Sorry, I'm a day late. My internet kept mucking up yesterday and I couldn't update but no worries. Thank you to all my regular reviewers you give me the confidence to keep on writing and I wouldn't have been able to keep writing without you. Just in case anyone's confused Bella was born the same year as Jasper but since her birthday is in September she is in a lower year at school than him and it will come before Jaspers but she'll be younger. At the moment she is 16 and he is going to turn 17.

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or anything Twilight related

Now on with the story!

Runaway Love

Chapter 9

Saturday

Today was free time again and I wasn't sure what to do. Christmas was tomorrow, the houses were decorated and I'd bought all the presents. Jasper's was the hardest to buy as I wasn't sure what to get him. For Charlie I got him some fishing gear, I got Peter some new cufflinks and I got Charlotte a vintage dress I saw while I was out one day. She would love it; it was dark blue with a sash wrapped round the middle in a lighter blue. The sash was the same colour as her eyes so it would make them stand out. I wasn't a fashion expert or anything but even I could tell it would be beautiful on her.

I sat at the table sort of eating my cereal. Charlie was sitting next to me also eating whilst he read the newspaper. He was dressed up in his uniform ready to go to work and I knew I wouldn't be seeing him until late. The only sounds that could be heard where the sounds of us chewing our food and the occasional page rustle as Charlie turned it. Life had definitely been interesting lately. I'd been lusting after Jasper like a horny teenager and he's tried to serenade me. He was probably practicing so that when we got back to school, he'd know how to win over Christine.

Charlie was eating a full fried breakfast. I couldn't imagine how much fat there was in there, the smell of it permeated the air and suddenly I was feeling more nauseous than anything. I pushed my bowl away from me knowing that if I took another bite everything I had eaten would be on display to the world.

"Not hungry, Bells?" Charlie asked suddenly. I was unaware that he was looking at me curiously.

"No, not really" I replied playing with a piece of my hair.

"Are you sure Bells, because you hardly ever eat these days and when you do you never finish it" Charlie asked concerned. It was true I hadn't been eating properly but that was because I was so nervous because of my new found attraction to Jasper, but I wasn't going to tell him that.

"Dad, the only reason I didn't eat dinner last night was because I was so anxious about the play, I was scared I'd forget my lines or something" I replied hurriedly.

"Ok if you're sure" he replied before turning his attention back to the newspaper. He had folded it in half and I could see that he was reading the sports section. One thing I like about Charlie he didn't pry and knew when to leave things alone.

I moved my spoon around the bowl for a bit before standing up and pouring it down the sink and washing the plate. I looked out the window into the woods and I swore I saw something moving, I squinted my eyes but it had disappeared. I shook my head and paid no more attention to it.

I walked out the room and up the stairs, when I reached the top I stumbled and fell to the ground before getting up and walking back to my room. I wasn't sure what to do today, I mean now that I think about what happened the day before I was too embarrassed and ashamed to face Jasper I mean not only did I bring him on stage but I bit his neck. That's basically a love bite and we aren't anything relationship wise. I mean I'd love to be Jasper's girlfriend but I don't know if I'd ever actually take the risk because I had way too much at stake and just as much to lose. If we broke up everything would change, we'd never be the same and I'd never be able to move on because once you had Jasper you never needed anything else.

I sighed and continued rummaging through my wardrobe, I couldn't find any clothes. Well, I could just not the outfit, when you get that feeling and go this; this is what I want to wear. Instead I felt like I was settling for second best. I looked through one more time sifting through each individual garment. Then I saw it. It was a red top that's waist was cinched in with a black belt. The bottom of the skirt fanned out around me. The sleeves were more like gloves attached to it. It came down to just above my knees. It would have been perfect for me to wear as red was Christmassy and I could wear some long green socks and black leather boots. Everything matched.

I had a feeling I would be seeing Renee today as after the show yesterday I just took off. She would obviously be annoyed but I just forgot about her. I couldn't decide how to feel about seeing her, if anything she was going to try to convince me to spend Christmas with her because I had spent Thanksgiving with Charlie. I didn't really get a good enough look at her because she was sitting away from Charlie and the others. Also Phil kind of blocked her as he was getting past her to get to his seat. I wondered if she had changed. Everyone always said we looked alike except she had shorter hair and laugh lines. If anything Renee would have dyed her hair or the sun would have bleached it for her.

