Oh God I feel awful for leaving you all stranded after I promised an update! But craaazy things have been going down and then on top of that I couldnt end this fricking chapter! It seriously is the longest one I have ever written! Its like two of my normal chapters wrapped in one! And just because I feel so awful I will be updating this again today!!! Can you see how much I love you all???!!!! Now if you review you'll see just how crazy I get!! Btw, this chapter is dedicated to PaulIsMySilverWolf for dedicating her chapter to me and then reviewing every single chapter of this and aking me smiloe everytime!!!! She rocks!

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Emmett:...WHAT THE? MIKE NEWTON?! What the hell are you doing here?!

Mike: I am a priest now. Once I heard Annie and Ella are getting married I realized that there was no hope for me finding anyway as wonderful as them, so after a 24 hour ceminarian course, here I am!

Everyone:.............cricket cricket..........

Edward: Huh. well look at that! Now you'll have to marry us! Luuucky you. -evil grin-

Mike: Nooooo! Fine I'll give you the Deluxe Edition! Do you Annie take Edward, and do you Edward take Annie!

Edward & Annie: I do!

Mike: Do you Ella take Emmett, and do you Emmett take Ella!

Ella & Emmett: I do!

Mike: And do any of you own twilight?

Everyone:..... Nooo?

Mike: Kay All done! Your married and happy! Now leave me alone with my tears!!! -sob sob sob-

Annie: Okay??? ONTO THE HONEYMOON! Edward: Oh yes! Let's get out of here! -we all run off with the sounds of Mikes sobs fading into the distance-


"Your such a cheater!" Nessie yelled getting off of her bike.

We had started racing to the Cullen's about two seconds after we left the parking lot.

"You wish I cheated. Then you would have an excuse for losing to me everyday." I smirked at her.

We were now standing in front of the manificent white mansion. Alice and Jasper were now walking out from the garage where Edward had parked the Volvo. Alice waved us towards the house and we quickly followed them up the path.

"Where's little Miss ray of sunshine?" Nessie asked Alice taking a quick glance behind us to see if he had emerged from the garage.

"Oh he went out the back door of the garage. I think he wanted to clear his head for a bit and go hunting." she said sadly. Then we reached the front door and she spun around springing back to life. "I can't wait to give you guys the full blown tour!"

She threw the door open and ran inside at vampire speed, holding nothing back now that we were secluded in our own world where being 'mythical' was the norm.

I stood there for a long moment contemplating how far I would make it if I just ran away now. I felt someone nudge me in the side and looked up to see Nessie smiling at me.

"Let's do this." she said holding out her arm for me.

Was I really that obvious? Well at least I will have her with me through all of this. I smiled back at her and linked our arms as we walked through the door.

We had just stepped around the corner and into the living room when strong arms enveloped the both of us.

Although instead of today at school Emmett unleashed the full force of his strength and spun us around in cricles so fast that it would cause a cop to give him a speeding ticket.

He set us down after a moment or two and smiled. "Welcome to our humble abode." he said curtsying in front of us, and even holding out his hands like he was lifting an invisible dress he was wearing, which cause us both to burst out in a fit of laughter.

Emmett the closet fairy princess. Who knew?

"Emmett will you please just sit down and try not to embarass us any further?" Rose patted the seat next to her and a disgruntled Emmett sat down. He obviously quickly forgot any insult in her words, because he reached over, wrapped his large muscular arms around her slendor waist and pulled her closer to him until they were practically one person.

I looked away, feeling almos uncomfortably staring at the two of them so intimately connected to each other. I used the oppurtunity to look around the room for the first time really taking in everything. I know it really shouldn't surprise me that everything looked identical to the houses former glory, but of course it did. The white walls, and the immaculate furniture. The large fireplace, and the wide archway that lead into the large dining room. I could even see the river through the wall of glass that went across the entire back of the house. I continued to look around the room in amazement. It was like they never left. Everything was just too perfect. Right down to the picture frame's on the end tables and the mantle above the fireplace. I turned around taking in every identical detail and stopped when my eyes were met with a enthusiastic looking Alice. She was perched on top of Jasper's lap on one of the large recliners smiling at us.

"Don't think I forgot that you two still have some explaining to do. You promised at lunch you would fill us in on all the gory details." she smiled and Japser nodded in agreement.

"Don't worry once everyone is here we will get right down to our story, I promise." I reassured her.

And as if on que Esme walked around the corner from where I knew the kitchen was, and beamed at the two of us.

"Hello, I'm Esme, and you two must be our new guests in town." She still radiated that motherly feeling, the one where if you were just around her you felt loved. I really missed that feeling, especially now when I can't even see my own mother.

Not that I couldn't approach the situation like I did with Charlie, but knowing my mom she wouldn't be able to handle it. And not knowing anything about the Jacob situation as a background story didn't exactly make things any easier. So keeping Renee out of the loop was the best choice for everyone.

"Yes and you must be the famous Esme." I smiled at her. I mean how could you not smile when she seemed to glow like just the fact that she met you made her day. "I'm Izzy, and this is Renesmee, or Nessie."

She glided forward and wrapped Nessie up in a warm embrace. "It's wonderful," she paused and made her way to where I was standing and I immdeiately wrapped my arms around her, "to meet you both." she said into my ear. I held onto her for another long second. And I know how sick it must sound, but for a moment in my mind, I pretended she wasn't hugging Izzy. And that she was hugging me, Bella. And that we were all together, and they never left me, because they all truly loved me.

Yes, sick, masochistic, and most likely unhealthy, I know. Not that I really care much. I was already ninety-nine percent sure I was certifiably insane. Even if only inside my head.

She pulled back and away from me, pulling me out of my little delusions.

"Carlisle should be home any minute, so you two can just make yourself at home until then." she gestured towards the long sofa, and walked back through the dining room towards the kichen. Nessie and I gladly took seats at the end of the couch.

