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Spill

Leah POV

It has been three whole days since my 'little outing' with Jacob. He hasn't called me, he hasn't come round,infact he hasn't made any contact with me at all and has seriously got me worried. I'll have to go see him.

I jumped out off bed and got ready. By the time I was down stairs Seth had awaken.

"where you going Le"

"out" I said it dryly

Seth was barley awake he was still rubbing his eye, poor should I say poor manly boy, Seth barley looked his age let alone a boy. He was really tall but no where near the height of Jacob and he had some abs but no where near as big as Jake's now thinking about it no one in both packs had could be compared to Jacob's great body.

"out where?"

I can't believe he'll ask me such a question as if I'm going to answer.

"none of your bussiness,I'll probably be back before mum even wakes up."My Mum never slept this late(late meaning one in the afternoon)but lately she has been spending so much time over Charlie's she's always out until late and is back home when the sun is about to peek threw.

"ok then, but this means your cooking 'cause I'm making breakfast"

"whateva lil' bro, see ya"

And I closed the another gloomy day in La push barley a spot of sunlight I closed the door behind me. It was nowhere, and it looked like it was going to rain pretty soon. I sighed, I like the rain, always had but in some ways rain always got you feeling down no matter how much you liked it.

I walked really quickly towards Jacobs house, he lived quite close, it was barley a 3 minutes way into the walk I caught sight of Jacob coming out of the forest, the forest was on the right hand side of the main road which looked pretty freaky at night, but was a great feature to a pain old boring road.

"Jacob where are you coming from, I was just heading to your place too"

He hesitated to answer.

"I've just come from the Cullen's house, I went to visit Bella."

He seemed kind of sad but not the depressing type which was a good sign.

"oh, how is she?"

He looked at me for the quickest second then looked away.

"Bella's…Bella is holding up, The doctor say her birth rate has slowed down the fetus is not growing as fast as it was"

I was kind of relieved, I had never meet eye to eye with the vampire chasing bitch aka Bella but she didn't really deserve what was happening to her, so to here that was kind of went quite it for a minute when Jacob spoke.

" you was going to my house?"

"yeah my mum sent me to check on Billy" I lied

I had to It was impolite to just start screaming stuff at him like a mad women and plus I had to build up a conversation first.

"lets take the shortcut" Jacob said it dryly It felt slightly offending.

"sure"

We walked into the forest and you could feel a slight drip of rain.I walked up to Jacob and jumped on to his back.

"Leah please, don't"

There was something going on with Jacob and it was ticking me off. I walked round so I was facing him and looked straight at him.

"what's your problem Jake." I was going to start of calmly but towards the end my voice got kind of out of control.

"nothing" he broke the eye contact and began to walk away. I grabbed him by the arm.

"why you acting like this" he's eyes looked down to where I was holding him on the arm. I let go.

"why are you avoiding me?"

"I'm not"

I across my arms over my chest in disbelief .

"liar. You so are avoiding me"

"1) you get all weird when ever I touch 2) you can't look me straight in the eye."

He went quite.

"is it a girl that's Why you feel uncomfortable touching me ?"

"no it's not"

"What else can it be Jacob, if it is Jake just spill, were friends"

"it's not" He said it dryly with no emotion at all.

"What else can it be?"

I thought hard for a second, then it hit me.

I knew this was going to happen. I wasn't built to ever have happiness that's why when ever I beginning to feel happy or hopeful Fate turns around and snatches the provider of my happiness a way from me. It had finally happened like I had always guessed Jacob has grown of me, He hates me.I could feel my eyes water up, I tired to wipe it away but it was to late it had spilled over.

"I knew it, you don't like me" I whispered it so quietly, it was meant for my ears only but I knew he heard it.

I looked up so slowly, I caught Jacob's expressionHe's face was full of shock his mouth was shaped in and 'o' shape.

"I don't hate you" Jake whispered it back.

How could he play with my emotions like that look me in the eye and lie, the fact he whispered it only made me angrier

"how dare you!! Don't lie Jake why else will YOU be avoiding me!!

"I'm not lying!" he raised his voice a little too.

"you make me fucking sick Jake you know then, if your not lying tell me then!! TELL me why the Fuck you got me crying."

By now it was pouring heavenly with rain. We was getting soaked.

"I can't say"

"YOU are SO Fucking ridiculous !!"

"you know what Leah your not so fucking great your self!"

I stood their thinking how come 3 days ago me and Jacob were practically brother and sister and now we were eating each other throats out.

"then GOOD now were even!!I Hate YOU Jacob Black!"

I saw Jacob cringe.

"I don't hate you Leah" He said it quietly

"THEN what the Fuck is it?"

" I..I."He breathed in deeply.

"I love you,Leah"

Now it all made absolute sense, in a weird way, I was so shocked I could barley move.

"you're the one'

We went quite again but for a short period of time.

"You're the one I'm crazy about, the one I think about day in day out, your the one who's got me craving for your touch like ice cream for a five year old. You're the one I wish to kiss good night to for the rest of my life. You're the one Leah Clearwater."

"I don't believe it" I could barley speak either.

"well you should"

We were so close I could feel his body heat.

To my surprise Jacob leaned in closer and closer, My breathing sped up, then I felt Jacob crush his lips onto mine.

His lips were warm and soft ,he was a really good kisser, The kiss was wild and out of control but it got me craving for more. I felt his tongue brush against my upper lip, a sign of entrance, I opened up my mouth and I felt his breath run into my mouth. He tasted amazing. Through out all this I couldn't help but have these questions run through my mind.

Did I love him the way he loved me?

Did I even feel slightest thing for Jake apart from attraction?,

The answer was no I didn't love him but I was attracted to him,but that will never be enough .I couldn't lead him on the to only breaks his heart, I had to stop this and stop it now.

"Ja..c.k…stop!"I pushed him of me.

He looked confused which was cute and he looked hot as ever when he's soaking wet, for a spilt second my mind made this little film showing me what would happen if I do say yes to Jacob, I shook my head as if the memories will shake off.

I knew if do choose Jacob it wasn't going to be for the reason why he wanted froze there just looking at each other I can't believe what I had done I had given him a taste of what could be and now I was going to snatch it away and I felt incredible guilty.

I closed my eyes and let it spill.

"No Jacob,…..you're not the one, I dream about and long for to hold me when I'm cold or feeling alone, your not the one I wish to spend the rest of my life with. Your not the one."

I walked away vowing not to look back because I knew his Facial expression will haut me for ever.

"Lea…h"Jakes voice was croaky and broken like he was on the verge of breaking into tears.

I looked back to my dismay to find Jake looking heart broken, For that very second I wished I could just kill my self.

I couldn't tell If he had been crying or if it was just the rain but I know How it feels to be let down and it feels like shit.

Sorry I rushed it a bit i wanted to put in a bit more detail but got someother things to do.I know what ya also thinking Xxlilmisstrouble is a B**** how can she do this but I leave you with one thing

*blackwater* coming soon