The truth of it all.

DISCLAIMER: I don't own anything to do with merlin. Not merlin himself, not even his neckerchief.

SPOILERS: this is sort of an episodic fic, but with a twist. In other words I will be using certain episodes as a background but adding what I need to, to make it coincide with the story.

SUMMARY: the reasons behind morganas hatred. Both Morgause and Uther I am sorry to say are still alive. Mind you I am also allowing Lancelot to breathe again too. The castle has been taken over for the fourth time; Arthur, merlin and the knights that are left are planning to free the prisoners which include Uther. Gwen who is recently married is traveling to some place safe. The Gwen and morgana fight took place but the injury wasn't that bad and she healed herself. So no dragon was involved. This story will be mergana.


As Gwen and morgana walked away to talk Arthur stood beside merlin dumb-found. Morgana had always a strong person, she would have helped but from what he saw in her eyes whatever had gone on between her and their father, had destroyed her.

"Merlin has morgana told you anything about what happened before she left." Arthur asked

"All I know sire is that when he found out he had wanted my name to have me killed. But I can tell you she is hiding something, when we spoke I could see she wasn't telling me everything. I didn't want to push her though. I mean you and I both know morgana will do what morgana wants. And if she doesn't want to do it well….." merlin left it there and just smirked at Arthur.

Arthur returned merlin's smirk for he too knew exactly how stubborn his sister could be.

Before Gwen could say anything to morgana, Morgana spoke first.

"Gwen please as my friend don't force the issue here. I do not wish to go to Camelot, I can't go back there."

"Morgana I am not going to make you and I would say I understand but I don't. We used to talk morgana so please tell me what happened tell me why, so that I can understand."

"He... uther… let's just say I hated him for what he would have done to me, which I didn't give him the chance to do. But now I know that he is my… that his blood and mine are… well you know. It makes his actions worse. I wish I could go and find out who is pretending to be me, who is trying to ruin my name but I can say whole heartedly if I was to come face to face with that man I would kill him. And as king Arthur would be required by the laws of Camelot to sentence me to death I cannot and will not leave my son without a mother."

"Morgana …."

"No Gwen, I am sorry I wish I could help I just can't." With that said morgana turned and walked back to Huniths house, she had to get her son home.

THE WOODS OVERLOOKING THE CITADEL.

Merlin, Arthur and the knights all stood the presence hidden by the trees, waiting and formulating a plan to take back Camelot. They had decided Gwen would stay with Hunith, it was less dangerous.

"So merlin, any ideas that will work." Arthur asked merlin. Arthur called merlin many things and although at times merlin could be a complete and utter idea he did on the rare occasion have a good idea. Let's just hope this was one of those rare occurrences.

Merlin took a moment to pause before he started to reply. "Well sire we could….."

A voice suddenly cut off merlin's words.

"Just walk in the main gate. You are after all the king, dear brother."

Everyone gasped and stared at the woman who had spoken.

"Gwen and I thought leaving a task like this to you men would be a very idiotic idea. So we came to make sure it works." Morgana said with a smirk. Gwen walked towards her husband.

"Arthur morgana came to huniths with Will so that he could stay with his grandmother while she came to help. So there was no way I was about to stay in ealdor when morgana was willing to come." Gwen smiled at her husband and leaned into so only he could hear the rest of what she had to say.

'I gave morgana my word that we will not leave her alone with uther. That she doesn't need to deal with him. I don't know what he did Arthur but morgana fears she will kill him and then, you would kill her. She doesn't want to leave Will without a mother.' Arthur turned and looked into Gwen's eyes when she had finished speaking, he nodded once before kissing her.

Whatever his father had done to morgana it must have been worse than anything Arthur could imagine. He knew morgana wanted to kill uther before she left but now it seemed worse she actually fear leaving her child motherless. And that was something Arthur could relate to. Not having a mother was well let's just say it is something his nephew will never now.

It was decided that a first light the group would as morgana said walk right in the main gate. So now they all just rested peacefully. The calm before the storm.

Arthur and Gwen sat together, Arthur's arms wrapped around Gwen. Gwen was watching morgana pace slowing back and forth, as Arthur watched merlin, who was watching morgana pace.

Even the court jester could see what was going off. Morgana pacing because she worried she would not be able to stop herself from killing uther. This in turn would cause her son to lose her. And then merlin sitting there straight backed fighting with himself over getting up and comforting her. Fighting with himself over doing the one thing he wanted and that was wrapping his arms around morgana and taking away all her fears.

Arthur decided he had enough he could sit and watch this any longer. Sit and watch his sister worrying herself, and his friend aching to take away that worry.

"For the love of god morgana sit down. This pacing is driving me insane, and please sit near my idiot servant because if his attempts to get up only to sit again one more time I swear I am going to run him through." Morgana turned to glare at her brother and merlin hung his head. He hadn't realized that he was doing anything. Arthur however just smiled at morgana and seeing merlin's head hung he nodded his head towards merlin.

Merlin wasn't aware of anything since he was staring at the ground but when he felt her sit beside him he finally looked up and directly into her eyes. She gave him a soft smile before she placed her head on his shoulder. Merlin looked down at her and suddenly realized that this was the king's sister and he was just a servant. He looked towards Arthur and Gwen to find the both smiling and with a nod of approval from Arthur merlin did what he had wanted to do since he had seen her again.