"Yeah mi casa, es su casa." Emmett grinned.

"He says that now, but if he ever catches you touching his dollies, your dead to him." Jasper snickered and Alice placed her hand over her mouh trying to sifle her giggles.

"Hey! They are ACTION FIGURES! Not dollies." Emmett boomed, crossing his arms across his chest.

"Whatever you say Em...." Jasper said smugly as he and Alice both tried to hide their laughter unsuccessfully, only this time me and Nessie had joined in as well.

"Whatever your all just jello." Emmett proclaimed loudly.

I just couldn't stop myself, I had to ask.

"Jello?" I questioned, Trying to contain myself raher unsuccessfully.

"Yeah jello, like lime green jello." He sneered. That sent us all over the top and we couldn't help it. We were laughing so hard if I was human, my sides would have hurt from lack of oxygen. Even Rosalie had joined in, much to Emmet's annoyance. And I could have swarn I heard a suppressed giggle coming from the kitchen. Emmett just grumbled to himself on the couch.

"I have to ask Em, where the hell did you ever hear that?!" Alice choked out in between her laughter.

"Duh! Haven't you guys ever seen the movie Jennifer's Body! Megan Fox is like this vampire-ish monster thingy that eats human boys!" He exclaimed. "Best movie ever!"

That just threw us all over the edge again. Only Emmett.

"What's so funny?" I heard someone ask. I looked up to see Carlisle standing in the doorway stairing at us all like we ate the neighbor's cat or something.

"Oh nothing, Emmett just seemed to think that somehow using a quote from an old Megan Fox movie, aka a chick movie, would somehow defend himself, his mancard, and his dollies." Jasper snickered from behind Alice. "Fail!"

"FOR THE LAST TIME THEY ARE ACTION FIGURES!" Emmett growled.

"Dollies!" Jasper coughed trying to get a rise out of him. Emmett opened his mouth to defend himself again, but Jasper sopped him. " Ah ah ahhh." He said shaking his finger at him. "You said that was the last time. Sorry, but those are the rules."

All of us burst out laughing again when Emmett frowned and growled to himself saying somehing about stupid vampire mind fuckery.

"Emmett! Language!" Esme scolded from the kitchen.

He sighed. "Sorry." Rosalie started to rub his forearm and leaned in towards his ear. She began whispering something to him that obviously lifted his mood, because whatever it was brought that big stupid cocky grin right back to Emmett's face.

I don't even want to know.

"Well I don't believe I've met our guests yet." Carlisle said walking over to us.

Me and Nessie both stood up to greet him. "Hi I'm Renesmee or Nessie." she smiled at him as he shook her hand. He moved down towards me and held out his hand. "Hi I'm Izzy." I smiled and gladly took it in . I was having some serious deja vu. Now all we needed was for Alice to zip down the stairs with Jasper in tow, looking pained instead of the happy laid back guy lounging in front of us now. And then Edward would waltz over to the piano and play my lullaby, and tears would start to fall down my face. Then Edward being an oddball would taste one of my tears and we'd just stare into each others eyes. God we sound like some bad romantic comedy. I guess it was only bad if you weren't the one living the tale of epic romance.

I was lost for a moment in the memory, his hands gliding across the keys, his smiling face dazzling me.

And right then the Adonis himself walked in and plopped himself down on a rocking chair in the corner of the room. He just sat there staring at nothing with the same shield slammed down across his face. Seeing him in all of his perfection brought on a whole new round of memories. Of dimly lit candles, gold sheets, and cold, hard skin. If edward could only see the gutter that my mind lives in, I wonder what he'd think of me. Well if that night is any indication, well let's put it this way, if I was still human Nessie would have a little brother or sister. That's right world, I've just told you one of the largest secrets in all mankind. Edward Cullen Likes it when you talk dirty. And not just dirty, but extra dirty, straight up, with a twist. But hell, who am i kinding, my whole damn body was residing in the gutter. And that gutter was located on Edward's Cock-a-doodle-doo lane.

I couldn't help but start getting a little emotional with the both of us here in this house, with all the multitude of memories we've had here swirling in my mind. I realized I was still shaking Carlisle's hand and let go quickly, smiling at him and hoping I wasn't lost for so long in my head that I just stood there shaking his hand for a whole 5 minutes while everyone stared.

"It's lovely to meet you both." He said. I looked around at the faces quickly and no one seemed to be looking at me like I was meant to be behind bars in some vampire mental institution, so they must not be on to me, yet. There's always a fucking yet. Esme sauntered in then and took her place next to her husband. "So now that I'm here we can all get started. You won't mind if we jus ask you some questions, will you? Just so we can try and fit the puzzle pieces together and figure out what brought you both here."

"No not at all, ask away." I said as I sat back down on my seat on the couch and Nessie followed.

"Alright then." Carlisle said as he sat himself and Esme on the Loveseat across from us. "Well I guess the first thing would be is why Renesmee has a heart beat?" He leaned in truly curious now.

"Alright well, she's only half vampire. We think that her mother had sex with a vampire while she was still human, because I was hunting one day and smelled blood. I went to go and find where ever it was coming from and came upon this little thing." I said ruffling her hair.

She turned to me and let out a low growl, giving me a face that said 'If you weren't my mother, I would so slaughter you right now.' I just smiled at her and turned back to Carlisle.

"Her mother had been dead for a while by then, so I just took her in and disposed of the body the best I could. And shes basically been my little sister ever since."

Carlisle just sared at Nessie in shock, much like the res of the room. "And you just stopped growing at a certain age and are staying this way?" Esme chimed in.

"Yeah, at first I aged incredibly fast and after about six years I started to slow down, until I ended up like this and I haven't grown since then. So about a whole year I've stayed this way." Nessie answered her smiling.

"Absolutely fascinating. Your one of a kind. The Volturi would just love to get their hands on you." Carlisle murmured running a hand through his hair.

