A/N: AHHHHHH! You were all asking about some lemon chapters but I just put that idea aside after I've finished my last few ideas. And I just realized! I haven't done a lemon in a long freaking time! Not since... chapter 3! THAT WAS FIVE CHAPTERS AGO! Oh my, I'm such a bad author! I hope you haven't given up on me just yet! I have put together a last minute, special and sweet lemony chappy :3 Also, do you even read these things?

Oresama, out.

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Warnings:lemons lemons lemons! Suzaku crying, Lelouch crying, complete sadness and heartbreak, cursing, love.

Suzaku Kururugi woke up like he did every morning. In his room, on a lonely bed, at 6:30 am. His alarm was buzzing on his dresser. One long arm shout out and shut the instrument off. Suzaku's emerald eyes fixated on the white ceiling. He sighed, it was going to be another normal day; going to his normal school and taking his normal classes, that he took every day.

"Hey! Suzaku!" Gino called as he strolled towards the brunette, a cheery grin on his handsome face as always. He stood out severely among other bland looking students in the hallway. So it was obvious that he was the one everybody was watching. Suzaku too. If it weren't for his dazzling green eyes, he would have fit in with the rest of them. Gino clapped his friend on the shoulder who smiled in response. "Whatsup man? You finish you're Bio homework last night?" His arm was positioned carelessly across the others shoulder as they walked on.

Suzaku laughed and said, "why is it that whenever we talk you need something?"

Gino grinned, "You know that's not true... So did you finish it or not?"

Suzaku sighed and answered back, "nahh. I couldn't focus last night. Didn't even start the first page."

"Hmm?" he raised a blond eyebrow. "Oh... I see... you were too busy thinking about that girl again?" he hit Suzaku playfully in the shoulder. "What was her name... Lelia...Lalie..."

"Lelouch, it was Lelouch Lamperouge. And he was a guy, not a girl." Suzaku just glared at him. Gino had never met Lelouch, because Suzaku had only met the blonde himself a few years ago when he first started college. Lelouch died in the car accident only weeks later.

Gino eased back. "Sorry, sorry jeez. The way you described him, I thought it was a girl you were talking about. He leaned once again against his companion. "Anyways... what was the dream about this time?"

Suzaku told him, "you know... same thing it always is... he says he's not dead, then he..." Suzaku looked around at the girls and guys that were amiss in the hallways. He held his tongue and looked at Gino. "You know..."

Gino raised his brows and chuckled. "Suzaku if you keep having these wet dr-" Just then Suzaku clamped his hand over his friends mouth, and glared at him. Gino only grinned underneath his comrades hand and pointed to the onslaught of people surrounding them, only curious as to what was going on. Suzaku looked around them before dragging his friend to a secluded area of the hallway. He removed his hand and started talking before Gino could. "This is important to me, Gino." He stared at him intently. "The more I have these dreams... the more I miss him. And I can't help but think... that it was my fault he died." He hung his head and sighed, too ashamed to show such a defeated look on his face.

His blond friend sympathized with his friend. "You know it's not your fault Suzaku. There was no way you could have known that someone would drink and drive, and there's no way you could have prevented it!" He reassured him.

Suzaku looked at him in denial and said, "But... If I only reacted faster, I could have- I could have saved him."

Just then the bell rang, and everyone hurried to class.

In World History, Suzaku sat in the back of the class next to a window that overlooked part of the school entrance. He was busy staring out at the display while his instructor carried on with his lesson. He was lucky he had stopped Gino just in time from saying such embarrassing things! People would definitely eat up that information and never let it go whenever they saw him... And furthermore it wasn't exactly true. Suzaku hadn't been having wet dreams, as Gino called them. He didn't wake up in his own mess, or whatever. But in his dreams of Lelouch they were always like that.