I loved my mum, I mean how could I not, she could have chosen to abort me because she didn't want any ties to Charlie but she didn't and I guess she thought she was doing me a favour by abducting me when she left. Renee's not that bad though compared to some other mothers, she's just an eccentric, silly person who will brave new things and come to her senses later and she opened a bank account for me and has been filling it with money. I didn't like the idea of spending it because I hadn't made it myself but it was better than asking Charlie. In a way it's like Renee's paying me child support.

I tied my hair into pigtails and tied red and green bows on them. I wasn't dressed for cold weather. According to the weather forecast it was going to be freezing tonight and I considered putting on a pair of jeans but changed my mind.

I skipped across the hall landing and down the stairs. Charlie was in the living room on the phone and from what I could tell he was having a very heated discussion. His face was going through various shades of colours red, blue then purple. I was extremely worried about him but he began calming down.

"No you can't" I heard him shout. I figured the other person was replying because he was silent.

"You have no right" he continued. I crept further forward and could hear a woman shouting down the other end.

"You are the worst mother and she's better off without you!" he shouted louder. Mother, then that means......

"No Renee" Charlie countered before ending the call. He turned around and saw me standing there. The shock and surprise were evident on his face. His usual pale skin tone was still flushed but you could see the sorrow and regret on his face. He wasn't smiling and his body was hunched over. He lines around his mother and his eyes were crinkled a little from when he smiled. He was still young, not even 40 yet, yet it seemed as if everything was crashing down around him.

"She's coming" he whispered. My guts churned at the statement. I knew I had anticipated her arrival but it was an entirely different thing to have it confirmed. Except for a visit the year I moved out her I hadn't seen Renee. She would occasionally send me a few emails questioning about my life. The first time I sent her a picture of Jasper and I she wrote back saying at the end of her message 'The next time I come visit you, you have to let me meet that hot piece of man you got there! xoxo' I still can't believe she wrote that but this is Renee you never know what to expect from her.

"When?" I asked just as quietly. My head was turned and I was staring out the window.

"She'll be here soon" he replied. This shocked me. She can't just decide she wanted to come, what if we weren't home and you should inform people ahead of time but this was Renee, when did she ever do anything by the book.

"Okay" I sighed. I wasn't unhappy about seeing my mother just unprepared, she was there last night she saw what I did. I doubt she had ever willingly sat down to hear me sing, I mean she always called it a useless talent saying that you had to be something special to make it in swimming. That would hurt but in a way I did feel special. Renee refused to have another child and though it hurt Phil, I was happy because I would be her only child. I smiled at that thought and made my way upstairs to put on my jeans.

II had only been up there for a few minutes before I heard a car pulling up, I looked out the window and sure enough I saw Phil coming out the car and going round to help Renee. I sat back on my bed not sure if I wanted to come downstairs to see her or if I should just wait until I was called. I chose the latter, it gave me sometime to compose myself and prepare myself for her. I looked at myself in the mirror wondering if I should put on some make up just so Renee thinks I'd become girly. I didn't really have much of a collection. I had a mascara wand, some nude lip gloss and various shades of eye shadow that Charlotte had given to me saying that I had to at least own the basics when in reality the most makeup I use is a chap stick but that might not really count.

I sat upstairs for a few more moments, downstairs I could hear the door slam shutting telling me they were in the house, my door was open so I could hear Renee's voice loud and clearly as she greeted Charlie. Her voice sounded the same next was Phil's voice as he greeted Charlie. It was clear that he felt awkward being around him although he had nothing to do with their breakup; that was all Renee.

"Where's Bella?" I heard Renee's voice ring loud and clearly.

"Upstairs" Charlie's gruff voice replied. I heard his voice shout my name and I knew I had to come down. I walked downstairs slowly, taking my time, trying to put off when I did meet her. I got to the end of the stairs and stood there silently.

"Mum?" I asked and I was surprised at the rush of warmth I had for her.

