A/N: sorry it took so long and is short

After everything she'd done for me I had pushed her because I was angry, not even angry with her, I was angry with Nick for hurting Nat again, I was angry at the so called justice system I worked for, because they had let Nick out. I had thought that she wasn't telling me things, but really the truth was that she didn't know. I had just forced her to do something that I don't even know if she was comfortable with. I know that I didn't force her to kiss Calleigh, but I also know that she only did it because the lieutenant had been panicking. I felt Natalia pressing herself against me, I turned my attention back to her giving Emily the illusion of privacy.

"Jen," Nat whimpered squirming in my arms, I realized then just how possessive what I had just done had been. I went to let go of her, to give her her freedom, but she just pressed closer begging, "Jen don't let go, please."

"Nat what's wrong? What did I do?" I was worried now wondering why she sounded afraid what had I done to make her sound so small. I pulled as close as I could while still being careful of her shoulder.

"I...I don't want to belong to him anymore Jen, please don't pull away from me. I want to be yours Jen please," she whispered turning in my arms so she was facing me her face pressed to my neck.I could see red teeth marks on her neck and realized that maybe the bite had been a little too hard.

"Nat you don't have to belong to anyone you know," I told her gently.

"But, what if I want to? what if I want you to own me right now?" She hissed pressing herself down on my leg and I realized what she meant. She wanted me to fuck her, she'd told me she liked rough and now I know that Biting her turned her on. Shit!

"Not now love, tonight, when we're done here I'll come home with you ok?" I asked hoping against all odds reminding her of where we were would help with the situation and not make it worse.

I was saved from any more words by the door flying open with enough force that it made a crashing sound. Natalia jumped putting me between her and the door, I noticed Calleigh and Emily jump apart and knew by Emily's blush that she was embarrassed. I looked to the doorway to see Morgan, Reid, Rossi, Garcia, Hotch, Clyde, Tripp and Eric.

"Mrs. Jareau we asked you not to leave our sight," Tripp growled at me moving into the room.

"I'm sorry Tripp, I asked Alex to bring her up here, I didn't know," Calleigh stopped him coming to me.

"Calleigh, you're alive," he seemed relieved for a moment before, "If you had been around you would know that she most likely killed a man this morning and she has been following you."

"Who do you think she killed?" Calleigh asked looking at me with more interest now.

"A man named Ian Doyle was murdered at the docks this morning and we believe that either her or someone else that no one will tell me about killed him, since no one will tell me shit about this mystery person I'm inclined to believe it was her," Tripp hissed and I realized Ryan was the only one that knew why we were outside Calleigh's house and we had sent him to wait for Clyde at the airport which meant all the other Miami cops still thought I was a killer.

"Detective I told you Ian Doyle is not a victim and his murder is sanctioned," Clyde said calmly.

"She didn't kill Doyle I did," Emily spoke up, I watched as all eyes went to her Tripp, and Eric looked surprised but the team all looked like they had seen a ghost, which I guess they had. Hotch just looked at me I could tell he was surprised to see Emily.

"Emily, you didn't I did you don't have to protect me, I chose to take a sniper rifle and make sure that he died," Calleigh snapped.

"Calleigh?" Tripp asked turning on her.

"Everyone needs to sit down, this is going to be a very long explanation and I thinks it will be best if we just start from the beginning and work our way forward," Natalia started looking around the room.

"Where do you plan for us to sit you have no chairs?" Reid asked.

"Just sit on the counters, there shouldn't be any guns out," Calleigh said, I realized from what Nat had told me of the woman that this must be her firearms lab. Tripp and Delko followed her instruction as soon as she said it, the BAU took a little longer to do so.

"For those of you who either don't know me or don't remember me my name is Natalia Boa Vista I work here in the Miami crime lab, before I came to Miami I worked in Quantico's crime lab," Nat begun.

"You don't have to do this," I whispered to her.

"Yes I do," she replied before continuing to the room, "three years ago I made a mistake I called a friend when I was afraid and then I turned my back on her because I was afraid, she was lucky she had other friends, a better friend. Emily balled her out when I ran away, now it's time for me to take responsibility, no more lies, and no more hiding," she looked at me. I didn't know if she was asking permission or looking for support so I just nodded, "My ex-husband beat me." I heard her voice crack and somehow knew to open my arms because within half a second she was in my arms crying. I rubbed circles on her back trying to calm her down as best I could knowing how hard she had worked to hide this.