Lelouch would come to Suzaku and tell him he wasn't dead, and that he loved him. Then they would have sex, many, many, many times to the point where Suzaku was beginning to wonder if it was actually just a dream. The real Lelouch would never do that sort of thing though, even if he was still alive. And those dreams were heartbreaking to Suzaku. They promised fake realities. And Suzaku didn't enjoy the fact that in the dreams, it was the Lelouch he had always wanted that he was imagining, not the Lelouch he fell in love with, not the Lelouch who he had killed. To think of his late best friend in that sort of way... it wasn't right. And yet those dreams wouldn't go away, no matter how hard Suzaku tried to make them. He had been dreaming about Lelouch ever since the day he died.

"Kurrurugi," Suzaku's head snapped toward the instructor- "I only hope that whoever is paying for your education should get their money's worth of my teachings. Don't you think so?"

Suzaku answered, "Yes sir." Then sat up to focus on the lesson. He couldn't let the dream Lelouch interfere with his school. After all this was reality, and not fantasy.

"Now class, as I was saying... the theory of D-"

The whole class was interrupted then when the door slid open. Someone rushed in. The instructor spoke without removing his eyes from the board. "I expect all my students to come to classes on time always."

"Gomennasia sensei, I was in the Headmasters office."

That voice was familiar. Very familiar. Suzaku turned his head and he couldn't believe his eyes. Le-lelouch! No! It couldn't be! couldn't be! He was literally on the edge of his seat to get a look. He looked about the same height, same skin tone, posture stance, hair, weight... and the same amethyst eyes... oh god those eyes that Suzaku had dreamed about for so long. How he missed Lelouch's beautiful eyes... It seemed to be Lelouch. But that was near impossible. He was dead, right?

"Very well, take a seat. I'm just going over the teachings of Dante. Granted you've missed the first lesson but I'm sure one of your classmates can offer you the notes. Uh... Mr. Kurrurugi? Is there something you need?" All eyes centered on Suzaku, and the green eyed man blushed. He sat back down normally in his seat. As he stared at the scribbles on his desk, deep purple eyes fixated on that mop of light brown hair. "Good, now we can begin our lesson without interruptions this time." Footsteps came closer and closer to Suzaku, and the man who could be Lelouch's twin sat down right next to Suzaku.

Suzaku slyly looked to his right out of the corner of his eyes. There was no way that was Lelouch. No freaking way! But now that he could see up close, it looked like the Britannia right down to the straight-laced frown on his face. That's right... that grim expression of his, such a melancholy attractiveness. His heart was pounding. Am I dreaming? That has to be it! So if he was dreaming, then he would wake up if he hit himself right? Of course! That's how it was in those movies... So Suzaku slapped himself, right there in the middle of class. All heads turned toward the loud slap. Laughter echoed around the room and Suzaku was suprised to find out he wasn't dreaming at all. His face burned as the instructor threatened to kick him out if he kept interrupting the class. He looked to his side and saw that "Lelouch" was smiling at him, amused, and laughing gently.

He had to get out of there.

Once the bell rang Suzaku ran out as fast as his legs would let him, rushing in front of and shoving aside anyone in the way. He caught Gino amidst the hallway rush and ignoring his shout, pulled him into the men's restroom.

Gino backed against one of the stalls and said nervously, "uh... look Suzaku, I know you've been having those dreams and all, but I'm not really into guys." He watched his friend as he paced back and forth and realized something was wrong.

Suzaku stared talking, "He's here Gino! I can't believe it- it's him!" He wouldn't stop babbling and pacing, babbling and pacing.

"Who's here? What are you talking about?"

"No... it can't be him... but his face- and his eyes... oh god! It has to be him! No, i'm just dreaming after all... so the slap didn't work but maybe water will wake me up!" Before Gino knew it his best friend had turned on the sink and splashed water onto his face repeatedly, until he looked in the mirror and went on about how it didn't work.

Gino was becoming impatient. "Suzaku! Who are you talking about?"

"Lelouch!" Suzaku turned around, his brows furrowed. Water trickled down his face.

