Disclaimer: This goes through all of my chapters. I do not own VA Richelle Mead does.. Blah blah blah you get the point.

I wanted to have this chapter be about the vacation but there is still unfinished business... Meaning drinking with Lissa.


After we held each other for a few minutes he slowly released me from his grip. I looked up at him and he looked down. I zoned in on his lips and figured this is as good as time as any. I grabbed his collar and pulled him down to me. He was reluctant for a second but then leaned down and captured my lips with his own. His lips were so smooth against mine. I locked my lips around his and got on my tip toes to get closer. Dimitri opened his mouth, most likely to say something but I licked the inner part of his lips and he responded instantly. He shoved his tongue in my mouth and we soon began a full on make out session. It was great. I felt my desire pick up exceedingly and pushed my body closer onto him until he fell over onto the bed. I grabbed each side of his head and held him down as I pretty much assaulted him. I was anomalistic and amazing. We haven't been this way in years. Sure we made love occasionally but not in a while and not with this much passion.

He grabbed my hips and grinded himself on me. A quick moan escaped my lips which seemed to break Dimitri from his trance. He pulled back. He was breathing heavily and so was I.

"Not yet Roza. We're not there yet." He said to me.

"Okay." I agreed. Only because I didn't want to push him. Honestly I wanted to take this as far as I could.

"It's late. We should go to sleep." He said although he looked like sleep was the last thing he wanted to do. The bulge in his pants said so as well. I nodded anyway and very reluctantly got off of him.

I went to take a shower and get ready for bed. A very cold shower I might add. For the first time in a long time we actually held each other while we slept. It wasn't anything big. It was just his arm over my shoulder as he leaned into me but it felt like the first time we ever held each other. Awkward but exciting.

The next morning when I woke up I remembered what happened right before I went to sleep and smiled. Dimitri was still asleep so I decided to get up and make him breakfast. I decided to make Bilini because it was his favorite. He loved it because his mother used to make it for him. Dimitri is a huge mama's boy. He is proud of it as well. I have always thought that was adorable seeing how I never had a close relationship with my parents. As I was in the middle of making Dimitri's breakfast he came stumbling down the stairs. He walked in the kitchen and smiled widely at me.

"This is a sight to behold." He said.

"Why is that?" I asked him with amusement.

"My Roza is domesticated." He teased. I laughed.

"Hey I am not domesticated. You're still the house wife." I teased him. It was half way true. Dimitri worked but he still did the cooking and cleaning. Mostly because I suck at both.

"I'm glad to be your wife, Roza." He says and wraps his arms around me. I loved this moment. We haven't been this carefree is what seemed like ages. I wanted to stay like this forever. I guess a fight is what we needed. No. What we needed was for me to stay faithful. That thought brought me down as I was racked with guilt.

Sensing my discomfort Dimitri asked. "What's wrong?" I didn't know if I should tell him the truth. But then realized that I should have been truthful all along.

"Guilt. That's what's wrong! How could you forgive me for what I've done?" I asked. He immediately became serious and hardened his posture.

"It's going to be hard. I can't forgive fully right away and I know that it is partly my fault."

This astounded me. "How in the world is it your fault. You didn't do anything. It was all me."

"Exactly Rose. I didn't do anything. I pushed you into the arms of another man. I knew our marriage was going downhill but did nothing to stop it."

"No. This is not your fault. I was the one who betrayed you. It doesn't matter if our marriage was failing. I was the one who broke one of my vows. I'm to blame." I said very loudly to him. I can't believe he wants to take partial blame for this.

"Let's not fight. I don't want to fight with you anymore." I nodded and went to hug him. I pulled away when I smelt burning bilini. SHIT.

"Damn." I said as I threw away our breakfast. Dimitri only laughed. And took out some stuff from the fridge to make a new batch.

"Go sit down Roza!" He ordered and I followed. Cooking is just not my thing.

After breakfast I started to clean up when I heard my phone going off. Lissa was calling.

