cupped one of her breasts and she immediately closed her eyes and moaned. As he massaged her breast and ran his thumb over her nipple, he couldn't help but close his eyes too. He was mentally snapping pictures of this moment. He didn't ever want to forget it.
After giving her other breast the same amount of attention, he laid back and pulled her on top of him. He reveled in the feeling of her naked breasts against his chest and she did too. Alex loved the feeling of Bobby's salt and pepper chest hair rubbing against her breasts. It was a sensation she wasn't familiar with until now because every guy she'd ever been with, including Joe, had no chest hair.
They were taking their time, holding each other, getting used to each other, when Alex reached down to grip him firmly through his boxers. She was getting anxious, she need more. Now. She needed him inside her.
"Hmm." He moaned into her ear and then gasped when he felt her bare hand on his throbbing cock. "A-Alex…" He gasped as she began to stroke him. He lifted his head up to see her hand buried in his boxers. She had unbuttoned the one barrier, the one button that kept him covered. Bobby couldn't help but wonder how she did that without him knowing, without him feeling it. "Oh, god, Alex. I y-you keep doing that and…I…I won't be able to hold on m-much longer." He stuttered and tried to suppress another groan.
Alex removed her hand from his boxers, but didn't waste anytime with the removal of them. As she began to pull them off of him, she only looked up to him when she wanted him to lift his butt up. He complied, speechless, and watched her as she tossed them behind her where they landed somewhere on the ground completely forgotten.
Alex stood up and quickly removed her shorts and underwear as well. After her shorts and underwear were long gone, she looked back to Bobby to see his arms outstretched and reaching for her. She joined him back on the bed and crawled back on top of him and into his arms.
"Alex, are you s-sure about this? Once we…once we start this, I won't be able to stop." He said.
"We've already started this, Bobby. And I'm sure. I've never wanted anything so badly." She said and then asked, "Do you want this, Bobby? It's ok if you don't, if you're not ready." She said, but when she felt the twitch of his cock under her stomach, she knew he was more than ready.
"I want this, Alex. I want us." He said. "I just don't want to force you into something you don't—" And that was as far as he got.
She captured his lips once more, while her hand massaged his balls to silence him. His breathing quickened and right then and there, Bobby surrendered to the feeling. He could no longer hold back nor did he want to. They were exploring, they were both doing everything they'd only dreamt about but never dared to speak of. They wanted to know what they'd been missing out on for 8 long years and as they separated from the kiss and gazed into each others eyes, they knew that this was long overdue.
Bobby reached over to his dresser to get a condom.
"I thought you said it's been a while?" She asked. She knew what he was looking for.
Bobby froze for a split second before turning back to her and murmuring, "It has been. I…I don't even know if I…if I have any…" He said but then stopped. He started to turn back around to dig into his drawer again when she gently pushed him on the shoulders. He lied back down and looked at her confused.
Maybe she's changed her mind.
"It's ok, Bobby. We don't need anything." She whispered. "I'm on the pill and I trust you." She said and kissed his forehead.
When they broke apart Bobby started to sit up to switch positions when Alex pushed him back on the bed yet again.
"No, Bobby. Just relax. This is for you." She said.
"But, Alex, I want to feel you. I want to…to pleasure you, worship you. I want to taste you and treat you the way you deserve to be treated." He said in protest. "The way I've always dreamt of treating you…"
Hmm, so he has dreamed about this before. I'll have to save that one for another time.
Instead, she asked, "Do you trust me, Bobby?"
He nodded. "Of course!" He practically wailed.
"Then trust me, Bobby, there will be plenty more opportunities for that. But tonight, just relax. This is for you." She said and then whispered seductively, "I know what you need right now, Bobby." And as she said those words, she lifted herself up and slid down onto him.
The tone in her voice and the way she felt was enough to make him come right then and there. They moaned in unison as their eyes locked on to one another's.
Alex didn't move for a few seconds as she adjusted to his size and then she spoke.
"Bobby, you're so big. I don't think I've ever been with a man your size." She said and then squeezed her inner walls for emphasis." Bobby moaned immediately and grasped for the edge of the bed. "Bobby…I can feel your throbbing cock…it feels so good. You fill me up, Bobby, like no man has ever done." She cooed and then started to move.
As she started to ride him, things started out slow. They had a steady pace going until Bobby saw the look on Alex's eyes. He was well aware of how aroused she was even before she started to ride him because he felt her wetness on the tip of his cock when it first touched her wet pussy. As time went on, however, her movements became more erratic. She closed her eyes and Bobby removed one of his hands that was on her hip and rubbed her clit.
"Oh, god, Bobby. Yes." She spoke and moaned in the sexiest voice Bobby had ever heard.
And that was what did it for him. Before Alex knew what hit her, she was on her back with her very large, very aroused partner and now lover, Bobby Goren, on top of her.
She was coming undone, and by the look in Bobby's eyes, she knew he was too.
"Come for me, Alex." He said as he took control.
"Ahh, Bobby. Ahh, f-fuck. I'm so…so close." She managed to get out.