Gino's eyes widened. "You mean your Lelouch?"

"Yes!"

"Lelouch Lamperouge is here- in our school- and not in his grave?" Gino's shocked expression seemed to get to Suzaku because he fell down on his knees and held his face.

"This is too unreal! That's Lelouch out there isn't it?" He felt tears slip through his fingers. Everything that has happened was way too much for him- it was making his emotions go up and down uncontrollably.

"W-well you don't know that!" Gino started babbling, trying to reassure his friend. "I mean you haven't been yourself lately, maybe you thought you saw Lelouch! It just surprised you that's all!"

"You didn't see him Gino- it was him, I know it was. He had the same eyes, the-the same expression on his face when he laughed!"

"Look, why don't I check anyways! Is he in the hall?" The blond answered his own question as he bolted to the door and opened it to take a peek out into the ever busy college hallways. He spotted Suzaku's love right away. With those stunningly sharp features, he just stood out. Gino was in absolute awe; photographs could not capture true beauty as it was in actuality. That is to say... if that was indeed the real Lelouch Lamperouge that Gino's best friend so loved. And as far as he could see, there was no denying it. He wasn't looking forward to telling Suzaku. But maybe this wouldn't be a bad thing. "Okay... so maybe this is the real Lelouch, or just a really good copy... but nonetheless, this could be a good thing!" Suzaku looked up at him. "You missed Lelouch all this time and now he's finaly here! I say you make him yours and live happily ever after!" He smiled as he unleashed his plan on his best friend.

Suzaku just stared at him like he was insane. "Are you insane?" He jumped up. "You want me to talk to th-that zombie!"

"Zombie! I'm not the insane one here Suzaku. That's Lelouch; not a zombie. Zombie's have rotting flesh, body odour, gray eyes and they eat human flesh! Does that look like a zombie!" He opened the door and pointed out there at said 'zombie.' People in the hallway looked in on the bathroom scene, having seen a madman slam open the door and start shouting. Gino started laughing uneasily and he shut the door. He ran over to Suzaku who was sitting on the ground again. "Okay maybe that's not the real Lelouch, but you won't know unless you talk to him. Right?"

"I-I guess you're right..."

Gino persuaded Suzaku to strike up a conversation with Lelouch during the period they had for lunch. So the blond went his way and left the brunette on his own. Although Suzaku wasn't normally a shy person, he didn't feel comfortable with going up to Lelouch and just talking to him. So he kept an eye on him from the shadows. Well... from behind the college pillars was more like it. He kept a far distance from the purple-haired male as he walked, but close enough to see him. He noticed 'Lelouch' stopped to talk with a lot of people which was very strange because the Lelouch Suzaku knew wasn't very found of people in general. In fact, this Lelouch was very talkative! Suzaku saw that smile and he felt it was real, and yet... it wasn't. Suddenly Lelouch tuned a corner and disappeared. Suzaku quickly followed after but was surprised to find the boy to be nowhere in sight. There were bathrooms located in the hallway. Suzaku went inside the men's room. Still no sign of Lelouch and all the stalls were empty. Puzzled, he turned to leave. Bam! There the person in question stood, smiling at him smugly, arms folded. "Hey Suzaku," that was all he said, but it made Suzaku all fidgety and nervous just the same.

The brunette stammered, "L-l-..."

"Lelouch," the other finished for him. "Do you have something you want to tell me? You've been following me around haven't you..."

Suzaku straightened up. He had to get it out, he had to be a man and face this. He furrowed his brows and looked up intently as he said, "Are you the real Lelouch Lamperouge?"

Lelouch's smile never wavered. Instead he scoffed. "I can't believe you would actually doubt your best friend. Yes, I am the real Lelouch Lamperouge. Is there any other?" He chuckled. "You've been acting unusual since this morning, is something wrong?"

Suzaku couldn't believe it. Lelouch was telling the truth right? But then again it didn't seem like he knew that he had died. "It can't be you! You died! Lelouch is dead, and you're not him!" This just made him angry. How could this person lie and say they were Lelouch?

