Okay here is an inside look into the way the Cullen boys think... it is not pretty... don't hate me.

I deleted the outtake story that I posted before and I'm just going to put them where they should be in the story. You really don't have to read them because everything will come out in the story. Warning, their life growing up is not the pretty picture they have painted for the girls.


Emmett's pov

I was sick of that fucking car. She said she loved me and that I was the only one for her, but I was starting to second guess myself. She reminded me of Kate. That stupid bitch, what I would give to wrap my hand around her neck one more time. She was always worried about herself. Just thinking of Kate made my blood boil. She was the one who ruin me. I don't know if I would ever be able to trust another woman for the rest of my life. I didn't have it as bad as Edward, though. That fucker use to trust whoever said, 'trust me'. Heidi was caught with two different guys and Edward would take her back. She would always leave him and make her wrong doings Edward's fault. He gets very hung up on his woman leaving. Every single girlfriend left because of his temper, but then again they would always do something to piss him off. Jasper wasn't as bad as Edward and I. He was never cheated on, but our bad relationships always made him paranoid. Jasper didn't deal with head games, plain and simple. That was his biggest down fall because women love the head games.

The three of us have always had tempers, we took after our father. We were never beat as children, but man he would rip us a new one every day. He would always find something to scream at us about. The only thing that he was good for was his money. We all knew what he was really like. Edward called him out on his indiscretions and that was the first time my father put his hands on any of us. I think my father made us all on edge about the whole cheating matter. Simply, our father was a whore just like Heidi, but we just kept our mouths shut. The sick part is our mother knew, but yet she was stupid enough to stay with him. One thing my father did was provide us with a very good lifestyle. My mom liked the money, she would never leave it.

I remember when I broke Jasper's nose when we were ten; he shouldn't have touched my shit. Edward was one of the only people to scare me. I was bigger than him, but he could pack a punch. All three of us use to beat each other up pretty good. I remember feeling bad when my mother would cry and beg us not to fight any more. We would be good for a while, but it never lasted. Some things never changed because that was how relationships were for us. They would cry and threaten to leave, so we would be good for a while, but they always fucked it up.

Edward had the right idea; he had Bella marrying him as soon as possible. He has learned from his past mistakes. When he said he was dating an eighteen year old girl I thought he was crazy, but in actuality he was a fucking genius. She was a virgin who had never been in a relationship, and she was clueless. To top it off she was the daughter of psycho Swan. That dude love to hit on his daughter and everyone knew it. Edward could mold her to his liking; he was the smartest man I knew. I didn't think Edward would ever have the heart to hit her, she's been through too much, but I was sure that he would always leave her fearing that he would. Then again, Edward was a ticking time bomb who cracked under pressure. Only time could tell.

I thought I lucked out with Rose, she was smoking hot, with a fucked up upbringing, something we had in common. Her car was a piece of shit and she acted like it was her last remaining family member. I didn't fucking get it. I went outside to tell her that she needed to get ready to go and she stuck up her finger up telling me to went a minute, I lost it. I grabbed her by her shirt collar and pulled her away from the car.

"What the fuck?!" she yelled to me.

"I have asked you all afternoon to spend time with me before we leave and you haven't," I said as I stood guard of the hood.

"I know I'm sorry, but I just wanted to make sure everything was okay," she said walking back to the car.

"I don't care! I'm taking it off the road tomorrow!" I said blocking her from getting to the car.

"Emmett, you don't get it, I love this car... you wouldn't get it, just move," she said getting pissy with me.

"Do you love this car more than me?"

"No, don't be stupid," she said trying her best to move me.

"That's it! This car is not coming before me!" I said as I turned and started ripping out whatever I could find. She screeched a couple of times, but she didn't fight me, that was how I knew it wasn't a big deal. I rushed into the house and found a bat; I knew this would get a better reaction out of her. Her eye popped out of her head, and that was what I wanted.

"I'm getting you a new car, this one is a piece of shit!" I said as I stormed the car.

"Emmett please I beg you! I love this car, just give me a minute to tell you why," she begged, but I was done listening.