"Actually they already have." I added. His face shot up to mine, his eyes going wide in shock.

"You've already met the Volturi?" He questioned. This was the easy part. Everything after the whole I found her in the woods part of the charade was pretty much the truth so I had no trouble at all going over any of this.

"Yes. We actually lived with them for about two years. After I had been on my own with Nessie for a few months, we ran into some of the guard in Italy and they brought us in to meet Aro." His eyes widened slightly at this news, but he continued to sit their quietly. Listening for the rest of our story. "And we went inside and met him and he told us we would have to stay with him for a while to make sure that Nessie wasn't a threat to them or to exposing them. It's not like we had anywhere to go, so with them offering us a room and protection, we jumped at the chance. And soon enough Nessie hear had the entire guard wrapped around her finger. Apparently she mesmerized everyone. I don't know how much you know of the immortal children but,..."

"That's what she must have looked like to them." He whispered.

"Yes at first. But they could see her growing more and more each day. And she was probably the cutest baby known to man, so they grew to love her like their own grand daughter." I shrugged.

"Of course they did! Uncle Aro never stood a chance! And of course Janey was an ice cube at first but I had her melted down in a week. No way she could turn down this smile!" she said bring both her hands up underneath her chin and modeling her smile like she was suddenly Vana White. "And I know it may be hard for you to comprehend but I was even more adorable back then than I am now!" she said as if the fact truly astounded even herself. The whole room chuckled at her, but Carlisle was still burried away deep in thought.

"I can't imagine the Volturi being so, so..." Carlisle trailed off.

"Un-I-am-going-to-eat-you-cause-I'm-bored-and-you-sneezed-near-me-so-I'll-just-tell-people-it-was-all-in-self-defense-grrr-fear-me-I'm-vicious!" Emmett exclaimed.

Everyone turned towards him and stared for an extremely long moment and then started laughing.

Oh Emmett what would we do without you?

"Yes Emmett, something along those lines." Carlisle chuckled.

"Anyways," Esme began, "please continue with your story." she smiled warmly.

"Well that is basically it, we stayed with them for a few years, and then we went on to do some traveling here and there. Just boring stuff." If you call two worlds tours,three Grammy awards, and three multi-platinum CDs boring. "And now we are staying with Chief Swan, and going to school with you wonderful people." I stretched my arm towards all of them and they chuckled.

"Oh Izzy, I was meaning to ask, what's your tattoo mean?" Rosalie asked from Emmett's lap.

"and how do you have a tattoo?" Alice finished.

"Well now this brings us into our powers, as some of you know I have a mental shield and can change my appearance." And because of this none of you know I'm Bella not Izzy, I smiled to myself.

Carlisle and Esme's eyes grew wide. "Could you show us what you mean by change your appearance?" Carlisle asked.

"Gladly." Smirking I looked around the room, scanning for a victim. Naturally once my gaze hit Emmett, I just knew.

I felt the tingling begin in my fingertips and spread through out my body. I slowly was becoming taller in my chair and the gasps I heard around the room brought a large grin across my face, and that fact only made me smile bigger because I knew it was Emmett's signature goofy grin.

I turned towards Emmett who was gaping at me from his seat as Rose tried not to giggle, rather unsuccessfully, on his lap.

"Hey baby," I said to Rosalie, "How's about you ditch this dude and you come on over and sit on Big Papa's lap." I smiled a big grin at her and winked.

She turned around to Emmett and looked him in the eye. "Sorry Em, but I have a new love now." she jumped up and plopped herself down on my lap, crossing her legs and stroking her hand across my cheek, "how about Big papa give's me some sugar?" she winked with the eye that was facing away from Emmett and we both tried to keep a straight face.

"YES!" Emmett yelled. We all looked at him curiously. "Wait, first change back to Izzy, then you can give her some sugar!" We all stared at him for a moment and then I was doubled over in laughter along with the rest of the room.

Rosalie gave me a peck on the cheek and went back over to sit with Emmett. "That's all your ever getting Big Boy." she said as she smacked him on the back of the head.

"Hey, when an opportunity presents itself...." he trailed off.

"You go for it. Yeah Em we've noticed." Jasper said rolling his eyes. We all laughed.

I 'phased' back into Izzy and made sure not to let anything slip back to the real me. That wouldn't be awkward or anything.

Just an 'Oh yeah Hi! It was really me under there!' I'm sure they'll just love that.

"Well that is certainly an amazing gift. And then your mental shield? What does that entail?" Carlisle jumped right back in with all of his questions.

"Basically any power that is mind related I can block, like Edward's mind reading," I looked at him and our eyes locked for a second before he looked away. Unfortunately. "Or Jane's pain. But I can lift it from myself to let them in," I lifted my shield for a moment.

Hey Eddie! How is it in that big head of yours?!

His eyes widened and I chuckled. I lifted my shield back up. That big, gorgeous, perfect, beautiful head of yours.

"And I can stretch it out like a rubber band so it covers other people." I stretched it over everyone in the room besides Edward. "How's the silence?" I asked smiling as our eyes locked again.

I never in a hundred years expected him to actually answer.

"Pretty wonderful actually." he mumbled.

Everyone stared at him slightly shocked for a moment. I snapped my shield back to me and saw his lips twitch slightly into a frown.

"Sorry, I'd keep it up but it takes a lot of concentration and I haven't practiced it that much." This is so weird. This is the first normal conversation where both parties are willingly participating in the conversation I have had with him in 7 years and we are making small talk, very small talk, about my stupid powers no less.

"That's okay. I'm used to it, I've learned how to tune it all out until its just background noise." I saw his facial features shift the slightest and he just seemed a tiny bit more alive. A tiny bit more happy.

His family all beamed around him at the change. I'm guessing this rarely happens.

"And Nessie?" Carlisle jumped in again, still smiling at his son who was staring at the floor like his shoelace was the greatest thing he'd ever witnesses.

