Hello loyal readers!

...if there even any left after months. I am sorry for letting you guys down. I will not make excuses other than, that it has been a roller coaster of everything. A matter of 1 step forward and 3 steps back.

This chapter will come with a WARNING of major sadness and depressing statements, so yeah! be prepared. It is certainly not a chapter that I think is my best work, but it's the best that I've written in months, it's the most I have written in months. And I thought I would upload it!

Well, Keep reading, guys!


Nick opened the door and put the tray with her breakfast on the black dresser table. He slowly walked up to the bed and sat down on the edge.

''Liv'' He gently nudged her. ''Liv, wake up''

She stirred and her eyes fluttered before they opened and focused on the dirty blond-haired man. ''What time is it?''

''Almost 9'' Nick asnwered. He saw that Olivia was about to ask further so he added. ''Mia is already awake. She's enjoying breakfast with Gabby and the other kids''

Olivia smiled and sat up in bed. ''Thanks for letting us stay here and go to Tony's house to take care for the dogs'' She said.

''You were barely able to keep standing by the time you were here, little sis'' Nick told her. ''I would never let you drive home with Mia and Mason. I'm impressed you made your way here''

''I didn't feel tired then'' Olivia shook her head. ''It was like the energy drained from me the moment I saw Mason''

''How was Tony doing? You didn't get the chance to tell me when you came here''

''He's going to be fine. He has a lot of stitches and some broken bones. A killer of a concussion, but he'll be fine''

''And Danni?''

Olivia looked away, a dark look appearing on her face. ''She's broken'' She said quietly.

''You were once too'' Nick said.

''I know. But I feel that this is different. I don't think she was... you know. But something else traumatizing has happened''

Nick frowned in thought. ''Have you spoken your thoughts with Gibbs or Tony?''

''No'' Olivia shook her head. ''I just realize that it could be a possibility'' She paused. ''Now that I do think about it; what if something did happen and she just couldn't remember? You know, with everything going on, everything she has been through. It's possible that she just repressed it and it has been coming back to her?''

''Tony did mention once that she has been having nightmares'' Nick joined in. ''But no one ever thought it weird because that's normal. It's possible that it triggered her memory''

Olivia threw her blankets off of her body. ''I have to get to the hospital and tell this to Tony''

''No. You stay here for the morning'' Nick said as-matter-of-factly.

Olivia glared at him. ''What? You can't tell me what to do''

''Orders from Gibbs. He called to say to keep you here. Tony wants to talk to Danni and I think it will take some time''

''Oh'' Olivia deflated, that made sense. Okay, she would give Tony some time. ''Right. So what's for breakfast?'' She then asked.

Nick grinned at her and went to grab the tray again. He gave it to her and she smiled brightly. She first grabbed her tea and took a sip, humming in appreciation. ''It's gonna be okay, Livia. Everything will be fine, eventually'' He said to her.

It took a moment, but then she slowly nodded. ''I hope you're right''

Kelly looked around her self. Danni had woken up and so she could finally see. The nightmares Danni was having were the same over and over again. The same order, the same cold green eyes and the same extreme guilty feeling about what happened in the dream. Kelly for the first time saw, what Danni has been dreaming of for a couple of months now. And now she understood why Danni couldn't handle this. She understood Danni's actions, if her screams and panic attack was anything to go by. The feeling of fear that came of Danni was overwhelming for Kelly.

Kelly also knew that Danni couldn't have done anything else than what she did. There was no other choice. She had to do it. Only somebody as cruel as him, would have her make a choice like that. A choice that no one should be making, especially not at the age of only 7 years old. Mia had been just one and half years old.

''You want to keep her don't you?'' Kelly shuddered as she remembered the cold, deep accented voice ask. ''Well then, Danielle. You do what you have to do for family''

Danni closed her eyes, remembering the same voice. ''Keep calm... you're okay... not panicking again'' She mumbled softly. What was the use, anyway? She wanted to die anyway, maybe if they sedated her enough, she would stop waking up! That didn't sound so bad, now did it?

