AN: Chapter eight

AN: Chapter eight. Ok. So if you are reading this, then the damn lap technicians did not let me load the story onto my home computer, however! Its no biggie, I restored the story the best I could and wrote what I could remember, and I can say that this is better than the original :D. Do enjoy… and you better, took me forever to do this. HAHA just kidding. No but really… haha enjoy. :D

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse or… Breaking Dawn! I do not own any of the characters mentioned in the books nor do I own any of the occurrences or names. So… I own nothing. :)

Chapter Eight

Hysteria

Part One

We stayed in each others arms, both of us content with ourselves.

I felt at peace, in bliss. As if I'd found my own nirvana within my love, and I was sure Edward felt the same. It was unconceivable how two people –or beings- could be in so much love like us.

I clung to him as he rolled to the side, his breath rugged and husky. I blushed internally at the way his uneven breaths made me shiver in pleasure. It made my heart flutter to hear his angelic moans escape from his lips, and I'm certain it would be going a mile a minute right now if it were still beating.

It was then that I thought of the very first time we… consummated; I nearly laughed at my own choice of words, causing a smile to reveal itself on my lips.

It was that night, the first night as Mr. & Mrs. Edward Masen Cullen, that I saw my real husband. I stifled the giggle that threatened to show itself.

That night, Edward was just as much of a nervous wreck as I was: He fumbled with the buttons on my shirt, tripped over his own pants looking more flustered than I ever thought possible.

It was quite adorable really; I'd never seen him so vulnerable, or innocent for that matter. I suppose the thought alone of it being no boundary test, it being the real deal; scared him a little showing the, still a virgin, seventeen year-old Edward.

I clamped my lips tight, straining to keep the smile from getting wider. Edward scrutinized my expression, his eyes tight with curiosity.

I dropped my gaze but ultimately found myself staring back into his captivating eyes again, when I remembered something about that night.

I could remember it like it was yesterday.

My pulse was spinning out of control.

My face felt all hot and sticky causing a fresh new blush to creep up onto my cheeks. My hands quivered in exhilaration.

I drew in a shaky breath, not sure if Edward were as clueless as I was.

His cool lips lingered near my neck, caressing the tension in my muscles. I was immediately overcome with an unreasonable amount of fear; I was utterly clueless about this and practically relying entirely on instinct, on feeling.

His hands moved toward my bra.

My face burned with mortification. My mind went blank, only floating in the thick haze of desire. His hands stopped.

He lifted his face from my neck and gazed into my eyes, the mortification slipping away ever so slightly.

It was that very moment that I knew.

We are meant to be and nothing can get in the way of that.

After that moment, we both relaxed and gave in to our desires, just concentrating on us. It was the most beautiful night of my life; every time was and is beautiful.

Thinking back to that memory, I couldn't help but get the sense I was blushing again.

Bringing myself back to the present, I sighed in content. We both remained silent in each others embrace; there were no need for words.

Laying here, in Edwards arms, our bodies bare against each other completely at ease, my hatred for Tanya seemed completely unreasonable.

I was sure my hostility towards her was justified, but being within the comforting embrace of Edwards arms, I felt like the immoral one. I knew that if she really wanted to come between us, she wouldn't have left with her coven when Edward and I arrived. Surely this was only the newborn in me taking over.

Although, as Kate had said before, 'Tanya was putting it on a little thick', a little too thick I might add, but that was no reason for me to act so… feral.

As the Vampire I am, Edward would be considered my mate. Perhaps the newborn inside me is the one being overly territorial.

Truth be told, Tanya is gorgeous, nonetheless Rosalie obviously has her beat by far. So why am I jealous now? It has to be the Vampire in me; it is the only possible explanation other than the blatant notion that Tanya is just someone you're meant to hate. Even so, there was only one question tugging at the back of my mind; more than the others. Why isn't that Vampire out now?

Edward's sudden inadvertent sigh brought me out of my thoughts, bringing me back to the present, "What are you thinking about Bella?" I smirked instantly; he'd been fighting this question the whole time.

I paused for a moment, thinking about trying to lie about it, but immediately gave up on the idea. I might as well tell him, he'd find out eventually.

Avoiding his gaze, I shrugged, "Just how inexcusably unruly I was acting earlier. After everything they'd done for us…" -I hesitated to say it, and mumbled the rest- "I was acting like a monster." I waited for the grim response and the regret filled expression but I was surprised when I heard him chuckle, feeling the vibrations from it.

"Good." He abruptly stated, smiling crookedly, "They deserve the indignation, the ire." I narrowed my eyes at him, making his grin widen.

"You're supposed to make me feel better, not encourage this." I added bitterly, my throat flaring. Although I didn't want to admit it, part of me cherished the fact he approved, and it seemed like he knew as his expression turned almost smug, his hand absentmindedly stroking my hair.