"Bella!" Renee exclaimed as she turned around. I didn't think I could get any more surprised. Her hair had blonde highlights in it, she was tanned and there was a huge something growing in her stomach. Renee waddled forward and swung her arms around me, holding me as tightly as she could in her condition. I couldn't believe it; she looked to be about 5 or 6 maybe even 7 months. Didn't she think to tell me over email or when she called? Phil must be so excited he was finally going to be a father. She was about to have another kid, I bet she forgot to take her birth control or something because she was firmly against having another kid. One time I thought she was going to suggest having her ovaries tied or her womb removed just so she had no chance of having a baby. Yet here she was, smiling at being pregnant. When I was little and wondered why she wouldn't have another baby she would tell me about what it was like when she was pregnant with me. She made pregnancy sound like labour and constantly going on about how much her feet hurt, how she always needed to pee and that she was completely miserable but now she was positively glowing.

"You're pregnant. Wow! You must be so excited" I said my voice full of fake enthusiasm.

"Yeah it was a complete surprise but a good one and I'm prepared, everything's going great unlike when I had you" she said smiling the whole way through. "Back then I wasn't ready to be a mother and it was a mistake of me to do so, I was young and naive but everything turned out all right. That mistake led me to the best thing that ever happened to me. Phil" she said dotingly as she walked over to grab his hand. Ouch, I'm a mistake. I know she doesn't mean to be so insensitive I just wish she would think about what she said sometimes.

"That's great mum I'm really happy for you" I said as tears fell from my eyes. Charlie had already left the room and Renee thought they were tears of joys as she had a few tears in her eyes. Phil looked at me and frowned. I guess he was wondering why I was so sad. I smiled at him and shook my head.

"Ooh there's so much that needs to be said, let's catch up" Renee pulled me with her to sit on the couch. She spent the next 2 hours enthralling me with tales of places they've travelled, showing me pictures and giving me souvenirs. She also included when she found out about the baby how excited she is. Then she went a step further by telling me that she was having a girl. If I wasn't gutted enough about the fact that she thought I was a mistake or that she was having another kid, she had to have a girl. I felt like she was replacing me in her life, like when I wasn't the kid she wanted she was having another one. She wanted to run a few names by me but I was saved by the doorbell. I stood up and rushed to open it and who was on the other side but My Guardian Angel. I didn't know whether to be glad that he was here or scared that he was going to meet Renee.

"Hey Bella, you look nice" Jasper noted with a nod of his head. He looked delicious as always and I stopped myself from unconsciously licking my lips.

"Hey erm...Renee's here" I said to him by way of warning.

"Really I've never had a chance to meet your mum. I bet she's just like you" he said curiously as if I was the one stopping him from meeting her.

"Yeah, yeah you could...err... say that come in" I chuckled nervously before grabbing Jaspers arm and leading him into the living room. Phil was now sitting on the couch next to Renee rubbing her arm comfortingly. They hadn't noticed us yet so I ushered Jasper into an empty seat before making the introductions.

"Jasper this is my mum Renee and her husband Phil. The giant bump on her stomach is their future kid and my future sister." I said by way of introduction.

"Renee, Phil this is Jasper my best friend" I continued. Renee was clearly excited to meet Jasper and I prayed she didn't say anything embarrassing. I prayed even more that she didn't mention Travis. I wouldn't be able to handle talking about that without the risk of breaking down. I'd spent so many years hiding from the reality of it and here was Renee who would bring him up, unknowingly releasing a whole lot of problems. I had nightmares every night after that and in them they were usually worse than what actually happened. In them he would actually rape me or kill me sometimes they would seem so real and I was scared that if I told anyone, everyone would turn their backs on me but with the help of Phil, Doctors and many types of pills I got them under control.

It was only 2 months before I moved to Forks that they stopped but I still had an almost full packet that I kept with me in case. I had only taken one out of it and that was to just be sure that the nightmares would stop. I hated taking them, they really messed me up. One of them called Doxylamine really messed me up. My skin always felt as if something was crawling over it and though it stopped the nightmares I was always happy that even Renee began noticing something was wrong. But when I stopped I would start shaking and be very nauseous. It made me forgetful and I was often confused.

"So you're the Jasper I've heard so much about" Renee said turning herself to face him. She pulled her dress lower and placed her hands on them. She had put a lot of emphasis on the so but I don't think I talked about him that much, did I?

"You're even better looking in person than I thought you would be." Renee went on. I mean really did she not have a sense of embarrassment. "How long have you and Bella been going out?" she asked, the first of many questions and one long interrogation.