''You don't want to die, Danni'' A voice said. ''You're lying''

''No, I'm not'' Danni talked back. Great, she was talking to herself now.

''Yes, you are!'' The voice argued.

''Just... Shut up'' Danni sighed to herself.

Kelly now knew what her mission in this state was... She had to make Danni believe that what she did wasn't a choice she made wrong, that it didn't mean she was a monster like her father. She wasn't the same. Only than, maybe Danni would be able to talk about it, instead of letting it eat her alive.

Speaking of her state. It was weird being like this. She felt like she had a body, only she couldn't control it. She felt what Danni felt, she tasted what (little) Danni drank and felt what feelings Danni head. She just couldn't control the actions or speak.

''I know you want to, but I don't think it's a good idea to get out of bed''

''I really don't care''

''The doctors don't think it's a good idea''

''I care even less''

''Tony''

''Dad'' Tony returned. ''You can help me, or I will get myself into that wheelchair and roll myself to Danni's room''

''You don't even know where she is in this place'' Gibbs pointed out, leaning on the handles of the wheelchair that stood next to Tony's bed.

Tony merely raised an weak eyebrow at that. ''I'm a investigator, I will find out'' He stated. ''Besides. You promised me'' Tony said with a pout.

Gibbs sighed. That he had. ''Alright. Come on'' He reached out and grabbed Tony by his right arm, glad that the doctors decided last night that he was well enough to not be attached to the IV all the time.

''Ow, ouch! Careful! Ow, that hurts! Dammit!'' He cursed a little more, until he was seated in the chair.

''Regretting your stubbornness?'' Gibbs asked raising an eyebrow.

Tony huffed and rubbed his left shoulder very gently with his right hand. If it still hurt this much while being drugged up, he didn't want to know how it felt doing that without the pain-killers. ''Yes, but I am not going to do this again in the coming hour, so you might as well roll me to Danni''

Gibbs said nothing, but turned Tony around and rolled him out of the room. Tony held onto the IV hanger, so it rolled with them. They were almost by the elevators with they were stopped.

''Excuse me. Where is Mr. DiNozzo going?'' A nurse, that they hadn't seen before asked. Her hair tied in a tight bun on the top of her head and narrow, pointy eyeglasses on the top of her nose. The woman reminded Tony of his old school librarian. ''I didn't get the update that he was allowed to come out of the bed yet'' She looked at them sternly over the brim of her glasses.

''Well... you see...'' Tony wasn't really in a good shape to try and come up with a good excuse. He looked up at Gibbs, seeking some help.

''Nurse Audrey allowed him to come out of his bed for a few minutes'' Gibbs said smoothly. ''She said that some fresh air would be good for his lungs as he has damaged them years ago''

''Audrey?'' The nurse looked at them skeptically. ''I wasn't aware she was up here. She's mostly assigned to the pediatric ward''

''She was personally assigned to me'' Tony jumped in. ''I'm not really good with strangers and Audrey is a uh... friend of my father. They thought I would be more comfortable with someone who knows me already''

Still the nurse kept looking at them skeptically, but they knew she was calculating the truth. Eventually she relented and nodded. ''Okay, go on then. But don't take too long, Mr. DiNozzo. You need your rest!''

''Yes, Ma'am!'' Tony saluted with his hand, and then cursed as the movement wasn't a good idea at all.

Gibbs noticed but didn't say anything. Nurse gave a huff, clearly still not happy that she had allowed them to go, but just around and walked away.

''She's not a morning person'' Tony declared about the uptight woman. Gibbs only gave a grunt in reply.

They stopped by the elevator. Gibbs reached forward and pushed the button. Once the doors opened with a ding, Gibbs pushed Tony inside and pushed the button for two levels higher. They were alone in the elevator and the silence was slightly tense. Maybe Gibbs was just as nervous as Tony to see Danni. Gibbs had already seen Danni, but hadn't said much about it to Tony.

''You're not going to like what you see in a minute, DiNozzo'' Gibbs said softly.

