I want to say thank you to everyone who has reviewed the last chapter! You don't know how much each one means to me.

Secondly, I bet you all can't believe this! I have updated again! :o I guess I just couldn't leave the story where it was. I just had to write more.

Lastly, this is a very short chapter. I think it is the shortest yet. Sorry, but this more of a filler chapter. Okay, read on! :)

Chapter 8 ~ Stop Crying your heart out

Oasis – Stop Crying Your Heart Out

Cause all of the stars

Have faded away

Just try not worry

You'll see them some day

Take what you need

and be on your way

and stop crying your heart out.

BPOV

He was really gone. He was never coming back. I don't remember much after he left, all I know is that Charlie had found me on the floor when he returned home from fishing. He tried to take me to Carlisle to make sure I was okay, but I kicked and screamed and cried some more, refusing to go. I couldn't go to that house so soon. Everything would remind me of him. It would hurt too much. It still hurts now. A month later. I dipped my hands back into the warm bubbly water in the sink, grabbing another dish to wash. At least you still have Jacob. I thought to myself.

Jacob had came back the next day and refused to leave even though I had screamed and shouted at him. Telling him how much I hated him for ruining what Edward and I could have had. I know it wasn't fair to blame Jacob for this. I just shouted at him, needed to get some of the anger I had built inside of me out. I thought Jacob would leave me then too. Jacob never gave up. He refused to leave and barged past me into the house. As Jacob shut the door I burst into tears. Everything reminded me of him. Even the shutting of the door. Jacob wrapped me into a protective hug until I had cried myself to sleep.

Jacob hardly left me in the past month. For that I was grateful. It was painful enough with Jacob, let alone if I had to face this alone. That thought was unbearable. Jacob had spent most of the first week with me just letting me cry it out. It wasn't until roughly 2 weeks after Edward had left did I realise, Edward and I were never together. So surely it was wrong for me to grieve for something that never was? Jacob was here now. He kept repeatedly telling me how much he loved me. That he would always be here for me. That was something he promised me that Edward never did. He would always be here for me. He wouldn't leave. Not when I needed him.

That was something Edward couldn't do for me. And that's be there when I needed him. He wasn't here now when I needed him so desperately. I know Jake just thinks I am this upset because he is, was, my best friend. Which was part of it. Edward and I had grown up together, I used to see him almost every day and now I was never going to see him again. Yet I had always hoped we would be more. Alice had told me years ago that she was going to plan mine and Edward's wedding. I laughed it off then, not letting on how much I wished that could be true.

That's why I felt so guilty now. I felt guilty first time around as well. When Jacob and I first started dating all I could think of, am I betraying that part of me that craves to be with Edward? At least this time, that part of me doesn't have a choice because Edward isn't here. And every time I looked into Jacobs dark brown eyes all I could see was adoration and love for me. That's when I gave up on being with Edward. I buried that part of me deep inside, refusing to ever let it resurface. I had sat Jacob down a week ago now and we had decided to pick up our relationship where we had left off. Yesterday he had proposed. I accepted.

Things had certainly changed. Charlie doesn't fish as much any more. He used to fish every weekend with Billy and Harry, Jacobs dad and a friend from La Push. Now Charlie stays at home and watches T.V with Billy. I think it may be because he doesn't want to leave Jacob and I home alone. Jacob and Billy practically live here now. Charlie even built a wooden removable ramp to make it easier for Billy to get inside the house. Why he didn't do that years ago I will never know.

There was one change that made the biggest and the saddest impact on my life, I hadn't seen any of Cullen's for a month. Not even Alice. I had text her a lot in the last month but if she replied, it was always a vague yes, no or OK. Which was strange for Alice. She was always one for texting essays and she hated if someone gave a one word answer so why would she give them herself? I had text her last night to tell her that Jacob and I were getting married but she hadn't replied. She always replied. I hadn't heard from Esme and Carlisle either. Which was just as strange as Alice not replying. If Esme and Carlisle hadn't seen me in over a week they would always call and see how I am, or invite me round or even stop by to talk to Charlie and I. Esme and Carlisle were like my second Mom and Dad. And losing them added to the pain too.

It wasn't fair to say that I had moved on and forgotten Edward. That couldn't have been further from the truth. He was always in my thoughts and will forever be in my heart. I'd lie awake at night and think of him. Remembering all the small details. His eyes, his voice, his smell, his hair, his chin, his nose, the way it felt when he would wrap his arms around me, the way his smile made my heart flutter. I couldn't help but compare Jacob to him. I know it wasn't fair to do that. Yet I still did. Every time Jacob would hug me or smile at me I try and pretend he is Edward. I know it is wrong of me but I do wish he was Edward a lot of the time. Until I would scold myself. You should be grateful you have someone. And I am.

It was times like these I wish I was close to my Mom. I normally would talk to Esme about problems that only a motherly figure could help you with. Now I had lost her too. Other girls were lucky to have their Mothers to talk to about problems like these. Get some advise. Yet, it wasn't Renee's fault that we weren't close. It was another fault of my own. After Renee had left Charlie for Phil she asked me to come with her to Jacksonville. But I refused, wanting to stay with Dad after he had been so hurt. I sent her the occasional email but apart from that we no longer talk. I had refused to talk to her over the phone, only seeing her when forced to at family meals. I had told her I could never forgive her for what she did. Until now. Now, I understand. Charlie was her Jacob and Phil was her Edward. She had the chance to be happy with Phil and not just stay with Charlie. I would never get that chance again. I decided I would call Renee soon and tell her about Jacob and I, and also tell her that I understand why she left Charlie and that now I can forgive her. Hopefully some good could come out of Edward leaving.

Warm arms snaked around my waist. Jacob placed his chin on my shoulder. "Hey Bells."

"Hi." I turned my head slightly to look at Jacob. When my eyes met his, he sighed.

"You were think about him weren't you?" Jake said, knowingly.

"No." I denied too quickly.

"You always were a rubbish liar," Jacob chuckled. Then sighed again."But you are crying." I blushed embarrassed at being caught out. Traitor tears! I hissed in my head. Annoyed at myself and my pathetic tears I pulled off the rubber gloves, throwing them back at the sink. "Sorry." I mumbled. Jacob spun me around to face him.

"You have nothing to be sorry for." He whispered as his thumb wiped away the tears. He left his hand on my cheek. My eyes fluttered closed. "I know you are hurting Bella." He wrapped his arms around me and squeezed me to his chest. "I'm not going anywhere. " His whispered low in my ear before he placed his lips on mine. He deepened the kiss slightly before pulling away as I opened my eyes. He smiled and took hold of my hand. "I think that's enough washing up done, how about we go sit with the old men and watch some football?" I nodded and Jacob gave me one more sympathetic smile before pulling me into the living room.

Hope you all don't hate me for Bella and Jacob getting back together.

I want you all to look at the song at the beginning again. I really think out of all the songs this one fits the best.

And also before some of you go and fetch your guns to shot me, Bella is not getting back with Jacob because she isn't hurting any more. Just because she isn't moping like she did in New Moon doesn't mean she isn't hurting.

Thank you for reading :D Please review :)