"Well it's not my fault that you can't handle the truth." He replied matter-of-factly, grinning crookedly once again as my eyes narrowed, "But I do wonder, how was I not making you feel better? Is it an itch words can't scratch...?" I felt my mouth drop a little as his hand trailed from my arm to my neck. His question trailing off suggestively.

I gave him a reprimanding gaze. This was the last thing I expected him to say. Seeming to understand my scalding look, he raised an eyebrow, the amusement in his eyes undeniable. He was too tempting.

He chuckled, hesitating on the words, "…well, that's not what I was referring to…" He dropped his eyes for a moment, his hand lingering near my neck, "…but, okay." He allowed, staring up into my eyes behind his lashes, his fingers brushing along my cheek. His eyes smoldered.

I quickly looked away from his piercing gaze, trying to figure out how the conversation turned so suddenly – but I guess that was my fault or… was it?

He tried to hold my gaze, his smile growing wider every time I couldn't stop my eyes from wandering back to his.

I immediately felt the same strange sensation that my face was a bright scarlet; I scoffed at the very idea. I kept my face down, avoiding his penetrating gaze completely.

What a way to change the subject – it was that moment that my intuition kicked in.

I narrowed my eyes dangerously, "You're sidetracking me." Despite the fact that I am incapable of blushing, I felt like he knew I was anyway.

His eyes remained indifferent. Like a crook caught stealing, he smiled innocently. I bit my lip as I glowered at him, my sharp teeth feeling awkward on my soft skin. Trying desperately not to let his smoldering eyes dazzle me.

I scowled at him for a few minutes. Each time the clock ticked, my expression faltered a little. At long last, he sighed – possibly seeing this would get him nowhere.

"They deserved every bit of hostility you displayed." He assured me, a soft chuckle emitting from his lips, "The things Kate had in mind…" He mused, rolling his eyes, "The gruesome thoughts of Tanya." He immediately shot me a panicked glance as if he'd said too much.

It took me a moment to figure out the emotions that were pouring from me the instant he said her name; animosity the only one I could make out.

"Gruesome?" I questioned; the resentment evident in my voice.

Edward remained indifferent, his voice comforting, "I thought it was gruesome." He admitted. I knew he didn't expect me to react the way I did, I knew I didn't. At once I felt my hand bunch into a fist, quivering where it laid, a low hiss escaping my lips.

Of course Tanya was thinking these things. Edward was the first one to decline to her affections, and like the siren she is, she wants what she wants and nothing is going to stop her until she gets it. She wants Edward for herself, completely disregarding the fact that I am bound to him for all eternity.

My eyes narrowed dangerously, snarling her name in my mind. 'Tanya…' I thought viciously. She could never have him, he is mine.

Before I could even utter her name, the door to our room burst open, broken off its hinges; it flew forward to reveal a disgruntled snarling Tanya. I froze in my place, my eyes widened in shock as I watched Tanya bare her teeth, growls erupting from the back of her throat.

My muscles tightened instinctively, but the shock was too great to be thwarted by self-preservation.

"He could never belong to you, he is mine!" She howled, crouching in the doorway, baring her teeth; she kept a reasonable distance from us. Only then did I notice Edward was keeping it that way.

He snarled with clenched teeth. Shifting into a crouch, but still under the covers with me, he matched Tanya's every movement.

I stared with wide eyes, shocked that Tanya looked even more of a Vampire than Edward did, and ever had.

Her eyes were no longer a sweet butterscotch, but a deep onyx black, seeming to pierce me in half with the intensity of their vicious gaze. I trembled.

Although I could hear Edward snarl his warning to stay away, I heard his voice calling my name; it growing louder each second in the distance.

Abruptly, Tanya's outraged features relaxed into a blank expression, her arms dropping at her sides, her growls ceasing. Then miraculously, she vanished into thin air.

I stared wide eyed at the spot Tanya once was. Doubting what I had just witnessed.

I could feel my chest rapidly rising and falling, my arms trembling at my sides. I turned to Edward for comfort, or at least tell me what was going on, but he wasn't there. My eyes widened at this realization, 'What's happening?'

I felt my arms shake with such ferocity; I began to doubt it was me anymore.

I glanced around the room for any answers, and to find where Edward's voice was coming from. Almost immediately the room disappeared into nothingness; I froze in shock and confusion.

Edward's voice echoed through the darkness, calling my name repeatedly, the hysteria evident in his tone.

At last, the darkness cleared to reveal Edward above me, his expression frantic as he shook me, his right hand cupping my cheek.

"Bella? Bella talk to me! Bella?" His hand caressed my cheek, his tone softened as my eyes roamed over his features.

"What happened?" Suddenly aware of a throbbing in my head, I groaned. He stared at me curiously, but somehow relieved I responded.

"I don't exactly know." He answered, sounding as if he were admitting a horrible weakness, "I thought you fainted, but your eyes were still open. For ten minutes you were unresponsive, are you alright?" I nodded.

Letting the pulsing ebb away, I was finally able to take in his features. The bruises under his eyes were a deep purple, his once coral eyes now an onyx black with worry, and it seemed he was even paler.