I gestured towards her, letting her take this one. "Well, I can show anyone what I am thinking with the touch of my hand. It could be words, or memories, or images. Anything really."

"You can even watch her dream while she sleeps. It's amazing. I was in her room almost every night while she was growing up." I smiled. After watching her sleep I understood wha Edward had found so fascinating about me when I slept. If I was half as interesting as Nessie's thoughts I'd never leave. Though I still doubt that I was.

"Wow that's cool." Alice said and then she got this look on her face like something just clicked. She stopped to think about whatever i was for a moment and continued, "It's funny though, you keep everyone out with your shield, while Nessie is the exact opposite. She let's the world in." she mused.

"Huh." Nessie said, "Never thought of it that way." When in fact we had when she was very young.

"Weird you said that Alice. Cause I was just thinking sort of the same thing," Rosalie murmured, "except about Edward." Nessie, Edward, and my eyes all snapped to Rose. Edward look curious while Nessie and eye both looked slightly nervous.

"What do you mean?" Alice asked looking confused.

"Well Nessie kind of does the opposite of Edward. He can hear what everyone else is thinking, while Nessie shows everyone else what she is thinking." she trailed off, looking between Edward and Nessie for a long moment. "You know, your hair color really is identical. Just plain weird." she murmured.

Edward looked at Nessie for a long moment, appraising her hair, and shrugged.

They all just kept looking between the two of them. I gazed at all of their faces, just waiting for something to click and for my panic attack to set in.

Carlisle got this odd look across his face and was thinking rather intently on something. My gaze wandered for a moment to a rigid Edward in the corner.

He looked concentrated and I assumed he was listening to the thoughts swirling around him in the room.

What I wouldn't give right now to have his power. To be able to hear everyone's thoughts. To know when one of them go closer to he truth.

Edward's head whipped towards Carlisle suddenly. He had this look on his face like he had just been hit by an eighteen wheeler and it was continuing down the road at a speed that would make the Cullen's look like cautious driver's.

Looks like we have a winner. His prize? Drama.

Carlisle was still completely focused on his thoughts and his gaze traveled to Nessie. He turned his head slowly towards Edward with a look of disbelief.

"Did you?" he questioned simply.

After a moment of awkward and confused silence throughout the room Edward nodded his head slightly.

My stomach sank.

I was suddenly terrified at whatever Carlisle had cooked up in his thoughts, and was praying, that just this once, whatever theory he had would be wrong. I stole a quick glance at Nessie and could see that she was visibly as nervous as I was.

"So," Carlisle started, turning back towards the two of us, "you say Nessie's mother was dead when you found her." It wasn't a question but we both nodded our heads anyway in confirmation.

I was immediately scared. Scared of what he was getting at. Scared of what it could do to us. And scared for Nessie, because if he was anywhere near being correct, then this get together was about to get a whole hell of a lot more complicated, and all eyes would be on her.

"Well then have you ever thought about her father?"

Only every damn second of my existence.

I shook my head though, preparing for the 'shit to hit the fan' as people always said. "I guess I hadn't. I never thought it would be possible for me to find him since I really knew nothing about Nessie except that she was half human."

I should have known Carlisle would have put two and two together. Let's just pray to God he doesn't add four and four.

Edward must have been confirming Carlisle's suspicions about our history when he nodded. Well shit, way to kiss and tell.

"Holy shitsicles." Alice whispered so fast I almost thought I was hearing things. That is until I saw Jasper's shocked face, that his sweet little angel of a wife had just cursed. That probably only happens once a millennium.

"Holy mother of fucking shitsicles!" Okay, four times.

I had to surpress a giggle, because I mean come on. Shitsicles? Really Alice? Her craziness was just one of the many reasons I loved her though.

I could only guess at what she had just seen though, and unless she was swearing because she had seen a ninety nine percent off sale at VampBarn, we were fucked over.

And that was not likely.

Cursed little dwarf. There was no doubt in my mind that Edward had just seen the vision that had played through Alice's mind.

His face was twisted and frozen in pain. A pain that I knew all to well to still be sane. But their was a difference between his face and what my human reflection had been that first week after he had left me.

Charlie had always said it was as if I had died, but I could always see a small spark of life in my eyes. The same spark of life that enabled me to carry on with my pathetic excuse for a life for Charlies sake. And then Renesmee had woken me up.

But Edward, he didn't have that spark. He didn't have anything. He was just........nothing.

"Would someone please inform me on what the hell is going on right now?" Emmett exclaimed from his side of the couch, staring at Edward's dead eyes in confusion and fright.

I looked around and everyone was staring at him except for Nessie and Carlisle.

I locked eyes with Nessie for a brief moment, who looked slightly panicked. I took hold of her hand in mine to try and reassure her.

Her features relaxed a little, and we both turned to look at Carlisle. Both of us anxious to hear how he would answer Emmett's question.

"Well I am going to need to run a few test's firs to confirm my assumption's," he trailed off, "but I am fairly certain that Renesmee here," he paused for a moment to look at Nessie and then Edward and then back at Nessie again, "is Edward's daughter."

Silence.

And more silence.

And then.....a little more silence.

Probably the longest silence ever recorded in a room full of vampires in all of history. The only noise heard throughout the room was Nessie's heartbeat, pounding even faster than its normal speed. I counted the beats, waiting for someone, anyone to say something. I was at 362.

I would love to be able to hear what Edward was hearing right now. If he was even hearing anything in his present comatose-ish state.

He was still completely still in his chair looking just as lifeless as before.

I looked up at Nessie who was visibly freaking out and looking to me to tell her what to do. I wish I knew.

"Woah. I have a niece..." Emmett whispered under his breath, "AWESOME!" he yelled.

The rest of the room broke out in smiles. "How is this possible?" Rosalie asked. "We aren't supposed to be able to have children." Rosalie was obviously struggling with this concept. I knew she never wanted this life and the news of Edward having a daughter must be pretty tough to take in.