He placed a gentle kiss to morganas brow before wrapping her in his arms and gently lowering both their bodies flat to the ground. To get some rest before dawn broke.

They were both facing each other. One of merlin's arms under morganas head as a pillow and her hand toying with his neckerchief.

They and everything around them was silent, morgana glanced around her to find two knights standing guard and everyone else either sleeping or trying to sleep. When her eyes returned to merlin's she spoke softly.

"don't think that just because we have a child and everyone knows that I am going to allow you certain liberties while my brother is anywhere near us." Morgana smiled cheekily and merlin seemed to forget where they were as he burst into laughter.

"SHUT UP MERLIN." Arthur all but growled at him.

Morgana was softly giggling as she buried her head in merlin's chest.

"If I remember correctly my lady I was helping you with something when Arthur happened to walk in and…."

"Merlin we almost got caught that day if we hadn't been behind my changing curtain Arthur would have had your head." Morgana smiled, her smile disappearing as she said "I miss him merlin, I have never left him for very long and I miss him."

"He will be fine my sweet rose." Merlin said using an endearment he hadn't spoken aloud in years.

Morgana looked into merlin's eyes at hearing the name he had called her when they had been together. With all the emotions running through her she did the one thing she had been waiting to do for what seemed like an eternity. She kissed him. A kiss which told merlin just how much she had missed him, a kiss that told merlin that she had not stopped loving him. A kiss which merlin whole heartedly returned showing morgana just how much he had missed her, how much he still loved her.

When they broke the kiss merlin said in a breathy voice. "If I had known all I had to do was call you that to get a kiss, I would have done that the second I saw you."

Morgana gave him a soft kiss before she snuggled into him, allowing sleep to overtake her. Merlin had watched as morgana's eyes closed before he closed his own. Neither one realizing the other was thinking and dreaming about the same thing. Dreaming about the day merlin gave her the name sweet rose.

THE MEMORY.

Merlin and morgana had been flirting for a while but the day they were alone watching mordred sleep was when things changed. The boy lay sleeping on the floor behind the changing curtain. Morgana and merlin had been discussing magic. She had felt a sudden urge to kiss the man who stood before her. The man who had risked his life to save that of this sweet boy. With the fact that uther had just had the boy's father or guardian killed was overwhelming her. So morgana did exactly what her body and mid was urging her to do. She kissed merlin gently, when merlin did nothing morgana realized that she should stop. But as she began to pull away she felt merlin's hand lift and gently place itself on her back. She knew then it was ok. The kiss didn't last much longer as the sleeping boy murmured in his sleep. They both pulled away smiling. It was after the boy had left that the name happened. Uther had been cruel to morgana when he found out about the boy and merlin had been there for her. The knight Arthur left with mordred and merlin had returned to the citadel, her waited for Gwen to leave morganas chambers before he knocked. When she opened the door he could see she had been crying so he walked in and wrapped his arms around her.

"Shhhh shhhhh it's over now. He is safe now morgana. Oh my sweet rose please it's all going to be alright." Merlin's had spoken softly since the first kiss they had shared a few others but not many since they had been watching over a sick boy.

Morgana hiccupped and said "my sweet rose?"

"well yeah I mean, the first things I gave you from me so the sleeping draft doesn't count because that…..'

Morgana had smiled and cut him off "your rambling merlin."

"Oh sorry I gave you flowers, they were roses but flowers nevertheless, but now I know you better I should have given you roses. They are the most beautiful flowers there is but also they are strong and tough. As beautiful as they are the still are dangerous when they need to be. That is what their thorns are for. But they are also the flower of love. So simply put my sweet rose, you are beautiful, strong and your heart is so full of love that the only thing which can come close to you in every way is the rose."

Morgana smiled "merlin that was the most beautiful thing anyone has ever said to Me." a single tear made its way down morganas cheek "but if that was the case why not just use rose. Why my sweet rose."

Merlin just gave her a bright smile and leaned towards her lips. But just before they touch he whispered "because you are the sweetest thing I have ever tasted." Before morgana could reply merlin fused their lips together.

That was the night morgana gave merlin her innocence, and her heart.

THE CAMPSITE.

"Merlin, morgana get up its dawn." Arthur said kicking merlin softly in the back.

Gwen however took a different approach and gently shock morgana. When morgana turned to face Gwen a smile still in place from the dream Gwen softly spoke "sorry to interrupt a very happy dream but it is dawn."

Merlin was getting into a seated position with a similar smile on his face as he overheard morgana say to Gwen.

"Not a dream Gwen, a very fond memory."

They all took their places at the edge of the woods, hoping that today Camelot's king would once again be in charge. They started to walk towards the main entrance, morgana had been at the back with Gwen but she knew her magic would be needed so she made a move to walk toward the front to join Arthur and merlin. Gwen wasn't about to be left behind so she linked her arm with morganas and together they went to join their men. As they reached the front Gwen whispered into morganas ear. "When this is over my dear sister I want to know everything including the memory that put that smile on your face this morning."

"Is that on order my queen?" Morgana chuckled lightly as she moved away from Gwen and towards the two lonely knights who were guarding the main entrance.

"Well gentlemen the king has returned." Was all morgana said before both knights where thrown magically against the walls and knocked unconscious.


sorry its been so long, still packing for the move. hopefully i will get the next chapter up sooner. its time for morgana to meet morgana.