AN: So at first, I totally had a plan for this chapter and as I was writing my brain decided to completely steer me in the wrong direction! lol I love you all so much, I can't tell you how cool it is to know that not only are you reading my story but that you actually enjoy it! Thank you for the reviews!! I hope everyone's finals went well and got the grades they wanted!
Disclaimer: Twilight and all of its glory belongs to Stephanie Meyer
BPOV
I knew it couldn't real but it sure felt like it. As I was lying there immobile, a dream like state enveloped me. I knew it wasn't real of course, because it was centered on Edward. He was there in the hospital room holding my hand, murmuring to who I concluded was Carlisle. I couldn't understand what he was saying. Every few minutes I would hear Carlisle mutter something about me being fine. I was mad at myself, because now even my fantasy's of Edward contained turmoil. I did not like that.
I could feel that I was regaining feeling in my limbs and somehow I knew if I wanted to I could open my eyes. I was delaying it however, due to the fact that it would be the end of my uneventful Edward fantasy. But as I regained my senses slowly I realized how real this really felt. I could almost swear his hand was really in mine. There were muffled whispers; it was neither Carlisle nor Edward this time. I would recognize that pixie's voice anywhere, even if it was a dull whisper. It still had a ring to it.
"It's time Edward, we have to leave," she said. Even in a whisper I could sense a hint of sadness. Even in my dreams they left me…
As my eyes fluttered open the light in my eyes was so bright it almost burned. A nurse was fixing my I.V. when she noticed me.
"O you're awake. How are you feeling honey?"
"I'm ok," I said. My throat felt hoarse, she could tell because she walked over to the pitcher and poured me a glass of water.
"Here you go."
"Thank you," I said.
"The doctor should be in soon to check on you, I'm your nurse, Nancy. Just buzz me if you need anything." With that she smiled and left the room.
"As I laid there staring at the ceiling I realized how incredible white it was. I couldn't help but compare it to my equally white missing family. It appeared cold but if you looked closely you could see tiny sparkles in the paint. It was serene and beautiful. I thought about my dream, how incredibly real it had seemed. That's when I noticed a vase full of freesia's sitting on the table they were fastened in a crystal vase with a white satin bow. The smell was familiar, and then I remembered why. The nostalgia of our meadow filled the hospital room and it was excruciating and calming all at once. Where had they come from? Did the hospital give complementary flowers to all of their patience's? Maybe Suzie had brought them. My thoughts were interrupted by the doctor.
"Good morning Isabella, I'm Doctor Flanagan. As you may have guessed you fainted. After you regained consciousness you fainted once more it wasn't until after you did not regain consciousness the second time that we realized that you suffered a concussion from the first fall. We ran some test and you're completely healthy but you need to rest for a while, I can write you a doctor's note for you classes if you would like."
"No," I said, "I'm taking online classes so I'll be ok, but thank you."
"Well your friend, um…Susan, was her name? She said that she would be here to pick you up at three, I just phoned her. You may leave if you feel well enough, it's up to you."
"I think I will be alright, thank you doctor." As he smiled and prepared to exit the room I blurted out, "WAIT," without even thinking.
"Yes, Miss Swan?"
I didn't really know a roundabout way to ask it so I just came right out and said it. "Is there doctor here by the name of Carlisle Cullen?"
I waited for what seemed like an eternity before he answered me, in all actuality it was probably only a few seconds.
"No, miss, I don't believe we do." He was lying, he had to be.
"Are you positive," it almost sounded like a plea.
"Miss Swan I've worked here for 3 years now and that name holds no significance for me, I'm sorry." With that he left.
I wanted to die…
Carlisle POV
Richard walked out of her room. I didn't like asking him to deceive Bella for me but I knew it was for the best; well at least it was what Edward wanted.
"Alright Carlisle, are you going to tell me why I just had to lie to a recovering patient?"
"First off, thank you Richard, I cannot express to you how sorry I am that I had to ask you to do that." Richard was an honest man I hated asking him to do anything that was less than honorable.
"It's, very complicated. I just ask you to trust me in the fact that it's necessary."
"You're a great doctor, Carlisle, and an even better man. So, I believe you if you say that it was a must."
On my ride home I couldn't help but wish that Richard had refused to lie for me. I missed Bella and so did the rest of the family. I hated seeing Edward so unhappy. It was, in all honesty, tearing my family up. Esme had lost a daughter and Alice a sister. Jasper felt responsible and so did Rose, for being less than kind all the time. Even Emmet wasn't his cheery self. And Edward…my son. It was becoming a constant thought of worry about him. I wished that I could take away the pain that consumed him. With all of my years of living and all of my years of schooling I couldn't formulate a solution to fix the angst in my family.
They were all in the living room when I got home. Edward was pacing.
She's fine Edward, she'll be fine.
He stopped and nodded at me in understanding and finally sat. We all waited in silence and finally Edward spoke. I looked at Alice who was very impatiently sitting Indian style on the couch, bouncing up and down. I could tell she was using all her might from bursting out with what she saw. I knew she knew.
"I can't do this anymore. I can't stay away from her."
"O thank god," Alice let out a sigh of air as if she had been holding her breath, "I was starting to think I would have to drag you into her dorm room. You've decided to tell her Edward, I've already seen it."
"What about that stupid mutt who's got his claws in your girl," Emmett grunted.
I winced. "All I can do is fight for her, go back, and tell her the truth. If she doesn't want me then that's a different story, but I have to try."
EPOV
I had to try; I couldn't handle it anymore, not since I had seen her. Even unconscious she was the most beautiful creature I had ever seen in my life. I couldn't help it; I reached out and took her hand in mine. I had brought her freesia's they weren't from, "our," meadow but they were a nice resemblance. Alice had assured me that it wouldn't hurt anything. I knew I only had minutes to spend with her but those minutes were all it took to for me to decide. I watched her eyes flutter under their beautiful lids and I knew she was dreaming but, about what I had no idea. I yearned to know what she was feeling, if she was in pain.
"Edward, it's time," Alice whispered.
I kissed her hand and reluctantly pulled my hand from hers, for I knew that she would soon open her beautiful brown eyes and I could not be there to see that happen. But as I pulled my hand from hers she let out the faintest whisper. This whisper had confirmed my decision. It was barely audible even for vampire hearing but I could have picked it out in a crowd of thousands screaming.
"Edward…"
My name, from my angel's lips. It was the first real moment of happiness I had felt in a long time. She was dreaming about me. After that I could barely pry myself from her side, Alice nearly had to drag me. I knew what I was going to do I just had to get the nerve to do it. Bella would be going home for Thanksgiving in the next few weeks and I would be there waiting…there was just one thing left to do.
I got my phone out and skimmed through till I found the entry I desired. I pushed the green button on my phone and prepared myself for what I would say to….
Jacob Black