"Edward you dog!" Emmett exclaimed, adding another piece of the puzzle together, but Edward was still frozen and ignored him. Emmett being Emmett though just shrugged it off.

"Bella's daughter." Alice whispered. The room went quiet and all of their faces became paler, an impossibility becoming possible. Slowly they all pieced together that if Nessie was in fact Edward's daughter, and this story was true, then I would be dead. And not only am I dead, but I am dead because of their involvement in my life, because of vampires being in my life. And if they had stayed, then maybe I would be alive, and they would have known Edward had a daughter, and they could have watched her grow up. With me, not dead.

Thats not an oops I got a papercut screw up, I cringed, thats an oops I just destroyed my own eternal happiness screw up.

Alice hugged herself to Jasper's tightly and pressed her face into his chest, breathing heavily and uneven. I knew that if she could cry she would be.

He just held her closely, rubbing her back. He looked pained as well. They all did.

The women were all holding tightly to their men, crying dry tears.. Even Rosalie, which was surprising me immensely. The men just held their wives close to them, closing heir own eyes shut, and I could see hem breathing deeply as well, trying to hold themselves together. To be strong for their wives.

I wish I could tell them not to feel guilty, that I was alive, and they didn't need to feel this. I mean what happened to me, if i was a human, wouldn't have been their fault.

But I couldn't say anything of course, because that would look weird coming from 'Izzy', so I'll just let it go. It's not like they won't get over it soon. They left me.

At he same time though, I didn't mind some of the pain they were going through. My vengeful side didn't mind a all. Because now they were feeling a small portion of the pain that they had left me to wallow in for the rest of my life.

So what if they had to go through only a fraction of what I had, and for only a fraction of heir immoral lives. They would get over it.

Still, I knew Edward was mos likely the ring leader in the let's leave Bella parade, so I wished I could say something, anything hat would alleviate just a small amount of their pain. It nearly killed me to see Esme like this especially. She was too kind, and welcoming and wonderful o ever see such sadness in her face.

So yes, I wanted to tell them all the truth if it would make them all smile again. Everyone except Edward that is. He would drown in this pain for all eternity with me for all I cared.

I guessed that the guilt of my death had to almost equal the pain I had felt. Almost.

The irony was funny really. He left me so that I wouldn't become like him, because he didn't want to get stuck with me for all eternity. And now here I sat, in the same room as him, as the exact thing he never wanted me to become, and most likely to be with him for all eternity if Nessie wanted to know and be close with her father. And he had no clue.

And the cherry on top? I got to watch him suffer the pain he put me through. I know that sounds sadistic, and twisted, but it somehow made it feel like I was slowly getting even with him. Although if we were gonna keep score I still had a long ways to go before I would ever truly get even with him.

The whole room had suddenly become very heavy with the deep emotions. Jasper must be feeling awful.

Edward was still seemed dead. He had become a statue of a man I once loved, perched in the corner of the room for all to see.

I waned to scream at him to kindly, "Wake the fuck up and start to get to know your daughter!". Sure he must be shocked by all of this, and then there was also the guilt of finding out I had died, but he needed to wake up. He had a daughter, a biological daughter. And she was sitting right in front of him. So that means its time to get it in gear and start to actually be her father.

Nessie stood up quickly from her seat. "I'm gonna need some air for a minute, I'll be right back." And with that she was gone from the room.

"Poor thing." Esme whispered from under Carlisle's arms, still crying dry tears. "This must all be so overwhelming."

"I'll go check on her." Anything to get away from all of his depression. I let myself drink Edward in one last time before I ran out of the room and followed Nessie's smell.

He may have been catatonic at the moment, but just the sight of his perfect, loving face calmed my nerves a bit.

I found Nessie a ways from the house, sitting by the side of the river with her knees held to her chest. A least she went far enough away so we were out of vampire earshot. Or mind shot.

I ran up and sat next to her, wrapping her in my arms, "Nessie." She turned into my embrace, and I could see the tears in her eyes. She sobbed into my shirt for a long while as I just rubbed her back and held her.

After a good amount of time though the sobs turned to silent tears. She seemed tired though and just laid her head down on my lap, as I stroked her hair.

"Mom what am I gonna do?" she cried.

"Baby, I'm sorry I don't have all the answers, but this is gonna have to be your decision."

"You aren't supposed to say that!" she whined. "The one time I actually want you to tell me what to do and you tell me I should handle it on my own."

"Sorry sweetie, but this isn't up to me. You just have to decide, do you want to give him a chance or not." I was absolutely clueless as to what we should do at the moment and her decision would decide which way we would go.

"His face." she whispered so low I wasn't sure I heard her right.

"What sweetheart?"

She sat up and looked me in the eyes and I could see the sudden anger and sadness swimming in them. The rims of her eyes still red as if she was about to cry, whether it was because she was sad or angry, I'll never know.

"His face. His face when Carlisle figured it out. He looked like it was causing him physical pain to know he was my father." I could hear her temper rising as she spoke more. "And he left me in the first place, so obviously he doesn't want a daughter! So why should I even bother trying! God why did Carlisle have to be smart?! Why couldn't he have just left us all happy in our ignorance! I could have gotten to know him, with no strings attached! But now... God we should have never come here! He hates me!" she was fuming by the end.

"Sweetie," I whispered to her, placing my hand on her face, "Listen to me. You know he didn't know about you. And let me make this clear to you, no matter what I will ever say about your father, or what idiotic thing he may do, if he had known about you at all, I swear he would have been there for every second."

"You don't know that..." she trailed off looking at the ground.

"Yes I do." I said adamantly.

I had to believe that if he had known he would have stayed, but I wasn't about to tie him down to me, when I knew he didn't love me anymore. I wouldn't have been able to handle seeing him everyday knowing. I wasn't strong enough back then. And if he had left....it would have destroyed me all over again and that time it would have taken Nessie down too. I wasn't about to risk her happiness.