This time the other male raised his brow skeptically. "Suzaku, I'm not dead. How could I be dead if I'm right here. Think about it."

"Then what about the crash? What about me going to your funeral, and crying over your dead body! And your sister too- what about when Nunnally broke down crying because you died and she still couldn't even see your face!" By now Suzaku was tearing up as he yelled at Lelouch who was silent. Suzaku continued, "if you can't explain any of that, then I won't believe that you're him." Lelouch's eyes were wide in shock. When he didn't say anything, Suzaku scoffed and turned to leave. "You make me sick..." he said, eyes downcast. How could that be Lelouch? Be realistic Suzaku, he told himself. This was simply someone messing with him.

"Suzaku-wait!" The dark haired man pulled him back. "It really is me," his eyes held longing in them as he looked at said person.

Suzaku was surprised. But he glared defensively. Either way, he would not be fooled so easily. "How? Explain!"

"I- I can't... Just believe me," he chanted, "please." He sounded so desperate. His grip on Suzaku's arm never lifted.

He wanted to believe him, he really did. Without proof there was no way any normal person would! But Suzaku loved Lelouch too much to not believe this. He smiled sadly, "I believe you."

Lelouch smiled then, and his eyes lit up. "Thank you. I know this is strange... but I'm really happy you believe me. If you hadn't... I don't know what I would do. You're the most important person to me Suzaku."

Hearing that made Suzaku's chest hurt, his heart ached. "For so long I have been waiting to hear you say that," he said. "Lelouch, I love you. Do you love me?" He stepped closer to the raven with eager eyes.

"Of course, I love you so much it hurts to breathe," he responded. Their fingers intertwined as Suzaku went nearer, looking into his amethyst, and kissed him. He enveloped Lelouch into arms, dipping his head against his broad chest as Suzaku inhaled the sweet scent of his loves soft silky tresses.

"Oh, Lulu..." he breathed out a sigh of relief, a sigh of happiness. He was now sure this was no dream. Even in dreams, there could never be any moment where he felt such happiness.

Lelouch looked his friend in the eyes and said, "Suzaku, make love to me. I've been waiting too long..." he looked so determined, so passionate! Suzaku just couldn't refuse. They started making out sloppily, hands roaming, groping different parts of each others bodies. This was new to Suzaku. The only experience he'd had was in his dreams. He couldn't think of doing this sort of stuff with anybody else, before and even after his friend's death. So it was an understatement to say he was incredibly eager. Suzaku bit into Lelouch neck as his hands grasped his erect member. Lelouch gasped and arched back, busying his hands inside of Suzaku's jeans. "Aah, you're so big!" Lelouch could feel the incredible manhood from start to finish in his slim hands. It made his mouth water when he pulled it out and looked down at it. Suzaku bit his lip to hold himself back, "Goddamn, I want you so bad Lulu." This was turning him on greatly. Lelouch smirked, then kissed the brunettes awaiting lips. He said, "I'm not sure how this big thing will fit inside my tiny ass..."

Did Lelouch really just say that? Suzaku felt his face flush. Who knew the composed student could be this... seductive. They couldn't do anything in the men's bathroom without getting caught, so a few minutes and sloppy kisses later they were in the broom closet, heatedly igniting in youthful passion.

They were on the floor, which was the most comfortable position for the both of them. Suzaku on his back whilst Lelouch got busy on top of him. His pale hands rested on Suzaku's tanned muscles, and Suzaku gripped his partners hips viciously. Moaning and groaning, they were consumed by this lust.

"Oh god! Hah-"

"So hard..." Lelouch managed between breaths.

Suzaku grinned, "you're to amazing."

"Mmn... thanks!" He grinned, and another thrust him that made him moan loudly. Suzaku loved the face he was making. "This is great! Aah- just- wake up Suzaku!" Lelouch moaned as he rode him.