"Hello."

"Rose! One of your patients had a relapse and you need to come in for a quick session." She said really fast over the phone. Today was my day off . Damn it.

"Which patient.?" I ask slightly irritated.

"Sonya Karp." With that I was now anxious to get to work. Sonya was one of my favorite patients. She was sweet and easy-going but had a tendency to cause self hard. You would never suspect that a sweet caring woman like her would purposefully hurt herself but I guess you can't judge by appearances.

"I'll be there as soon as I can." I told her.

"Okay and don't forget about tonight." She said that and hung up. Damn. I forgot about drinks.

"Dimitri?" I call from the kitchen where my phone was sitting. He walks in.

"Yes?"

"I have to go into work for a few hours. I'll be home soon." I say while putting on my jacket.

"Okay that's fine. I was just going to put on a Western." He smiles.

"Umm. Lissa wants me to join her for drinks tonight. Is that okay?" I usually don't ask for permission but with our rocky status on our marriage I didn't want to piss him off anymore than I have to.

"Is he going to be there?" He asked with a growl. I knew he was preferring to Adrian.

"No. I don't think so. I don't know which bar we're going to but I doubt Lissa will pick that one."

"Alright. Don't do anything stupid." He says with a pointed look. Meaning don't drink too much and kiss another guy. When he says it like that it makes me feel like a slut. Maybe I am. Dimitri is not a possessive person but when it comes to me he doesn't really like to share which is why I was so surprised he is willing to forgive me. I walk over to him and kiss his cheek.

"I wont." With that I walk out and go to work.

...

As I approach my office I see Eddie walking my way.

"Hey you're not scheduled today." He says to me while raising a brow.

"No but Karp had a relapse so I'm checking up on her. Emergency appointment." I explain to him.

"Good luck" he says and pats me on the back. Smirking I walk into my office to see Sonya sitting on the couch I provide for my patients. She looks nervous.

"Relax Sonya. Everyone relapses every once in a while. But I need you to tell me what happened." I say in an overly calm voice.

"It just became too much you know? Like everything was closing in on me and I just had to get it out." She explains.

"Get what out?" I question.

"The darkness. It was eating me alive." She sobs The darkness is what Sonya calls her sadness or anger. It is what she describes as negative emotions that become too much for her to bear. After an hour and a box of tissues we are done with our session and went our separate ways. I stopped to chat with Lissa before I left and she reminded me yet again about our drinking night.

Once home I see Dimitri still watching his Western. I decided to sit down and watch it with him seeing as how I had some time to pass.

After countless Westerns and Dimitri explaining everything that was going on it was time to get ready to go out.

"I'm gonna go meet up with Ivan and probably Christian." Dimitri tells me as I put on some make up. I nod and continue with what I'm doing. "You look beautiful." He adds and I smile and kiss him.

Lissa picked me up at exactly 8. Christian was driving and looked annoyed with being a chauffeur for the night. Too bad for him. Lissa looked beautiful. She was wearing a pale pink dress that high lighted her jade green eyes and slight curls to her hair. I settled with a deep red dress and black heels. I had a smokey eye shadow on and red lip stick. When we got to the bar I was so relieved to see that it was not the one I met Adrian at.

Lissa went straight up to the bar and ordered us a couple of light blue drinks. I couldn't remember the name of it but it was really sweet with a raspberry taste. The night was starting out great. We danced and met a bunch of girls out on a bachelorette party. They were all dressed up in different colors. While we were sitting in one of the far off lounges talking to the girls the bartender came up to me and handed me a martini glass.

"A sour apple martini for you ma'am." She said to me.

"Wait, I didn't order this." I told her.

"It's from the gentleman at the bar." She said and walked away.

I was confused so I looked around and spotted him sitting at the bar with that devil-may-care smirk plastered on his face. Shit.


I think you have a pretty good idea who it is. Let me know what you want me to do in the next chapter. I'm writing it today so please review quickly if you want me to use your input.