''I know'' Tony replied equally soft. ''But I need to do this. I need to see her. I need to talk to her. I need to... hold her'' He stated. ''She's my daughter''

''That she is'' Gibbs agreed, as the elevator came to a stop and the doors opened. He pushed Tony out and turned to the right. They walked the dim lighted hallway. Tony took a deep breath as Gibbs stopped at a door that stood ajar. Gibbs reached out and pushed the door open, not too hard, as to not to scare her.

Both men looked at the girl in bed. She was awake, though not looking at them. Either pretending not to have heard them or really haven't noticed them come in, they weren't sure.

''Danni?'' Tony asked as Gibbs placed him next to her bed.

Danni was startled out of her thoughts by her name. She hadn't heard them come in. ''Wait? Was that Tony's voice?'' She jerked her head around with wide eyes. She wanted to scream his name and felt the urge to ignore her body and just hug him. But she couldn't make herself do it.

''Danni?'' Tony tried again, seeing her reaction. Her eyes meeting his for a moment. ''Hey'' He said with a littlest of smiles. Her eyes flickered. ''I heard you saved my life''

She didn't answer, just stared, her eyes were full of a chaos of emotions.

''Say something, Danni''

''I can't'' Danni whispered back. Not realizing she said it out loud.

Tony frowned and calmly asked, ''What did you say?''

Danni's eyes jerked up to his again. ''Shit''. She swallowed and looked away.

Tony tilted his head and watched her struggle, seeming to be in a argument with herself.

''You need to talk to him. He needs to know''

''No he doesn't'' Danni thought to herself.

''Yes, he does''

''ARGH!'' Danni's hands shot up to her head and grabbed onto her hair.

''Danni!'' Tony exclaimed. ''Leave it! You're gonna hurt yourself. What's wrong!?''

''I can't tell you!'' Danni said through gritted teeth. ''She wants me to tell you! I can't! She won't leave me alone!''

Tony frowned and so did Gibbs, now thorough confused, at her word. She didn't make much sense. ''Who won't leave you alone and what can't you tell me? You know you can tell me everything, Danni. Please just talk to me''

''I can't!'' Danni just repeated. Then suddenly she went completely still. Her arms back at her side and her eyes closing. Her breathing calmed down, as they saw Danni taking deep breaths.

''Danni?'' Gibbs asked quietly.

The eyes opened and Tony and Gibbs' eyes both widened in shock. The look in her eyes was calm and collected and still held a little worry.

''Daddy!'' Danni spoke. But she wasn't talking to Tony. Was was looking and talking to Gibbs. ''Daddy!'' She said again. It was her voice, yet it was strange.

''Danni, what—'' Gibbs asked, but was interrupted.

''Not Danni!'' Danni shook her head. ''Daddy! It's me!'' As if it was obvious.

Silence, as the two man just stared at Danni, not knowing what to say.

It was Tony who broke first. ''Kelly?'' He whispered. Gibbs' head jerked around to look at Tony with even wider eyes then before. ''Kelly? That's you, right?''

''Yes, Tony!'' The excitement was as obvious as her distress.

Gibbs wasn't as quick to talk sense. ''You... I... What? How?'' He stammered. ''What is going on?!''

Danni's eyes returned to Gibbs. ''It's me, Daddy! Kelly!''

Gibbs still didn't look completely convinced as he kept staring at her.

''My favorite stuffed animal was a wolf called Jeth'' She stated as matter-of-factly.

Tony had to smile at that, while Gibbs processed this. He never told anyone that. Not even Tony. He took a deep breath and asked calmly again. ''What is going on?''

''When Danni slipped into a coma, at the same time Tony was still unconscious, I did something to make their minds connect. Did mom or Rose tell you about that?'' She asked. They nodded and she continued, ''Well, I was the one to do that. Danni was giving up, you see and I became desperate. I didn't want Tony to lose a kid, like you did'' She said looking at her father. ''And I thought showing Danni that she wasn't alone, that Tony understood what she was going through, would help somehow. ...but it only made it worse'' She hung Danni's head.

''What do you mean?'' Tony asked, leaning more forward and grabbing Danni's hand. He squeezed it and she squeezed back. But Tony knew it was Kelly doing it and that made him feel all kind of emotions.