Not a second later, Alex came. Bobby felt her inner walls tighten around his cock, but he couldn't come. Not yet. He wanted more. He wanted to hold out for as long as he possibly could. He didn't want this to end.
"You're so deep inside me, Bobby." She whispered. She knew he was holding on by a thread now. "Come inside me, Bobby."
He shook his head. "Not yet." He huskily said. "Come for me again, Alex." He said as he continued to make love to her.
Bobby pulled out and got on his knees. He grabbed her hips, lifted her halfway off the bed and then slammed back into her. Once he changed positions, once he changed the angle of entry, he knew right away that he'd found the right spot.
Oh my god, I love this man.
"Oh, god, yes. Right there, Bobby. More…please. Harder." She rambled on.
Who was Bobby to deny such a request? He sped up the pace. He was slamming in and out of her so fast; he didn't know where the energy was coming from. He expertly pulled out just enough so that the tip of his cock was barely inside of her, and then slammed back into her.
"Bobby! Bobby…I'm so close. Please…Oh my god, you feel so fucking good. I…Please, Bobby." She began to plead with him as she tossed her head from side to side.
It was frantic, yet sensual sex and she loved it. It was soft, rough, and sexy and Alex knew right then and there that Bobby was the only one for her. She loved this man more than life itself.
"Alex." His voice cracked. "Look at me. Open your eyes and look at me. I want to look you in the eyes when you come." He growled.
Alex opened her eyes and looked at him. When she glanced up at him, beads of sweat were falling down the side of his face. He had a look on his face that she'd never seen before. He looked very aroused and very in love: in love with her. His eyes told her everything and that's what made her come. Alex cried out his name as her second orgasm overtook her.
"That's it, Baby." He said as he continued to slam into her. He then hoarsely whispered, "I love you, Alex."
He felt his orgasm nearing. Bobby pumped in and out of her a few more times until he couldn't hold on any longer. All his tension, all his angst, all his frustrations and fears were released as his orgasm overtook him. Bobby came hard inside of her and by some grace of god, she was able to hold onto him and take it for him.
Alex felt him shudder and heard him call out her name once more before he collapsed. All of his energy was spent, so he collapsed on top of her; he couldn't hold himself up any longer. Alex immediately welcomed him and wrapped her legs around his waist and her arms around his neck. Not even a minute later, Bobby resisted and tried to pull away. His arms were shaking as he tried to push himself back up.
"Alex, I don't want to squish you." He said but she only tightened her legs around his waist.
"I don't care." She said.
He couldn't fight her. He was too worn out. He fell back on top of her and succumbed to the feeling of the warm of her body. Their bodies were both sweaty, the both smelled of sex, and they both reveled in the feeling.
Bobby always craved sex in his younger days, but he deeply feared intimacy. Now, though, he wanted both. He was happy to finally make love to Alex, but he also wanted the intimacy with her because he loved her. He loved this woman more than anything and, even though he'd told a few girls in the past that he loved them, he realized just then that he never truly did. It was just three words he said so that they could hear it. He knew being with Alex was different than any other time because he never felt the way he did with any of them like he does with her right now.
Once their breathing even out, Bobby finally pulled out of her. He managed to roll them both over so that he was lying on his back with Alex on top of him.
"That was—"
"Amazing." Alex finished for him.
He wrapped his arms around her and whispered into her ear, "I love you, Alex."
"I love you too, Bobby." She said.
Once they finally came down from their high, they both slipped into a light sleep.
Bobby was the first one to wake. He knew it was morning because the sun was shining through the blinds in his room. He felt something on top of him and looked over to his left side to see Alex. His heart soared.
She's still here. It wasn't a dream.
He thanked the gods above that his prayers had finally been answered.
Bobby reached up with his right hand to run it through her hair as he took her naked form in. He couldn't wait to see what she said first. He couldn't wait to look into the eyes of the woman he wanted to spend the rest of his life with. Alex was still partially on top of him; her left leg tangled with his. He couldn't remember a time where she looked sexier. He turned on his left side and pulled her to him.
She sighed and began to squirm. She too had always wondered when he would say the morning after as well and she didn't have to wait long.
"Morning, beautiful." He murmured and kissed her forehead.
Alex's eyes fluttered a few times as she tried to wake up. She felt Bobby hand rub soothingly across her back and she moaned. It felt good to wake up in his arms. She always wondered what it would feel like to be held by Robert Goren and now she knew. It was heaven. He was so tender, so soft and caring for the size he was.
"Hey, sexy." She said. She smirked when she saw him begin to blush.
As they lied next to each other, both were still naked, they couldn't help but think back to only a few hours ago. Neither one of them wanted to move; they just wanted to be lost in their love for each other and the feeling that quickly overcame them both. It was amazing. Neither one of them were thinking about the consequences anymore, they didn't care. They had what they needed: each other.
After what seemed to be hours, Alex finally spoke.
"A long time ago, I…I promised myself I'd never fall in love with another cop. I promised myself I wouldn't. And then…" She said and looked him in the eyes. "And then you, Robert Goren, came along. I tried not to, I tried to ignore my feelings for you, but I just…I couldn't anymore."