She had a chance to tell why she loved it and all she would say was I wouldn't get it. Well, she would get it when I fucked up her car. As soon as the first window broke she disappeared. I thought she couldn't handle me fucking up her car, little did I know she was getting another bat to go after my car. I took my anger out on her car; I dented ever door and fender. Just as she broke my back window the cops pulled up. I put the bat down and grabbed the bat that she had.

"I'm not done fucking up your car!" she yelled as I turned her towards the cops. "Shit! What a buzz kill," she said shrugged me off. God I loved that girl.

"Step away from the bats!" the officer said and I tried not to laugh. I took Rose by the hand and pulled her away. She had just as much of a temper as I did because she fought me every step.

"Don't fucking touch me!" she said pushing me. I'm a little dramatic so I let myself stumble back. "Oh! Whatever!"

"Is there a problem here?" the good officer said.

"Nope," I said as Rose rolled her eyes.

"What will happen if I leave here?" he asked.

"I am going to finish fucking up his car!" Rose yelled as I grabbed her arm.

"Shut the fuck up!" I told her.

"That's it. Ma'am, how old are you?"

"I'm eighteen," she said walking towards the pig. I didn't like the way he was checking out my girl. "I'm sorry about all this," she said as she hung her head in shame. "We just broke up, I won't be around here anymore," she told the officer as he stared at her chest.

"This neighborhood has a noise tolerance. I hate to do this, but I have to take you in for disturbing the peace," he said as he walked up to my girl. "Please turn around and place your hands on your head and spread your feet," he said as my blood started to boil. As soon as he ran his hand up her right leg I couldn't take it anymore.

"Watch your hands!" I said approaching them.

"Step back," he barked at me as another cop car pulled up.

"Watch your hands," I said again putting my hands on my head. "Rose everything is going to be fine. I'll call my dad," I tried to tell her softly. I could see her tears and I hated when she cried.

A little while later...

"Dad hey! How's it going?" I asked trying to make small talk.

"Not much, where's your cell?" he asked as I chuckled. "Did you break another one?" he asked very annoyed with me.

"Nope just left it at home. Did you know that my neighborhood has a noise tolerance?" I asked him as I heard someone giggle in the background. "Oh Jesus Christ! How old is this one?" I asked getting angry.

"You are one to talk son, I'm pretty sure your little girl is just legal," he spat back at me.

"At least she is my only one... anyways, slap your little bitch off your dick and come bail me and Rose out of jail," I said not wanting to hear him getting kissed on.

"For real?"

"Yeah, now come get us," I said as I hung up. I hated my father.


Jasper's pov

I felt I was the most normal out of my whole family. My father was a man whore and we all knew it. Even my mother knew which blew my mind. My mother acted like a clueless house wife, but she's just as smart as any of us. They were together for show. We had the perfect family in everyone eyes, but they were so wrong it wasn't funny. I can proudly say that I have never hit a woman in my life. Other men on the other hand... yeah I'm a jealous fucker. I would also call me controlling, but never abusive. I hated women who were attention whores. My rules are simple; don't wear revealing clothing unless we are together and never get in between my brother and their women when they fight.

Alice was perfect for me. She still needed some molding, but other than that she was amazing and I was head over heels in love with her. Every morning she would text me a picture of herself so I could approve her chose of clothing. That made my every morning. If I asked her to change, she did without asking questions. When we were together she always would touch me and I loved that. Her actions made everyone know that she was with me. None of my other girlfriends ever did such a thing, but no one can be perfect. Women were not insignificant to us, submissive, yes.

When my father stormed into the house I was excited to see what had happened! When it turned on all of us, I got pissed because I haven't been in trouble in ten years, this was just bullshit! I wanted to ask him if he was madder that he didn't get his nut off or if it was really because it has been five years since any of us have gotten arrested. I didn't dare though, not since I was sixteen and saw what he did to Edward. We all knew to keep our mouth shut about that subject.

I knew Alice was sticking up for her friend, but I told her that she is NEVER to come between my stupid brothers and their women. Both Emmett and Edward have hit, not only mine, but each other's girlfriends while in an argument. Girls stick together, I get that, but not when they are fighting with a Cullen. When I pulled Alice away she knew I was mad.

"What have I told you?" I said as I towered over her.

