Sorry about the major delay in updating but i'm back on track now. I had the worst case of writers block ever and no matter how hard i tried to force myself to write something i just couldn't do it.


Worst Case Scenario

I spend the next two days focusing on just one thing, avoiding Alex Karev. It is a lot more difficult than it sounds given that he is my intern and we are therefore required to work together.

I get ready for work in a rush as I am already running late. I grab my car keys and hurry outside to find Derek just returning from taking Doc on his morning walk. The dog runs over to me, giving me a much more enthusiastic greeting than my husband does. At least someone is happy to see me.

"Good morning. Sorry i can't stop i'm running late for work. Will you be home early tonight?" I ask Derek as he makes his way over to me.

"I'm not sure, it just depends how the day goes." I freeze when he stands beside me. He smells of perfume and it's definitely not mine.

"Have you just been walking Doc? Alone?" I know my voice comes out strange but I can't help it.

"Yeah. Why? I don't mind it's nice to have some time to myself." He glances at me strangely, obviously wondering about my sudden interest in where he goes on a morning.

"Right, yeah. Um I have to go then." I hurry towards the car, desperate to get away from him so I can think things over. Maybe there's a perfectly innocent explanation.

"Addison, are you ok?" He shouts after me as I get in to car and start the engine.

I don't reply, I can't reply. My voice seems to have stopped working completely and I can feel the tears building behind my eyes. I reverse away from the trailer quickly, drive a mile or two and then pull off the road because my vision is so blurred by tears I can't see where I'm going.

I know without a doubt that he has been with Meredith Grey. Is he cheating on me? I try to think up a plausible reason why he would smell of her but I can't. It's impossible that they just bumped in to each other in the woods, therefore it has to have been a planned meeting. So why did he tell me he was alone?

I sit there for an age, long after my tears have dried I still don't move. Eventually my brain kicks in and I realise that I'm beyond late for work now.

I fix my makeup as best I can using the rear view mirror when i arrive at the hospital before almost running inside.

I grab the chart for my first patient of the day and hurry towards her room. I bump in to something solid as I turn a corner too fast while not watching where I'm going.

"Sorry Dr. Montgomery-Sheperd, I didn't see you." Izzie Stevens apologizes as she picks up the papers she has dropped all over the floor.

"It's ok, it was my fault for not looking where I was going." I bend down to help but she has already shuffled the papers in to a messy pile and turned to carry on walking.

"Wait, Dr. Stevens." I call after her and catch her up again. "Have you seen Dr. Grey this morning?"

"No not yet. Why? Is she ok?"

"Oh yeah I'm sure she's fine. I was just wondering if she was in the hospital yet." I ask as nonchalantly as I can.

"Her shift starts later, I think she's on call tonight. Should I tell her you were looking for her?" Izzie says, she looks puzzled but she doesn't ask why I'm suddenly interested in Meredith Grey.

"No, no it's fine. It's not important." I force a smile on to my face and try to keep to a normal pace as I walk away.

I really need a minute to myself but my pager starts beeping immediately so I do my best to look calm and professional, instead of the emotional wreck that I really feel like. As I haven't informed the nurses that I am currently avoiding Alex Karev, I can't even imagine the rumours that would be spread if I did, they have already paged him and I find him checking over our latest patient.

"What have we got?" I ask him as my eyes scan over the observations the paramedics have taken.

"17 years old, 36 weeks pregnant, suffering abdominal pain." He responds quickly.

I thought he would act differently around me but he seems exactly the same as always. I forget all about the awkwardness and reasons why I was avoiding him and just concentrate on the girl lying on the table in front of me. We work together seamlessly and for a while I feel more relaxed than I have done for the past few days.

It all changes when the monitors start beeping as I close the girl up after performing a c-section. Alex is already working on the baby who seems surprisingly healthy under the circumstances, but no matter how hard I try I can't save the mother.

With the baby safely off to the NICU I call time of death on the girl and rush from the OR.

"Dr. Montgomery-Sheperd," I hear Alex call after me but absolutely nothing would make me turn around. I find the closest empty room which turns out to be a supply closet and duck inside quickly, praying nobody saw me.

I lean against shelves full of supplies and slide down to the floor slowly. I didn't think I had any more tears left to cry today but my body proves me wrong again and I sob helplessly.

The door opens and I know without looking up that Alex has followed me.

"Addison, it wasn't your fault." He says firmly as he sits down beside me on the floor.

"I know," I manage to stutter. "I just can't deal with it today." I wipe my eyes with the back of my hand discreetly and try to pretend that he hasn't just walked in on me in the middle of an emotional breakdown.

He rests his hand on my shoulder tentatively. I look up at him in surprise but all I find on his face is concern and compassion so I lean my head against his shoulder. I give up trying to be professional, I give up pretending I'm fine and instead I sob quietly in to his scrubs.

His doesn't say anything else, just wraps his arm around my shoulders and allows me to let it all out.


So there you have it, i hope it turned out ok because believe me i've been struggling to write it for the past month. Review please!