I closed my eyes for a split second; trying to remember what happened, I immediately saw Tanya's outraged features, heard her snarls, and the words she growled at me before crouching to attack. I shuddered away from the memory.

I shot upright in bed and turned my attention to the door; still attached to the hinges, unscathed. My eyebrows knitted. Was it all a dream?

"Bella…"

'It seemed so vivid'. It couldn't have been a dream, I was still conscious wasn't I? 'Was I?'

This question bothered me more than it should have.

"Bella what's wrong?" Edward questioned loudly, bringing me out of my thoughts. Startled, I jumped; he must've asked me this already.

Using a softer tone, he asked again, "What's wrong Bella? Please tell me." He took my face between his hands as his warm breath blew across my face; my thoughts jumbled. Unthinkingly, I blurted anything I could remember.

"I... saw Tanya. She was angry with me - s-she broke the door and started yelling," I started, feeling like I should be committed to an insane asylum at the way he stared at me.

"I-I don't know if it was real or not," I added quickly, flushing inwardly, "But then she disappeared, and then you. The room too afterwards." I hesitated at the way he stared at me. Of all the emotions that flickered across his face; shock, I could see, was the strongest.

I instantly felt like I should be strapped down to a chair, muttering under my breath about the end of the world and whatnot. I sighed hopelessly.

Edward continued to gaze at me incredulously. Possibly questioning my sanity.

He seemed to be struggling on what to say. His mouth opened slightly, about to ask something, I presumed, when he suddenly turned to the door.

My body froze at the three quick raps on the other side of the door; fearing that it could be a fuming Tanya. Edward swiftly turned to me and held my face inches from his, his velvet soft voice comforting, easing the anxiety.

"It's alight Bella, it's just Alice."

I blinked, my expression blank, "Alice?"

"- Yes, Bella." Alice cut in. The second I heard the door handle jiggle, I jumped coming to my senses. Immediately breaking out of Edwards grasp and trance, I frantically began gathering an unnecessary amount of blankets around me.

"- Wait, Alice don't!" I squeaked. The door stopped short while I continued to gather the blankets around me, feeling unbelievably flustered.

From the corner of my eye, Edward stared at me, bewildered.

"What are you doing?" He asked, taking in my choice of cover.

"What does it look like I'm doing!" I hissed under my breath, tucking the corner of the blanket in the front, making sure it was stable enough so I could move toward the dresser without it falling. Comprehension filled his expression and I could see he was making an effort not to laugh.

"She's not going to wait that long." As if to prove his point, I heard a high musical voice start to complain, and the creak of the door opening wider.

"Come on Bella... It's not like I haven't seen you before." I rolled my eyes, feeling more embarrassed than anybody should in a lifetime.

Ignoring both of them, I held firmly onto the blankets around me, and bolted around the room.

I grabbed anything that touched my hand first and dashed into the bathroom before Alice could even open the door a centimeter wider.

Of course, too reckless in my haste, I tripped on my own feet through the bathroom doorway, but held onto the sink before I could fall; leaving a jagged outline of my hand in the marble with cracks running through it in all different directions.

"Careful Bella, all of this isn't exactly ours." Though her tone sounded like she was joking, it sounded like she meant it. She was suddenly behind me as she helped me up from my awkward position. I smiled sheepishly, making sure my gown of blankets were still wound around me.

I glanced at the mirror as Edward popped up fully clothed in his dark teal button up shirt and blue jeans behind her; his hair messier than usual; a look of concern filled his exquisite features.

The moment Alice grabbed my arm, a pair of dull red eyes glared feverishly back into my own. I gasped and jerked away from her grasp. My breath sounded ragged as I tried to bring it under control.

I could hear nothing but my own intake of breath. My head swirled, feeling light-headed. I steadied myself, leaning against the marble counter in an effort to level out the world.

I instantly became aware of the arms that were holding me; I didn't have to guess at who it was. I naturally expected to hear his voice, but I heard nothing.

"I'll get Carlisle. Wait here and calm her down, I'll return with Jasper also." I heard Alice say before I fell limply into his arms, blacking out.

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AN: Ok chapter eight. Whew… I'm sorry if this seemed rushed but I needed to update. Some things have happened and I just lost track of time… ughhh.

I will apologize later I swear but to make you happier this will be cut up in pieces… so you still get the huge chapter just in pieces. I hope to update on this soon, and my new story I just posted 'Breathe Today'. It's on my profile so you should check it out.

I swear I will post thank you's when the whole hysteria chapter is over… I just wanted to post something for you guys…

Thank you so much for waiting and yeah… I really don't expect any forgiveness so go ahead and vent… I just need time to breathe. Hahaha

Until next time…. (SIGH)

BTW!! BREAKING DAWN WAS AWESOME!

But I'm not gonna lie… the beginning part kinda scared me. hahaha

Amanda out-

(Misery666 out-)