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Bitter Embrace

Chapter Nine: Hesitation

Several weeks following the arrest of Garrett Fairfield, Jane and Maura enjoyed their new status as a couple to the fullest extent possible. Jane spends most of her nights with Maura and vice versa whether it is at work or at home in bed. Frost and Korsak just rolled their eyes at the love between the two women, noticeable to all observers. Jane kissing Maura on the night of the Fairfield arrest, confirmed to all patrol officers present in the bar that Maura Isles is now off the ogling market or risk personal injury from one pissed off Jane Rizzoli.

In the squad room, Frost sat at his desk going over case files while Korsak had his feet up and kept glancing at Jane's empty desk every five minutes, letting loose a sigh. He missed his comrade and ex partners' presence, but he could not be happier for her and Maura. As Korsak got lost in his thoughts, the telephone on Frost's desk rang. Frost stopped his paperwork to pick it up and listened for a moment to the other voice then said, "We'll be right there."

"Come on Korsak, quite picking your nose. They found a double homicide in the park, off the jogging path and it looks suspicious. Do you want to notify Jane or shall I?" Frost looking over at Korsak raised his eyebrow in challenge.

"I'll do it. I think she's in the Morgue, so I'll just run down there and pick her and the Doc up on my way out."

"Okay, but I sure hope the Doc doesn't try to stuff you in the body fridge." Frost said with a snicker and went about gathering his items to head to the park.

In the Morgue, Maura encased in every form of fluid protection equipment available is bent over an elderly woman's chest and is sewing up the incision with precise and equal stitches. Jane watched her from afar, and just shook her head at her lover's Obsessive Compulsive nature.

"Ya know Maur, It's not like she is going to complain you got her stitches uneven." Jane huffed at Maura and chuckled under her breath as Maura continued working, already used to Jane's relentless teasing.

"Baby, it's my perfection to detail that keeps you coming back for more." Maura briefly glanced at Jane with a huge smile gracing her lips.

"Uh Doctor Isles, you know how much I adore your detailed examinations." Jane bantered right back with an equally huge, flirtatious smile on her lips and followed by a quick wink at Maura.

Jane walked over to Maura's swivel chair and took a seat, already knowing her lover would be joining her at the desk slash workstation where Maura will finish typing up her notes from autopsy and inputting them in the database for ready assess to law enforcement. After sliding the body away in the 'crypt', Maura removed all her protective guards, washed her hands, then moved over to the computer station to sit on the stool right by Jane, giving her a brief hip nudge as she hopped up on the stool and pulled the keyboard closer to type from her chart.

Jane watched her lover for a few minutes, noticing not for the first time, the dark circles under her eyes and the pale tint of her normally pinkish skin. Giving a small shake of her head at the stubborn nature of Maura and her 'get the case solved' attitude regardless of sleep, sighed at her lover, then she twiddled her thumbs together in boredom. Maura cast a side glance at Jane before uttering, "Jane darling, as much as I love you being here with me, I think you should head up to the squad room for an hour or so because you watching me is making it difficult to concentrate on what I'm doing. I just typed the wrong word in my state report."

In a huff Jane looked at Maura as she worked, narrowing her eyes, and said, "Darling Doctor, I will distract you more if I so please, but you are right. I do need to go to the squad room to get an update on any incoming cases." She got up off her chair, leaning down to Maura and captured her chin in her hand, pulling her lips over and possessing them in a gentle but deep kiss. "I will be back."

"Hmmm, I look forward to it Detective. I will see you in a bit." Humming gently under her breath, Maura went back to typing her chart, thinking about what she and Jane will be doing together later.

Jane strode out of the Morgue and into the hallway preparing to take the elevator up to the squad room, when the elevator doors popped open with a ding revealing a rumpled Korsak.

"Yo Korsak, what are you doing? The Doc's in there finishing up some paperwork then I think we are going to beg off early. You and Frost want to grab a drink?"

'No can do Jane. I was coming to get you because we got a call from the park patrol and they found two bodies; they have been dead for a bit. We have to grab the Doc and head over there. I told Frost we would be there in a little bit. He went to set up the scene already."