"She's my friend," she said looking at her feet.

"I understand that. Alice, I can't protect you when they get mad. I don't care if he is beating the shit out of her you are NEVER to interfere. Get it?" I asked as she stared at the floor.

"I'm sorry," she said avoiding my question.

"Alice, you are making me angry," I said as I made her look at me. "You cannot interfere," I said as she stared me in the face.

"He would really hit me?"

"It has happened before," I said as I saw tears weld in her eyes. "Please don't cry," I said gently.

"I don't want to lie to you, but I can't promise," she said.

"You have to. Promise me, Alice, please," I said begging her.

"Okay, I promise," she said as I kissed her forehead.


EPOV

Three things my brother's and I have in common; our tempers, our love for monogamy, and the hatred for our father. When I was sixteen my father ruined all three of us. The three of us had skipped school and we thought no one would be home, we were wrong. We thought our parents were getting it on until we heard our father say, 'Oh Tanya'! Yeah, the three of us stood there and stared. We fought all the time, sometimes were worse than others. It is hard to adjust when you go from the perfect family to being fucked up! With the three of us being, at the time, partial assholes we sat in the front room and waited for them to come downstairs. We all wished that our mother would come home, she never did. I remember the day like it was yesterday.

The whore named Tanya was beautiful and very young. She was lucky to be twenty one. Her face when she saw us was priceless. She tried to hide behind my father like he was going to save her. Little did she know, my father could have cared less that he had gotten caught. The three of us towered her and she started to cry.

"You said no one would be here!" she said to my father.

"Yeah well, I am pretty sure I told you I have terrible kids," he said as he about shoved her out the door.

"What the fuck was that?" I had asked.

"That was Tanya," he said as if it was no big deal.

"I'm telling Mom, she doesn't deserve this shit!" I said as my father grabbed a hold of my neck and threw me up against the wall.

"You don't think your mother knows?" he said as I struggled to breath. "You keep your mouths shut! Everyone has their secrets!" he said as he let go of me just as I was about to pass out. "You all want some advice? Monogamy is bullshit! Life gets boring with only one woman. Stick with younger pussy, it is always the best," he said as he walked away. The only thing he was right about was the younger pussy. I only wanted Bella and no one else. I had something with her that I had never had with anyone else.

The first time I caught Heidi in bed with another guy, I forgave her. I loved her, but little did I know that was just the first time that she had gotten caught. After catching her four times she ended the relationship saying I was too smothering, violent, and I had no trust in her. Well, no fucking shit. I have yet to see her since the day we broke up. She was a cunt and she ruined me. Between her and my father I was a nasty man. I hated life for a long time and beat on many innocent women. To this day, every time I see my father with another woman, it sends me over the edge. I never wanted to lose it with Bella; she was the love of my life. After we had caught him, he never hid it from us. We would go to his office for money or something and he would be getting head or he would have a chick half naked on his desk. He was a disgusting pig.

Which brings me to the reasons why I am the way I am with Bella. The day she didn't come right home after school, I thought the worst! All I could imagine was that she was with another guy. When she talked to that boy at school and she acted embarrassed to be around me, my only thought was that she was hiding something. This world is full of cheater and lairs, and I didn't want my girl to be one of them. Part of me knew she wasn't, but then again, I had thought that before.

At first my main reason for asking Bella out was because she was so young. I knew who her father was and I knew the rumors. Basically she was damaged goods and I wanted someone to mold to my ways. I know that is the most fucked up thing to say, but that was how I wanted it. In all honesty I never thought I would have the connection that I had with her. I thought a connection with her was impossible; I was twelve years older than her. I thought we would have nothing in common. What threw me was we did. We liked the same music, food, and we wanted to please everyone even if that meant leaving ourselves for last. Another dick head thought of mine was that she would be perfect if she had no family. Her dick head father wants to change and her dead beat mom wanted to get to know her. I wanted to show her that all she needed was me and no one else.

I love Bella, I love the thought of a monogamist relationship, and I love that she was marrying me. I always said, once I was married it was for life, I was pretty sure I was getting that with Bella. I hate the two people who ruined me. I hate Heidi. I hate my father.


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