JANE
My head was pounding, and the image of the body- of Casey replayed in my thoughts. I felt my face become warm, and Maura came and sat beside me and put her arm around me.
"Neither of us are going to the station today." I turned my head so fast I could've snapped my neck.
"Maura! I want to do this. It's my job, it doesn't matter who the victim is. I'm going to the station and so are you!"
"Jane. You don't understand, you're -"
"No! I'm fine. You're only doing this because you think I can't handle this but that's-thats bullshit, because I can and-"
"You're suspended from duty Jane." I was certain my pupils dilated within seconds and I felt weak.
"What?"
Maura motioned me to her. I threw myself down beside her. It felt like my world was crashing on top of me, I laid my head on Maura's lap and I heard myself sobbing quietly.
"Vince didn't have the heart to tell you, so he called me." I nodded slowly.
"Why aren't you going?"
"Because, I don't want to leave you alone while you're in this kind of state. Kent can finish the autopsy." I rolled my eyes, I hate that Scottish freak. Maura got up and went in the kitchen.
"Do you want a cup of tea?" I made a blech noise.
"No, I don't want panda poop or elephant darts I want to work."
Maura's eyes became soft. "I know Jane. But maybe this is for the best."
"It's not Maura. It's not. It's my job, I can do this. Why won't anyone give me a chance?"
"They are just trying to protect you. I don't think this is how most people react when they're told they don't have to go to work."
I glared at her, and she made a confused face. I raised my eyebrows and she finally got the message. She put her head in the air as she had an aha moment. My head felt heavy on my shoulders, and I sank down to the couch. Before anything else could phase me, my body relaxed and my eyes slowly fell closed.