"Well damn. All right, let's go grab Maur."

The pair strode back into the Morgue and notified Maura about the double dead bodies in the park. Maura agreed to meet them at the scene in about thirty minutes. Jane gave Maura a wink, and then she and Korsak walked to the car and went to the park.

Jane noticed the amount of reporters lurking about the gate to the park and rolled her eyes at Korsak.

"Fucking vultures."

"Eh Rizzoli, you know they are only doing their job. Same as us." Korsak glanced over at the reporter's, then back to Jane before returning his attention to driving the car around the huge amount of spectators loitering around the scene of the crime.

"Well doesn't mean I have to like them in my scene. They contaminate it and they don't even give a shit about it. Just one more tip is all they care about." Jane shouted and flipped off a jogger staring into their car.

"Rizzoli! What if you were just taped by a roving camera crew? The lieutenant is going to bust your ass if he ever sees you did that. Now come on, get your head on straight. There is Frost's truck by that bench. Must be where the bodies bit it." He parked the car in front of the truck, putting up a temporary barricade against the public eye, and he and Jane jumped out of the car to walk over to Frost and two patrol officers guarding the scene tape.

"What have we got?" Jane uttered in a deep voice.

The first officer, a tall blonde woman, spoke directly to Jane, "Looks like a man and woman, mid to late thirties, wearing sweats and sweaters with walking shoes. They are wearing wedding bands that match, so probably a husband and wife out exercising. No identification and no witnesses other than the few people walking by here at dawn and saw the bodies. The woman was positioned on the bench and the man lay at her feet. That is all I have Ma'm. The ME will be able to determine more."

Jane looked at the officer, noticing the short cut of her hair and assumed she belonged to the 'family' before turning her attention to the two bodies. She said, "Thank you officer, if you and your partner wouldn't mind keeping the freak'n reporters away from the scene, we would be much obliged." She knelt for a better view of the bodies and did indeed notice the matching wedding bands. "Damn." A brief flash of Hoyt popped into her head before she shook her head and got to work.

A brief sound of soft footfalls behind her alerted Jane to the presence of Maura. "Hey Doctor. It appears we got a mysterious double death on our hands." She turned and gazed up at her lover, giving her a slow crawling glance before meeting her darkened green eyes.

"So it would appear Detective. Let me get a confirmation on time of death and then we will go from there." Maura opened her 'scene' box and withdrew her various equipment and proceeded to get a time of death for the man and woman.

"Jane, the man and woman died at two different times, based on their states of Rigor Mortis. The man died between midnight and three AM, while the woman died between four and seven AM. I am going to rule it as a homicide because the times of death are separate and there is a small puncture wound in the man has left arm at the elbow crook. I will know more at autopsy." Maura completed her examinations and stood up, brushing off her scrubs. Jane, watching Maura stand up, noticed her lover moving slower than normal.

Jane moved closer to Maura and whispered in a low concerned voice, "Maur are you feeling okay?" Maura turned her head to respond only to have her vision of Jane swim before her eyes and her knees crumbled causing her to start a downward tumble towards the cement bench. Jane acting quickly, grabbed Maura's shoulders, preventing her from cracking her head on the corner of the bench on her way down, kneeling down and easing her fall as her eyes rolled to the back of her head and she slumped against Jane unconscious.

"Frost, Korsak get the paramedics over here." Jane shouted with fear lacing her tone. She hugged Maura against her chest, feeling the sweat coating her skin and the shaky breaths her lover drew in. Something was terribly wrong; Jane felt it in her gut as fear for her lover clouded her thinking.

Frost ran to grab the two paramedics preparing to leave the scene and got them to grab a stretcher for Maura. Korsak walked over to Jane to inquire what exactly happened, and if it in some way is related to the bodies. Jane continued to hug Maura to her chest, resting on the sidewalk until the paramedics arrived with the stretcher to take Maura to the hospital.

"Hey Frost. Call Doctor Isles assistant to come and get the bodies because she is not feeling well. Will you do that for me? I'm going to ride with Maur if I can." Jane asked with her voice bordering on panic.