He nodded. He knew all too well because he too couldn't hide those feelings anymore either.
"I…" He began but Alex wasn't finished.
"I can't lose you, Bobby. I can't loose you like I lost…Joe." She whispered his name. "You put yourself at risk every damn day." She said angrily.
Bobby thought she was about to yell, she knew there was anger in her voice, but when he looked into her eyes, there was no anger present.
"It's part of the job." He murmured."
"No, Bobby. You…you go beyond that. You put yourself out there, you take unnecessary risks. I…I started to hate you for that. Joe, he was just a beat cop, but you…" She drifted off. "I can't…I need to get out. I can't do this anymore." She said in dismay. "I can't do this job anymore, but…"
"But it's too late." He murmured.
She nodded. "Yeah." She snuggled up against him. "It's too late." She said as a tear finally fell.
Bobby leaned over and kissed her tear away.
"Bobby, will you promise me something?" She asked.
"What?" He asked.
"Promise you won't put yourself at risk anymore. I'm so scared that one day, your luck will run out. One day, you won't be able to talk your way out of it. One day, a perp will just snap and kill you. Please." She said. "I don't want to sleep alone ever again. I don't ever want to go through that again." She whispered.
"Oh, Alex. I'm sorry. I…"
"No, Bobby. Just promise me. Just promise me you'll at least try."
"Alex, I take risks because, because I have nothing to lose. I had nothing to lose. Now, though, I have you to lose." He sighed. She knew he had more to say so she waited for him to continue. "Alex, to me, family is everything. What's funny about it is the fact that I don't have any family to speak of, but…"
"But what?" She asked.
"But I…I wanted a family…if I was younger then I'd say maybe someday, but that someday has come and gone. My mother was the only family I really had and I loved her to death. She fucked up my life, but I still loved her. All my time went to her as I watched my life pass before my eyes." He sighed. "But you, Alex, I know you're not a family member, but I love you like one. I love you more than any family member I've ever had and I'd do anything for you. I do anything for the people I love and care about. So, if you want me to quit Major Case, if you want me to give up my job as a detective, than I will. Not because I'm scared to go back to hear what people have to say about me. Not because I'm burned out or lost interest. Hell, I love my job, but I'd give it all up if you asked me to. Alex, I love you more than anything. I don't mean to scare you off, but I do. If you're worried about me, if you want me to quit, than I will. Just say the words and I'll type up my resignation today because us, this means more to me than my career." He explained. And there it was. He was willing to give up the only thing he knew for her. "I love you and I'd never do anything intentionally that would break us apart. I promise, Alex, I promise I'll be more careful, I promise I won't be upset with whatever you decide." He said.
Alex was shocked beyond belief. She couldn't believe he'd resign, quit Major Case just for her. She took a few minutes to let his words sink in before she spoke.
"Bobby, I can't ask you to do that. You've worked too hard to get where you are. You've worked too hard to just give it all up." She said and then thought back to everything else he'd just told her. "I do love you, Bobby. There's no way you're going to scare me off. I just want you to be careful, ok? I want us to continue to be together, not just here, like this, but at Major Case as well." She said and kissed him. When she pulled back, she looked him in the eyes and said, "Ok?"
Her nodded. "Anything you want, Alex. I've been a selfish bastard at times and…and I haven't treated you the way you should be treated; especially in the past couple years. I…I'm sorry for that, but I want to make it up to you. This…" He said and kissed her forehead. "Means more to me than I'll ever be able to tell you. You mean more to mean then you'll ever know."
She sighed in contentment and buried her head in his chest. He rolled on his back and pulled her to him. He held her with his left hand while his right hand played with her hair. They lied that way for a little bit until he whispered something that made her look up at him.
"You saved me, Alex." Bobby whispered. "You saved me from myself."
And just by chance, Alex and Bobby were partnered together eight years ago. Just by chance, they made it through the odds. Just by chance, Alex felt empathy for Bobby in a time when he needed it the most because, just by chance, she knew something was wrong. And just by chance, she got to him in time.
"You have a choice. Live or die. Every breath is a choice. Every minute is a choice. To be or not to be."
- Chuck Palahniuk
For Bobby, he chose life; a life with Alex.
The End.
A/N: Alright my little LOCI fans! Thanks for reading and happy watching tonight at 9PM!
I really wanted to go into their "action" more and add a better ending, but I just don't have time. It's mid to upper 70s here in Washington right now so I wanna go enjoy it! I may change some things here or there later on, but for now, it is what it is.
I must say, however, that one day I'm going to actually write a story where I kill him off. Ah, that's horrible. It always makes me cry when I read those kinds of stories. I don't know if I "have it in me." Ooooohh, totally stole that off an LOCI episode! Actually it was "you have it in you," but you get the point. First one to name the episode gets a cookie! LOL
Anyway, thank you all for reading! So glad I could get this done before the season premiere tonight! I was a little worried.
Until my next fic,
-Snyder-
