I'M SO SORRY I HAVENT UPDATED IN A WHILE! I JUST STARTED SCHOOL, LIKE, 3 DAYS AGO! AND I ALREADY HAVE HW! SO FROM NOW ON, MY UPDATES WILL BE OVER THE WEEKEND. AND IF I DON'T UPDATE ONE WEEK, DON'T WORRY, I WILL UPDATE LATER ON IN THE WEEK! BUT THEY WONT BE AS FAST AS THEY USED TO BE ):

BTW: THIS IS IN ALEXA'S POV AGAIN! IT WILL ALWAYS BE IN HER POV UNLESS TOLD OTHERWISE (LIKE WITH KENDALL AND CARLOS) ! ENJOYY !

I sat by the day as I watched Carlos run down the block. I don't know what came over me! He just came over to show me a song, and then I kissed him! I sighed and turned back to my kitchen. I leaned on the island and continued to look at the path Carlos took. I was thinking a lot after I kissed him, about whether I liked him or not. And so far, all I got was this…

"Kldfhjdnmvhufbwkmcldjfihef" from my head and…

"-" From my heart. I hit my head on the counter with anger, just as my mother walked in with my Nonna. My Nonna was staying with us for another month because of something going on in Italy. I really didn't pay that much attention in Global, so I have no clue.

"Honey, you ok?" my mom asked. I just gave her a death glare, then said, "No, mom. I'm not."

"What's the matter Alexandria?" Nonna asked.

"Something happened, just now. And I can't explain it!" I yelled at them. My mom looked really confused, so I just said it. "Carlos came over 30 minutes ago and said he wrote me a song. So, when ANY girl hears a sentence like that, they think 'Hey, that was sweet!' So I listened to the song and his voice… it was like nothing I have ever heard before! And when he finished, I was so in awe and so happy, I leant over and kissed that Mexican SMACK on the lips!"

My mom and Nonna were standing with the groceries with their mouths wide open. I started to blush, realizing that I was being racist with the whole "Mexican" thing. But when your this confused as I am right now, you say things you don't mean.

"Alexa, is that true?"

"Mom, I wouldn't lie to you, and you know that. Me and Carlos kissed. My mom nodded her head in agreement, she knows I never lie. We made a deal when I was younger that if I ever lied, I would get a haircut. And I HATE haircuts!

"It's fine, sweetie. You didn't know what you were doing."

"Yes I did mom! It wasn't like I was asleep! I was fully awake and I know that I leaned in to kiss HIM! I just feel so bad, I'm playing with his feelings. What if he thinks I like him back? I mean, I would love to like him in that way, but I already really like Kendall. What do I do?" I begged.

"It's all going to be ok. Now, why don't you go upstairs and rest. You can think about this in the morning." I agreed and went upstairs after saying goodnight to them. When I was in my room, all alone, it hit me. Carlos was my first real kiss. I couldn't believe it! there has to be a reason that he was the one and not Kendall. The only time Kendall tried to kiss me was at Starbucks and I turned it down. A wave of guilt crashed over me with no warning.

The next day, I went into my first period class, in which I had both Kendal and Carlos. I waved to both of them, but Carlos looked away. I frowned a bit, but I realized that this might be the best time to tell Kendall. I walked over to Kendall, who greeted me with a friendly hello. I smiled and looked down at the floor.

"Hey, can I talk to you, privately?" I asked. Kendall looked confused, but still followed me out into the hallway. It felt like "No Man's Land" because there wasn't a soul to be found. I took a deep breath as I prepared myself for the worst.

"Hey, what's up? Is everything ok?"

"Well, that depends how you take it."

"Huh?" he said confused. I sighed and looked at my feet.

"Well, yesterday, something happened between me and someone you know." I looked through the window and saw Carlos with a scared look. Then I saw him get up and come towards us.

"Hey, Kendall! Howya doing?" Carlos greeted obnoxiously.

"Fine," Kendall hesitated, "What's up?"

"I just have to saw one word to Alexa quickly. Alexa, can you follow me?"

"No," I said, knowing fully what he was going to tell me. "This comes first, but you should stay."

"What going on?" Kendall asked frustrated.

"There is something I have to tell you." Carlos said. And before I could stop him, Carlos spat out, "I kissed Alexa." Then he shriveled up into himself to protect whatever Kendall was going to do. Kendall just frowned and looked down.

"No, it wasn't like that. Carlos didn't do anything." I explained. "It was all me. Yell at me, blame me! Just don't be angry at Carlos, he tried to pull away, but I didn't let him." I was fighting tears back because I was lying to a guy I really liked. Carlos saw that and spoke up.

"No, don't listen to Alexa! She's lying! I threw myself at her, she had nothing to do with it." Kendall was more confused than before, but he managed to muster out his next words.

"Well, you both are telling me different stories. Who is telling the truth?" I looked at Carlos and he gave me a look of bravery. It was almost like he was telling me 'Let me take the punishment. It was me, tell him' I took a deep breath and fought the tears that were forming. I knew I was about to do the wrong thing, and Carlos knew it too. But he was brave enough to suffer the consequence.

"Carlos," I cried, "Carlos is telling the truth. He… he threw himself at me." I cried harder, these tears were no longer hidden. I was doing the wrong thing. Clearly I threw myself at him. Kendall frowned and looked at the floor, but he didn't seem upset. It was almost like he was jealous. He looked up after a while and gave me a sly smile. I was very confused, a moment ago, I told him that Carlos hooked up with me. Now he's smiling?

"Why are you smiling?" Carlos asked Kendall, but Kendall just kept smiling, then he moved closer to me and looked down at me. My wet face looked up into his green eyes, and we connected.

"Because, now, I'm going to show her how a real man kisses," Kendall said while smiling. I was confused, but within a matter of seconds, Kendall crashed his lips onto mine, and all I could hear was Carlos' heart shattering.