''She flipped! She kept screaming for me to get out, for me to leave. I was pushed away, but not out of her mind completely. If she really wanted me to leave, I should've. But I didn't and after she had calmed down I could go back, but she was in her 'safe place'. Hiding in the closet of her old bedroom. And it smelled badly'' Danni's face was pulled into a grimace. ''Danni said that it was because of the dead rat under her bed or something'' She rambled on as the men listened. ''She said that even though that Tony had it bad in the past, it wasn't the same as her and that he would never know'' after that she trailed off and took a breath.

''But this started only a few weeks or so, right?'' Tony spoke up. ''Did something happen in the last few weeks?''

''Not directly...'' Kelly answered. ''It's more that she remembered''

''She remembered?''

Kelly nodded. ''At first, I don't think she knew. Like she had forgotten or didn't want to remember. But she had nightmares on and off. They didn't make any sense for her until, the puzzle pieces fitted together and she knew what she dreamed was a memory''

Tony frowned, while Gibbs looked thoughtful now. ''Doesn't that have a name?'' Gibbs thought out load. ''Suppressed Memory or something?''

Kelly just stared at him. How would she know? She was only eight! I did make sense though, that people would call it that.

Instead, Gibbs nodded. ''Yeah. 'Happens in the military sometimes. Can also combine with PTSD''

Tony took that info in and nodded. ''So... something happened, that she suppressed and in the last couple of months it's been coming back in her nightmares'' He concluded. ''How did I miss that?'' He carefully raised his arm and rubbed his forehead.

''Tony'' Gibbs frowned at him. ''How the hell were you supposed to know about something that she didn't even remember?''

''I don't know. I wasn't even aware her nightmares were that bed or frequent'' He looked back at Danni. ''Do you know what it is?'' He asked Kelly. ''What she is remembering?''

Kelly paused for a moment, then nodded Danni's head slowly, uncertainly.

''He made her... he...'' Kelly trailed off and tears began to fall from Danni's eyes. Kelly took a few breaths and looked both men in the eyes. ''He had a gun and... a-and gave it to her. She was a year younger them me, I think. He threatened to kill Mia if she didn't shoot the man in front of them...'' Kelly, cried. Tony and Gibbs' eyes widened in shock again, disbelieve. ''S-she... she didn't want her little sister to die! She had no other choice! She ha—'' She was cut off as Danni's body convulsed off the bed. ''NOOO!'' Danni screamed.

''No! No! No! I didn't want them to know. They can't know! I not! I not a murderer! I didn't want to. I. Am. Not. A murderer! Please!'' Danni cried and this time they were immediately sure that it was Danni again. ''I am not! Daddy! Please say I am not! Please, I am not a murderer. I didn't want to! Daddy!''

She was looking directly into Tony's eyes as she screamed and cried and panicked. Tony wanted to climb out of his wheelchair, but his body wouldn't let him and it made him angry and livid. ''Dad'' His voice cracked.

Within a speed second Gibbs was on Danni's bed and didn't even know how he had managed to get behind Danni and putting his arms around her, in a protecting hug. It was scary how she clung onto him like her life depended on it, instead of pulling away. His heart had broken for her and kept breaking as she repeated her words over and over again, while he repeated again and again, that nothing was her fault, that everything was going to be okay, matching Tony's words.

They didn't even notice the doctors coming in, and ignored them when they started screaming for them to leave. Gibbs and Tony both vowed they were never going to leave her again.

As chaos broke loose, there was one word that broke through it all. A piercing scream from Danni, ''Daddy!''


Secret revealed! So what do you guys think? I don't even know how I come up with these ideas, but I just write and it comes on the document like this!

Please excuse me for every mistake. next to life being as it is already, I discovered that not only have I dyslectia, my sight is only 20 procent without glasses and can only be fixed up to 60 procent with glasses... yay... *sigh* -_-. so I'm meeting doctors for tests and such as of this week.

Tell me what you think in a review. I will appreciate everything you tell me, as long as you be nice about it :)

Hopefully update soon(er)

Leonie