They left about an hour after that with a promise to come visit them in Jacksonville. They had a flight to catch that night so they needed to leave quickly. I sat frozen to my chair mortified at what Renee said. It took us about 10 minutes to convince her we weren't going out but then she started talking about how as young teens we may get these urges and that we shouldn't give into these urges without a condom or birth control. She started telling him about some childhood stories and even went as far as to say that I'd never kissed a boy before. I just about died. If a hole opened in the ground, I would have happily jumped in it.

"So Bella." Jasper drawled. "Your mum seems...nice" he said, laughter shining in his eyes. They looked blue today just plain blue. They were gorgeous. It was like the colour of a swimming pool when the sun hits it and it sparkles.

"Ugh shut up Jasper. " I said burying my head in one of the couch pillows.

"Hey, what did I do?" he asked. I didn't think he was expecting an answer but when he looked at me I could see that he did.

"Nothing, it's not your fault. It's just, Renee she can be so embarrassing sometimes" I answered.

"I liked her, she seemed like a ball full of fun" Jasper went on.

"You would say that but you weren't the one staying in crappy motel after crappy motel when you were younger because she thought it would be an adventure"

Jasper got out his phone to call Charlotte to pick us up; Charlie was going to go straight down to La Push after work, so I went upstairs to pack my bag. I had just come back from the bathroom with my shower bag in hand to see Jasper sitting on my bed. He had his head in his hands and it seemed as if he were in a dilemma. I dropped the shower bag on my desk almost silently and sat down next to Jasper. I touched his hand and he flinched as if he were shocked I was there. He turned his head and looked at me. I saw his eyes flick down to my lips and knew he wanted to kiss me. I tilted my head and leaned in just as he did. His lips had just brushed mine when we heard the door ring. I heard him groan and silently curse before he stood up from the bed. He reached an arm out to pick up my bag and walked to my desk to get my shower bag as well. I sat watching him from my perch on the bed. He came over and gave me an arm to pull myself up. I walked over to my wardrobe to grab a thick jacket and I slipped on my leather boots as I had planned.

I walked down the stairs and he followed. I left a note for Charlie saying I was sleeping round Jaspers and I left. Peter and Charlotte were sitting in the car waiting for us this time. That was odd as I hardly ever spoke to him. I sat down in my chair and unzipped my jacket. The heating was on full blast and I was worried I would end up with sweat patches.

"Hey Bella how's it going?" Peter asked cheerfully glancing at me through the mirror.

"I'm alright Mr Whitlock" I answered finding it slightly awkward to be talking to him.

"Ah, ah, ah Bella. What did I tell you? No need to be so formal around me, call me Peter or Petey or whatever." He replied.

"Okay" I said flashing him a smile. The rest of the ride was filled with idle talking about random stuff. Tonight Charlotte and I were going to stuff the Turkey and start cooking, we were going to do all the baking tonight as well, then the next morning we were going to finish cooking the Turkey and make all the other stuff as well.

When we got to the house, Jasper and I immediately went up to his room, Jasper wanted to show me a beat he was working on, on his drums. I'm still surprised that Jasper played the drums as he was usually a calm person and you wouldn't expect him to want to play such a loud instrument.

I sat on his bed holding his guitar. He had been playing a beat and it was extremely catchy. I felt like writing a song to go with it but I wasn't sure where to start. I flopped back on his bed and began thinking of titles.

Tempting Trouble

Lost

Honey Baby Sweetheart

Runaway

I read them out to Jasper and we came up with a few more. Eventually we both agreed on a title and a song formed in my head and I hurried to write the lyrics out. I couldn't write fast enough because just as I wrote one thing out another, better thing would pop into my mind. Music came and soon we had a whole song. Together we sang it at each other laughing as we went. After I helped Charlotte I changed into my pyjamas and collapsed from exhaustion. I slept soundly that night with Jasper's arm wrapped tightly around my waist.

Well this Chapters done. I'm making a poll on my profile about which title you would like a song to be written about. Others will be added so check it out. The next Chapter is Christmas as you know and there's going to be a surprise. I still haven't got a Beta so I apologise for any spelling mistakes or grammar errors in advance. If you spot any tell me in your review so I can fix it. I've already got about 3 pages done of Chapter 10 but I don't think it will be out until sometime next week preferably Wednesday because I have to send my laptop to get fixed, but stay tuned as I might be able to get it out earlier. Don't forget to review and goodbye for now!

~The Sunny Days~