So I know this chapter is super short, but I haven't updated in a while, and I kind of really wanted to make it just this. I probably going to also write Ted's point of view in the next chapter, but I wanted this to be just Robin.
Robin
Ted's apartment
I don't know how it happened exactly. I guess one thing lead to another after that kiss. All I remember is him asking me if I was sure and I said yes. The next thing I know is i'm waking up in his arms. I just slept with Ted. Oh god why? I don't love Ted. I don't want to hurt Ted. God I'm so stupid, I could of just slept with a random hook up, but no. Of course I have to do something dumb like sleep with Ted. I can't even look at myself right now. I'm such a mess. Why can't I just not do stupid things. I look over up at Ted, fast asleep, but I could have sworn that he had a hint of a smile on his face. He probably thinks we are back together. That we are going to get married now, like he always wanted. And maybe a slight part of me wanted to do that, to forget about all my other problems and just be with Ted. But I can't do that to him. How could I pretend to love him when he deserves so much more. I don't deserve to have this hold over him. I can't do this. I try to get up without waking him, but I do anyway and he grabs me pulling me down on top of him, back to sleep. I spring up as fast as I can. "I have to go to the bathroom". I say, rushing out of the room.
In the bathroom I'm a mess. I sit down on the closed toilet seat. Head in my hands. Don't cry, don't cry. You can turn this around. It's going to be okay. But its not going to be okay. I fucked everything up. There isn't a single good thing that is going to come out of this. I not only ruined my relationship with Barney, but with Ted. I never wanted to hurt him, to hurt anybody. But now I just can't stop. I'm out of control. I should really be.. "Robin do you want some pancakes? Cause its Sunday and you know how pancakes Sundays are our tradition." I break. Tears streaming down my face and I'm sobbing. I really did it didn't I . "Robin?" He asks. I don't say anything. Don't move and Ted getting worried comes in. He sees me crying and knows all at once that its over.
"You don't have to say anything. I know. Its fine." That just make me cry even harder, because its not fine. Never will what I did be fine.
"Sorry, I'm so sorry. So so sorry. I never wanted to hurt you. I'm so sorry I'm a crazy bitch." I cry even harder and Ted sits down on the floor in front of me. He takes some toilet paper and wipes away tears.
"You are not a bitch Robin. You never will be. Don't you ever think that for a minute you hurt me now. Because I would do anything for you." God Ted, just stop. You aren't helping. You're making it worse. He kisses me on the forehead and grabs my hand, pulling me into an undeserving embrace.
I know really short, but better than nothing. I also didn't want to prolong this Ted and Robin thing any longer, so look its over okay.