It's not like I knew where he was or had anyway of finding him anyway.

He had made sure of that.

"And the face he made inside had nothing to do with him not wanting you. I mean how could he not want you!" She was still looking at the ground so I grabbed her face and made her look at me, locking her eyes with mine so she could see what I was saying was true. "Listen, you are amazing, and wonderful and I know that if Edward gets to know you he will love everything about you. That face was simply complete and total shock and guilt."

She raised her eyebrow at me curiously. "Guilt?"

"Yes guilt, everything they are all feeling is shock because of the bomb that was just dropped in there and because they all fell guilty that I died because of their presence in my life. But they will get over it soon. I just wish they didn't have to feel that way." I frowned. Their guilt was making me feel guilty.

"Mom, seriously? They don't feel guilty. They are sad because they think you died! Because even if they left they had to have cared about you. I mean they told you their secret! That's huge!" I couldn't argue with that. I mean why if they never cared would they have told me they biggest secret in their lives?

"So even if they do feel guilty, I know they are probably devastated. Especially Edward. At some point he loved you, even if he did leave. Never forget that." She told me trying to make me believe the words she was saying.

"Alright I'll admit that maybe that is a part of it, a veeery tiny part. But the majority of it is guilt." I said stubbornly. "But that's not the point of this, the point is that you should give Edward a chance. Now that he knows I am sure that he wants to know you. But if you want to leave Forks and just leave all of this drama, then we can be out of here my sun down." I really didn't want to leave, but I would do anything for her.

"You would leave? Just like that?" She asked looking up at me from behind her eyelashes. Her one hand was wrapped securely around her knees while the other was digging through the dirt next to her and skipping the pebbles she found across the water.

"Just like that." I promised.

"Okay, well I really don't I want to leave, but I'm just freaking out about this whole thing! I don't know what to do Mom! I need help." She begged.

I heard the sound of running footsteps far in the distance and immediately went rigid in my seat.

"Someone's coming." I whispered to her as low as possible so that whoever was getting closer and closer by the second wouldn't be able to hear. She sat up and stared down the river, both of us waiting to see which vampire would be stepping out of the forest towards us.

Probably just Alice coming to see how Nessie was doing. I couldn't even answer that question myself, besides saying confused.

The stranger came to a sudden stop just out of the trees and walked slowly, almost cautiously, towards the river bank where we sat.

"Can I talk to you?" he asked Nessie quietly, with his hands deep in his pockets as if searching for something that would somehow make this situation less awkward.

Something was different about him, even if I had just seen him moments ago inside the house. He wasn't the same zombie he was before. Sure his eyes were still swirling with pain and guilt, but they were alive again. He was alive again. Maybe not completely, but he was there.

And he was gorgeous.

The new emotions showing through his eyes, even if it was mostly pain, had made all of his features seem more animated, and more....alive. It was really the only word I could come up with to describe his new transformation and I was praying to God that he would stay this way. Although any plans of revenge I had from before would be very difficult to execute now that he was looking more like the man I fell in love with. I was positive that the moment one of his dazzling crooked smiles crossed his features, even if for a second, my knees would give out and I would be a reduced to a pathetic pile of teenage girl squeals on the floor. I continued to appraise his face. His skin was slightly glowing now that we were outside, and I knew if a stray ray of sunshine made it through the clouds and trees I would be done for. His hair also seemed brighter, shinng in the dim light as the wind blew through it, making the ligh seem to dance throughout it.

He was dazzling me all over again.

"Su-sure." Nessie stuttered out nervously, staring down at the ground. This brought me out of my obssessive ogling. I looked a her, surprised at what I assumed was her decision. She looked a me and gave me a sheepish smile and a shrug of her shoulders. She took my hand suddenly and show me a picture of Edward from earlier, to the Edward standing here now.

He seems like hes changed,and I don't know why, but seeing this new Edward standing here...it's giving me a good feeling. I can't really explain it. So I've decided to hear him out first, before deciding anything.

I looked at her an gave her hand a tight squeeze. "I'll be back at he house if you need me okay?" I reassured her.

"Alright, thanks Iz." she smiled and I gave her a tight hug. I turned, and of course with the whole problem of God hating me, I locked eyes with him.

I gave him a small smile, hoping to God that he was going to do right by our daughter.

Although God hated me these days, so I didn't know what would happen.

After swimming in his eyes for as brief a moment as possible without being creepy, I ripped my eyes from his and soared my way through the tress and back towards the house.

If he hurt her.....I growled to myself.

Well he was going to have to go on a little trip to Canada. Because if he hurts her in any way he'll need to go find his ass after I kick it all the way across the border. I hope an animal finds it first though and uses it as a chew toy.

Preferably a wolf.

I laughed out loud at the image in my head. A large russet brown wolf chewing on Edward's, insanely perfect, ass. I don't think Jake would object. In fact he would gladly jump at the chance.

Thinking of Jake made me realize that I needed to visit my friend and soon. Well as soon as all of this drama settles a bit. But no matter what it will be soon.

I stepped through the back door and made my way to the living room where I could hear them all talking.

"How could he?"Alice said angrily.

"I don't know, he's a complete idiot." Rose muttered. Ah, so they were talking about Edward, I smiled to myself.

"I just can't believe she's gone." Emmett said and I could hear the sadness in his words. Ah, so they were talking about Edward and me, I frowned. I didn't need a painful recap.

"I know," Alice mumbled, "and now she'll never know he lied."

Lied? What the hell were they talking about? I turned the corner to see only four vampires sitting there and wondered where Esme and Carlisle went.

I focused for a moment and then heard soft sobs from upstairs and realized Esme had probably wanted to be alone. Not that that applied to Carlisle. My heart did a soft tug knowing that I could relieve her pain in two words, but I couldn't dwell on that now. I needed to hear more about this lie.

