A/N: Please let your minds feast on this chapter. I love it personally...Let me know if I'm right.

Disclaimer: Twilight isn't mine...I just manipulate its world.

Chapter Seven: Family Bonds

As dawn broke in the eastern sky, I emerged from the forest on the side of our house. I had been walking around idly all nights in the forest, trying, in vain, to put off the inevitable. As I came around the now vacant front yard, I was smacked in the face with the devastation that I had inflicted.

There were seven ancient cedar trees snapped at their bases and tossed separately into the surrounding trees. The ground was scared with permanent craters from the impact of the visiting vampires crashing back down to earth.

I suddenly collapsed under the weight of my own body. I was so ashamed of myself. How could I have done this? I let myself lose complete control. I could have killed someone. I could have killed Edward or Jasper, or Emmett. Now a horrifying thought flashed through my mind. Even though I lost control and caused all this destruction that was not the worst part. Far from it actually. The worst part was that this was only a small percentage of what I was capable of. I dropped my face into my shaking hands. Werewolves and Vampires be damned, I was the only true monster here. I hated myself.

I felt Edward standing behind me now. I knew he had his hands out to hold me. I couldn't let him, I wasn't worth it.

"Please don't touch me." I whispered without looking at him. I didn't even bothered hiding my pain and anguish. He knew me too well to ever expect that I could hide it. Edward didn't say anything to me. He just sat on the ground beside me. I lifted my head out of my hands but I just stared straight ahead. I couldn't tear my eyes off of the devastation.

Talk to me. He thought

I can't. I replied in kind.

Please.

I remained silent.

Why didn't you want me to touch you?

Because I don't deserve it.

Bella…I cut him off before he could console me. I definitely didn't deserve that.

I'm a monster Edward. He looked hurt. He miss understood me. I had to speak I had to tell him in my own voice.

"Edward, its not because I am a vampire. No matter what, I am happy that you gave me my immortality. You gave me a chance to spend eternity with you. I could never have been given anything more precious and for that I will be eternally grateful."

"A chance?" He had picked up on the key phrase. I turned to look at him in deep within the eyes. This was the hardest thing I could possibly say.

"I'm leaving." I got up and ran into the house before he could stop me. When I entered Carlisle and Esme were sitting in each other's embrace reading. I loved them so much but I couldn't look at them. I was much too ashamed. I flew up the stairs and grabbed a backpack from out of the closet. I started throwing my clothes into the bag. When I was done I walked to the stair without looking behind me. I knew if I turned I would never be able to leave and I needed to leave for them.

Once I reappeared downstairs in the living room I stopped dead in my tracks. The front door was blocked. Carlisle, Esme, Edward, Alice, Jasper, Emmett, and Rosalie were standing there with determined looks on their faces. I sighed at the site. I didn't have enough fight left in me to have this conversation.

"You're not leaving." Carlisle said with the authority that only the head of our coven could have.

"I have to." I needed them to understand my reasons.

"Chicken!" Emmett said taunting. "You're running away.." Leave it to Emmett to think that would stop me.

"Hardly." I said simply.

"Then explain." Esme pleaded. I sighed again resigned to the fact that I wasn't going to be able to leave easily. I walked over to one of the oversized couches and took a seat placing my bag at my feet. The others followed incline.

"They are just going to keep coming. There is no way around it. I need to leave and find some place devoid of human life. If they are going to come after me, than I am going to be the only one they find. I have to protect you guys the best I can."

"We can protect ourselves, Bella. When are you going to get that?" Jasper said.

"From the others, yes."

"What's that supposed to mean?" Edward was upset now.

"Edward, you know exactly what that means."

"Bella…." Alice started.

"I lost it out there." I pointed out the front window. "All restraint. All control was gone! I didn't even think about you guys when I acted. I could have killed someone."

"Bella, that was nothing!" Alice said trying to sound reassuring.

"You're right, Alice." I closed my eyes. It pained me to have to admit this to them. "It was nothing compared to what I am truly capable of."

"We can help you strengthen your control, Bella." Carlisle said.

"That's what families are for." Esme continued.

"I saw the fear in your eyes. All of you. Even you Carlisle. I don't deserve your kindness but more importantly, you don't deserve to have a monster hanging around putting your very existence in jeopardy."

"You're not a monster, Bella!" Alice said exasperated by the thought.

"Bella, you may have forgotten this, but we put your life in jeopardy everyday for years." Rosalie was even putting her two cents in. I was touched that they were trying so hard.

"That was my choice." I reminded her.

"And this is ours." Edward came over and wrapped me in his protective arms. My defenses were instantly shattered. I grabbed on to him and buried my face in his chest. My body shook with dry sobs. Edward held me closer and kissed my hair.

"I don't deserve you guys." My voice was muffled by Edward's chest.

"Oh yes you do." Alice came over and joined our hug. Then one by one the others joined her. We were a family through and through. Bound together forever by love.

A/N: Now did you really think that I would tear Edward and Bella apart again?? I'm not that heartless. I think of this chapter more as heartwarming then fluff. As for the length of the chapters. I'm sorry but they come as they come. Trust me...if I just wrote for the sake of the size you wouldn't be very happy with me.