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As I pushed my door open I fell to the floor..

Not even Caring enough to close it behind me. Why would it matter? Nothing could Kill me, No intruder to scary.. to strong. I was cursed to live in my own personal Hell rather than dieing like I should have. I should have died that day.... Why did this happen to me? All the time I spent wishing for this life, But What is life without him? How did i Go for 100 years without him? I always knew that I was missing something, But not being able to put my finger on what. The Quote 'I would Miss you even If I never met you' Came to mind.

As I lie on this floor.. As I lay In my own Hell all that came to my mind was why? Why was I not good enough for him? I was stupid to think I was ever good enough for him.... Even now, Now that I was beautiful and perfect in every physical way I was still nothing to him. The way his Eyes were locked on that 'Kaylee' girl.. The way he kissed her It was like I never mattered to him at all.

A sudden rush of anger rushed over me... Followed by continued sadness.

After I let my thoughts drift.. Drift to all the happy times I had with him, It was as if.. Even being blessed with the memory's was more than I deserved.

I glanced up at the clock, How was It already seven thirty?

As I stood, I looked down at myself.

Seeing that I was Beautiful. And if Edward Couldn't see it now.. Well then I was going to show him.

I quickly shut the door after it had still been open all night. I rushed up the stairs. Looking through My closet.. Damn... Were was my fashion sense? Oh wait.. Alice was right down the road only a few blocks... No Stop it Bella.. Shes not Your best friend anymore. I had to settle with a pair of dark skinny jeans, with a Nice form fitting Dark blue Blouse. I knew it was Edward's favorite color on me.. Hmm.. This could work. I thought to myself as a small smile came to my lips, I put on come Eyeliner and Mascara as I picked up a pair or black pumps to pull it all together. This look may be out of the ordinary for me but.. desperate times call for desperate measures. Even if he didn't want me, I think that I should still get to show him what hes missing right? If I'm going to suffer I might as well put on a happy face and get it over with. Eternity wasn't that long right?

I glanced at myself in the mirror of my car as I sat in the parking lot of Forks High school Practicing my very best fake smile.


As I took a step into the Lunch room I saw the mouths of my male classmates Drop, I Grinned feeling a slight ego boost until I looked at their, He wasn't even dazed by me? He was still looking at her... Not me.. I sighed as I walked to the table taking a seat next to Alice still shocked that He really still held no interest in me.. I noticed Jasper looking at me and suddenly i realized that I had no reason to be sad. I was Bella The memoryless Vampire. So I changed my entire expression.

"Oh My Bella You look Lovely" Alice said she took a good glance at my outfit, Having almost a Proud look?

I put my hand on her arm with a sweet smile "Thanks Alice, I just felt like getting a little dressed up today." I lied perfectly, And Edward told me I was a bad actress.. Pfft.

I stayed out of the conversation for today, Not wanting to be rude, Or say anything that might clue them in on my memory's.

"Well I think That I'm going to Head home early today you guys" I said as I rose from my seat "I think I Might take a Shopping trip alone tonight." I said, Another smooth lie. Maybe this would be easier than I thought.

Before they could respond I was walking out the door, until Someone caught my elbow by there hand. A warm touch.. A human? I looked up and took in a sharp breath. "Uhm... Hello There Nick" I said as I looked into the eyes of the human standing before me, Touching my cold elbow. I pulled it away afraid of him noticing but by the looks of it he was completely unaware of the unnaturally cool skin he had just been holding.

"Isabella?" He said In a Shaky voice, He was nervous? Why?
"Yes?" I said in a sweet tone, Just trying to make him.. less nervous?

"Well.. Uh.. I was wondering.. If you wanted to... Uh Maybe see a Movie tonight?" He said still looking at his shoes.

Just as I was about to turn him down I realized that... Maybe It could work.. I could make Him Jealous?

So I lifted his chin gently, Smiling warmly "Please Call Me Bella.. And I would love to, Pick me up at eight?" I said as I leaned in giving his cheek a light peck. He was stunned, The blush on his cheeks could have melted ice.

As I walked out the door I glanced at the table seeing all five of their faces In shock, I smirked and walked.. Well ran to my car.

And when I got into the safety of my own car... I let the sobs rip from my chest again... I Couldn't do this... I was His... but he was hers.. Maybe I was meant to live Alone?

As I was about to pull away I heard a Knock on the glass of my passenger door "Bella?" A smooth voice said.

Jasper..... I knew he would know something was up.. Maybe I could trick him.....

Ok.. Well I don't really know how much i like this chapter.. But I think It will make for a better story to throw this in.

Don't Freak.. Edward and Bella will work things out eventuality, It will just take time (:

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