Everyone turned to me when I walked in the room.

"How is she?" "Are they talking?" Alice and Rosalie asked at once. I almost growled to myself, but stopped when I realized they would no doubt hear it being this close. It seemed the conversation from a moment ago had been forgotten. I will find out what they were talking about though.

"She's better, and yes they are talking now." I reassured them as I sat back down in my seat from earlier. Had it really only been minutes before?

"I'm glad. After you left to check on her, we had a bit of an intervention here." Jasper said, glancing at the chair that Edward had been sitting in.

"Oh really?" I questioned. I was curious as to what happened when I left.

"Yeah. We snapped him out of whatever he was in. I swear for a minute I thought he was in a coma."

"Alice you know that's not possible." Rose laughed.

"I know!" she exclaimed, "That's how bad it was."

Rose nodded, "True."

"So once you had his attention?" I questioned. I was more interested in something that would give me some indication as to what was happening down by the river bank.

"Well hen we smacked some sense into him of course!" Emmett stated. "That's how we got him out of it you know?"

"What do you mean?"

"I slapped him." Emmett said proudly.

"You didn't!" I said shocked and yet a smile was creeping to my face at the ides of him slapping Edward.

"I did." he smiled. "We were yelling at him, and shook him a bit, and when that didn't work my crazy sister here," he said smiling and pointing towards Alice, "suggested that he was catatonic or something and that maybe we should slap him." he paused to put his hand up and Alice joined him in an air-five.

"Crazy Emmett," Rose said, still wrapped up in his arms, "didn't feel the need to wait and see if that was a smart idea and just went for it."

"Yep, he girl slapped him right across the face, and hard too." Jasper piped in.

"It was not a girl slap, first of all, and it's a good thing I did too otherwise he'd still be sitting here feeling guilty and depressed and not outside trying to make it right with his daughter." Emmett said and suck a tongue out at Jasper.

"My hero." Rose whispered giving Em a kiss on the cheek.

"Wait, he's outside making it right with her?" I exclaimed.

"Of course." Alice said giving me a weird look as if I had just asked her the most idiotic question ever, like 'Are you a loser if you are over 10 and wear Crocs?' Actually they were all giving me that look. "My brother made a mistake a long time ago and he intends to do the right thing. And of course once we snapped him out of his trance, it really registered to him that he had a daughter, and I can't really explain it but something just, changed in him." she mumbled the end.

"I noticed." I said nodding. I mean how could you not?

She nodded and continued. "Yes well once it really sank in he was almost immediately out the door to find her. He wants to know his daughter. And we want to know our niece."

I felt myself tearing up at her words. He wanted to know her. He wanted to do right by her. And so did they.

She would have a father, and a family that would come to love her.

I was so ecstatic at this news I could have been flying. I felt my tears silently flow over and fall down my cheeks as I contemplated how different, and how wonderful Nessie's life could be.

I heard gasps in the room and looked up quickly, expecting to find that something went wrong and in fact none of what I imagined for my daughter was going to happen.

But everyone was just staring at me, eyes wide.

"How are you crying?" Jasper asked.

Oh that. I let the relief wash over me. "I'm not really sure, it's just something I do." I smiled through the tears. "Me and Nessie have guessed that its because I can change my appearance and make myself look human, but we aren't exactly sure."

"You Masen girls are a strange breed." Emmett said shaking his head.

"You go that right." Jasper agreed and both of the girls nodded enthusiastically.

"Hey! Does everyone hear think we are freaks?" I exclaimed as I chuckled.

"Yep!" "Hell yes!" "Mmm hmmm." "Prety much." They all said at once, and we all started laughing.

This was without a doubt the most laughing I had done in one day in years and I had to admit, I didn't hate it.

I heard the sliding glass door open and footsteps entering the house.

"Theeeey're baaaaaaack." Emmett mumbled extra quietly.

We all tried to stifle our giggles but we knew they could hear us. I was sure that no one in the room could tell by the way I was acting at the moment but my nerves were off the charts. I couldn't exacly tap my fingers or seem shaky without the rest of the room noticing, so I had resorted to wiggling my toes around inside my shoes. And just thinking about how ridiculous that sounded had me even more nervous and paranoid, but this time it was because I was questioning my mental health. Didn't I hear about a couple vampires going crazy or rogue over time? I'll have to keep a mental note and keep an eye out for that. Although it's not like I will institutionalize myself, so maybe I'll let Nessie in on my secret insanity. Although as we established a few moments ago that it seemed everyone already knew.

I looked up and saw Nessie rounding the corner with her father in tow, and I was shocked. Nothing about her was out of the ordinary, just out of the ordinary for this particular situation. She had a big smile spread across her face and was giggling to herself about something, as was said father. She looked up at me and her smile grew infitessimally as if to tell me not to worry. If she only knew that as soon as I saw her smile the nerves had ran from my body, and now the only thing inhabiting my body was curiosiy, with a smidgen of sheer bliss.

She walked over to me and placed her hand in mine.

I'll show you the entire thing as soon as we are in the car. I promise.

Even In her mind she couldn't lie to me, i couls always tell. Something which she found incredibly annoying, but I knew that what she was telling me was true so i let it drop for now.

Everyone looked to them waiting for some kind of indication of what the hell just happened outside. Nessie stepped up and placed a hand on edward's shoulder.

"Guy's could you all stop gawlking? He's my dad, he's not gonna eat me." she smiled and Edward beamed down at her, no doubt from her use of the word dad. Which I was even slightly surprised by. Immediately the tension in the room melted away, which was of course Nessie's intension. She had a nack for making everyone in a room feel comfortable.

"Welcome to the family Nessie!" Esme beamed running up to give her a bone crushing hug. Which was followed by a round of hugs from the whole family. They made a kind of unofficial line and hugged Nessie, Edward and even me saying that this made me their sister by default. I was now officially a member of the Cullen family and they didn't have a clue as to who I really was. As if there wasn't enough hugging going on already Nessie ran over to me and crushed me into a hug.