"If we're going in order of events I'm Emily Prentiss, I worked for the BAU until I died a year ago. before working for the BAU I worked for Interpol that profiled and infiltrated international criminals. I worked on a case then trying to apprehend a man code named Valhalla, who was an ex IRA weapons trafficker. I came up with a profile and set up a cover under which to meet him. I met with the man we shot this morning Ian Doyle, he didn't want to sell me guns, but he did want to date me. I thought that dating this man would get me closer to Valhalla so I said yes, turned out he was Valhalla. When we were alone or it was just us, his housekeeper and her son he was the perfect gentleman, but to everyone else he was a cold hardened cruel man. I used the knowledge I had of psychology to condition myself to be Lauren Reynolds so that nothing I did in my sleep would give me away. One day he told me that Declan, the housekeeper's son wasn't hers at all but his, eventually we took him down and staged the death of Lauren Reynolds, he went to an off book prison in Korea. I relocated his son and housekeeper to the US and left them out of the file, and I transferred to the BAU. About a three year in I got a call from Interpol saying that they couldn't break Doyle and did I have anything that could help them. I took Declan to a warehouse and told him we were going to play a game that he wasn't allowed to play with anyone but me. I staged his murder and even held a loaded gun to his head. It worked until I went to one of my mother's Gala's and was caught by a TV crew asking why I didn't come to society events anymore. Since I no longer did undercover work I told them I worked for the FBI and didn't have time," Emily begun. I was glad that Emily was going most of the explaining because I could feel Nat's tears soaking my shirt, and I knew she wouldn't want to be seen like this.

"So Emily Prentiss and Lauren Reynolds are the same person, and you're not dead?" Delko spoke up then.

"Correct," Emily threw in before continuing, "One of the guards apparently enjoyed watching international TV because Doyle saw the interview and made it his mission to get out and find me. He believed that I had been responsible for his son's 'death'. He wanted to kill my family in revenge for getting his son killed. He succeeded in getting out the BAu had become my family and I didn't want to put them in danger so when he came to me, I decided to go after him alone," I already knew this, but it didn't make it any easier to hear.

"Damn it Emily we can take care of ourselves if you would have been fucking honest we would have kept you safe!" Derek yelled at her, I could hear the anger in his voice but she stood her ground.

"Maybe you can Morgan but I didn't want to roll the dice! Not when I could do it myself," I was proud of Emily for yelling back, but I knew it was the wrong thing to say.

"Do it yourself? Really Emily last time I check you got branded, staked and you lost Doyle, that's not doing shit yourself, oh and you lied to us and let us believe you were dead!" he yelled back at her.

"Morgan, JJ and I made the decision not to tell the rest of the team that she was alive," Hotch stopped them arguing.

"You Knew!" Derek turned on me then.

"Yes I knew, and no I didn't tell you. I'm sorry for how I know you must feel but it was the right call since she's still alive," I told him.

"You think I would have gotten her killed?" He asked me.

"I didn't say that Derek," I replied realizing my mistake and knowing I shouldn't have spoken up at all.

"You think you can keep secrets better than I can?" he yelled and I felt Natalia flinch against me.

"Stop it Derek, I didn't say that either," I hissed but somewhere a small voice in my head was saying yes I can you don't know what I've done.

"Why JJ I thought I knew you now I don't know that I knew you at all," He hissed at me.

"JJ take Natalia and get out of here this is my mess and I'll clean it up, you don't need to be here for the explanation you already know everything" Emily said stepping between Derek and me. I was glad for the escape and even more glad to get Nat away from the yelling. As I slipped out the door I mouthed thank you at Emily knowing that she was doing me a favor.

"Jen will you take me home and make me yours?" Natalia asked softly once we were out of the firearms lab. I thought about it for a moment I should stay in the building and wait for Emily to calm everyone down but Nat's offer was so much more tempting.

"Alright but its on you if Tripp gets mad," I told her knowing full well that if Tripp got mad I wouldn't let him near her.

"Thank you Jen I promise I'll be good," she whispered clinging to me as we walked.

"Hey Nat you don't have to do that with me," I told her.

"What?" she asked shyly.

"Act like I'll hurt you, I won't Nat if you want to be mine you can be but I won't hurt you," I told her gently.

"Jen I know you won't hurt me unless I ask you too, but I can't break all of the habits that Nick forced me into," She whispered and I relaxed knowing that is she was willing to admit it than we were making progress. I led her out of the building and to her car.