Suzaku's eyes widened. The pleasure was hitting him in hard waves to his groin, but the words that were just said made his skin ice cold and his body freeze. "What did you say?"

"Wake up!" Lelouch was grinning now, and he leaned down, pressing his palms down on Suzaku's firm chest. He repeated it again, this time whispering into the others ears. "Please wake up Suzaku, just wake up."

"No, no no no!" Tears formed in emerald eyes. This wasn't happening! After everything, in the end it was just another dream after all? His arms wrapped around the delicate form atop him and held him close like he would disappear any second. "This isn't a dream! It's real, you're real! Lelouch don't go- don't go!" Why was he subject to this pain and heartbreak? Over and over again... Lelouch was still chanting those words as Suzaku held onto him for dear life. He could feel himself fading along with Lelouch's face, along with the memory. Pretty soon everything turned black, but he could still hear those words.

"Please just wake up, wake up Suzaku, wake up please!"

He felt a weight over his chest. Someone was crying? Emerald eyes opened and were blinded by a white light. Was this heaven? No, it was just a white hospital room he realized as his eyes adjusted to his surroundings and he looked at the weeping figure next to him. Dark hair... Could it be? "Lelouch?"

Lelouch Lamperouge felt his heart burst when he heard that voice. He looked up, tears spilling down his cheeks and almost died at what he saw.

Suzaku was sure he wasn't dreaming. He had just woken up, right? Or could it be a dream within a dream? He wasn't sure, either way, but he started to bawl straight away. "Is it really you? Or am I dreaming again?"

"Yes, it's me!" Lelouch felt a smile spring to his face, though the tears didn't stop. "And you're awake, you're finally..." he hugged the brunette tightly.

"Lulu... I don't understand. Why am I in a hospital... and how are you alive? I thought... I thought you died."

"You don't remember? Of course, the doctors said you wouldn't after this long..."

Suzaku was shocked. "This long? What do you mean?" His perception of reality was so twisted he wasn't sure what the truth actually was.

"Suzaku, you've been in a coma all this time. Two years ago, our vehicle had a collision with a drunk driver. I almost died, but you moved your body in front of mine just in time and protected me. But you..." his eyes held a deep sadness that Suzaku himself had known. "You took all the damage meant for me and got a concussion. You've been in a coma ever since then."

His whole body was shaking. "And the drunk driver?"

Lelouch answered, "survived, he was sent to a special treatment center for alcoholic prisoners. But he was so sorry when he found out what happened to you! He visits every month to pray for you." Lelouch just kept smiling down at him, it felt like a dream. No, it felt like reality. "I'm so happy you're awake, that you're alive Suzaku!" He embraced him again and Suzaku felt tears spilling down his cheeks.

Two years? Had it really been that long? And he was the one who had been injured... This was so weird. "Lelouch... look at me." He did. "Do I look like I've been sleeping for two years?" he smiled, meaning for it to be a joke. Inside he was really broken, but he was happy. At least Lelouch was alive, at least he was alive.

"You could do with a shave..." he chuckled, then wiped away his friends tears with his thumb and pressed their foreheads together. Suzaku blushed at the contact. "But Suzaku... when I thought you had died... I was a mess, because you were my best friend." There was a pause and Suzaku felt his heart hurting. "But mainly because I love you to pieces, and I thought I would never get the chance to tell you that." And it finally came out. And Suzaku started to laugh. He couldn't stop laughing, his tears were now tears of joy and his body was warm with life. Lelouch on the other hand was flabbergasted. His face took on color. "Why are you laughing?" he snapped in a playful way. "Do you think I'm joking?"

"No, no!" Suzaku said. He grinned from ear to ear. "This is just the happiest moment of my entire life!" Lelouch smiled back, and kissed him on the lips.

"Mine too."


A/N:YESSSSSSSSSSSSS! I'm finally done! Woohoo! Tell me what you think please! REVIEWS MAKE ME HAPPPPYYY!