"Sure Jane. I got this handled and Korsak will call Beth to come and close up this scene. You just go with Doctor Isles, and please keep us updated if you can. She is our friend as well as our colleague too. I will find out what the vulture reporters have picked up from her fainting incident and make sure it stays out of print. "

"Thank You. I know she will appreciate it when she comes around." Jane watched the paramedics load her lover into the ambulance and without a backwards glance at the scene of crime, jumped into the back for the ride to Boston General.

Korsak and Frost looked at each other with worry in their eyes. "I hope the Doc is okay." Korsak said and scratched his cheek in contemplation.

"Come on Korsak let us be Detectives so Jane will trust us to handle shit in the future. You go see about the reporters and I will wait for Beth to arrive and finish the transporting." Frost knelt down to do a quick assess of the bodies and then stood to watch for Beth's arrival.

Jane clasped Maura's cool and limp hand the whole way to the hospital while the paramedic checked her vitals and gave Jane a reassuring smile. They arrived at the hospital, and Maura was taken into the Emergency Room while Jane was ushered by a nurse to the waiting room.

An hour after arriving at the hospital, Jane still had not been told anything regarding her lover's condition. She badgered the nurse's at the station every fifteen minutes and still got zilch for an explanation. Jane paced as much as the tiny waiting room would allow and prayed Maura would be okay.

Korsak called her at the two-hour mark and notified her of the bodies transport to the Morgue, and that he and Frost started on the paperwork. He ended the call by telling her to sit down and relax, and to quit pacing. She just laughed at his accurate prediction and took his advice, taking a corner seat and leaning back her head on the wall, closing her eyes to rest. Thirty minutes later a soft shake of her shoulder caused her eyes to bolt open and reveal a tall redheaded woman in a pair of gray scrubs and white lab coat. Must be the Doctor.

The Doctor cleared her throat, "Detective Rizzoli?" She asked in a soft voice.

"Yes, I am Jane Rizzoli. How is Doctor Isles?" Jane sat forward in her seat to await any news out of the Doctor's mouth.

"Due to confidentiality, I cannot tell you her diagnosis but I am allowed to notify you she is alright. You may see her if you would like."

"Absolutely, where is she?"

"This way, I will show you."

Jane jumped up from her seat and followed the Doctor to Maura's cubicle. The Doctor pulled back the curtain, and let Jane slip in before closing it again to give the women some privacy. Jane looked at Maura, seated on the bed in a flimsy gown, her head bent and her shoulders slumped in dejection. Jane clearing her throat to get Maura's attention, walked into her line of sight and knelt down on the floor, resting her hands on her knees and looking into her beautiful green eyes. She noticed the tear tracks painted down Maura's cheeks and her heart gave a thump at the soon to be heard bad news.

"Maura, love. How are you feeling?"

"Oh Jane." Maura reached her hands out to touch Jane's soft cheek briefly before taking both of her hands and grasped them firmly. "I am so sorry I passed out at the scene. I feel horrible about leaving those poor people there for Beth."

"Hey M don't worry. I made sure it was all taken care of before we left." Jane stood up and enveloped Maura in her strong arms, hugging her tight and letting her rest her forehead on Jane's shoulder. Maura wrapped her arms around Jane and held tight, frightful of her lover leaving her. The tears in her eyes rolled down her cheeks and the sobs bubbled out of her throat. Maura wailed Jane's name in sorrow, soaking her jacket with tears of despair.

"Shhh, Maura. Darling whatever it is we will work through it. I promise. You are mine finally and I am not going to let you go." Jane said as she gently rocked Maura, trying to allay both their fears.

"Jane. . .I'm. . not so. . .sure." Maura gasped out in between wails and hiccups.

"What is it Maura?" Jane kept rocking Maura, holding her tight for support.

Maura caught her breath and leaned away from Jane, rubbing the tears from her eyes with the palms of her hands. She drew in a deep breath, looked Jane in her brown eyes, perhaps for the last time, and said, "Honey, I am five weeks pregnant, and I am pretty sure it is not yours."

Jane looked back into Maura's eyes, hers going wide then rolling up in her head, and crashed to the floor in heap.

OH No Jane's gonna be a Daddy…..