I'm so deliriously happy you don't even know. She whispered to me in her head.

I couldn't help but smile and smile and smile. Things were just working out perfectly for her which of course made me even happier than deliriously happy. And yet, always with the fucking yet again, I had a strange sense that after everything was perfect, something always goes wrong. I mean if your the happiest you can be then the only way to go is down. And this scared me. I wasn't scared for me though, I've been through hell and back and made it out still standing so I was prepared for anything the world could throw at me. I was scared for sweet, never really knew true excrutiating pain, Nessie. Would she be as tough as i knew she could be if life threw her a curve ball? Who am i kidding shes my daughter. She'd end up grand slamming it out of the park and into the next. My reassuring wasn't making the feeling in my gut go away though. I tried to shove all the negative thoughts out of my mind and just enjoy the happy that surrounded me and I squeezed my
daughter even tighter.

She let go of me just as Esme let go of her son. He turned his body to see the who the next person in the hugfest was and after we both looked at each other we froze.

Okay think fast, I could either hug him right now and not let him see how awkward this is for me, because in his eyes why would this even be awkward? Or I could just keep staring at him like an idiot and see where it gets me. Yeah that sounded stupid as I thought it too.

I took in a deep breath and walked toward him opening my arms. He seemed surprised for a quick moment and then opened his arms to me like he had to the rest of his family. I should have been prepared for what would happen once he was surrounding me though.

Stupid, stupid Bella.

I could feel him everywhere and it was as if it was only the two of us in the room. His scent was swirling around me as I inhaled deeply, shoving my face against his chest trying to save that perfect smell somehow in my head. Or to file it away for my next Bella pity party. I was trying to somehow notify my brAin that I needed to let go, but as I was trying anf failing to do this I felt his arms tighten even more around me and all chance of fighting it was gone. I let myself melt into him. My hands traced the contours of his back as I tried to remember what I could of him without looking like I was groping him. My hands traced his strong shoulders, his tight muscles, and made there way all the way xown to his lower back where they lingered as i mentally debated with myself on whether ir not as grabbing was necessarily considered groping.

I felt his hands start to slide up and down my back slowly and I shivered, I quickly surrenedered my inner debate and concentrated solely on his large soft hands. It was only a hug and I was already coming undone from his touch. His hands made their way up into my hair and his fingers laced through it. Somehow pulling me even tighter to him. I felt his face press down onto the top of my head and I would have swarn on my life I heard him sniff my hair, causing the shivers to go into double time.

I was inches, no centimeters away from jumping up and wrapping my arms and legs around his tall, muscular,delicous, mouthwatering body, when I heard someone clear their throat. Poor unfortunate soul, I would now be forced to rip out their throat because Edward pulled himself away suddenly and my hands dropped to my side. We both stared at each other and then quickly looks away and I walked over to stand by Nessie twirling a strand if hair around my finger. The whole room was quiet as they stared at Edward and I.

Awkward.

All my brain was focusing on though was Edward. His eyes, his hair, his smell, his touch. Just Edward.

"Yes, so, I don't know if you two would want to, but with the circumstances how they are you both are more than welcome to stay here instead of at Chief Swan's." Carlisle asked us, breaking the silence, but there was still that awkwardness lingering in the air.

"That is incredibly kind of you, really, but we wouldn't want any more attention brought onto your family,"

"Our family." Esme chimed in.

"Right our family." I nodded. "Besides I think Charlie likes having us there. He seemed awfully excited about it last night and this morning. I don't think he likes being alone very much." I muttered feeling guilty. "So for now I think it's best we just stay there." I looked at Nessie for confirmation of this. I mean I really didn't know if she wanted to stay and get to know them. I couldn't deny the relief I felt when she nodded back at me. "And of course we will come over whenever possible, and see you in school everyday, so you won't be missing us at all." I tried to reassure them when I saw a few of them frown at the news.

"Yeah there's no chance you could get rid of me this soon. I haven't even drove any of you crazy yet? Now how would that look on my reputation. We are family, so you are stuck with the both of us!" They all smiled at her, it was hard not to.

"Speaking of Charlie, we better be heading back now." I said looking at Nessie and she frowned. "Don't worry silly. You said it yourself, we're family now, and we can see them all tomorrow. Besides if I don't get you home now, by the time you calm down there will be no time for you to get any sleep before school."

"Ugh. Fiiiine, god do you have to always act like such a mom!" she grumbled and I snorted at her joke.

"You sleep?" Carlisle asked her.

"Yepp," she said with a pop,"a solid 6 hours a night."

"Fascinating." He murmered lost in thought.

"Alright well we will see you all tomorrow at school and we will most likely be here tomorrow night to see you and Carlisle." I said reassuring Esme. I hated seeing a frown on her face.

I began walking toward the door with Nessie close behind me. They all started shouting their 'goodbyes' and 'see ya tomorrows' behind us.

"Bye everyone!" Nessie smiled enthusiastically and waved to eveyone. "Bye Edward." she smiled sweetly at him.

"Night Nessie, sweet dreams." he beamed back.

"Bye guys!" I waved and reached for the doorknob.

"Oh Izzy wait!" Alice called from behind me.

"Yeah?" I looked at her curiously.

"You never told us," she paused and pointed at my arm, "what does your tattoo mean?" she said staring at the dark black writing on my arm. I looked up at Edward who was standing to the side of the room, looking dazzling as ever. My mind raced back in time to my delusion the day Nessie was born, and of our past that he didn't even know existed. As soon as he noticed my staring he looked straight into my eyes, his soul staring back at me from a dark smoldering butterscotch.

"Enough for forever." My eyes were still locked with Edward's and I saw something change in his face, but before I could identify this new emotion Nessie had taken hold of my arm and was pulling me out the door as she waved back towards her new family.

Our new family.


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